New Years Resolution...

With a new year less than 6 hours away, I thought I'd share with you guys some of my goals for the new year...one of them is to read the bible more, to be more consistent with my devos, other wise...leading sunday school, being on the committee, leading worship...it's all empty with no foundation. My second one is to trust God...worry less...with school, the future and a lot of things on my mind, I pray to really give my life to God and let Him take the drivers seat and just pray that everything in my life is according to His plan. Another big one is to spread the gospel to my brother, my family is christian and we all go to church, as of late, I've been able to talk to him on a more personal basis and I'm so glad, the next thing is to maybe bring him to church, talk to him about God and what He's done in my life. What else...those 3 are probably like the more bigger ones...um...just to continue to grow in Christ, to continue to be changed to HIS likeness and to strive to be more like Him. What else...obv to do well in school, if God allows that is...to go ham in the gym and get big and toned of course...treat my parents better, not that I treat them bad, but they deserve all the love and respect I have. Not sure what else I have...but those are the major ones I can think of atm...thanks, also since I'll be out late, I probs won't be able to make a new years post until tomorrow...I'll possibly do one on my phone if I remember, but even that it won't be long, just like a happy new year lol...thanks for sticking with me for so long..2012 has been such a long year for the blog...more to come, thank you so much.

Tackle Football = Stiches

What's up lol...funny story, throughout elementary and high school, we LOVED to play football. Most of the time touch because the adults would never let us play tackle, but whenever they weren't looking we would play tackle lol. So one time, I remember I was running the ball, and someone tackled me from behind and I fell and my mouth hit this guy's knee...my teeth left deep marks in his knee and I was bleeding cuz apparently I bit down on my own lip when I feel, so I didn't know how bad or how deep it was, went home and saw the cut on the inside left part of my mouth and it was pretty small, like two teeth but it was pretty deep, I kept like touching it and stuff too. Waited for my parents to come home and we went to the hospital and we got stiches. It was so scary man, for some reason I gave my brother a hug before I left...as if I was dying or something lol, I was freaking out. Went to the doctor and he said WOW you're lucky...if you waited any longer, it would've healed by itself and your lip would've been like crooked, so I got 2 stitches on my lip and it was fine lol.

Chillin', Rude Little Boys, The New Year...

What up...sorry for no posts yesterday...it was a super long day. Had church, had to go early to lead worship, then taught sunday school, then had a meeting. After the meeting, my friends came over and we just played videogames, then more people came over and we chilled a bit more, went out for dinner, then came back and played some more videogames haha. I love chilling with the homies, we always have a fun time. Oh yeah...at church, so I walked into the gym, my friend goes...yo, this little kid is sad because they took his ball away, wanna go play with him...I look at who it is...it's this RUDE LITTLE BOY...he's so rude...he swears and stuff, punches people, he took my friends hat and threw it like in the snow...he's like grade 5 or 6...don't give me that bs about little kids are innocent...I've taught grade 4-6 and now grade 7-9...these kids are smart, they know what they're doing...they search up some inappropriate things on the internet...so I'm like NO...I hate this kid...he's a rude little boy...usually, I'm very composed, but he's a rude little boy, so I said no. Moments later, my friend who's teaching his class now and I are talking, he comes and takes his hat and throws it away...I was like wow...I straight up said, that's why no one likes you, you're a rude little boy, I don't like you, I don't feel bad...he's a rude little boy...no regrets lol...as rude and harsh as I sound as he is a little kid...trust me on this one. What else...tonight is new years eve...did homework this morning till now cuz I"m gonna be super busy and I have projects due the Wednesday we come back from school, family coming over, gonna have dinner with them then they're gonna count down, but I'm going to my friend's house to count down with them, can't wait.

Hello There...

Sorry for no posts guys...I'll def update you tomorrow, will be home the whole morning and afternoon just doing homework and catching up on stuff...fam coming over for dinner, then dipping after dinner to friends to countdown with them...less than 24 hours till a new year is upon us...tilll 2013 is upon us...lots of posts to come tomorrow, thanks.

Shady 2.0 Cypher

These guys go so hard it's not even funny...
Shady Records 2.0 Boys 2011 Cypher (Uncut) from Shady Records on Vimeo.

My Hopes for 2013...

This is different from a New Year's resolution, today at church we were talking about what our hopes were for 2013...I didn't say anything, but I really wanted to...when the word hope came up...the first thing that came to my mind was this verse my ex sent me..."But seek first HIS kingdom and HIS righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." Matthew 6:33...2012 has been a long year...and a lot of things have kept me or distracted me from God...and I've been super slacks and am super behind on my devos and even prayer. Just being preoccupied with school, future, life, church, friends, etc...just worrying and not being able to let it go to God. This verse...is my hope for 2013...that I will lift up ALL my burdens and TRUST God with all my heart...and HE will make my paths straight...whatever happens, it's all apart of HIS plan for me...I just have to trust Him and not worry about tomorrow for it and HE will worry about it...that's my biggest hope for 2013...to trust Him and His plan...and school, marks, my future, everything...HE will handle that for me.

Super Late Nghts, Board Games and Boys' Day Out...

Sorry for no posts these past few days lol, where to begin...boxing day, the 26th, after loafting at home the whole day, we had a church gathering at someone's house and just a good time of eating and sharing about the year and praise team and stuff, it was really fun and a good time to bond. Afterwards we played board games and stuff till like 12 or so, people were sleeping over but I didn't cuz I like my bed and I had to go somewhere the next day. The 27th...the Thursday. went over to my friend's house cuz his fam is gone on vacation so he had the whole house to himself, it was just me him and 2 other friends, we played videogames and just chilled the entire day till like 10 pm lol...it was really fun since he is away at university often, so we had a time to just catchup and talk and have fun...I miss those times. Then today...or yesterday, since it's 1 am already...woke up early today to go to STC to make a run, had to meet up with some dude and sell something, my feet and nose were so cold, need some warmer socks and like a scarf or something...I was dying for the longest time. Came home and just chilled until church, we had a joint program and some games and another time of sharing, afterwards we went to dinner as usual...although it's becoming a routine of going to dinner after fellowship, I really do cherish the time we spend together...just the bonding, the talks and the chill time lol...

Happy Boxing Day?

What's up...today is boxing day...not a big fan of going out and lining up or being in big mobs or crowds. So just slept in till like 12 ish...gamed most of the day away lol, heading out now to a friend's house for dinner and won't be back till super late lol, they really like staying up super late and playing like board games and stuff for some reason lol...what else...gotta start prepping for Sunday school soon and even more importantly start my projects since school is right around the corner :(

Kendrick Lamar - Hol' Up

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Hey guys, sorry for no posts the past 2 days, I've been super busy. On Sunday, woke up bright and early for church. Taught Sunday School, then went to lunch with them before going to my friend's baptism, then headed back to my friend's house for worship practice from 7-10 because we had to perform on Monday for the Christmas program and I was gonna rap. So yesterday, we went to my friend's house at like 9 to move everything back to church then stayed at church till like 4 ish and just practised, went home and showered, ate dinner with them then back at church for the program at 7:30. It was so good, I was so nervous when my rap part was about to come, I invited a bunch of my friends to come watch me and also hear the message and stuff, so it was good to see them come out. After that, we went out for dinner as a fellowship and didn't leave till like 12 lol, after went to a friend's house and played board games till like 4, didn't get home and sleep till like 5. Woke up today at like 2...now just chilling at home, no plans, just watching the NBA Christmas games...

LOL of the Moment

Songs That Spoke To My Heart...

 - these are 2 new songs we've been practicing on praise team...both really powerful and great songs that spoke to my heart...

Chris Tomlin - All To Us


Chris Tomlin - Jesus Messiah

Heart To Heart Conversations and a Near Death Experience

What's good, today was an eventful and productive day...woke up at around 11 ish...my friend who goes to school in Ottawa came over and we played videogames and we just caught up, we talk a lot online, but I haven't seen him since like Thanksgiving, so yeah. I don't get why people say that you can't bond over videogames...that people don't talk...cuz me and my friend, we had a real good heart to heart. I was telling him about how I was nervous about school and the future and we just had a great conversation about that...he was telling me how I'm not the only one that feels like that, how a lot of people are unsure of their future, of what they wanna do in school...and he's a christian too, so he was telling me how I just have to really let it go and give it all up to God...it was a really eye opening conversation and it really eased my mind on a lot of things. After he left, I got a chance to plan for Sunday school tomorrow, should be fun. After that, my brother drove me to my friend's house and we got a chance to talk...me and my brother are close...for brothers who are 8 years apart, we're surprisingly really close, he's 28...but though we're close, we don't really sit down and have like heart to heart conversations, so when I got into the car, something inside of me just kinda wanted to talk to him about life and stuff...long story short, he never graduated college, went in, tried it, didn't like it and now he's been working at Canadian Tire for 6 years...so I was just talking to him about his future, how he's almost 30...whether he ever picture himself doing something else, upgrading perhaps...and it was just a real great conversation to help us to not only bond as brothers, but to get to know one another as people, I told him about me wanting to switch programs, about failing 3 courses, I let him know my honest opinion, how my hope is for him to do something better with his life, not in a rude, insulting kind of way...but an encouraging, you're worth so much more than you give yourself credit for kind of way...I love my brother with all my heart even if we fight and argue, and this is just one step towards us becoming really close and me spreading the gospel to him. I don't wanna be like those siblings who grow up...and haven't seen their brother or sister in years...or only on major holidays...I want our kids to be best friends...to see each other often...he's my only brother...our kids our gonna be the only cousins they have...he's blood...he's family...I can't wait till we all grow up and have big family dinners and stuff. Lol so anyways, on the way home...my brother drove down this street and there was no stop sign apparently, so we past it and next thing we know we see this car on our right side coming super fast and not stopping, my brother panicked and quickly sped up...literally, the car was THIS close to hitting us, I thought it really was going to hit us and if it did..oh man, cuz it would've hit me square...so my brother drove back and apparently, there was a stop sign on the other side of where we were, so that means there must've been a stop sign on our side too, but it was just knocked down or something...but that was so scary lol...anyways, now I'm home just chilling...

The World Ending, Christmas, New Years, Busy, Busy, Busy...

What's up...so um...the world was supposed to end yesterday apparently LOL...I actually feel bad for people who believed in it and have been preparing for it since...I wonder how far people went...like dropping out of school...maxing out credit cards...stuff like that...lol damn. Anyways...today it finally started looking like Christmas...like winter...there was so much snow lol...but I dunno...theres THREE days till Christmas...but somehow I'm not really in the Christmas mood...9 days till A NEW YEAR...doesn't feel all that exciting yet though. Lots of people back from school...went to the mall today and saw lots of friends who came back, it was really great. Christmas program is coming Monday...with all my friends and people I know coming...and me rapping...the nerves are slowly but surely building up...and even people from my church are slowly starting to find out I'm rapping and are asking all kinds of questions lol which only adds onto the nerves. What else...oh right, so a week ago was the blog's THIRD ANNIVERSARY...and the post has already been viewed OVER 500 TIMES...making it the FOURTH MOST VIEWED BLOG POST OF ALL TIME...wow...in only a week too...wow. What else..I'm just really excited for these upcoming weeks...chilling with friends, board games, movie nights, dinners, games, fun lol...but at the same time, I'm also really busy...gonna be practising a lot these next couple days for Monday...gotta plan for Sunday school today...gotta start on my 2 projects as well since they're due on the Wednesday of the week that we come back...what else...going to Niagara with a couple of friends in January before school starts, then a Raptors game...so definitely lots to do...I hope I'll have enough time to set aside to do some homework lol...btw here's the 3rd anniversary post that's been viewed over 500 times in a week

thebestyouneverheard.blogspot.ca/2012/12/3-year-anniversary.html

Olivia Noelle - So Sick

So The World Isn't Ending...?

So we're alive...? Good lol...cuz I have plans tomorrow LOL all kidding aside, did nothing today...just played videogames and watched Boy Meets World lol...that's actually it...not much else to say lol.

Jerreau - Dreams BankReau Can Buy (DBCB)

This dude is from the group Fly Union, if you've heard of them...he's a real sick lyricist.

The End Of The World...?

Really...? Hmm...I wonder who actually believes in it and is actually preparing or have been preparing for it...if I'm still blogging by tomorrow...thanks for keeping up with me lol.

NBA Posterized

Stumbled upon this on youtube...sooooo sick...

Changes: That's Just The Way It Is, Things Will Never Be The Same Part 2

What up guys...and girls lol. So a few days ago, I did a post just talking about people I've grown apart from, people I don't really talk to anymore but were once close to...and how changes are apart of life...well this...this is for the people who I've grown close to this year...for the people who I've maintained and still keep in contact with...the people who I still talk to on a daily basis...my homies...my fam...

- My homie...my brother from another mother...you know, sometimes, it's scary how much we're alike...from how we think, to how we act, to our morals and viewpoints on a lot of things...as of late, we've been arguing a lot, but it's those kinds of things that only strengthen our bond...you've always been there for me and I know you always will and you can count on the same for me...we actually spend way too much time with each other lol...you're one of the VERY VERY few people I actually tell everything to....and it's funny how we never run out of topics to talk about...you're always one of the first people I tell about anything and everything, thanks for always being there

- We've been talking a lot lately...I can't believe we've known each other since elementary school...and that I used to hate you LOOOL...talking to use as of late...jsut reminiscing and talking about a bunch of random things and serious things...has been fun...you're honestly a really down to earth and genuinely nice person...I know we joke and are rude to each other a lot...but when it comes down to it...you always seem to have my back at the most randomest moments lol...thanks

- I still remember the day we started talking...I remember how it all happened, and it just kinda snowballed from there...we just talked more and more...you began to open up more and more and trust me more and more...and I fell for you more and more...I know it seems as if I'm really hesitant or not giving myself fully to you...but it's hard for me...I have all these emotions and feelings and words I want to express but don't know how...but besides that...I'm so glad we became as close as we have...and that you trust me as much as you do...and through fights and arguments and periods of not speaking to each other...we're still here...I still believe there are still rocky parts and patches we need to address that is keeping us from really being good friends again...I'm still glad we're on speaking terms and we're somewhat back to normal lol

- I remember I only started talking to you because I always needed something from you...and we were never really good friends, or friends at all actually...just like acquaintances or business partners...but as we started to chill more, we began to talk more...and you're really a cool, funny and weird person lol...I love the conversations we have, we always have supposed 5 minute conversations and they always end up being 30 minutes or an hour lol...

- Man, I remember the good old days of gaming at your house, coming over everyday...eating all your snacks and how you would get cheesed LOOOOL....those were way too fun times man...even though you're away at university...I'm glad we've kept in contact...I'm glad we still can chill and talk about things like life and stuff...not just the usual...

- I've said it before and I'll say it again...you're honestly such an easy person to talk to...when I'm talking to you, everything just flows naturally, something about your personality is so charming and comforting...that's why I love talking to you...even though you've been real distant lately...I really do cherish the friendship that we have...well whatever's left of it atm at least

- You have such an outgoing personality...your personality is so weird but funny at the same time lol you have such an awkward sense of humour...you're really easy to talk to and it just feels natural when I tell you about what's bothering me and stuff like that...I also respect all the hard work you put in to what you do and your passion for it as well

- Even though you're not always there, you always seem to be there at the right time...with the right words to say...it's as if you already know how I'm feeling...I know you're super busy as of late...but I really can't wait to catch up when you're back in town

That's all I could think of atm...but these are just...people that I really care for and am appreciative of...who have a special place in my heart and have really impacted my life.

Microwaving Aluminum and Stage Fright...

What's good lol...been a real loaft day today...woke up to a phone call from my friend, he wanted to come over and game, so we played videogames for a bit, then he dipped. Other than that, didn't do anything today...just loafted, watched Boy Meets World and playing videogames. Yeah...lol...funny story...I remember getting A&W one time...and if you don't know, A&W burgers come in like not really an aluminum, but some silver foil wrapper, so I remember putting it in the microwave and it like sparked like blue light and it like left black burn marks on the paper, but not on the burger...but I was still kinda scared, so I didn't eat it lol. What else...Christmas program at church is coming up...Monday...I've told a bunch of church people and my friends to come watch me perform...I haven't felt it yet...but it'll probs hit me later...haven't felt any nerves yet, but then again, I haven't practised on the stage yet...not even once...and I won't till at least Sunday lol...been practising at home...my biggest fear is forgetting my lyrics...but hey...all for the glory of God...

My Dream Girl...Literally...

Okay, so this is really random...but I was sitting here on my computer and I kinda dozed off for a bit. And I was dreaming...or daydreaming rather...I was with this girl...we were like chilling, laughing, having fun...we were playing board games, playing videogames, cuddling, watching movies...doing all these things...taking walks...doing couple-like things...she was my dream girl...we played basketball, she would play videogames...we made food together...I dunno...everything about this girl was...right...it felt right. But there was one thing...I couldn't see her face...I could only see the back or the side of her face when we were doing all these things. But it gave me this really tingly, nervous, anxious yet happy feeling...I don't know what it means...whether she was my future girlfriend...future wife...but it made me get this feeling...or wanting someone to be there for me...to be able to do all these things...like chill and cuddle and stuff like that...I dunno...that's why I titled this post my dream girl...cuz she was my dream girl in a sense cuz she was in my head...but yet she did all the things and was all the things I wanted...but yet I couldn't see her face...I don't know what that suggests or what it means...she was...anonymous....man I'm so confused right now.

Half Price Movies & A New Layout For The Blog???

What's good...just came home from the movies with my friends. Since we're all on break, we brought back the Tuesday half price movies...just until school starts at least lol. We watched The Hobbit today...it wasn't bad actually, but it was pretty long lol...3 hours...snuck in my own popcorn in a ziplock cuz I knew I would want a snack. Fell asleep for a good 10 minutes in the beginning cuz I was super tired and it was pretty boring. Some things I gotta remind myself of are that I have 2 projects due the Wednesday of the week we come back from school lol so I just probably get started on them soon because I know I'm only going to get busier and busier with Christmas and New Years coming up...gonna be out and about a lot for sure. What else...oh right...VERY IMPORTANT, PLEASE READ...so...in honour of the new year coming...I was considering changing up the blog's layout a bit...it would be great if you could help me decide whether I should or not by answering the poll on the let column...thanks!

Ed Sheeran - The A Team

Remember how I told y'all I'm really behind and always super late on mainstream music...this is one of those times lol...I've always heard of Ed Sheeran and this song as well, but never really gave it a chance...to be honest, I didn't even know what genre he was, I thought this song was like some rock song lol...I didn't know it was like a slow, borderline R&B song and I really like it lol...

Late Nights, Long Nights...

What's up...today was a loooooong day lol...woke up at like 1:30...friend came over at like 4 ish...we had pizza, we gamed for the longest time...till like 8 ish...headed to church for ball...it was a great turnout, lots of good runs and talent. I brought a bunch of friends and 3 other guys brought a bunch of friends...so we had like 4-5 teams. My team won our first 3 games...so we sat to give other teams to play...but it was just a real fun time, also saw a lot of people I haven't seen for a while. After that, came home...chilled for a bit, got a phone call from my friend asking if I wanted to go over and chill and play board games with people...took a shower, ate dinner then went over at like 11:30 ish...we played so many board games...until like 4:30...I JUST got home LOOOOL...and they're still over there trucking it through the night...oh man...lol I would keep going, but rents would probs get cheesed...def a fun nigbt...today is Tuesday...meaning HALF PRICE MOVIE NIGHT with the crewwwww!!!!

Good Morning

What's up guys...finally had a GREAT sleep. Went to sleep at like 2...only woke up once at like 10...fell back asleep and woke up at like 1:30..feels so nice...anyways, I updated by blog until the title so it shows when the blog was created...or est. Anyways, I was just looking at the blog as a whole and since it's a new year and lots of changes are coming...I was wondering...new layout for the blog??? Yes or no?

Changes: That's Just The Way It Is, Things Will Never Be The Same...

With the 3rd anniversary of the blog behind us now...and Christmas and especially a new year right around the corner...I've been doing A LOT of reflecting lately...I've been thinking about a lot of people...how I've grown apart from a lot of people, people I'd never think I'd grow apart from...how I don't even talk to some of these people anymore...I'll make another one similar to this soon...but for now...this goes out to the people who I've simply grown apart from, don't see eye to eye with or the simple fact that we both changed and we both had to take different paths...

- I miss you...I know you're always around and you go to school with me...but I miss how close we were...I knew things were never the same since high school...but it seems like you've only distanced yourself from not just me but all your other friends since then...we all seem to be heading down similar routes, but you seem to be heading down the path less taken, a dark and scary path...and I'm worried for you, you've changed...so much...I miss the adventures we used to have...playing ball and football everyday...you'll always have a special place in my heart...no matter how far we grow apart, I always got your back man...

- It's crazy to think me and you used to be the closest of friends...I miss you...I miss us...I miss what we had...I miss talking on the phone with you...I miss messaging you up and going out for walks late and night and just talking and comforting each other...I miss being able to read each other's minds and know exactly what's up...I miss how comfortable and close we were with each other...I can tell things are different...even though we both try to reach out to one another...things are just different...no matter how much I desperately want it to be better...I'm trying, but sometimes, you seem so unwilling...

- I miss your upbeat, yet childish and immature personality lol...I miss your high pitched voice and making fun of you...I miss how close we were and how we used to tell each other everything...I hate the fact that you've cut off so many of your old friends in exchange for new friends, I guess university changes the best of us...

- I miss you, I miss your smile, I miss your voice...I miss how down to earth and real you were, you made everything seem so simple and easy...chilling with you was just so fun and easy going, no worries...but yet I felt like I could share my world with you...

- Things between us have changed so many times I can't even count lol...it's changed for the worst, but it's also changed for the better...I miss playing videogames with you everyday nonstop for hours upon hours lol...talk about no life...I'm so glad you have grown and matured into the person you are today...I have the utmost admiration and respect for you

- You and I always seem on and off...and I hate that...because I always get sucked into your charming personality lol...I love how you're so down to earth...I love your advice and I love how you're so level headed and chill towards everything...but at the same time...sometimes, you'll randomly go ghost and I won't hear from you for the longest time

- I hate you're away at university because I miss you...I miss the talks we used to have and how you would really keep me accountable for myself and you would really want the best for me and would always bring it back to God

- I miss your foolishness lol, there's actually never a dull moment when I'm chilling with you because you're so jokes and I swear we're like 2 peas in a pod...

- I really worry about you a lot...because you're so far away...and you have no one to watch over you and keep you accountable and responsible for your actions, I'm glad I'm going to be seeing you soon, I miss the talks we had...about life, girls and our problems and everything

There's so many more things to say...but each point represents a person in my life...I've grown apart from...these are the ones that came to mind atm at least...change is inevitable, good or bad...it's how you respond to it that's important. Will definitely make a list soon about just things I'm thankful and appreciative of...and the people as well...thanks for reading this as usual.

Insomnia or Bad Sleeping Habits...

As of late...like the past week...I've been having the worst time trying to sleep and I've been having the worst sleeps ever. Since there's no school, I've been sleeping really late...like around 3 ish. But as of late, I've been really trying to cut that down cuz it's a really bad habit, so I've been trying to sleep at like 12 or 1 ish...but I'm not tired, I go to bed at 12...end up loafting on my phone or listening to music and next thing I know, it's like 3 am already. I don't know whether I have insomnia, or my body's just too used to sleeping that late so I'm not tired anymore at like 12 am or something...it's terrible lol. Like yesterday for example, I came home at like 12 ish...went to bed at like 1, but didn't fall asleep till like 3 ish...and I had to get up today at like 7:30...I got up before my alarm and I was wide awake...wasn't tired whatsoever lol...but yeah, lately I've just been tossing and turning in bed and just been unable to fall asleep. I wake up in spurts lol...like every few hours I'll wake up and check the clock and like damn...why can't I go to sleep lol...but yeah, I hope this gets better soon...

From The Heart: Love

Love is something...that is super complicated...that is something that many people don't and will never understand...it's also something people that think they understand, especially when they're young...lol. I once thought I knew what it was. I've probably told you about her...there was this one girl...in high school...I met her when I was in grade 9. I remember chilling with my friend and this girl came and started talking to him, he then introduced me to her and we started talking from there. I can't remember what happened then, I think I added her on msn...and we started talking from there, a few weeks later, she began really pouring her heart out to me. A while later, I found out she liked me, but I had honestly just met her, didn't know too much about her yet and wasn't really feeling it...so I told her that I just wanted to remain friends. In grade 10, we got closer and know to each other more...this is the time I fell for her...but a long story short, she wasn't feeling it. But I remember it didn't stop there...I really really liked her. And this is the closest thing I've ever felt to love. I was literally infatuated with her in grade 10 and 11...we would write notes back and forth...I wrote her numerous poems and letters...we chilled inside and outside of school. But at the same time, there were also dark times, where we argued and fought...and we would subtweet or indirectly write to one another on Facebook and stuff...this went on for a good portion of grade 11...even though I still really liked her, but things were just tough lol. Like I had it really, really bad for this girl...would wait by her locker after school and we would just sit there and talk and chill. This is honestly the closest thing I've ever felt to love...I've never felt this way for a girl ever since or ever in my life actually. Now present time, we're still friends, she still hits me up here and there and we talk and we go out and chill and stuff...but we're both different people now. Anyways, this brings me to my topic...of love...and how kids nowadays think they know about love...how I thought I knew about love back then. How kids in elementary school or early high school start dating and they think they know what love is...they do things like change their facebook status to "married"...it makes me laugh sometimes lol. People date for like a few years...and they think they know what love is...but they're still in high school...you're still so young...these kids have so much growth and change ahead of them...yet they think they know who they are already and they think they know what you want. I don't even know what got me talking about this lol...I see a lot of relationships and crushes in front of me or sometimes I think I like someone or have a crush on someone...but it's actually not what it is...these people think they know what love is...they rush into relationships...they feel empty or think that it's what they need. I got so much more to say about this topic but I don't know how to put it into words lol...love is something not to rush...all I know is...when I find that girl...when I see that girl...or maybe I've already seen her...when the time is right...I'll know it's her. I'm not going to go out and try to find a girl just for the sake of it...and I'm not going to just rush into a relationship just because I like a girl. Like I said...I'm going to let it come to me...when the time is right, when the girl is right, it'll happen.

From Me To You...

As today continues..I can't help but reminisce and go through old blog posts...here are some interesting ones...

- the FIRST ever post from my blog...
http://thebestyouneverheard.blogspot.ca/2009/12/here-we-go.html

- the FIRST ever "From The Heart"
http://thebestyouneverheard.blogspot.ca/2010/04/i-said-id-be-fine-but-now-i-really-dont.html

- here's the second one because this one's an actual like rant...
http://thebestyouneverheard.blogspot.ca/2010/11/ill-do-it-later.html

- the MOST VIEWED post on this blog...this post has been viewed over 5,000 times...and it just so happens that this quote just really hits home with me
http://thebestyouneverheard.blogspot.ca/2011/05/real-talks-of-moment_18.html

- the FIRST post of 2010...the year that I really began to take my blog seriously, though 2010 started a bit slow, it really began to pick up after a while...
http://thebestyouneverheard.blogspot.ca/2010/01/new-year.html

- the FIRST post of 2011...
http://thebestyouneverheard.blogspot.ca/2011/01/happy-belated-new-year.html

- the FIRST post of 2012...what I consider the breakout year of this blog...when I really began putting my heart into each post...and really giving you guys more of me...
http://thebestyouneverheard.blogspot.ca/2012/01/happy-new-year.html

Just looking back at all these posts...from 2009 to 2012...wow...2,500+ worth of posts...divide that by 3 is like 800 something posts each year lol...obv that's not the case...but to think...there's 365 days in a year...that's like at least 2 posts per day lol...but yeah...I dunno...today it just a really surreal day for me...I really can't believe it...this blog...is me...is mine.

3 YEAR ANNIVERSARY

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW....can you believe it...TODAY...marks the 3rd anniversary, the 3rd birthday of this blog. Wow...no comment, holy...I'm freaking out right now...sorry, I'm really excited right now, just came back from chilling with my friends for my friend's birthday lol...but yeah...you've heard me say it all, so none of this should come as a surprise to you. I really am so thankful, so appreciate, so humbled...that this blog has become what it has become. It honestly does come as a real surprise and shocker to me...that this blog, this kid, from a small town in Toronto...that this blog has become so big, that it has reached so many people. This blog is my own personal accomplishment, my goal, my baby, my heart...and at the same time, it is my gift to you, this Christmas...this blog acts as a gift to all of you...who have never had their voice heard. I want to represent those kids who were never given a chance, who were always passed up, who never felt they were good enough...you know. This blog continues to grow and it continues to mean more and more to me with every day that passes. I know that the posts may be less as of late, or compared to the past...but quality over quantity, I've decided to give you less of me but more of my heart, every post that is posted onto this blog comes straight from the heart. Yeah we have fun with pictures and videos and songs...but the posts that I personally write from my heart...are also the posts that you guys seem the enjoy the most...and are also the posts I enjoy giving to you the most...you guys...you reading this right now...are like a second or detached family to me...you guys mean so much to me because you guys make this all possible. Otherwise I would be speaking to myself and would have probably quit a long time ago. I'm so glad I continued to do this, I'm so glad you guys continue to visit and keep me motivated and accountable. I've told this story a million times, but the FIRST reason I started this blog was because my friends started a blog...a few short months later, they stopped their blog, yet I continued for some reason...and it kept going, through some short hiatuses and breaks...here we are...100k strong. I've never taken this blog or looked at it as something super duper serious that I'd continue throughout my lifetime...but now, I can see it going really far. How big it becomes...isn't something I'm too concerned about, it's in the back of my mind...but it doesn't matter if Drake or Kanye West ever read my blog and tell the world about it, that isn't important. My goal isn't to become like the next Perez Hilton where I'm a famous blogger...truth be told, I really don't know what my goal is...but I do know that you guys are a big reason why I continue to do it. The sky is the limit for this blog and I can honestly say that my heart wouldn't fully be in it if you guys weren't visiting everyday and reading my posts and stuff. Yeah, maybe I'd do it here and there, but it'd be really lackluster cuz it'd be like a diary...or I could just stick to twitter. I have so many things to say, so many thoughts in my head, but I don't know how to put it into words lol...I owe YOU...the biggest thank you...for making this all possible, for making this blog as big as it has become in it's own sense. For giving me motivation and inspiration to keep going...3 years strong and we're only getting stronger...thank You God...for giving me the strength to go about my daily life...for always being there for me when I get a little crazy and lose focus...for never giving up on me. This blog is for you...for you out there who stuck with me since the beginning, for you who believed in me since the beginning...but it's also for you who never believed in me, who doubted me all the way...who never thought I or this blog would amount to anything...I proudly announce that this blog is going nowhere..and I am only fueled my your doubt. I'm not sure what else to say before I get redundant and repetitive...long rant short...THANK YOU...thank you for making this hobby into a dream and turning that dream into reality...thank you for visiting this blog and continuing to visit this blog...thank you for making this all possible...you mean the world to me...till next year, I can't wait to see what 2013 has in store for me, for this blog and for everything else...thank you, I love you.

Maddi Jane - Impossible

Happy Birthday To My Bestie!!!

What's good, I know today's the 15th, but lemme just pretend it's the 14th lol...what happened today, slept for a long while...woke up at like 12 ish, loafted for a long while till like 4 ish or so. Finally started getting my ish together and did some productive things. Headed to my friend's house at like 5:30 ish for a surprise party for one of my best friends. It was such a fun time lol, just lots of laughs, games and memories made. I love moments like these...just chilling with my church fam and having fun and stuff...def seeing myself opening up to them more and being more and more comfortable with them. Rewind a year ago when me and my friend surprised her at school...

Fast forward to today...a year later lol...have we changed?

From The Heart: Work Hard Than Hard Working

As I look back...on my elementary and high school days...I think back about a lot of things...friends, sports, grades...everything. I've never really been a standout kid. I've never gotten straight A's, was never the most popular kid, didn't date the most popular girls, was never the star of any sports teams. I think about elementary school, how sports, mainly basketball was my life...I dedicated hours upon hours into it...talked about it and watched it non stop...but I've never made a school basketball team, elementary or high school. I've always worked so hard, been the hustle guy, but at the same time, always the guy who gets shafted. Looking back at my old elementary school yearbooks and seeing the dudes who made the ball team, me at that time...I KNOW I was better than some of those kids...it just makes me feel like back then, and even in life...I've never been given a real chance to who how great I am, how much potential and talent is really inside of me. In elementary school, I was halted by injury in grade 9 when I dislocated my knee. I dunno...all these thoughts, really made me think...how I've kind of just been a regular kid my whole life, but I'm been dying to stand out my whole life too. I would always kind of be the follower in a big crowd, but I would always want to be in the middle one day, be the leader. If you'll excuse me, half of me doesn't really know where I'm going with this rant lol. But yeah...as I've gotten older, this blog especially...is my way of sharing with the world, my thoughts, my mind, what goes on in my head....how there really is more than meets the eye...how I'm so much deeper than first glance. Though I may not be the smartest kid, the most athletic, musically gifted or popular...I make up for it in so many different ways...I don't know even what those ways are...but I know I do...I know I was born for something great in this life, I know I was born for a purpose. I know my words are going to inspire and motivate someone somewhere...I just know it...I have the hugest gut feeling. I've always been that kid who was so close, that kid who almost made it, but never did...I always have that feeling in my heart of what if I did make it, what if I did make that basketball team, date that girl, all those things you know. All these failures in my life...have made me work so much harder, to really earn everything that I have in my life. It's made me take nothing in my life for granted...because I know what it's like to see that finish line, to be so close, only to come in second place. I think that's why this blog means so much to me...part of it is because this blog...is a representation of me...it's like my trophy...it's my own personal accomplishment, it's a symbol in a way...that I'm finally being heard, that I'm finally standing out and being my own person, that I've finally made it in a sense you know. But everything...from not making teams, to failed tests, to failed courses, to rejections, to failures, to trips, stumbles, falls and set backs...everything that has happened to me that has try to bring me down...has only made me work harder...all the blood, sweat and tears that were shed to get to this point, to become who I am today....it's only made me work so much harder, made me strive that much higher, to never me satisfied with what I have, but to believe I was meant for more...and no that's not to be cocky...that's just me really believing in myself, knowing my capabilities and pushing myself to my limits. But yeah, that's just me lol...I dunno. Especially when I look back at the blog again...3 years is tomorrow...it makes me think of how much I've changed in these 3 years...or even since high school...how I've changed as a person, as a friend, as a son, as a brother...everything....is so different, but for the better.

ASK ME QUESTIONS!!!!!!!!!

So I found this thing randomly...similar to formspring...where people ask you questions anonymously, not sure why I did this lol since a lot of the times, people ask dumb questions or simply say dumb things and stuff since it's anonymous...but this is for you guys who genuinely wanna ask me some questions and are scared to ask in person...or don't know me that well lol...I also don't know how long I'll keep this up for lol...probs not that long...just to see what kind of feedback I get...if any.

http://ask.fm/RTtheRealest

Chris Rene - Young Homie

Also stumbled onto this guy from X-Factor...he got 3rd place in the first season...wow he's so talented...oh man, check him out if you haven't already...

Carly Rose Soneclar - Brokenhearted

I've been watching X-Factor videos a lot today nonstop, this girl is just amazing...and she's only 13...Will.I.Am said it best...she's like a caterpillar...and you expect her to evolve into a butterfly, but then BAM...dragon...LOOOOL

Mistletoe Kissing Prank

Someone shared this on facebook and I found it pretty funny yet cute lol...

Late Nights, Early Mornings, Tired Days...

What's good...as of late, I've been sleeping super late...I'm talking like 3 am. Yesterday I really did try to sleep early...I went to bed at 1...listened to music and almost fell asleep, so I turned my music off and bam...suddenly, I was wide awake...and I checked my phone a few times...next thing I knew...it was 3 am...LOL. Had to get up today at like 12 for worship practise. Actually, I didn't wanna get up, but it was like 12:30 and my friend called saying he was on the way lol so I didn't do anything, got up, washed my face, then went out the door...had practise for a good hour or so, then went to lunch, then back home...loafted for most of the day on the computer. And yeah lol...not much...

The Year In Review...

Just like how it hasn't really hit me that my blog's 3 year anniversary is right around the corner, it also hasn't hit me that there's less than 2 weeks till Christmas...and it really hasn't hit me that there's less than 3 weeks before 2013 is here...now I know this is the time of year where everyone does like countdowns and stuff of favourite stuff in 2012...and like they review the year or talk about things that happened...and who knows, maybe I might do something like that too..lol if I can think of something creative enough, but yeah...keep you posted.

Mariah Carey - Hero

So beautiful...

3 More Days...

NEVER in my wildest dreams...would I have ever thought that this blog would have lasted this long...in 3 days...Saturday...will be the 3rd anniversary of this blog. Wow...I just need a moment, to recollect my thoughts...oh man. I always say the same thing over and over again and I really do mean it...this blog...started as something small, something fun, something I did because my friends did...yet here I stand...here WE stand...nearly 3 years later...100,000+ hits later...2,500+ posts later...150+ countries later...here we are...in all our glory and flaws and all. Every year...this blog just becomes so much bigger than I could ever imagine...could ever anticipate...I'm just left standing before you, speechless. I have to also apologize in advance...3 years is  BIG thing...but I'm sorry that I have nothing planned...last year, I wasn't in school cuz I took a semester off, so I had lots of time cuz I didn't have exams...this year, I've been really swamped with exams and just life you know, trying to figure out a lot of things. But wow...it really hasn't hit me yet...that in 3 days...this blog will have existed for 3 years...that's a CRAZY long time...sometimes, I go to the archive of posts...and just click random posts from like 2011 or 2010...and just read them to see how much I've changed, how much this blog has changed. We've come really far. I remember when this blog first started out and when it was slowly growing...I mainly posted music videos and funny videos and stuff like that...I was really kept back and hesitant with sharing things from my personal life on here...and now look...this is like my diary...except public...but I really do pour my heart out on here...and you guys read it...I feel as if I'm physically talking to you. It also blows my mind how many countries my blog has reached...how many people my blog has reached...how a lot of you probably come here on the daily to see if there are any posts...and probably get annoyed if I don't post one day...or will hold me accountable like, WHERE ARE THE POSTS...damn...this blog has just become such a big part of my life...and perhaps part of your lives too...that's just crazy...but I'll save all my emotion and all my sappy talk for another day...till then...thank you...for making this small little thing into a dream...into a vision...into something that's just taken over my life...thank you.

Kendrick Lamar - The Jig Is Up (Dump'n)

It's Finally Starting To Feel Like A Break...

What's good...yesterday was just a real chill day...loafted at home for the most part, played video games, watched some shows and chilled with my brother. It was just real nice to lay around and do nothing and just relax you know. Hit up the movies at night with my friends, finally the Tuesday movies with the crew are back...so excited haha we watched 007: Skyfall, I've never seen any James Bond movie before lol surprising I know, but this one was not bad lol. It was nice to also have a somewhat empty theatre since everyone has school and stuff still. Today is just another loaft day...supposed to go chill with a friend but she flopped lol so I'm just home alone chilling by myself...but my friend might come over later, we'll see lol...on another note, I saw a bunch of tweets this morning about today being 12/12/12...LOOOL I found that really funny for some reason...

Logic - Let Me Go feat. Lykke Li

I know this is on the playlist on the blog...but it's such a beautiful song...Logic is a such a beautiful lyricist...him, Cole and Kendrick are def in my top 5 lyricists...just wow.

Kendrick Lamar - Now Or Never feat. Mary J. Blige

Reunited With The Clique, Clique, Clique...

Whaddupppppppppppppppppppppp? Today was a great day, woke up at like 12 ish, ate lunch at home...Dad brought home Mcds. Then went to Fairview mall with my friends, it was good to see one of them after seeing after not seeing him for a long while. We walked around the mall trying to do Christmas shopping and buying things for ourselves of course. Went to the Apple store to check on my phone and see what was up...turns out nothing was wrong lol, I just used it too much and kept programs running too much. It was funny cuz when I went for my appointment, this dude who worked there...came up to me and goes "Hey Rodmond, what's up?" I had no idea who he was...apparently he goes to York lol...we talked a bit and I was like sorry man I don't know where I met you and he goes yeah I'm in kine too...my 3rd year, I've seen you around LOL...that was just funny to me. What else...chilled a bit more at Fairview...then went to run errands with my friends and we just had lots of catching up and good conversations lol. After that, we went to Markville mall and just chilled a bit there before finally going to church to run ball. It was real good, lots of people came out so it was real fun, now just back home chilling. So relieved as of late...literally nothing on my plate...well not that much...really relaxing and just chilling and enjoying myself.

DONE EXAMS!!!

WHAT UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!! Today was my last exam guys...well yesterday...since it's almost 3am so it's technically Monday...lol. So relieved and happy right now...finished my exam...funny thing, in the middle of the exam, the lights blacked out for a good 20 minutes lol...finished it, was gonna bus home, but my friend got her dad to drive us home, so that was super cool. Also made it to and from school safely lol, since there's been lots of theft, robbery, assaults and stuff lately at my school...I've been pretty paranoid. But yeah...no school till January 7th...only got 2 projects to worry about this break. What else to worry about...planning for Sunday school each week...I get more time to do that now. Practice for the Christmas program on the 24th...Christmas shopping, chilling with friends...and just relaxing and enjoying my break lol...man I'm so excited right now.

LOL of the Moment

How To Cut The Sleeves Off Your T-Shirt

LOL I've been really into cutting off the sleeves of my shirts lately for like ball or the gym and stuff...yes this dude is also Jenna Marbles' boyfriend...haha he has a pretty good method

Last Exam before FREEDOM

Hey guys...I know I've been super busy and super lackluster on the blog...I've been super stressed lately...studying and also planning for Sunday school and also shopping for Christmas and people...really a lot on my plate as of late. Biggest one is just school atm...my last exam is tomorrow at 7pm...can't wait to just get it over with. Also got school tomorrow, gotta teach Sunday school...after that, I'm free. Gonna go to the mall with my friend either Monday or Tuesday and finish up our Christmas shopping probs. Can't wait to start up Tuesday movies with the crewwwwwww, also Monday night ball, also since Christmas break is coming up for everyone...everyone will be back from university and stuff. I just really wanna chill over this break, with friends and just have a good time you know.

One Direction - They Don't Know About Us

Don't judge me...lol, I've very open with my taste it music...I'm not all about the hardcore rap...I like R&B and stuff like that...and even boybands...don't hate...I hope this doesn't make me any less manly lol, but this song is catchy...my friend played it in her car and it's catchy -___-

I'm Very Outwardly Expressive...

Slowly, but surely...I'm becoming more open, becoming a more expressive guy...someone who likes to wear his emotions on his sleeve. If you know me personally...and have known me for a long time, you'll know I was a shy guy...and sometimes I still am and still can be and still can be socially awkward, but a lot of the times I'm very vocal with my opinion and how I feel. Those who read my blog...who follow me on twitter...know I'm very expressive...I like to say how I feel, I have lots of emotions in me and I like to express it to you guys. Sometimes, that may be misinterpreted as rude...but I'm just being honest, I'm just being straight up and blunt...I dunno...some people just get it wrong. It irks me when people get all up in my business on this blog or on twitter and get annoyed at the things I say...first of all, it's my blog, it's my twitter, I can say whatever I feel like and whatever I want...there are many solutions for you that do not require you to physically tell me to now talk to much or tweet so much or blog so much...unfollow me...don't come on the blog...ignore it...I don't get why people are so sensitive nowadays, relax. Anyways yeah...just wanted to get that out there...if you know me enough, you should know that whatever's on my mind, I'll say it...whatever I see, I'll comment on it.

Day 26 - Since You've Been Gone

I use to looooove this song...this band...soooo much. Definitely use to replay this song constantly when I was going through tough times with this one girl...lol...

Loafting, Studying, Loaft Studying...

What's up...today was a real loaft, boring, yet productive day. Spent the whole day watching Boy Meets World, playing 2k, and studying for my last exam on Sunday. Can't wait for tomorrow...gonna go chill with my friend and do some Christmas and birthday shopping for people...I need a break. Saturday, hopefully going to go to the library early morning and just go ham before my exam on Sunday night...glad I'm not leading worship on Sunday or I would be even more busy on top of having to teach Sunday school...skipping practise cuz my exam is at 7 pm and the GO buses don't run that often on the weekends, so I probs have to ride the VIVA...which takes longer than the GO...just want Sunday to be over and done with already.

My Dad Is In The Triads?

LOOOOL so for those of you who don't know, my dad works at a suit store...where they sell dress shirts, dress pants, suits, tuxedos, ties, etc...so he's always dressed nice and stuff. He's come to pick me up from school before and he wears like his old school aviator glasses with his suit and pants and all my friends are always like yo your dad looks like he runs the triads or something LOOOL...cuz he has like slick backed hair and a long goatee or something...I'm like dying when I hear this cuz when I see him, I just see my dad lol...funny story though...one of the ladies at church came over one day and told my dad she's like the first time I met you, I was so scared of you because I thought you were part of the triads..my dad laughed his butt off LOOOOL...I find it so hilarious...but now that I think about it...and I was looking at old pictures today...he kinda does look like he could be part of the traids lol....

Practise? We Talkin' Bout Practise...

So every Sunday after church, we go out to lunch then we have worship practise and we sing songs and stuff. So this guy is always on my back during practise as if we're some professional band about to go on a world tour. He always nit picks the tiniest things from what we're wearing to how passionate we are when we sing. Anyways...last last Sunday during practise...dude made me keep singing the same line over and over again while the entire team watched...he kept saying I was flat, wasn't doing it right, all these random things he kept nit picking...next week...so this past Sunday...we had practise, I sang...again he came to me and goes wow...good job, that was amazing, did you practise? You practised didn't you...I can tell, there's so much change and improvement, see what you can do when you practise...now me, I didn't say anything cuz I was tired and wasn't in the mood for arguments...but I was like yeah sure I practised...when in actuality...I didn't practise whatsoever...nothing changed about my voice...I didn't go get vocal training or whatever...I sang exactly the same way I did the past week...so what made this week so different...I have no idea...I found it pretty funny...yet dumb...cuz he always rides on me...on the team...about the tiniest things...whatever...I'm over it.

Donald Glover: Fighting A Midget

3 Midterms Down, 1 To Go...

Hey guys...sorry I've been mad busy lately, been studying for my 2 up coming midterms, one which I did today. Didn't study too much for this one because the course itself is pretty easy, mainly been studying for my one on Sunday. Can't wait, I'm so close to being done I can feel it lol...I just want time to myself, time to loaft and relax. But also got other things on my plate like prepping for Sunday school and stuff like that...and ball...and Christmas shopping of course...December is looking like a busy month even though I'm off school...but of course, I'll keep you guys updated from now...till the 3rd anniversary of the blog...to Christmas...to New Years...to when I go back to school...stick with me.

Kendrick Lamar - The Heart Part 3 (Will You Let It Die?)

AJ Rafael - When We Say (A Juicebox Christmas)

I remember when the original came out a while ago, it was so nice. Glad to see this Christmas version out...

Why I Hate School But Love Education

Beautiful spoken word...

Happy December!

Totally didn't realize it was December until like just a few moments ago lol...I've been too busy lately...my brain's like half functioning and all my efforts are towards school and studying atm. I can't wait to finish school and have close to a month off. This is one of my favourite times of the year...everyone is back from school, we all chill and hang out...go eat, watch movies, play board games or just loaft at someone's house lol. It's also the time of the year where my family gets together, like all family...relatives, cousins, etc...and we celebrate christmas and new years together...it's always nice because I don't get to see my family that often, so when we do see each other, though we aren't as close...it's still nice to see how much we've changed and to just catch up lol...

The Weeknd - Twenty Eight

Busy, Busy, Busy...

Hey guys...and girls lol. I've been super busy lately. Yesterday had fellowship and I was leading my group, so I had to plan for that. Today I went to stc to meet with some dude to pick up a pair of shoes...jordan olympic 7's...the for the love of the game's. Tomorrow...gotta wake up super early to lead worship for Sunday, then teaching Sunday school, not the grade 4-6's anymore, but now the grade 7-9's...so I was prepping for that today. After that, we have worship practise, then going to someone's house for a goodbye party for some girl. Then gotta start studying for my midterms on Wednesday and next Sunday...can't wait...I finished exams on December 9...7-9 pm...after that, gonna just relax...play games...sleep...chill with friends...oh man, can't wait. 3 years of the blog is coming up...Christmas...New Years...gonna be sick.

Lights - Behind Blue Eyes

A Conversation With God...

Yesterday night, I was really freaking out about my midterm that was today...I felt really scared and unprepared and I went on a mini twitter rant...I just saw my future right in front of me and got nervous you know...I decided to just sleep on it...I prayed...that God would relieve me of this burden, that He would calm my heart and just give me a sign, show me something or tell me somehow that everything would be okay...just send me some sort of sign...so I went to bed...had a dream...that I came before God and we had a conversation...here's kinda how it went...

Me: God I'm so scared
God: Do you trust me?
Me: Yeah...but what if it doesn't work out?
God: Do you trust me?
Me: I want to...but it's hard, I have all these thoughts in my head.
God: Do you trust me?
Me: I do...but sometimes...I don't...all these worries of life, they get to me...I just want to know that everything will be okay...life gets so hard sometimes...
God: Do you trust me?

Before the conversation went any further...I woke up, and it was like 3 am. For some reason, my heart and my mind felt more at ease...like God didn't directly answer my prayer...but he eased my heart...he gave me that sign in a sense...where it's so simple...but it's so hard...he just kept telling me to trust Him...to not worry about it...God's always had my back and He always will...

Patience, Relief and Trust

What's good, finished my second midterm this morning at 8:30...felt so sick and nervous and scared the night before. Once I went into the test, felt a bit better...think I did eh...some questions I got, some I was iffy on...overall, glad I got it done and I'll be happy to pass and get some marks at least. After the test though, I felt much better...much more relieved and free. 2 more midterms to go...just gotta trust God and His plan for me...I need break to come faster...10 more days.

Start to Finish...

Sometimes it feels like...the starting point is all happy and bright and stuff...you can see the final destination, you can see the finish line...say the finish line is life...the future...you see your future at the finish line...you see your self living a good life, not necessarily lavish but like you're getting by, you're healthy, got a good family, things like that...you say to yourself...the future is gonna be good, my life is gonna be fine. But it's the journey...the journey that's hard...that's sometimes so unbearable, that makes you want to quit. Drake said that "sometimes the journey teaches us more than the actual destination". That's what I feel right now...that the future...my life in the future...is going to be fine...but just the journey to that point...is going to be rough...an uphill battle...and right now I'm losing that battle...I feel like and have felt like quitting numerous times in the past month...it's just so hard...and so scary...cuz the thought of not doing anything with my life just lingers in the back of my head...damn. Just gotta trust in GOD...that all this is for a purpose...all the stress...all the worry...all the pain...all the blood, sweat, tears...all the sleepless nights...all the trips, falls, stumbles...all the scrapes and failures...all the obstacles put in my face...everything in my life is for a reason...that is ultimately leading me to my destination, whatever that might be...and He is just strengthening me along the way...building me up for whatever purpose it is...but man it's scary.

Insecure Thoughts...

One of my biggest fears...is failure...is not amounting to anything in life...is living an average or below average life with a crappy job. Is that why I'm in school? I dunno...is that why I work so hard for a piece of paper that says I've graduated from here and here. I dunno...I'm just so scared of the future...I'm only 20 years old, yet the future feels so close...I'm pretty much not doing well in school...I lack motivation a lot of the times...but it's just boring, I'm not interested in this stuff you know. I'm not a books smart kinda guy...I don't like to read, I'm not good at learning that way...I dunno...pray for me.

Midterms, Studying, Break

Finished my first midterm today...was pretty confident...prof gave us the questions...kinda. Gave us a bunch of definitions, he would put 10 on the test and we would pick 5 to define. Then he gave us 10 short answer questions, he would put 5 on the test and we answer 2. Overall it wasn't too bad, I was pretty/somewhat well prepared, going in I was nervous as usual, but felt alright. When I got the test, I was like okay, this isn't too bad, finished in an hour and went home. But this midterm I have tomorrow at 8:30 I'm feeling very nervous for and very unprepared...the midterm I did today was worth 10%, the one tomrorow is 15%...I just don't wanna fail you know...then again no one does, I dunno...I'm just panicking...pray for me, wish the best for me...I'll need it. At the same time, whatever happens happens, I pray that God will guide me through this. Can't wait till I finish on the 9th of Dec...get a full month off. Sidenote...all this nervousness and worrying for the future...I feel like half of it is on my own shoulders, half of it is me wanting to succeed and do something with my life. The other half is just wanting to make my parents and my family proud...it got me thinking how we do a lot of things in our lives to please our parents, go to a good school, get a good job...and it got me thinking that's not the way we should live our lives...you shouldn't go to a school just because you parents think its better, you shouldn't reluctantly go through 4 years of a program you don't like just because you parents say it's better...you should do it for yourself, do something you like and can picture yourself doing in the future. I'm still somewhere stuck in the middle of all that...but yeah, damn.

The Nice Guy...

I've had phases in my life...the good guy, the bad guy, the rebel, the jerk, the one who doesn't care...now...I don't really know what I am. I usually...or at least people tell me that I"m a nice guy, I know I give off a negative vibe at first glance...but you can't judge a book by it's cover. As a nice guy, I can say that I've let a lot of girls slip past me in the past...and I've developed feelings for friends before...but have been "friend zoned" numerous times. It really disappointed me...and really made me think...maybe nice guys really do finish last. And as I've grown older...I see the younger generation coming up...they're really stubborn, full of themselves, cocky...total opposite of the nice guy...no respect for elders whatsoever...and as I have a lot of experience and wisdom under my belt...I'd like to think that my opinion or knowledge is worth something. I still have hope...I still believe in the nice guy...I believe they'll get there's...that all their positiveness will persevere, they just have to believe. As of late...this feeling has been growing really strong...I see a lot of young kids nowadays come and go...different personalities here and there...just a lot of young, immature, stuck up kids. But every now and then..I'll meet someone or I'll see someone and I'll say to myself...he's a nice guy...he has a lot of potential...he's going to do great things and great things will befall him. I hope at least...it gives me joy and encouragement to see that there is some hope in this world...there are still good people left, there are still nice guys...who believe in old fashioned love and stuff like that...I dunno lol...I feel like I sound really corny right now.

Jayesslee - Try (Pink Cover)

Since I don't listen to mainstream that much, I often hear mainstream songs after a youtube artist covers it and I'm like oh wow, this is pretty good lol, this is one of those times...

Living In A Hateful World

Was looking through my old facebook notes, used to post a lot back in the day...damn...


April 25, 2009
Living in a cold, cold world
Where it's okay to back stab one another
Your friends ain't really your friends
And forever soon turns to never
My mind is so far gone
I can never catch it even if I had a head start
Compliments soon turn to insults
As the world falls apart
Support turns to envy, which leads to jealousy
And the "I hate you" and "you hate me"
Why can't we all just get along
Hold hands, dance, and sing the happy song
The applause turns to boo's
As the crowd disappears
They come back shortly
When you're they one they fear
Living in a world where "me" is most important
And everybody you meet is cocky and arrogant
Selfish minds to compliment huge ego's
It may have been different a long time ago
I'm gonna look out for myself
And try to help others
Pick'em up, hold'em close
As if they were my own brother...

When I Pass Away...

Please don't judge me by the secrets in my life. Please don't judge me by the things I have never told anyone but myself and God. One of my friends said something that was super strong and hit me really hard..."everyone has a public life, a private life and a secret life". It's kinda like secrets, we have things we share to the public, then we have small secrets, things that say I write on this blog...or things that you only tell you best friend, then there's things that you don't tell or have never told anybody...for many reasons...scared, embarrassed, don't know how they'll react...when there will come a time...when everything is on the table...all our secrets, all the things we tried and thought we could hide...we'll all the naked in a sense...and we'll see everyone's wrong doings and sins and secrets. Please try not to judge me by the things I hide or the things I didn't tell you, please don't judge me by my wrong doings on this earth. Instead...focus on the good I did on this earth, focus on the positive impact I had...I had this really strong thought in my head this morning, now, all the thoughts slowly faded away and I'm not too sure what I wanted to say lol, so I'll just leave it at that.

Kanye West - Never Let Me Down

Library, Midterms, Stress...

My bad I haven't posted much these few days...been really busy and occupied...with school. Midterms are coming up...next week, so been studying...went to the library yesterday to study with my friend. What else...yeah nothing much lol...I finish on December 9...can't wait. My break feels so close, but it also feels so far away...man I hate school...but then again, I've told you this all before lol...

Ain't Nobody Fresher Than My Clique, Clique, Clique...

Me and the homies...this was like in high school...grade 10 or 11 I swear...through back...

Me and the homies...Cabaret 2008 or 2009...

Just Me...

Dumb Ways to Die

LOOOOOOOOL I died when I saw this....it's so cute, funny and catchy...

Look How Far We've Came...

I was just thinking to myself...damn, I can't believe I've stuck with this for almost 3 years. I can't believe how much this blog has grown, how many people and places it has reached. I really do hope that my words, somehow, someway...have motivated or inspired you guys...or cheered you up when you were down...or made you laugh. I always say that I first started this blog because my friends started one and it's true...but then they took theirs down and stopped it, I kept going. This blog is one thing in my life that always remains constant...no matter what changes I've been through, from high school to university, from teen to a man...the blog has been there. Through tough times...really tough times...when I took a break from the blog...when the posts were getting less and less...and more empty and a lack of passion..and believe me, I've lost hope and motivation to continue plenty of times...the thought of stopping the blog has crossed my mind numerous times. The though of what if blogger ever shut down or ran out of business has crossed my mind too...I don't know what I would do...I have a tumblr, but it's not the same...I've put years of work...love...passion...tears...and heart...into this blog, it's become such a big part of my life. And not to toot my own horn...but this blog has grown to the point where a lot of people visit daily...and regularly...to read posts like these...or to listen to the music...to watch the videos...it's always still mind blowing to me. Part of me still thinks that this blog is as small as when it first started...and that only my friends and the people I know know about it...but that's untrue...people all over the world know of...or at least have seen this blog, and to me that's an accomplishment in itself. With less than a month before the 3rd anniversary of the blog...everything is just hitting me...3 years...wow...that's a really long time...2000+ worth of posts...100,000+ worth of hits..150+ countries reached...damn...I don't even know what to say...thank you...

Laugh Out Loud...

I actually laughed out loud when I saw these...hahaha

My First Heartbreak...

LOOOL so I don't even know why I randomly started thinking about this...probs cuz I was saying how I wanted to look at some yearbooks from the past. But yeah...so this was like in elementary school, grade 7 I believe...anyways, I was a crazy shy kid back then, still am shy, but not as bad, depends who I'm around I guess...but yeah, I was super shy back then. We had this dance coming up, and elementary school dances are weird...everyone posts up against the wall...then we hear a slow song play and we contemplate whether we should ask a girl to dance. But yeah...everyone was asking people to the dance like it was a date...in my head I was like...should I ask someone. I had a crush on this girl, this asian girl who played sports, real cute. Anyways, we talked a lot and stuff like that, we were good friends. So one night, I went into my room with the lights off, grabbed the home phone...and lied on my bed for a good half hour debating whether or not to call her and finally I summed up the courage to call her and I was NERVOUS as heck...I was stuttering, my heart was pounding, fingers were shaking...we talked for a bit, casual conversation, school stuff...then I was like, so the dance is coming and I was wondering if you wanted to go with me...that 5 second pause before she responded was the longest 5 seconds of my life...my heart was about to explode and I was about to just die...she goes, yeah sure, that sounds great! So then I go, alright cool, I'll see you tomorrow...HUNG UP THE PHONE...STARTED JUMPING UP AND DOWN ON MY BED...LOOOOL no joke...I was soooooo hyped, my heart started beating even faster, had the dumbest smile on my face, but I was so happy. So the next morning, during some class, she comes up to me and she goes, oh my gosh...Rodmond, I'm so sorry, I forgot that this other guy had asked me before you and I said yes to him, I'm sorry, I can't go with you...BAM...my heart sank...I know, I know, I'm in elementary school...but it wasn't love or anything, just that feeling you know, my heart literally sank, it's like I wanted to cry, but I couldn't find the tears to do so...I replied with an, alright...that's cool, walked away...but I was dying inside. That's my first ever time experiencing heart break lol...it was so sad, I was literally traumatized man. It's cool though cuz turns out when you ask a girl to a dance, in elementary school at least...it doesn't mean too much...I still ended up dancing with her, and another girl...but yeah, that was a pretty interesting experience to say the least lol.

Hedley - Perfect

LOL of the Moment

A funny thanksgiving video...

The Intensity of Ray Lewis

This guy gives new meaning to the word intense...he would be a crazy motivational speaker, would def pump you up for anything...

School, Music, Basketball & Sleep

Yep, that's pretty much my life as of late...school has been super hectic lately..spent my entire day yesterday at the library finishing up my work, today handed in 2 assignments, handing in one more tomorrow which I finished a while ago. So now it's just studying for midterms, got 2 next week on the 28th and 29th, then one on the 5th and my last one on the 9th, then a break till like the first or second week of January when I have to go back to school, break seems so close, yet so far away lol. Got nothing in my way except for midterms now. What else...been playing ball every Monday at church...my shot was feeling so nice this past Monday...gonna start playing on Tuesdays with my dad and his friends at church lol, a more relaxed session probs since they're old, but they're mad aggressive as well. What else...listening and downloading and of course working on music and just sleep as well, catching up on sleep whenever I get, whether that's on my day off, in class, in the library lol...

Chamillionaire - Internet Nerd's Revenge

This dude is severely underrated lyrically...he is actually really good and he doesn't even swear. This song is pretty funny to me...cuz we all know those dudes who talk a lot of ish on the internet...internet 'thugs'...heard this a while ago and don't know why it randomly came across it mind lol...

Most Viewed Post of All Time, OF ALL TIME!!!

It still boggles my mind how this post has been viewed over 5000+ times...the second most viewed post on this blog is only like 2000+...it's so ironic too because this post probably says it the best too...check it out:

http://thebestyouneverheard.blogspot.ca/2011/05/real-talks-of-moment_18.html

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Trey Songz - Fumble

Definitely heard this song because of Brian Puspos' dance video...but it's such a good song also...

From Me To You...

The more we talk, the more those feelings just come back. It's like deja vu all over again...talking till late, texting back and forth, going out together...damn. I won't lie...I've been thinking about you...moreso, I've been dreaming about you too. A lot of what ifs pop into my head...what if we kept going...what if we gave it another chance. You always make it really clear where you stand with me...and I know you really care about me...part of me wants to just jump at that opportunity...before you're gone...but then, part of me is hesitant...and steps back and has to think about it. But as of late...I can't you out of my head...I see you everywhere, everything around me reminds me of you somehow...I get this stupid look on my face when I see you...but it's also a good feeling...lol, I dunno...I was really young back then...my feelings were really raw and I was immature and unsure about a lot of things...I'm not fully grown now...but I am certain of a few things, but am still unsure about a lot of things...damn lol.

If God Wrote You A Letter, What Would You Want It To Say?

As of late, I've been really slacks in Sunday School, it's been really boring as of late...but every now and then when I do pay attention, there are things that stick out or I do manage to catch a thing or two. This is one of the things that really made me think...if God wrote me a letter, what would I want it to say...I dunno, I think I'd want it to say...everything will be okay, trust me. All your worries, all your stresses, everything that's bothering you, don't worry about it...I got you. Sometimes, it's hard you know...cuz God is like...all these things, just lift it up to me and I got you...you just have to be patient...and that's hard sometimes you know, because you want the answer right away. You just want that security and comfort of knowing that everything will be okay. If God wrote me a letter, I'd just want it to say everything will be okay, I have a plan for you...sometimes I wish He would just tell me which paths to take, what to do here and there and how my life would turn out...so I don't have to worry...but I know that's not how it works...God, I pray that you just help me to trust in You...in Your plan.

Kyrie Irving Commercial

HAHAHA this is so jokes LOL...I love Kyrie Irving, def one of my new favourite players...

Ghetto Asian Girls...

This is kinda similar to the previous post...except different as well, and I don't remember too much about it, just the specifics. Anyways...random thought...remember Crosby Dance? LOOOOOL and how nuff people used to hype up about it...LOOOL. Well anyways, this dude used to always go and hype up about it, I never really liked him...so one day, I forgot what happened, I told him off...he's like 3 or so years younger than me, just a real wannabe you know...but yeah. So after that, this one girl added me on facebook. She looked like one of those ghetto asian girls...who chill with all the black girls, has a big butt, talks really ghetto and stuff like that. Anyways, she added me on facebook and we started talking a lot...like a lot...she would call me at random hours of the day...when I say random, I mean random. At like 1 am when we're talking on msn, she's like hey can I call you...I'm like sure...we would have like hours and hours of random conversation about my life and her life. She's like my parents can't know I'm up, so I'm gonna go into the washroom and lie in the bath tub LOOOL....like wtf. So yeah, we got really close really fast, I had never met her though. One day she was like hey, my birthday is coming up, I'm renting out a small room kinda thing at stc and she's like it would mean a lot to me if you could come. So I was debating...I didn't know anyone there and I didn't wanna be chilling by myself lol since the only girl I knew was the birthday girl and she's probs be busy. But I said whatever, went by myself...there was like less than 20 or so people there...for some reason I pictured like a huge banquet with like 50 people or something lol. But yeah, when I walked in, she like runs at me and hugs me...all her friends are like ohhhh, this is the guy you always talk about huh...I was just like lol...awks...so I danced with her for most of the night and stuff like that...lol, it was a fun night. I just realized I have a lot of random encounters with random girls...we get kinda close, things happen, then they disappear forever LOOOL...well I still talk to and am surprisingly close with a few of them lol...

Strangers On The Internet

So I've already told you the story but meeting that dude with the same last name as me...he added me on Facebook, blah blah, flopped on him, then eventually met up with him, he was a cool dude, if not, it's a story but another time lol this is a diff story.

So this was around high school, I was talking to this girl in my class a lot, we talked on msn and on facebook a lot, I didn't like her or anything, we just had a lot to talk about I guess. So one day, this random girl adds me, we have one mutual friend and it's the girl in my class...so I accept and I'm like who is this...I see that she goes to school somewhere downtown or something like that. She's like oh yeah, I know the girl in your class, my mom works with her mom and I saw your posts on her wall and I thought you were a really cool person lol. So I asked my friend if that was true and she said yeah, their moms do work together in a hospital and she's met her a bunch of times through work dinners and stuff. So I kept talking to this girl on facebook a lot and she added me on msn and we started talking a lot there. One day, we're talking on msn and she sends me a webcam invitation lol...I've never met her, was just starting to get to know her, and have only seen pictures of her. So I was like huh...she was like I dunno I just wanna webcam lol...so we did, we webcammed and we continued talking on msn. We did this numerous times for a few weeks, borderline a month. So as I got to know her more, I realized she was getting more and more flirty and more intimate on our conversations, and my friend in class was like hey...I see that you guys talk a lot, she always mentions and asks about you, she probably likes you. So one day on msn, she's like hey I'm going to be around Markham on this date, do you wanna chill...and keep in mind, yeah I've seen pictures of her and we've webcammed, but I've never met her in person, so part of me still felt a bit awks lol...but I was like yeah sure. So it was one saturday or something, we met up at the mall, she was pretty cute, exactly the girl in the pictures, after lunch and just chilling, she was like...can I come over...LOL...so yeah she did come over, we didn't hook up...just a thing here and there...lol, but yeah, looking back on that, it's a pretty funny, yet awkward story lol. I know you're not supposed to talk to strangers on the internet...but I feel like that moreso applies to those random online sites where they match you with random people. When I met her, this was when facebook was really really popular and I essentially knew how she looked and had a friend that could vouch for her. Nowadays, with things like facebook where you can see how people look and mutual friends to see if they know other people that you know, people don't really feel like strangers in a sense...but I know that they still are, you just have to be careful about it of course.

Blog > School

So, I was about to start some homework, when I realized I had some things to talk about on my blog...so I was like eh...I'll do it later, which probably means I'll do it tomorrow...LOOOL.

Chachi Gonzales Choreography

Here's another one...she's one of my new faves...she's sooooooo cuuuuute

Brian Puspos Choreography

For some reason, I've been watching lots of dance videos lately...like people on youtube dancing to mainstream or underground songs...so here's one that I really liked...

Rihanna - You Da One

A lot of the times, I'm really on top of new songs and like underground or things like that...and a lot of the times, I'm really late when it comes to mainstream or radio songs cuz I don't listen to it that much...heard this a while ago, but getting hooked on it recently.

It's A Party in The USA

I was looking at my blog's stats, something I haven't done in a while and I saw that 78,000+ hits came from Canada, but the REAL shocking number was that 20,000+ hits came from the United States...that's CRAAAAAAZY. I keep saying I don't know anybody in the States, never met anybody in the states...damn...I don't even know how my blog first got noticed in there and why it's so popular over there...20,000 is a lot...damn. Then the next most viewed country is the United Kingdom with 5000+ hits...wooooow...how in the world has/does my blog get to these other countries, damn that's crazy. The next 2 are the last ones over 1,000 which are Russia and Germany...no comment...I don't even think I know any German people, I know a few Russian people though...but still super weird, yet exciting. But anyways...SHOUTOUTS TO ALL MY VIEWERS FROM THE UNITED STATES...don't know how y'all found me, but I'm glad y'll continue to stick with and support this blog, it means a lot to me, peace!

Kanye West - Hey Mama (Grammy 2008)

This performance always gets to me...this was after his mother passed away...this goes out to my mom.