Matthew West - Strong Enough

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight." - Proverbs 3:5-6
This song just reminds me of giving it all up to God. How we're not strong enough to do this on our own...but we don't need to be...we can lean on Him for strength and guidance, but He wants us to fully commit and devote our lives to Him. The song says "You are God, You are strong when I am weak." That's the beautiful thing about this...as hard as life gets, we're never in it alone...and we never have to be, because God is always there with us every step of the way...

From The Heart: Obsessing Over God's Will

In CCF today, my first time going in a long time...near the end, this one girl stepped up to speak and close off. She began talking about God's will and how sometimes we obsess over it. Automatically my attention zeroed in as if this was directed towards me solely. She talked about how a lot of the times we obsess over oh what's going to happen to me in the future, what's my purpose in life, what's God's plans for me, what's His will for me, if only I can get a glimpse into it, etc. Right away, I thought to myself, holy...this is exactly what I've been struggling with as of late. She talked about how God will reveal all this to us in due time...IN HIS TIME, when He feels we are ready He will slowly reveal it to us. She said how God is GOOD, He will forsake us. How we need to trust in HIM, believe in HIM. That He is Sovereign, Creator and that He is in control, we don't have to worry, He's got this. To trust in Him and lean not on our own understanding, but to use that time instead of stressing to love God more, know Him more, encounter Him...to do what He has called us to...love our neighbours, the people around us, sharing God's Word to them. This was just a real smack in the face and an eye opener to me...that God always has His ways of speaking to me and telling me...RELAX, I'VE GOT THIS, I've never let you down and I never will. All this stress and worry about God's will for me...is pointless, HE is in control, to worry and to stress is to doubt and not trust Him...today was just exactly what I needed...God is in control and always has a way with telling you just what you need to hear and just the right time.

Long and Tiring Day...

Hey guys...as you knows know, Wednesday is my longest day...here's how it went...woke up at like 6:30, ate breakfast and ish, caught the 7:30 bus, took longer than usual for some reason, made it to class just on time at 8:30. Prof wasn't here apparently, so the TA lectured, it was mad boring lol...after that, grabbed some food, it's like 10:30 so I'm not down for like burgers or fast food or something, I want like legit breakfast foods, found this nice place for cheap too...got eggs, sausages, potatoes and bread for only $4, so that's def a spot I'm hitting up more often. After that, chilled in the library for a bit, took a nap, finished my assignment. Then headed off to tutorial around 12:30 ish, there's only 3 guys in my tutorial and the other 2 didn't show up so I was the only one today lol...but all the girls in my tut are super cute lol and they all remind me of Taylor Swift for some reason lol...we had group work today so got to talk to a lot of them more. After that, headed to the gym, got a good workout in, back to the library with my friends, took a mini nap, then class at 4:30. After that, headed to school fellowship at 6...first time coming in a loooong time, been mad loaft. I sat down by myself and was approached by this guy...looked pretty old, he introduced himself and we talked and got to know each other. He was pretty cool, he's like 27...doing his Masters at York and he came from Calgary, he said his gf is teaching in Calgary, he's schooling for a year here then going back to work in Calgary, that's pretty sick and we talked about like church and a bunch of things, that was really cool. Then went into my small group, and I know some of you guys think I'm really like black or ghetto...for an asian kid lol...but I met this one asian kid who completely blows me out of the water...this guy was sooooooo black it wasn't even funny hahah...and I had a feeling this guy got the same vibe from me....so he came to me and was like in a deep voice imagine...yo whatttttuppppp...my name's Alex...and he goes to dap me...but I wasn't looking so I went for a handshake LOOOOL so awks...but he was a cool guy. Anyways, in our small groups we talked about idols and the diff between honouring our parents vs making them our idols and we had some nice discussions and sharings, but I didn't really feel it until the last bit when we were about to leave and this girl began to share about God's will and how we "obsess" over it sometimes...which I will go further in depth in another post. But yeah after that, went home...ate dinner, took a nap, showered, now chilling...

Loaft Life, Church, Sushi, Ball...

Hey, sorry for no posts these past 2 days...been busy, also loafting and didn't have time, also really tired and also nothing really interesting happened as of late lol. On Sunday, we had church, had to wake up early cuz the praise team was leading songs, after that taught Sunday school...after that, finally fulfilled my sushi craving, went to all you can eat with a bunch of church mans...after that, I literally crashed the rest of the night, was so tired and full from everything lol...was gonna go and chill with friends, but it flopped but either way I was too tired as well lol. Monday was just another loaft day, stayed at home, chilled...friend came over in the evening and we played some cards for a bit before heading to church for ball...and that's pretty much it lol. Today was just a regular school day, only one class...so went to the gym, finally got to workout after a long break lol...then had class and came back home. Also saw my small group leader from my school's fellowship, well he saw me, he's a really cool dude, just asked where I've been, got a chance to sit down and catch up and talk with him, so that was nice lol...other than that, nothing's been up lately...sorry lol.

J. Cole - See World

In this song, Cole talks about the kidnapping and murder of a little girl...he talks about how evil this world is...he talks about the perpetrator as well...and how he is stuck in this world where things like this unfortunately do happen...tell me how wrong is that? I know it's not glorifying God, but are you telling me things like this aren't important either? Or that rapping about things like this is wrong? "See world...you're no good."

Rap/Hip-Hop is...Evil?

Music is something I'm super passionate about and something I love. Yesterday we were having a friendly debate which turned into a borderline argument lol. Just about artists and songs today and how they don't glorify God. But I also mentioned how many christian artists listen to mainstream rappers like Kendrick Lamar, J. Cole, Lupe Fiasco, Big Krit...the list goes on...these artists may not talk about things that are glorifying God specificly, but they talk about important things...like drugs, the youth, inspiring the youth, news around the world, politics...and even christian rappers have collaborated with such mainstream artists. Sometimes it annoys me when people try to diss or tear down rap/hip hop when they really don't know much about it...all they hear is like Drake and that's their definition of what rap or hip hop is. They aren't really willing to give others a chance. How can you base an entire genre of music based on one artist...christian rappers have talked about people like 2Pac and how honest and open his music is...talking about teen pregnancy, keeping your head up. Christian rappers have stated that they admire that rappers are so honest about confessing in their songs. They may not be talking about exactly glorifying God, but not every single song that christian rappers put out there do either...they talk about worldly topics too...like running away from home and staying in school and things like that...but what makes them different from a mainstream rapper who talks about the same thing? Cuz he's christian his words are more important? Are more wise? Really now...it just really annoys me when people think they know a lot about something when they really don't and aren't really willing to give it a chance, but yet have already came up with a conclusion about it. I get that you shouldn't make music your idol...and it's in no way like that...but I admire and respect their art...their passion and their words...and because I love doing the same thing...it hurts me and offends me when people try to tear it down. But yeah...here's a video about a christian artist Lecrae talking about these topics a bit...it's also really ironic cuz we were just talking about judging people too...you're labelling an entire genre and a slew of artists because of a few songs or certain artists...but like Lecrae says..."My music doens't have the faith, I have the faith."...he then later says a lot of things about listening to their music, respecting them and their honesty, etc....but he also says and to quote him "LET HIP HOP BE HIP HOP"...
Part 1

Part 2

Giving Respect, Getting Respect, Earning Respect...

So like 2 years ago, I think...I went on a cruise with my fam for a week...I played for like every single day, every single night, till like 1-2 am...it was so fun. Now I'm not the best baller out there, I'm like adequate at best...but I do pride myself on working hard and working harder than my opponent. So I remember playing 2 on 2 with these dudes I had met, 2 were brothers and one was their friend...we were playing and stuff and all these kids on the cruise were much younger than me for some reason...but they didn't look like it...I guess that's just Americans for you lol. Anyways...a bunch of kids walk up like a group like 6-7...and you ever get that feeling...of seeing someone and you're like...wow that guy is just cocky as heck, he thinks a lot of himself...do you ever get that vibe from someone? Anyways...of that big group...3 guys stepped up and asked to play us 3 on 3...2 white guys and one black guy. So me and the 2 brothers were like sure and we played them. I was right on point about them being cocky as heck...they were talking so much ish, I was guarding the black guy and this guy was a bit taller than me, but like I said all these guys were younger than I was...they talked sooooo much trash...but in the end, it was a super close game with us coming out on top...despite all their boys and girls cheering them on. It just made me think about how some people think they automatically step into a room and demand/deserve respect when they haven't done anything yet. Our game got heated...I almost scrapped the black guy...anyways...after the game, we won...the rest of the trip...whenever I saw those guys...they would acknowledge me and say what up and dap me...because they respected me...cuz I didn't back down from them. If they had walked in and we talked and stuff it would've been cool...but they walked in with this attitude of being better than us...that we're lowly or something...so we had to earn their respect. That's one of my favourite memories of that year probably lol...

Random Stories...

Got a few random stories lol...like 3 if you wanna be specific...first one is in class a few days ago we were talking about discrimination and whether we've witnessed or experienced it before. We then started talking about like age and gender discrimination and it made me remember when I was in like high school, I went to The Bay, which is like a fancy Wal-Mart kinda cuz it has everything...well not food, but like clothes and furniture and stuff...anyways, I went to pay for this shirt and the lady's like "you know this is $40 right?" And I was like yeah...it wasn't till I hit home and sat down that I realized this lady probs thought I couldn't have paid for it and was asking if I knew how much it was lol...I was so angry for some reason when I found that out.

Second story is when I first started university and my friend who was in like grade 10 or 11 for some reason...he was throwing a party and he asked me if I could be a bodyguard at his party LOOOL...cuz it was in his basement or something...so just make sure the right people are coming in and that they don't do anything dumb...I was laughing so bad...I was like wtf...a bodyguard? I said no obv...cuz I was like uh that's random and awks...not tryna get into that stuff...but yeah, probs top 10 most randomest things in my life.

Third one was...well remember in elementary school...in the summer time when school's almost starting and you go check everyday to see if they posted the list of classes and you get to see who's in your class, which teacher you have, any new kids, etc...I remember me and my friends didn't check until like the day of school and we were all mad excited for being in the same class and having new teacher and we saw this new name, we were like yo it's a new kid...so we started running around outside yelling that kid's name trying to find out who he was cuz he was in our class LOOOL...turns out he was some random kid who like told everyone he was a street fighter...keep in mind this was elementary school...dude said he's been fighting on the streets...nonetheless this guy got made fun of soooo bad lol.

WBC Christmas Program

I know it's long overdue...but here it is finally...my performance at church during our Christmas program...

Small Fish In A Big Pond...

So funny story lol, when I was in grade 9...me and my 2 friends decided to try out for the ultimate frisbee team because we liked to play it lol...so all of us made it past the first tryout and were asked to go to the second tryout...my 2 other friends were on the basketball team at the time though as well...so I remember one morning tryout, the basketball coach comes in and looks at my two friends and goes hey, you're not allowed to try out cuz it's gonna conflict with ball lol so they both left and left me alone by myself...keep in mind I was in grade 9, new to high school, didn't know anybody else in the tryout cuz they were all older, didn't know the coach...was so scared lol. I remember after one tryout, he came to me and told me that he was taking a select few who had a good chance of making the team to an indoor tournament and asked if I was interested and of course I said yes lol. The tournament and I got to meet lots of people lol, I met people from the ultimate team last year, I got to know the coach better and some of the girls on the team who were also on the volleyball team lol. Me and the coach got to know each other really well though lol cuz I think he was really worried for me because I was the only grade 9 so he kept asking how I was and if I needed anything and stuff...I remember the tournament ending super late, like 5 ish...keep in mind it's winter...so our bus broke down apparently, so we were stuck in the tournament place, just us and another team. So we swung a ride on the same bus as the other team...didn't get back to our school till like 8 ish and the coach was like are you okay, are your parents gonna be worried and stuff lol...got back to school and he asked if I wanted a ride home lol cuz it was snowing too...I was like it's okay I live across the school...and he was like are you sure, I can drive you anyways...lol but I just walked hahaha....grade 9 ultimate was definitely a fun experience...met lots of people, got to know the coach...played ultimate all 4 years of high school...too fun, I miss it.

Jin - Nick Of Time

This song was inspired by Jeremy Lin and just his passion for basketball and God, but at the same time I feel like this song really relates and is relevant considering the previous post, just how God\s time is not always the most convenient for you, but it's always in the best interest of you whether you know it or not..He may not be early, but He's never late, He's always in the nick of time...

From The Heart: God's Plan Part 2

Hey guys...so after school today, I texted my brother if he could drive me and he called me saying he got into an accident and was with my parents. The first thing that crossed my mind was are you okay...the car was in pretty bad shape...the whole left side of the front was like dented...so the whole mood of the house tonight has been pretty down...my brother wasn't hurt luckily...his knee got the full impact but the seatbelt kept him safe, so it's just a bit sore. But this just got me thinking to a lot of things, the future...life in general. How God has a plan for each and every one of us. And I remember this couple at my church sharing one time that they're just newly married like a couple months and it's tough obviously settling down in your own place and stuff...and he said...it's interesting, cuz sometimes it feels God shafts me...he never gives me enough...when the fact is he always gives me JUST enough...just enough to get by...not too much for you to get prideful and too happy, not too little where you can't survive, but JUST enough for you to get by. It made me think about life and my struggles, my obstacles, my problems and how I want answers...God's not going to give me ALL the answers I want and he's not going to make me pass every single test ands obstacle in my life with flying colours...but he isn't also going to leave me dry and completely hanging...he's always by my side, watching me...giving me just what I need and just what I need to hear at that time to get by. It's so humbling to know he is always watching over me and even though I may be struggling in a situation and asking God for more, he has given me enough and I just haven't realized it yet. Another thing that happened tonight is we prayed for my brother, just for his health and stuff...and when my mom prayer, she brought in me...and my skin...for all of you guys who don't know...I have a skin condition called eczema...it's not a disease...it's just a condition...I'm not handicapped or anything. But ever since I was little, my parents have made it one of their biggest goals to quote unquote "cure" me...like this is some sort of disease. I can't tell you how much money we've spent on creams, doctors, specialists, medicines, soups, diets, everything...we've spent boatloads of money on all this stuff...and when I was younger...like elementary/high school...my appearance was all  I cared about...and I was cosigning with my parents that I wanted to "cure" myself...as if once I had clear skin...all of my life's problems would be gone...I would go and get girls, be popular...that bs. But as I've gotten older...I've slowly began to accept it...I've developed great friendships with people who see past the surface and love me for me....for my personality and who I am. Sometimes, it annoys me that my parents think that I'm sad or depressed or something and that I NEED AND WANT to fix my skin...to be completely honest...it's been over 10 years and I'm perfectly fine...I'm growing into a man, my morals and attitudes haven't changed...I'm a humble and growing and imperfect son of God but he still loves me. This "skin condition"...isn't even a big deal to me anymore...if people really want to judge me based on how I look, that's perfectly fine with me...if people want to take the chance and get to know me, that's lovely as well. But all this concern of taking me to more doctors and spending more money and trying all these dumb methods and stuff...really pisses me off sometimes...I've accepted who I am and I literally am happy and comfortable in my own skin...this is who I am...sometimes I think to myself if I looked "normal" as some of you like to say it....would I be the same person? I love who I am, I love who I've become...I've become confident in who I am...relying not on my looks to get me places, but my personality, and who I am on the inside. The quote "don't judge a book by it's cover" can't describe my life any better...but yeah...this post is a real personal one for me...I know that God has a plan for me...God made me the way I am for a purpose and has shaped me and moulded me into who I am today for a purpose...and this "condition" is the least of my worries and isn't even something I'm concerning myself about...I'm leaving everything up to God.

The Cypher Round 1 feat. Ghods, Omar

It was brought to my attention today that some people may have not seen this video before...even though it was like like 2 years ago...or around there? So here it is...this was to mark the 1 year anniversary of my blog I believe...some things I wanna say are that it's crazy how far we've come...that I really do want to do a cypher part 2, so hopefully that will be in the works...third is that I know I haven't put up my Christmas performance yet and it's been almost a month overdue...sorry, that's coming ASAP first thing...but I really do wanna get the wheels running on perhaps another cypher...we'll see.

Big Sean - Memories Part 2 feat. John Legend

I Need Some New Girl Friends...Part 3?

Part 1
http://thebestyouneverheard.blogspot.ca/2010/12/i-need-some-new-girl-friends.html

Part 2
http://thebestyouneverheard.blogspot.ca/2011/01/family-i-need-some-new-girl-friends.html

I don't know what drove me to write this post, but just thoughts of a lot of things I guess lol...this one's not as serious and definitely not as personal...just a really random thought...as I literally sit in class right now while the prof is talking. Sometimes, do you feel like you need some new friends, not new girl friends specifically but new friends...like everything around you is the same old same old...and you're too used to it...too comfortable, and everything is always the same...and borderline boring. Or that it simply isn't enough for you...? I dunno...sometimes I get that feeling...sometimes I feel like my friends are on and off...we'll be really close within a period of time...and they'll disappear and go ghost for the longest time...then message me a while later and ask how I am...then will abruptly end the conversation and I won't hear from them for a while. I hate that feeling...sometimes I feel like I'm so used to the people around me...not all of them now, but certain people...that every time they have troubles or are going through something, it's always the same thing and always the same problem that it makes me think maybe they're the problem lol . I also say this because sometimes I feel I'm too used and too comfortable with the girl friends I have in my life atm....that it's sometimes weird and it's like...don't know if I'm a friend or...uh...yeah lol. Or sometimes those thoughts will cross my mind you know. Now I have some girl friends where that thought never crosses my mind and I never look at them that way, those are the friendships I love, where we can be close friends and nothing  gets awkward you know...at this point right now, I don't know where I'm going with this post lol...jsut a random thought and I just started typing random words and putting them together you know...it would be nice to get a new and a fresh and a different opinion on things sometimes...the reason I like having girl friends is cuz they give you a different perspective on things and ultimately their advice is the majority of the times better in my opinion lol...but a lot of the girls I chill with are all really similar or all say the same thing or act the same way you know. Sometimes I just think it would be nice to have a fresh set of opinions or someone new to chill with and have fun with you know. And another note...a lot of the girls I've been chilling with atm...we;ve been...well I'ce been at least really blah But yeah...hope I don't catch too much heat from this...I'm pretty sure those same people don't even read or hardly come on here anymore...

No More "Me" Time...

What's good, posted only once yesterday while I was chilling in the library lol...was at school the entire day, but only had class from 4-5. After, bussed home and my friend picked me up and we went for dinner together...we had a good chance to catch up with each other and just talk and stuff...it was really nice because I do value his opinion on a  lot of things and I like that I can be very open with him and pretty much he's easy and comfortable to talk to. After lunch and chilling a bit, we went to church at like 8 ish and had a meeting till 9:30 just prepping for this Friday's program, it was my first time leading the meeting, so nerves were obviously there but got over it pretty much when the meeting started flowing and everyone started talking, so it's all good.

Elementary School Dances...

LOOOOL remember them...whether you're in university/college like me, still in high school or even in elementary school...or working lol...we've all been through that...I remember just how awkward it was...no one would really dance, the guys would post up against the wall and chill and talk...or like walk around and huddle in groups and talk, no one would really dance...some groups of girls would dance...which was always a mystery to me lol. That groups of girls can dance together or a girl can dance with another girl but in no way is it acceptable for a guy to do so LOL...not saying I'd like to...I'm just saying how it's like an unwritten code that we're not allowed/not supposed to. What else...I remember the gym being divided into 2...one side was the actual dance and the other side was like where food and drinks were being sold, and just a bunch of benches for people to sit around...then upstairs for the people that didn't go to the dances could play board games and on the computer and stuff...it was always so jokes...the hype around the dance...guys getting all nervous about asking a girl to dance and girls getting nervous about if the right guy would ask them. Then of course there's the music request list...where you can write down songs you want the DJ to play lol...that was so jokes...I remember one time at the dance there was this one girl that a bunch of guys liked, but no one really had the courage to ask her...me being included in that group lol. And how that dances work are it's like an hour or an hour and a half I believe...and it's all like dance songs and there there's like 3 or 4 slow songs...the last song being one of them...I remember I was about to ask the girl I liked to dance for the last song and as I was about to go, some dude beat me to it lol...so I had all this energy and courage in me so I literally went up to this random cute girl that I've never talked to before...keep in mind this is only elementary school...and I asked her to dance LOL...it's probably in my list of top 10 most courageous acts LOOOOOOL...

Random Thoughts

Sometimes I feel like the bigger this blog becomes and the more people it reaches, the less honest I can be...back in the day where I would talk about anything and more specifically anyone...not in that way...but in terms of my life and the things I go through. I'm still pretty honest, but I hold back a bit and sometimes a lot cuz I don't want people to get offended cuz some posts...if people read it, it's obvious who it's about lol...that's if they know me personally lol.

You Got A Dream, You Gotta Protect It!

One of my favourite movies, scenes and quotes...also my graduation quote...

From Me To You...

The heaviest thing on my heart that I need to let out is that it anmoys me...or it sucks to know...that no matter what I do, say or how hard I try or put myself out there or be there for you..I'll never be as close as he was. Just seeing how much chemistry and history you two have definitely trumps whatever it was that we had I guess...slowly but sure, fading to black.

Scattered Thoughts...

When I'm not with you, I think about...and it's a weird feeling to see you with someone else...but when we are together...it feels like we're actually together...maybe that's just your personality. But whatever is happening between you two...I'm not necessary happy about, but I'm not really sad about it...I'm...content with it. It's like whatever happens happens, and my friend told me you can't change it, you just gotta accept it, which is true. I'm just trying my best not to get involved and into that little cycle again...and I'm really just trying to keep my emotions in check throughout this whole situation.

It's All About Perspective...

So yesterday we had church and I was leading worship with my friends but I was the only one singing, so went early to practise and while we were practising, the same dude who usually runs me down was at it again...but I wasn't mad or anything...I was more demoralized and down about it lol...he was just like how I really need lots of practise and stuff like that, it's good and bad I guess...good cuz he's trying to help me get better, bad because sometimes I'm terrible at taking criticism, but nonetheless he kept correcting me and picking out all my wrongs and I felt horrible and worship was about to start...thoughts of a bunch of things flashed through my head, leaving the team and not singing anymore...and just a bunch of random things. Anyways, I went up there and put it all out there, doing whatever it was he told me but mostly just putting my heart into it...afterwards, my friend who was doing the slides for me he's like yo that was really good, he pointed at the one song and he was like yo you killed that, and it made me feel really good lol. And then after worship, we had practise and after that, my other friend came to me and he's like yo you improved a lot, I can tell and it was really good, it moved me...and that really hit me...on news that's handed to you...it's all about perspective...good or bad news...you can let it bring you down or you can let it cheer you up...all depending on how you look at it lol...like in the heat of the moment, I took his criticisms pretty hard and it demoralized me...but coming home now and looking at it from the bigger picture, he was only trying to help me, not tear me down...so it's all about perspective...and also choosing who's opinion's matter and stuff like that/

J. Cole - Rise And Shine

"The boy that set fire to the booth, in a game full of liar it turns out that I'm the truth. Some say that rap's alive it turns out that I'm the proof, cuz the one's y'all thought would save the day can't even tie my boots, the ones y'all thought could hang with me can't even tie my noose, let these words be my bullets man I don't rhyme I shoot, BANG," There's so much word play and genius in there it's not even funny...just take that all in.

It's All About The Numbers...

Hey guys...as of late, I feel like I've been really consumed by things like how many hits my blog has, how many countries it has reached, how many people have liked the facebook page, how many people follow me on twitter, things like that. But that's now what it should be about...it's not what this blog started out as and I've stressed a bunch of times on here and it's not what I want it to be about. Yeah, sometimes I get caught up in all the numbers and how big it's getting...but regardless...I need to backup my words...that if there was only 10 people reading this...or 10,000...it'll remain the same...I'll still be giving all my heart as if I'm the only one reading this. But sometimes...it's blinding you know...the light...the fame...all that stuff...but I'm glad I have good people around me to bring me back down to earth when my ego gets too big, thanks...sidenote...this was supposed to be posted like 3 days ago, but loafted a bit and didn't feel like finishing it, but I'm glad I did.

Better Late Than Never...

Hey, sorry for no posts...just came home a while ago from a friend's house, made some food, bout to knockout...so tired...will update you guys tomorrow, rest assured I have a lot to say and talk about and lots of things planned, thanks.

Sleeping in Class, Scholar Status, Small Talk...

Sorry for no posts yesterday...was busy ish lol...sometimes my weeks feel so long but in reality they're pretty short when you look at it altogether. I only have one class on Tuesday at 4 but I go at like 11 cuz my mom has to go to work so I swing a ride with her to the bus and just chill at school, ball, workout, study or sleep...then Wednesday I have an 8:30 class and I'm there till like 6 or sometimes later and I have another 8:30 the next day and I finish at like 5 and I don't get home till pretty late as well, so I'm only at school for 3 days but because Wednesday and Thursday are so long, it feels like I'm there forever and I'm so tired lol. Like Thursday, went to my 8:30 class and was fighting to hard not to fall asleep, ended in an hour when it's usually 2 hours, took that hour and went to the library and slept...then had class and fell asleep later on in my 4 o'clock class lol. Today was a chill day, got to sleep in till like 12 ish...watched some shows, did some work and planning, my friend hit me up and asked me if I wanted to chill, she's like we haven't talked in a while so let's catchup...so when she said that, I expected we'd have like legit conversations right like how've you been and stuff...we go to this music store and we just have small talk...like in case she reads this, lemme just say no offense loll but I kinda expected more...we talked about the dumbest things like gutiars and stuff...things that could have easily been said over text or something...not saying she wasted my time or dragged me out for nothing, but like...it was kinda dumb that we didn't talk about anything important...cuz I did have other things I wanted to do, but put it off to go chill with her...whatever lol...it was alright I guess. What else...oh right, got back all my midterms, I had 4...got one A, 2 B's and one C...definitely feeling good, definitely also reaping the rewards of hard work...feeling nice atm lol.

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Special Request...

Hey, so my dad is going to the hospital tomorrow to do cataract surgery, he's done it before to his one eye and now he's gonna do it to his other guy. Most people have to do it when they get older because their eyes get blurry or something...afterwards, he has to rest for like 2 weeks and wear protective sunglasses cuz his eyes will be very sensitive, it's nothing serious and neither is the surgery, but please do keep him in your prayers and in your thoughts, thank you so much, I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart.

From Nothing to Something...

What's good...as of late, I've been going through old posts on the blog...like 2009 and 2010...and just seeing the things I wrote about, the things I went through...and how my blog slowly grew...from 1,000 hits to 2,000 to 5,000 to 10,000 and so on...it's actually crazy to me how we're over 100,000 now. It feels like just last week I started this blog. But since we're on the topic of reminiscing...I remember a boatload of people telling me this blog wouldn't last, I would give up, it wouldn't amount to anything, no one would read it, I'm wasting my time...I then look at the blog now...at all the countries and people it has reached...and it makes me smile. Even my friends...my close friends...my homies...yeah they were encouraging, but even at times they would joke about how small my blog was and how it would never blow up...they would like make fun of me and like say the link and stuff like that and like tell people jokingly about it and to go visit it...it's really just a testament to myself I guess...of all the hard work I put in and all the long nights and all the stress and burdens that this blog has put me through and has been in my life...but it's all been worth it. The more this blog grows...the longer it exists...the more it continues to be a bigger and bigger part of my life...lol watch me end up being like Perez Hilton or something...and be a full time blogger and be known specifically for my blog LOOOOL, but don't worry...that's not what I'm aiming for, that's not why I do what I do...I don't do it for the glory, for the fame or for the popularity...I started this thing as a way to vent and it continues to be one of the biggest reasons...but another big reason I continue to do what I do is for you...you the reader, reading this post, this line right now....you guys keep me motivated to keep going...otherwise I'd be talking to myself lol...the fact that it keeps growing and is getting more and more attention makes me want to keep it going and promote it more and make it all nice and fancy lol...so thank you guys for giving me that push that I needed to make the blog what it is today.

Melanie Fiona - This Time feat. J. Cole

She is super talented and underrated and one of my favourite female artists lol...and J. Cole, my favourite rapper is on this song too..

Melanie Fiona - Please Don't Go

Melanie Fiona - Priceless

Logic - Do Ya Like

Girls, Friends, Girl Friends, Girlfriends...

What's good, you know how girls have like guys that they consider their friends, then they have guys that they would actually date...it's like they split all guys into categories before anything happens...and it determines how they treat and act around them for the remainder of the relationship...there's always that rare occasion where a friend can make a jump to the other ladder. But anyways, as guys...I think we do that sometimes too...for me at least I sometimes do. I have girls I consider my friends and I chill with them and it's fun and we laugh and I genuinely enjoy their company...then there's the girls who I see potentially as more than that, who I see as someone I see getting to know on a more personal basis and stuff like that. For the girls who I am simply friends with...sometimes it gets mad awkward cuz I'm a really socially awkward dude sometimes and I don't really get touchy or I'm not a hugs kinda guy...not with these girls at least...so it's more on a you're my homie let's dap kinda basis...but for the girls who I see as more than that...it just comes natural for me to like flirt and hug them and stuff like that. Sometimes though...I get confused...or it feels like girls jump back and forth between the ladders and I get mad mixed up...and it just gets weird cuz then you  treat a friend like she's more than that and it all goes south from there. I dunno...part of me feels like it all went downhill from that one day...and it never really got fully better since then...it sucks knowing that I've tried reaching out to you numerous times too to find some time to talk everything out...everything...but you seem to not want to have any part of it I guess...then there's you...who I have have seen as anything but more than a friend...when I'm with you, I get those butterflies and everything just comes so natural...it's as if you are...and we are...I don't even know anymore lol...I'm done speaking.

School or Waste of Time?

One of my biggest worries and scares is that all this school...all this time spent studying and writing notes...will all be a waste. A lot of the times, for me and probably a lot of you...I learn these things, study really hard for tests, finish those tests..come out and forget everything I've ever learned. Like let me ask you a question...if you're in high school, do you remember the majority of the things you've learned so far? If you're in university, say first year...do you remember what you learned in high school? If you're in your upper years...do you remember what you did or learned in your first year...second year...third? Something that scares me is that all this studying will be done...just for that diploma...for that piece of paper that says I'm qualified for certain jobs...but all the knowledge will have never really stayed in my head. Another one of my biggest worries which I've voiced out numerous times is that I'll spend many years in school for a certain subject...but I'll come out and end up working and doing something that has nothing to do with what I studied in school...that'll make me feel like I wasted all those years in university...but at the end of the day...all these worries, all these thoughts, all these stresses and all these concerns...I just gotta let it all go to God and trust in Him and in His plan that He has my best interest in mind and whatever happens happens, but it'll all be in His will for me.

Respect and Disrespect

I've talked to you guys before about this little boy at my church who's super disrespectful, took my friend's hat and threw it, talks ish and stuff, acts up and I told him I didn't like him, I told him he was a rude little boy and that's why people don't like him. Well I had another encounter with another rude little boy on Sunday at church. This kid was all up in my grill, well all up in all our grills, he punched one of my friends...granted he's a kid and it didn't hurt...but he literally swung at him. So this kid was being a bother...so I grabbed him, not rough...just to bring him to the side and tell him not to get in the way. This kid gets all angry and starts grabbing my shirt...and I get cheesed at this point...I tell him...you're a rude little boy, you need to learn what respect is...you're lucky I don't hit you...stop being a baby. Now I know you guys might think I'm harsh, mean and perhaps overboard...but I've taught grade 4-6's at my church...which is what grades these kids are...they aren't dumb...matter a fact, they're too smart for their age...the internet has taught them way too much...they know about like freaking pornography and all this explicit music and all these bad words and stuff...they're smart...so to use the excuse of oh they're little kids go easy on them...to me is UNACCEPTABLE. As parents, y'all need to teach and actually parent your kids, they can't go about life thinking it's okay to act like a damn fool. What if at school, they hit someone...you can't go...oh well he's a little kid he didn't know better. YOU have to teach him better. That's why I don't and I didn't feel bad for that little kid when I told him off...being young or cute is not an excuse for disrespectful and stupid behaviour.

Seriously Serious...

What's good...this year...aside from continuing to post and really pour my heart out into each post...I'm going to work super hard to get the blog out there, to promote it and just to try to get other people aware or at least noticing it...besides from always posting it on my own facebook and twitter...yesterday was one of the first steps in accomplishing this goal my creating a facebook page for my blog for people to like and share:

www.facebook.com/thebestyouneverheardofficial

What else...oh yeah, I also tell my friends...more like plead with my friends lol to share it on their social media sites and stuff...another thing I was hesitant in doing is posting fliers up at school, I'm not sure if I can get in trouble for doing that lol and it wouldn't be too hard to find me since my name and information is all over my blog...so what I was thinking was having my blog link on really small slips of paper and like leaving it all around campus...from the classes I'm in, to the cafe...everywhere lol and whoever sits there or is there after me hopefully picks it up, takes a look at it and decides to check it out lol...other than that, I'm not sure what else I can do...that thought and idea crossed my mind about t-shirts lol, but I don't think I'm ready for that nor is this blog big enough for that yet...still just trying to get the name out there that's all.

Damian Lillard - The Arrival

Who Even Goes On This Blog Anymore?

It's really heart warming when people tell me they visit my blog...it's always nice to have a face to go with it when people tell me they visit my blog. Like sometimes, I'll write a post and people will like confront me on it later or they'll ask me what it's about...it's pretty funny lol. I know I kind of sound confusing...but a lot of the times on this blog...I hold back sometimes, for fear of having the people that I'm talking about read it lol because I know for a fact that some people go on this blog more than I do probably...but they have never told me that, it's just pretty obvious, can't really say much else cuz it's pretty bait lol. But like for the people outside of Canada who visit my blog...it would be nice to see the kinds of people that visit my blog lol.

Wale - Ambitious Girl

This blog...

When I was writing the description for this blog on the facebook page, the words just kinda flowed, it was all in like one long, heavy, spew...after writing it and reading it now...I really like it, so here it is lol:

"I started this blog in 2009...simply because my friends created one. I would post very scarcely, and often just music videos or funny clips or pictures. A few short months after, my friends stopped doing their blog and eventually shut it down. There were many ups and downs with me and my blog, 2 short hiatuses where I took a break from doing it for a while. I swear it wasn't until like I reached 1,000 hits (which took almost a year btw cuz I was mad loaft with the blog) that I started to slowly take it seriously, not even a month later and the blog had reached 2,000 hits and I was just like wow, really, that's pretty sick. I slowly became more enthusiastic about the blog and started to post more often, still only music videos and songs and stuff. I think 2010, or at least past halfway was when I began to post more consistently, posting a lot everyday, but just music videos and stuff. I think it wasn't until 2011 where I really began putting my heart into the blog and giving you guys more of me and putting some thought into my thoughts and letting you guys into my life. I can confidently say 2012 was our breakout year...hitting 100,000 hits was a really big deal for me. 2012 was the year where the blog became less about the music and the videos and stuff and more about me...more about what I had to say and the thoughts in my head and the things that I go through on a daily basis, and surprisingly people like that, from the stats at least they like it more than they do the videos and pictures and stuff. No adventure would be complete without a few slips and trips along the way...a lot of my posts and stirred up controversy and beef among people cuz they read it and get offended and or confront me about it lol. But this year has been a long year, a rough one, but you guys have stuck with me the entire way. It's crazy to think how many countries my blog has reached and the amount of people in each country viewing it as well, it still and probably always will continue to boggle my mind. As the journey continues right now in 2013...what can I say...this blog has become such a big part of my life...I often tell people it's my side job lol...I used to say hobby...but yeah, stick with me through this year and see things through my eyes and enjoy what I think and what I have to say on anything and everything that I stumble upon. Thanks for reading all the way up here...peace!"

DO ME A FAVOUR!!!

Go and like the official facebook page and like it, share it, tell your friends lol. can't believer I never thought of this before...well it's crossed my mind, but I never took the thought seriously. But it's a great way to get the blog out there to other people, I know it's really bland and boring right now, but there's lots of work to be done, I did it right now in like half an hour...so yeah...lol LIKE IT PLEASE!!!

http://www.facebook.com/thebestyouneverheardofficial

LOL of the Moment

I'm just going through old posts of the blog right now and I found the one when we first reached 1,000 hits...that was when my blog was like nothing, it was only like my friends checking it out here and there...here's the link:

http://thebestyouneverheard.blogspot.ca/2010/11/1000-hits.html

It's funny cuz it took nearly a whole year to reach 1,000 hits...back when I first created a blog and barely posted and barely advertised it, so it's just a great memory for me at least, comparing it to now and how far we've come...100,000+ strong...damn.

Life...

What's good...today after dinner, I had a chance to talk with my friend...just about life, about school, about grades and such. It was a really good conversation and it triggered a lot of other conversations that I had with my friends. You guys know I've been super stressed with school and the future as of late, and we just talked about how we should lift up ALL our burdens to God...not just some, not just the ones we don't want and keep the ones we want to handle on our own. Also...the things that I've been focusing on, the things I've been putting all my time into, thinking about and stressing myself over...those are the things that I think are important, that I think I should be focusing on and worry about...BUT maybe those aren't the things God wants me to be thinking about and focusing on and putting all my time into, maybe that's not in His plan for me. Maybe he wants me to be focusing or directing all my attention to something else and this school and future situation will handle itself when the time is right, I just really need to give ALL my burdens to God...not just some, and not just picking and choosing which ones to give to Him. Also...I just remembered what my friend said...how all my worries about school and the future...I'm not alone, I'm not the only one who has these thoughts, these doubts, these worries, everyone does...and it's apart of life, it's natural to be confused with what you want to do and to be nervous and unsure...it's part of life. Life is like an adventure and I did a presentation a few days ago on the book "Oh, the Places You'll Go" by Dr. Seuss...and I talked about journeys and adventure...how it's the downs in life that make the ups so much more enjoyable and fun and memorable...how fun would a story be if nothing bad happened and the character went on all happy and stuff...no one would wanna read or watch that...it's an adventure because of the ups and downs...the downs are necessary and they're apart of life...so all these worries and doubts in my mind is all natural...and I just have to trust that God has a plan for me...for all of this. I illustrated it to me class as a rollercoaster that only goes down...how fun would that...yeah it would be fun...but it's the up part that builds suspense, that builds excitement, so when you do go down...it's so much more fun and thrilling...just like life...yeah if I won the lottery and all these good things happened to me, I'd be happy...but it's because I go through struggle, it's because I fail, it's because I trip and fall...that make my successes and triumphs so much more beautiful and it makes me appreciate it even more. So even though things may be tough right now...I trust in God...I trust in You...that You will guide me and lead me through this...that You have a plan for me that is far greater than my understanding...but I will understand it when the time comes...I pray You continue to reveal Yourself and Your plan to me God...as I trust You with me life and with whatever direction You decide to lead me in...all for the glory of God.

Trey Songz - One Love

"You are all I need, and I'll never let go."
"One mind, one heart, one love."

One Mind, One Heart ,One Love

This is a post I've dragged on for a pretty long time...a post I've been hesitant and reluctant to write out. I've been thinking about you...a lot, I've been dreaming about you, no joke...on the bus, when I sleep, in class...a lot of things remind me of you for some reason. The more we talk, the more we chill, the more I see your face, the stronger these feelings become. I don't even know what to think of this anymore...I hate this, but I like it at the same time. I'm so yes and no about this whole thing in general...I like being with you, but I hate it at the same time...I like talking to you, but I hate it at the same time...as happy as you make me, you stress me out a heck of a lot as well...but sometimes, I feel like you're tailor made for me...everything about you is just so...I don't wanna use the word perfect...but perfect for me at least...I dunno anymore lol...

Regret, Second Thoughts...

I have a lot to say...but I often just keep it stored up in my phone...cuz it comes to me at the most randomest times and I write it in my phone so I won't forget, but I end up forgetting to blog about it. This is one of those many topics...where I can't elaborate much about...for fear or lots of things...mainly for fear of certain people reading it and taking it offensively. But as of late, I see things...and it has me thinking...this is what I wanted from the get go...this is what I worked so hard for...this is what I wanted and envisioned happening for you people, and now that it's happening...I don't know why I'm not happy about it, I should be, but I'm not. I guess I'm just slowly fading to black and letting things get back to how they used to me...like if you actually viewed it as important you'd say something I guess...I dunno...nobody likes the feeling of being replaced, it's a crumby feeling...but I don't wanna push it either...I don't know why, I should be happy for you people, I care about you guys greatly, but I can't...lately, I've been telling myself if you really care about someone, you'll do whatever it takes to make them happy, even if that means you're not happy or if it's not the best thing for you...I'm slowly letting it all go, I'm slowly letting you go.

That One Annoying Person...

You know that one annoying person, no matter what they do it seems to annoy the heck out of you. Like this dude always makes the most unnecessary, rude, weird and dumb comments ever, it always happens when people start talking or we play games where everyone gets involved, this dude makes the most dumbest comments ever. Like we'll all be joking around with someone and he'll say something really loud and blunt like "yeah, why're you so dumb?"...and there'll be an awkward silence and everyone just looks at him. Or I'm chilling with a girl and he goes like "ohh, they always chill a lot, something must be going on"...like really? Like I was talking to this girl just us two in a room with other people like beside us ish and they go where's Rodmond and ____ and he goes ohhhhh they're by themselves in a room....like really? This guy makes the most dumbest comments and it's cheesing, I try so hard to ignore it and to really give this dude a chance but he keeps making the dumbest comments and actions...

Adele - Chasing Pavements

Mutual Friendships...

I hate those friendships where it feels like it's one sided, where it's like you're always asking them what's up but they never tell you, but they always expect you to tell them what's up, I really hate those friendships. It makes that person more like my therapist. I also get annoyed when people tell me we haven't talked in a while, and the first thing they ask is who I like or if I like anybody...wrong way to start a conversation with me, it makes me think that they're just trying to get this information out like it's a secret or something they're trying to obtain. I like those friendships where we can just talk for house about anything and everything, where our conversations never get boring...where we text back and forth, both people starting conversations...those text conversations that never really end, that just keep continuing each and every day. I also don't wanna feel annoying if I'm the only person who's reaching out to the person to talk or to ask how they are...I don't wanna push myself onto them...I dunno man lol...

Sasuke vs Itachi (English Dub)

One of if not the best fight in Naruto...

Thank You...

Shoutouts to this girl right here, thank you Hannah and Alana for both your kind words. Hannah especially, I don't usually do these things where I single people out or shoutout people or use names for that matter, I like to keep it plain. But this girl's words really hit me and it really made me smile and just feel really good. I always say that I wonder if you guys read these posts, if I ever motivate or inspire you...and her words just really made my day to put it simply, thank you so much and I'm glad you've been with me and this blog for so long, it means the world to me, it means even more to me when my fans reach out to me and let me know or find me on like twitter or facebook, thanks a lot, I appreciate it.

Jojo - Demonstrate

I remember having the BIGGEST crush on her when I was younger lol...now she's even more sexy lol. But yeah, she shouts out That Grape Juice...wow that was like one of the first music sites I ever went on, haven't been on there in like the longest time...damn. Anyways, a lot of the music sites always touted her and Brandy as one of the most talented, but underrated musicians, I definitely see why, she can really sing...damn.

LOL of the Moment

Anyone remember scholastic? Those flyers you would get like every month with books and stuff that you could buy lol...I would always HAVE to buy something from it...I would normally buy something that came with like a toy or something lol...I remember buying some Harry Potter book because it came with a journal lol...I bought this other book because it came with a stop watch lol...bought nuff things from there. Anyways...remember book fairs? Your school would have pretty much like a scholastic type thing set up in the library...with like books, posters, book marks, pencils, etc...I remember one time I went to the book fair and saw nothing I really wanted, I saw this cool cartoon like comic type book thing, I was like this looks nice, maybe I'll buy it...so after school, I went down to the library, went back to the same section and saw that there was only one left, I picked it up and looked at it for a while, I see some kid running my way looking at the book in my hand, he's like are you going to buy that? He obv looked like he wanted to buy it and there was only one left, I didn't really wanna buy it, it looked cool but I was like eh...so I told him yeah, I was gonna buy it LOOOOL...he looked sooooo sad....went to pay for it...never ended up reading it, I still have it in my room somewhere LOOOOL

Note To Self...

TWO THINGS...GOTTA REMIND MYSELF...ONE) upload my performance from Christmas program at church...TWO) play around with changing around the blog design and see if I like it...

Big K.R.I.T. - Rich Dad, Poor Dad

Back To School...

What's up...sorry I had no posts yesterday...woke up around 12 ish, went to lunch with my dad, ended up doing errands with him and got home around 4, finished up my project and started my presentation, went to ball at 8 ish at church, came home, showered, went to sleep...today, first day back at school, only class from 4 to 5 but I went at like 11 cuz that's the only time my mom could drive me, ended like chilling in the library, finishing up my presentation and doing more homework and then went to class, dozed off a good 3 times, talked about some assignment coming up, then went home, my mom picked me up and we went to dinner, ran some errands, came home and now just chilling...tomorrow's gonna be such a long day, have to wake up early...hand in my project...do my presentation in tutorial, another class...then debating if I should go to CCF...

Vince Carter - Court Cuts

The greatest Raptor of all time...

Ex-Factor...Deja Vu...

I've been chilling with my ex a lot lately, talking on the phone, texting, facetiming...we've just been spending a lot of time together. And every time she always blatantly hints that she still likes me and she always suggests getting back together...usually I shrug it off or make a joke out of it...but as of late, I've been really feeling her, like I like spending time with her, she's cool and fun to be around, shes easy to talk to and easy to listen to. As of late, I've been giving this thought some serious consideration...but there's a lot of things to take into account, she lives far, she's going away for university next year...I dunno man...but we have so much history and also so much chemistry, we get along so well and she's always there for me...I don't know man...

Random Stories

Okay so this one time at my friend's birthday party we're all sitting around in a circle, like 8 people or so playing truth or dare...this is like elementary school when truth or dare was still cool. It's my turn and I pick truth and they go do you like anyone and I go yes...and they asked who and for some reason, I don't know why, I pointed at this girl right in front of me...now I did like her, but usually in these situations you don't bait it out...lol anyways, I pointed at her and said her name...after that is just got mad awkward LOOOOOL imagine that....truth or dare. who do you like and you point and yell out the name of the girl across from you LOOOOL...so awkward...


What else...oh yeah, in like grade 2 or 3....I sat beside this nerdy asian kid, you know those really expensive pens that come in those personal cases, well he had one. I remember I took it one time and he started crying and he told on me and the teacher was about to check my desk for it...me being the sneaky little brat I was, I shoved it in some next girl's desk and the teacher came and checked me and there was nothing and she got cheesed at that kid for lying LOOOOOL...that girl then looks in her desk and goes oh, what's this...and the teacher goes see...Rodmond didn't take it, you must've misplaced it by accident...LOOOOL I died...sooo funny...

From Me To You...

This is directed to a few specific people, as usual...no names:

- there's always this awkward tension between us and I hate it...I wish things could go back to the way they were where we would talk everyday and we were close, now it's just different, you're always distancing yourself from me and I in turn do the same

- we have history...an ugly history, but we're both grown up now, we've both matured...and a big part of me has given serious thought about a second chance

- me and you have literally been through it all, I thought we'd make it...but now, it seems like we're losing touch with one another, we're both growing...but it seems to be in different directions despite my numerous attempts at reaching out to you

- I know you come with a lot of baggage, but something in me still wants to be close to you...I know I shouldn't think like that cuz we're just friends, but the thought always crosses my mind if you ever think of me as more than a friend?

- I want what you and the other person had...I guess I'm a really jealous person, I'd be a super jealous boyfriend for sure...but seeing how happy you were and all the things you guys did together, makes me wish we were that close...

- I hate how far we've grown apart despite how close we "seem" to be...

I have all these thoughts in my head...about you...and you...and you...and it's hard...because I care about each of you equally in different ways. I don't even know what I'm saying anymore.

It's Been A While...

Wow I just realized no posts in 4 days LOL...MY BAD...what have I  been doing these past 4 days anyways? Well I left for the my trip to Niagara on the 3rd, got there around afternoon ish and boy was it INTERESTING to say the least. We got to the waterpark and it was soooo small, smaller than the pictures and videos we saw, so we got changed, came out and ended up changing out minds and didn't go cuz we also realized it was all little kids. Ended up going to some outlet mall around Niagara and shopped there for a good few hours, checked into the hotel, loafted a bit, took a nap then showered then went out for some fancy dinner, got all dressed up and stuff it was fun, got a chance to talk without everyone being glued to their phones and got a chance to chill and stuff like that. Afterwards, came back tot he hotel and chilled, watched movies and played board games till like 3 am. Woke up the next morning, home time...had breakfast, went to Dave and Busters for a good few hours, then finally the trip home. Before I continue, overall the trip was alright, decent I guess...it wasn't that great, but it wasn't that bad either...we didn't do anything spectacular, everything we did we could've done back home...but I did enjoy the bonding and the chilling as usual, it was fun to also just getaway from Markham and everything for a while. What else....there was lots of tension and awkwardness between people during the trip for some reason...I found it funny...but I also had my moments...I wish I had someone that went on the trip with me that I could've chilled to and talked to the entire time also...it was 5 of us...2 who are best friends and one is a couple...so I was kinda doing my own thing and being in the middle here and there, which wasn't that big a deal to me since I'm used to doing my own thing anyways, but it would've been nice to have my own buddy as well. Overall, would I go again? Depends on who goes and who plans it...if it was the same scenario, probs not though...just cuz it was a waste of money and it was pretty expensive, the bonding could've been done at home and eh...yeah lol...don't wanna get too into it I guess. Anyways after coming home, got dropped off downtown and watched the Raptors game with friends, met up with my ex there and we chilled a bit too, finally came home to the fam, showered and ate with them. The next day, the Saturday, what did I do...I swear I did something...I think I just slept in and did homework and chilled and loafted the entire day, not sure why I didn't blog, sorry. Today was another long and tiring day, I was so sleepy...woke up, led worship for sunday service, taught sunday school, had worship practise, came home and loafted and took a nap for a long while, I've been so sleepy lately, gonna die when school starts.

Road Trip...

What's good, today was a real productive day...woke up super early to practice for worship since we're leading Sunday. After that, came home at around like 1 ish, did some homework...I told y'all I had to finish 150 songs and make a journal pretty much...did 30 today so now I'm up to 110...good pace since I'm going to Niagara tomorrow, so sleeping over at my friends tonight, gonna go to the waterpark and just chill and stuff like that, coming home Friday, chilling downtown, then going with my other friends to a Raptors game...can't wait lol...so I'll try to blog while I'm at Niagara, we'll see lol...lots of posts to come though, haven't forgotten...peace.

Dru Hill - These Are The Times

From The Heart: God"s Plan

As we usher in a new year...I can't help but continue to think and reminisce on 2012. It was a long year...a hard year...filled with ups and downs. This year was a mighty stressful one...from school, to the future, to life, to girls, to church, to everything. One of the biggest things I've been concerned about is school/the future since they intertwine. Just not being able to let it all go to God and wanting to know every little detail about what's going to happen in my future, am I going to be alright and stuff like that, wanting to have that security, that comfort. It's been a hard year spiritually for me...trusting God...after all that's happened...after all I've been through. But it's getting and has gotten better closer to the end of the year. This year, I really want to give it all up to God...hand Him the car keys to my life and let Him take the lead. I know He has a plan for me just like He has a plan for you. I get so scared cuz I always think about what if this happens or what if that happens...but when I ask myself...what if that's part of God's plan for me. This year, my motto is to worry less and trust God. I was taking a shower and this popped into my head...it's like you're watching a movie...and something bad happens to the protagonist...you're like NO why did his best friend or parents or why did that bad thing have to happen to him. God is like your friend who has already seen the movie, He knows exactly what's going to happen, but he doesn't wanna ruin it for you. He knows there's going to be a happy ending, but if He told you what happens, there'd be no point in watching the rest of the movie would there. My biggest goal...resolution...whatever...this year...is to lift up ALL my burdens and give ALL my heart to God and trust in Him and in His plan and whatever happens in my life this year...good or bad, up or down...it's all in His plan and all for the sake of bringing me closer to Him.

PS: Still contemplating changing up the layout of the blog, so gimme a few days and we'll see...and also gonna be posting my performance from church during our Christmas program, so look out!

HELLO 2013!!!

WHAT UPPPPP!!! So this is the first official post of 2013 since yesterday's one was from my phone. Yesterday was just a real fun day and it was nice to see everyone come out and chill and have fun together. We played board games, talked, laughed, joked, etc. Some people are mad sensitive though...they get mad over little things or over a game or something...like relax lol. Other than that it was nice to countdown with everyone. Went home around 3 ish with my friend didn't sleep till like 5 though lol...today was just a relaxed day ish...did some homework chilled and stuff since I'm going to Niagara on Thursday then back on Friday then a Raptors game at night lol super busy then school starts on Tuesday lol not excited whatsoever...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Thanks for a long and successful 2012, it's been a long and beautiful year. Coming live to you from my New Years party at my friends house, I wish all of you the best 2013, be safe and well, work hard and strive far.