Insecure Thoughts...

One of my biggest fears...is failure...is not amounting to anything in life...is living an average or below average life with a crappy job. Is that why I'm in school? I dunno...is that why I work so hard for a piece of paper that says I've graduated from here and here. I dunno...I'm just so scared of the future...I'm only 20 years old, yet the future feels so close...I'm pretty much not doing well in school...I lack motivation a lot of the times...but it's just boring, I'm not interested in this stuff you know. I'm not a books smart kinda guy...I don't like to read, I'm not good at learning that way...I dunno...pray for me.