Random Thoughts

If you could, just pray for me, wish me luck, have me in your thoughts. I'm really confused, lost, scared, nervous atm...in the process or trying to switch majors...got some help from Academic Advising, they weren't that helpful actually. So I have to do a lot of the work myself, they just showed me where, I was more so hoping they'd show me how to and what, you know. I'm not 100% positive what I wanna switch into yet, but I know I have to do it asap or figure it out asap cuz I really wanna get this ish figured out and out of the way so I can start next September, you know...I'm just really swamped atm...pray for me.

Fee - God Is Alive

"Everyone glorify the Risen Son, the Holy One has overcome. Jesus is alive. The enemy is broken underneath His feet, death is crushed in victory. Jesus is alive."

Lincoln Brewster - Today Is The Day

"Today is the day that You have made and I will rejoice and be glad in it."

Random Thoughts

People claim I'm "too honest" on my blog...really? This is me...I'm not gonna think of some fancy explanation or try to defend myself...this is me, if you don't like it, deuces, nuff said. People often come to me and are like, yo I read this on your blog...to which I'll always reply, why don't you ask about it? It's simple, don't wait for me to post something that happened to me on the blog THEN come up to me and be like what's up...if you're a friend, you should take the initiative to get to know me cuz if you're using this blog as a means to get to know me more, you're not being a really good friend imo. Anyways, yeah...another thing is that...people complain I don't open up to them, so they read my blog instead to find out what's up with my life...there are so many reasons which I could answer you with. We're not that close, I don't trust you, etc, etc...but I'm betting it's cuz...you don't open up to me. I'm assuming if you're on this blog trying to find out what's going on in my life, you obv care about me and are a good friend of mine, or you're just reading it for fun. If you're a good friend or mine and you care about you...you'll trust me and feel comfortable enough around me to open up to me...you know what will happen...I'll see that you trust me enough to share your story with me and I'll build trust and a level of comfort with you. Friendship building is all about taking initiative, it's all about babysteps...sometimes I'll make the first move and open up to you cuz I already feel comfortable with you, but you can't expect me to do all the work.

Random Thoughts

This is directed to a whole bunch of people, but at the same time it's directed to a general public.

- I miss the fact that we don't talk as much as we did before anymore

- I hate that you have so many "close" friends you probably don't think much of the fact we've drifted apart

- I hate that you are so far away when I need you the most

- I hate that you won't approach me first

- I love the way you smile at me

- I love being around you, you always have a positive environment and you make my problems seem so small and you always bring me back down to earth

- I love being able to joke around with you constantly but at the same time have deep talks and heart to heart conversations

- I miss our late night walks in the middle of the night

- I appreciate that you're always there for me and we can talk about anything

- I'll always remember you were my first love

- I wish there weren't any walls between us

- I'll always have feelings for you in the back of my head, and I want the best for you

- I miss talking to you on the phone

- I'm so thankful to have you in my life, you always keep my head up when I start blowing things out of proportion

- I'm so glad you always make light of things when I overreact to little things

- I'm so glad I can look up to you and learn from you

- I hate this awkwardness between us

- I miss my best friend, I miss telling you everything and vice versa and simply being there for one another

- I love how you're showing me it's possible to be a good role model, yet have fun and be cool to be around at the same time

- I miss my bestie...I'm always wishing the best for you and my prayers are with you

- I'm so glad I've kept in touch and am still close with a lof of my high school and elementary friends

- I'm so thankful for my church friends outside of my home church, it's good to get a different perspective from a person outside looking in

Through good, bad, frustrating, happy...everything, everything is a work of God...and is tailor made for my life and has a specific reason for happening. Whether that's for me to learn, grow, mature...God has a plan, and I'm learning to trust Him, let Him take the wheel of the car and have faith in Him.

RT - Say What's Real

All my thoughts, emotion and everything I had expressed in this one freestyle..

Kanye West: The Journey

I love this picture...the bear is his own little thing he uses for all this albums and this picture just highlights from his first album all the way to his fifth...it's sick.

LOL Of The Moment

I"m watching this show called Community with Childish Gambino...sooooo jokes

Random Thoughts

You ever get that feeling...where you wanna talk to a certain person, but it's either...you're not friends anymore, you're not that close enough anymore or they're just really far away. I've felt all of those lately...where here and there, I've just had a urge to talk to some people that I miss and just miss their presence...but it's one of those three things. When that does happen, my brain automatically brings up the last time me and whoever it is that's on my mind were close and having good conversations. There's so many things I wish I could change or relive, but I always tell myself everything happens for a reason and it's all a lesson learned and it all has played a part in shaping and moulding me into who I am today and what I represent. But if I could say something to these people...I'd say...I miss the way we use to talk to each other, tell each other everything, spend hours on the phone, just know when each other were upset without us telling one another, I miss when we were genuinely close. To you...I'd say, I'm sorry...for whatever, I don't even know what happened, but uh...I miss you...I genuinely had the deepest care and love for you or I wouldn't have gone so out of my way to make you happy, but it was worth it. To you...I'd say, I wish you weren't so far away, when you came back...your presence alone and the atmosphere you bring made me so happy...you're always such a happy person and your personality, though weird and really rambunctious sometimes, really made you stand out and you were definitely easy to talk to and very laid back and relaxed. There's so many things I wanna say to people, so many people I wish I were still close to, still talking to...I dunno back. Time is the biggest test of all friendships...and time is undefeated. Distance is also another friendship killer...I don't think too much of this though, cuz yeah I've lost a lot of friends and I'm not close to a lot of friends, but I really do my best to not be really sad and down and instead be upbeat and positive and appreciate the friends that I have. Appreciate and be thankful for all the friends I've known since elementary school and brought them with me or still keep in touch with them even though I'm in university, that's what I'm thinking about, the good, not the bad. Because I've learned...what's happened, has happened...what's the use in dwelling in the bad, it's only gonna make you more sad, it's not gonna change anything. I've learned that in every situation, good or bad...you just gotta dwell on the positives, even when you're at your darkest point, try to find the light.

J. Cole - The Badness feat. Omen

I've been listening to a lotttt of J. Cole lately, his lyrics are just so meaningful and filled with passion and emotion...it definitely hits me hard. I love this dude...some other songs you should check out that I've been replaying are "See World", "Farewell", "Can't Cry", "I Get Up"...just all of his songs in general...this dude really hits home with me.

Today....

Sup...today was a long-ish day. Woke up around 11-12 ish. Lunch at like 2 ish, dope steak and rice...messed up my order, told them I wanted noodles, but didn't wanna make a fuss so I took the rice. Afterwards, chilled with my homies for a bit, then reached Pacific Mall to get a iPhone case that charges my battery as well. Must've went to at least 15-20 if not more phone stores at the mall...funny thing is both my friends did all the talking asking if people had cases...only like 3 stores had cases and it was ugly ones, so now looking at Kijiji for nice cases. But yeah, that's pretty much what I did today, just chilling now...I've been in a really blah mood, nothing serious...just enjoying the company of my homies and all. Besides that, hitting my friends house to record a track tomorrow...need to vent, got so many thoughts and so much emotion bottled up in me. Music has def been a big therapy for me..calming me down for sure. But yeah...

Clip Of The Moment

Kobe System
- these videos are mad jokes hhaha, Kobe w/ a sense of humour...


Level 1: Success

Picture of the Moment

MJ from his journey in North Carolina to his retirement in Washington...inspiring.

Alex Goot - It Girl (Jason Derulo Cover)

This dude is soooooo good...I told y'all I found him a few days ago when Boyce Avenue featured him and I've been listening to him since, he's really good and his voice just really captures me for some reason.

Random Thoughts

People nowadays are so often quick to rush into relationships, like they feel they need a sense of comfort and a relationship is the ultimate form of comfort and safety. I dunno...I'm always hearing random people or friends say like man, I wish I had a boyfriend or girlfriend...oh man see that, I wish I had that. They get so caught up in that, but real talks, it's not all that cracked up tbh. People just feel they need to have somebody who so called "loves" them you know. I guess it's cuz we're surrounded by love and it's like when you're a little kid, you don't want a red ball, but when someone else takes the red ball, all of a sudden, you want the red ball. It's kind of relatable don't you think, you see someone's happiness and how much fun they're having in a relationship and all of a sudden you want one too. Honestly, I somewhat feel that way, but not as of late. As of late, I've really been reflecting, I've "liked" a few people here and there after my ex and I broke up. But to be genuinely honest, the last person I really liked and fell head over heels for...wasn't my ex...it was some girl in high school. I haven't had that feeling in a long time, and I'm not desiring to either. Yeah I see my friends in relationships, it's not a big deal to me cuz I see all the burdens that come along with it as well. It'd be nice to have a girlfriend, but I'm not making it a goal to find one. People make it an objective everyday to reach parties and clubs to find a girlfriend...are you serious, if you worked that hard at like school or your job, it would do wonders. But anyways I'm just trying to live life cuz I know when the time comes, the right one will come alone. What's the point of searching and trying to find the one when you should just let it come to you. When the time comes, you'll be ready. That's just not two cents on relationships, some people I know literally feel the need to be in a relationship cuz they get a sense of loneliness without it, I'm just doing me and when the right one comes along, that'll just be a bonus.

LOL Of The Moment

Been watching Fresh Prince clips...came across these, had me dying in my chair...a lot of them disabled embedding -_-

- "Ohhh Grey Poupon to you too girl...LOOOOL."

Jay-Z & Kanye West - Murder To Excellence

My jam atm...

Real Talks Of The Moment

A few days ago, I got a text from my friend saying she and her friend who I know as well were having a conversation. Basically, her friend was saying how I always advertise my blog and write something cocky to go along with it (you'll only get it if you have me on facebook). But yeah...no, I'm not a cocky dude, I don't try to be. I try to be witty and smart, there's a difference. I right things like..."We made it (insert blog link)" or..."Straight from the gutters (insert blog link)". But apparently, I guess I come off as cocky, and sometimes, maybe I do...you know why...cuz I've worked so damn hard, been through so damn much and lasted too damn long to coast by and sit idly by and chill. Sometimes, even the humblest of dudes gotta just be like, damn...that was me...you know what I'm saying. Michael Jordan, Muhammad Ali, 2Pac....they all had that swagger. I'm not tryna be a boastful dude and rub things in people's faces, no, no no...but what I'm doing...is just, I dunno. Like this blog has been through and lasted so long...I deserve to be able to look back and boast a bit about how far I've come you know. And for someone who hardly knows me or this blog to judge me based on statuses I write about this blog....not cool. This is me...simple, if you don't like it...don't come back, no hard feelings. Whatever, sometimes...I deserve to be a cocky, son of a gun.

Cover Of The Moment

I found this dude on youtube when he was features on one of Boyce Avenue's videos...his name is Alex Goot...he's soooo gooood, literally in my top 5 already...

Demi Lovato - Skyscraper


The Script - Breakeven


The Beatles - Let It Be
- feat. AJ Rafael

Random Thoughts

Sup....chilling here getting ready to go out for a fam dinner at 8 ish. Didn't do much today, had church...chilled. But yeah, yesterday was a pre chinese new year dinner with just my fam, but they invited their one church friend cuz she's home alone. So we were talking and ish and she's like yeah I'm really lonely at home cuz her daughter goes to Queens. Her daughter really, I wouldn't say hates it there, but gets homesick easily and there dad left I believe, didn't bother inquiring about that. But yeah, just the fact that she was alone and lonely, really really missing her daughter hit me how important family is. I always imagine what it would be like if I res'd, yeah I'd miss the little things like my bed, homecooked meals, etc...but I think what I'd miss the most is my family. The only reason I'd really wanna res is for the experience and to meet new people, good thing York's res is really boring since most people commute, so that helped me make my decision. It just really made me appreciate my family always being there for me, I think we all take people who are always there for us for granted cuz they're always there you know. It isn't until you go without something good for a while that you realize how good it really is. I guess that goes for family or people, you don't really appreciate someone's value and see how important they are until they're gone. I guess that can also go for friends as well, cuz like I said, I'm still not seeing eye to eye with some friends and it stings here and there...I always see perfect opportunities given to me to go approach them and be like hey what's up...but I give myself excuses and I chicken out...I dunno...I'm slowly, but surely learning and appreciating how important my family and friends are.

Kobe Bryant vs Lebron James

Simply epic, nuff said...the black Heat jerseys are too dirty...oh man.

Today....

I'm sorry for no posts today, was kinda busy loafting and doing ish lol...today was actually surprisingly productive. Woke up at like 11 ish, loafted on my mac for a bit, literally a bit lol like half an hour. Finished writing this thing I've been working on, just need to record it. Wrote the letter to my ex, loafted on that maaajor...feels good to have that done, just need to hand it to her. After that, I loafted till dinner time, parents had people over for chinese new year dinner, or pre chinese new year dinner since the first day is Monday so they tell me, other than that, sorry for not posting...throughout the day, I'm always like alright Rodmond, don't forget to post on the blog and then later at night I'm like...shoot, I forgot lol. My bad...btw, answer the POLL when you have time, thanks. Only takes a sec, literally.

Today....

I really did not do much, or anything for that matter. Woke at at like 12 ish, had school but didn't go...I'm considering switching majors, that's what I wanted to tell you guys, except it's a much longer story with reasoning of course, but that's for another time. Today I just chilled, literally chilled...went to Sobeys to get snacks, and just chilled. But uh yesterday, I went to my friend's sisters drama thing she was directing but before I told him let's go Mcds a bit earlier so we can talk as well. I just explained to him my school situation and wanting to switch majors...I'm actually really glad I have friends, though few or many, I'm glad I have friends I can be completely open and honest with, it really means the world to me to be able to open up with people and not hide things you know...I didn't tell him, partly cuz I forgot, maybe he'll read this, I always tell him anyways...but I really do appreciate him as a friend and I'm glad we've become as close as we have.

Francesca Battistelli - Lead Me To The Cross

I'm really feeling this, it just speaks to me and it's so powerful.

Steve Fee - Happy Day

Oh happy day, happy day, you washed my sin away.

Frankmusik - Footsteps

I'm really feeling this dude right now...he's mad dope, it's like R&B/dubstep...would you consider it dubstep? Or techno? Or something like that...

Today....

Sup, today was a loooooong day, in different terms haha. First, woke up at 6:30...to catch 7:25 bus...to make 8:30 lab. Supposed to be 2 hours but we finished in one, balled till 1:30, broke in new shoes, felt so good. Met new people at the gym, saw familiar faces at the gym. Had a lab at 2:30 till 3:30...felt real tired, went home at around 5. Showered, got ready, dipped at around 6 ish for Mcds, then went to my old high school for my friend's sister's play which she directed. There were 2 plays, one grade 9 one and one grade 12 one. Grade 9's were mad nervous and fumbled a bit but mad respect to them, it was good. Grade 12 one was just dope lol it was funny, dramatic, all that good stuff. I'm kinda in the middle of some thing right now with school...when things die down a bit, I'll tell you guys about it, lemme figure it out first myself.

Varsity - Future Love

Heard this song sooo long ago, can't believe I still have it...back in my underground R&B music sites...hahah

Real Talks Of The Moment

Instead of doing things right, focus more on doing the right things.

Today....

Sup...so today I had a 2 classes from 9:30 to 10:30 and 10:30 to 11:30 but decided to skip and go to breakfast at Cora's with my friends. First time going to that place, it's like Eggsmart, a breakfast place basically. Sooo gooood, I got 3 eggs, 3 sausages, 3 bacon strips, potatoes, bread, sooo dope...all for $11 ish. I saw this chocolate and banana crepe I was so tempted to get, but really wanted eggs, bacon, sausages, etc. My friend got it and it looked sooooo bomb, it was huuuge, def trying that next time. Went to school at like 12 ish, track and field at 12:30...so jokes, we had testing today, 200m. I'm racing my friend, he's like talking ish...I'm running, I hear his footsteps behind me, he's closing in...suddenly no sound...I'm running still, I hear someone yell...oh man he has a cramp...I finished the race and I felt bad but at the same time, I was dying LOL cuz dude was talking so much ish and comes like hobbling to the finish line LOOOL. I still need to get a York sweater, beeeeen loafting on that, maybe a lanyard too, but I don't even really use lanyards, but it's good to put my keys I guess...I'll see, depends how much it is as well.

LOL Of The Moment

I barely watch Family Guy anymore, not cuz it's not funny, well I barely watch TV in general anymore...-_-

LOL Of The Moment

I've been 9gag'ing a lot lately, my friends will attest to that...it's basically a site with funny pictures, this one killed me...for all my Dragon Ball Z fans again...

LOL Of The Moment

For all my Dragon Ball Z fans...Vegeta yells at Goku...

Jamie Foxx - Superman

I love slow jams like these...soothing and relaxing...

Yesterday...

So yesterday there were no posts, my bad...you guys should now by now Monday is a full day of school for me, so it's hard for me to post. But yesterday wasn't really a full day, but it was definitely an eventful one. Went to school at 11:30, chilling outside waiting for my friend. This girl standing beside me taps me and she's like want a cigarette? I'm like nah it's cool, I don't smoke, you shouldn't either. And she smiled at me lol. Then I'm chilling with my friend outside, this asian nerdy dude walks past us, turns around goes hey...happy birthday man. I'm like huh...he's like wasn't it your birthday yesterday, I'm like no...he's like oh...my bad...lol. Track and Field class at 12:30...had to run a mile (8laps) around the track...did it in 7:47...need to def improve that. Went to class, then finally went to the ball courts with my friends, got a good run in, hit the gym, went back to ball got more runs in, chilled, dipped...supposed to have a class at 7 to 10 but I was too tired and exhausted so went to Markville, got some sushi then dipped home.

Random Stories

Hey, so I tweeted a while back "Man I've done some crazy things for girls in the past...never again." LOL I got a few people asking me what that was about...lol well I'll share one story with you. So back in...high school, grade 9 or 10 cuz this was when I got my first cell phone. Some Nokia sliding up and down phone, but I loved it hahaha. Anyways, I was always tight with this one girl, like we told each other everything...deep, dark, embarrassing secrets...we knew everything about each other. So her birthday was coming up...I wasn't sure if I liked her or not, but you know when you get really close with a girl and you're really good friends...there's bound to be at least a teeny bit of feelings for that person, whether you're willing to admit it or not...anyways, I wasn't trying to play around or test that feeling. Anyways, so her birthday was coming up and I had gotten her a stuffed rabbit cuz she liked rabbits (I wonder if she'll read this...) and a card. So this was sometime during winter, I remember it really clearly, So it was the day of her birthday, I wanted to give her her present, on that day...not cuz I liked her, but maybe I did, who knows...but also because I wanted to be a good friend and I wanted to surprise her. She was at our old elementary school (been friends since then) volunteering and I go back a lot to visit my teacher. Anyways, I knew she was volunteering, I wanted to go visit and surprise her as well, so anyways...I wore my brother's nice jacket...it as a fall jacket, not even a winter jacket...and it was a snowstorm, I kid you not...it was a snowstorm..I remember this day really clearly and you'll soon find out why. Anyways, so I wore a fall jacket and thin dollar store gloves with jeans on. My school was only like 5-10 minutes away so I ran, literally ran, cuz I was cold. Carrying her ish my bag and a bunch of things in the jacket's pockets. So I ran to the school...wearing walking shoes, the snow was already deep as it is and it was storming...snow all over my jean legs, inside my shoes...socks were mad wet, hands were cold, body was cold. Made it to school, was freezing, but I see her...she sees me, suddenly I smile and I feel warmer, so she's like what're you doing, visiting? I'm like yeah...that and...happy birthday...gave her her present. She's a real girly girl so she's like awwww omg so cute, etc...she opens the card, stares at it for a bit...looks at me for a bit, we were a good metre apart, runs at me hugs me and kisses me...I didn't write like I love you or I like you or anything in the letter cuz I didn't even really know if I liked her, but yeah...I was kinda surprised by her reaction..lol...nah we didn't end up dating though, we just remained really close friends. ANYWAYS...that's like a quarter of the story, so yeah, that's over...I RANNNN back home, through the same way I got back, leg pants covered in snow, socks filled with snow, whole body cold...I'm finally home, I go to get my keys in my pocket...it's not there...IT'S NOT THERE. I start freaking out, and you don't understand how cold I was as well, it was storming and I was dressed for fall. I could not find my keys, started retracing my steps...basically walked all the way back to the school, around the fields, snow all up in my shoes...could not find my keys...ran back home cuz it was a bit warmer...not really, but I had shelter there. Go to call my mom and tell her I lost my keys....and guess what.....COULDN'T FIND MY PHONE...hoooooly...Retraced my steps again, all the way back to the school...walked around the field some more looking for both keys AND phone...couldn't find it. Ran back home, waited a good hour before my mom finally came home...she drove me and retraced my steps, couldn't find nothing...they were pretty cheesed I lost the keys and my phone. Went home, tried to listen to some music...LOST MY IPOD as well....it was a small nano with the screen....but still...my only ipod. So let's tally up what I did for this girl...ran in the snow, pants already wet, socks wet, body freezing...all for a hug and a kiss...man I'm a good friend. Ran home, lost keys, ran back to school, ran home, lost phone. Mom came home, searched around everywhere, couldn't find nothing, came home...figured I lost ipod. The losing of the things is not necessarily in that order...pretty sure I lost them all at the same time when I was running and jumping back and forth to school and home. But yeah...will always remember that day lol....the girl even felt bad when I told her I lost my phone and keys, didn't tell her or rents about ipod...they'd just get more cheesed. But yeah....funny thing was during the coming summer of that year...my neighbour rings my doorbell, my brother answers, he tells me to come down...I see my phone lying on the table. He says the neighbours found it in their grass, but no keys or ipod...no clue about that...but I find it sooooooo jokes yet annoying that my phone was right in my neighbours yard...but because of all the snow and now deep it was...and how cold I was...I couldn't find it...I still have the phone to this day -_- it was my first phone lol...and me and the girl are still really good friends, not as close cuz she went away for uni, but still close...

PS: wow that's a long story, props to you if you made it all the way reading the whole thing...

John Legend - Ordinary People

This song has been on repeat, his voice is just so soothing...

From Me To You....

"Don't let ever let somebody tell you, you can't do something. You got a dream, you gotta protect it. People can't do something themselves, they wanna tell you that you can't do it. If you want something, go get it, period." - Pursuit of Happyness (also my high school graduation quote)

Back To Basics

So as of late...I've been really out of it if you can tell. I think what I'm gonna try to do is bring this blog back to basics...and do more of this...right here, just talking to you guys. Lately, I feel all I do is post songs, funny clips, pictures...that's not bad, but...if this blog is representing me...I wanna talk to you guys too you know. That doesn't mean I'm not posting that ish anymore, it just means I'm not gonna post it super frequently. If you guys aren't a fan of my decision and don't wanna visit this blog anymore, I'll understand...but this is just something I have to do for myself...I feel like I'm still in my funk...and this is my subtle attempt to get away from that. I just wanna talk to you guys you know, give you more of me. But yeah....it really means so much and more to me that you guys have stuck with me this far...sometimes I think about this blog and how silly yet crazy it is...how big it has gotten....not celebrity big...but to me....it's big....bigger than I ever imagined it would be. I just thought this was something fun, nothing serious...to show my friends, maybe some kids from school would notice...and just the number of people this blog has reached is just amazing to me...I do this for me....but now, I know I'm doing this for so many others as well. Y'all keep me motivated to blog like I always say, otherwise...I'd just be talking to myself. Lately, I've told you guys I don't really have somebody I can talk to and just share with...partly cuz I don't know what I'm going through, partly cuz....I dunno...I just haven't found that person I can share my world with yet. But now...I know whenever I'm blogging or I write something here...I'm talking to you, you the reader, you reading these words right now as I sit and type them....so thank you....for being there for you and listening to my randomg, weird, stupid, dumb, silly, inspirational, motivational and long rants...it means a lot to me.

Today....

Hey...so today at church was my second week helping out my friend teaching grade 4-6 Sunday school. The first week, I was just chilling, doing little things so he could teach and I was kinda shy/nervous and real uptight since it was my first time. Towards the end I started opening up myself a bit more to the kids and being more assertive, most of the time I was just giving tips and hints to my friend cuz he's a shy and quiet guy. Anyways, today...I did a bit more, helped him out and just really connected and chilled with the kids. It really hit me today that...they're kids...they just wanna have fun you know, I was in that exact same position when I first came to church. So that's what I was telling my friend, yeah it's good that they learn at an early age...but you can't be majorly serious with them. I was telling him, they're just kids you know. Once you open up to them, they'll open up to you and sometimes you just gotta take what you have, run with it and have fun. If you aren't having fun or setting a positive environment, they'll notice. But yeah, today I was def more interactive with the kids, chilling, playing with them and just talking and getting to know them...they were def hesitant the first week when I came, but now they're mad cool, cracking jokes, jumping on me all that stuff....I was real happy. But yeah man...the main key is to just have fun with it....teach them, sing songs, read the bible...but just have fun with it.

Another thing I found interesting that I forgot to mention last week was one of the girls left the room with this guy and a girl, she came back crying and real pissed. The other 2 came back snickering and guilty...so I went up to the girl and I'm like what's up, what's wrong...with tears running down her eyes, she's like...nothing. I'm liek...really now...nothing's wrong...you just cry for fun. Basically I found it crazy that even at that of a young age...all girls are exactly the same....well most girls, don't wanna offend y'all...girls are just like that, even though you can see that they are clearly upset and it shows...they'll be liek nothing's wrong...on the outside, it seems like they want you out of their face...and partially they do....but deep down inside, I know and I'm just so sure...that they're hoping that you're be persistent and continue asking them what's wrong. When someone pushes people away, that's when they need somebody the most..but they're afraid, so you have to take initiative to do it yourself. It's crazy that at this age and at her age...she would be teaching me a lesson....that's crazy lol.

Real Talks Of The Moment

So today at church, the message talked about conflicts and how in every conflict, you have 2 choices. You can either say goodbye, it's your problem, you do you, I do me...or you can stand by and say, I know it's gonna be tough, but I'm in it for the long run pretty much. Too often, saying goodbye is the easier decision, so we go with that cuz it comes with no backlash...you and the person cut off...their problem remains their problem and you just do you. Standing by may be the harder route, but it's the one which'll provide you so much more joy. I personally find no better pleasure than to help a friend lift a burden or to cheer them up, I guess that's why I really value friendship...I care a lot about my friends and don't wanna see them sad. Today, it was also said that, when it comes to conflict, we are so quick to point the finger, your fault, not my fault. Since it was your fault, you fix it. Why not be the bigger person, take the initiative and fix it yourself. Or too many times when someone wrongs us...we feel the need to do the same to them...an eye for an eye makes the whole world blind. It's crazy how whenever I'm going through certain things, God puts the answer right in front of my face...every Sunday the message always seems to apply to me more and more...God really does answer prayers, sometimes we try to look for small hints or hidden tricks that God is placing in our lives when the answer is right in front of our face.

"But I say to you, do not resist the one who is evil. But if anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also." - Matthew 5:39

Random Thoughts

I'm really excited to record this next track for you guys, I've recently started writing and the words are just flowing...a few weeks back I tried to write and force myself and it just didn't work you know, it has to come from the heart. It wasn't until a few days ago, I heard 2 songs...I at first starting writing to the first song, but didn't like how it was flowing, kept the same lyrics, continued writing but this time it was for the second song and now it's flowing much more nicely and I'm really excited and happy about how it's sounding. I've really put my heart and so much more into this, I just really needed to express myself...can't wait to record this, stay tuned.

Real Talks Of The Moment

Just be yourself, that's why people like you. - Drake

Too many times we try to cater to those people who don't like us, we obsess and wonder why and what's wrong with us that would make them dislike us. Whatever you do in like, there are gonna be people who don't like you and make it their life goal to bring you down, that's just life. Don't change, be real with yourself, that's why the people you have surrounding you are with you, cuz they like you just the way you are. Why change for someone you don't know or doesn't like you when you have so many people in your life who love you exactly the way you are.

Random Ish

This is the most viewed post on this blog, it has been viewed 2,107 times...and it really says something to me I guess, cuz I keep going back to it. See for yourself...

http://thebestyouneverheard.blogspot.com/2011/05/real-talks-of-moment_18.html

Real Talks Of The Moment

Nothing to say...but I was listen to Drake - Say What's Real...

"Don't listen to anybody that knew me, cuz to known me would mean that there's a new me and if you think I've changed then the slightest could have fooled me."

From Me To You....

Hi...so after I wrote the post below this morning...I thought long and hard about it for the rest of the day...and I might take this weekend off and not post anything, maybe...if I end up posting tomorrow, I'll post, if not, then you'll know I'm taking the weekend off to gather my thoughts and find myself. As usual, if you wanna find me and keep up to date with me, follow me or check my twitter @RTtheRealest and if you wanna browse fun stuff, check my facebook or tumblr...links in the side...thanks.

From The Heart: Not Myself

If you guys watch Jersey Shore, don't judge me, I know some of y'all find it dumb, but it's funny as well. Anyways...if y'all watch Jersey Shore...right now, I'm feeling like Vinny, when I watched that episode, I felt more and more similar to him. I'm just in this funk...and I dunno what's wrong with me you know. Lately I've been really busy, stressed and caught up with school, but at the same time I've noticed I'm just not myself....or at least I feel weird. I just feel like Vinny, I'm in this funk and I can't explain it. I can't really talk to nobody about it because I myself don't even know what's up. And in Jersey Shore, they're like, when a bunch of people smother him, he fights back...but when they leave him alone, he'll eventually come to them...and I feel like I'm kinda like that....where when my friends do something, if I'm not feeling it...I'll just wander off and do my own thing. I dunno....I feel like I'm only having fun, having laughs and being myself with my homies...my boys, you know...I guess it's cause lately I haven't been seeing eye to eye with some of my other friends lately. And at the same time I don't have very many close girl friends, just random girls I talk casually to, but nothing serious or deep. So yeah....I dunno, I'm just feeling like I'm in this funk...and as of late, my heart hasn't even been in blogging....and yesterday when I was blogging, I was kinda...bored...and the thought even flashed into my head of taking a break from the blog...not taking it down, but not blogging for a week....a month...who knows. I'm just in this funk you know, where it's mad confusing...like, I don't really wanna talk to anybody cuz I don't even know what I'm going through myself, but at the same time I just want that sense of security of someone being there for me and knowing that they're there ready to comfort me whenever I'm ready to talk. I guess also the fact that I lost a friend who was like that really hurts as well and I have a sense of being lost and exposed and just being fragile. Me and this friend were really close, we use to talk daily about whatever....I would know when she was upset and she would know when I was upset and lately....no matter how hard I seem to be trying to get things the way they were, it just isn't working. Either I feel like she isn't into it or I just feel like it's not working you know. People tell me she wants to fix it as well, she loves it when I talk to her, things like that...but....I just don't see it. And yeah I give great advice to my friends about these kinds of things, but I dunno man...and another thing is a lot of my friends I kinda talk personally with dipped for university so I'm really limited on the number of close friends I have and people I can talk to. And I'm not really big on talking on msn, texting, phone about what I'm going through...I really just like talking in person you know. But I dunno....that's just me atm....I keep thinking about the Jersey Shore episode...where Vinny is in a funk, he can't sleep whatsoever, he doesn't know what's wrong with himself, his friends try to help but he kinda keeps to himself....that's all me, and it kept hitting me. I really can't sleep as of late, I'm unmotivated in school, I doze off, I'm only having fun with my homies but even then I can only really talk closely with a handful of them. I dunno, I just prefer talking to girl about these things? Is that weird...I'll talk to my boys about these things, but I dunno, just the comfort of having a girl...I don't even have to like her or she doesn't even have to be my girlfriend, but having a close girl friend you can talk to and be there for and vice versa is a good feeling you know. Cuz sometimes, my boys just wanna chill as well and I don't wanna burthen them with these kinds of things. I dunno, I'm just really in a funk right now...but I don't know what to do...unlike Vinny, I'm already home...I just need to get out somewhere or meet new people....cuz I'm just not myself....and I dunno.....I was really considering taking time off from blogging cuz my heart just wasn't in it and I was really bored of it....but I doubt it...I dunno...pray for me man....that I'll get out of this funk, cuz I'm just all over the place right now.

Kina Grannis on Jimmy Kimmel

She performed "In Your Arms"...soooon nice and mad cute...def cheering me up a bit :)

From Me To You....

A lot of the times, when I'm venting...I have everything planned out in my head...but when I start typing, it slowly starts to fade...hahaha so sorry if I sound confusing a lot of the times. But uh...people sometimes get upset at me when I talk about them on the blog, twitter, etc...even when I don't use names. They get cheesed I talk about them, that I didn't say it to them, that I'm a coward, etc. Maybe you're right, but then again...I'm just venting, this blog, my twitter is me...just expressing myself, do you not express yourself. This blog is my diary...except it's public...but I try to make things private by not mentioning names or not being uber specific to not embarrass nobody. People seem to like to get on my case cuz I "talk ish" about people. So let me clear the air....or spit some words for you. Everybody talks ish...you (not you the reader, but you as in whoever) talk ish about me...have you never had a conversation with your friend and were talking ish about me, ever written a nasty letter, post and not sent it but it was bad and it was about me? You're doing the same exact thing as me...you're saying something or writing something about me not to my face...so how can you get on my case? Cuz I put it on a blog and people read it? Do you not gather with your friends and tlak ish about it? Isn't that the same thing? What's the different...ish talk is ish talk...I get annoyed when people are like you're a coward...how? I'm venting...what I'm doing right now is equivalent to you writing in a diary, there's no real major difference. Talking ish in my opinion would be intentionally slandering someone on my blog and being hateful and talking hateful about them then trying to get others to do the same. What I do..is vent...I get frustrated, I say things like this person annoyed me today, I'm mad at them...I'm not talking ish, I'm not being a coward...I'm venting. The next time you talk ish about me to your friends or write it in a diary, I can come to you and be like well....you didn't say it to my face, you're a coward...c'mon son. I'm not pinpointing this post of any "From Me To You" posts at anybody, this is just in general...this blog is my blog first of all, if you don't like the content, I'm not asking you to visit...secondly, this is just where I express myself...you do the exact same thing...it's also not my fault that lots of poeple come see this blog....I'm doing lots of people a favour as it is by trying to keep some things private like not mentioning names, etc...but yeah...that's just my two cents, whether you asked for it or not...

What Girls Do On The Internet

LOOOOOOL I love Jenna Marbles...she's mad cute and she speaks truth...girl's step your game up

Cover Of The Moment

David So - Ordinary People (John Legend)

Random Ish

From one Chicago legend to a future one...

Frank Ocean - Bricks And Steel

Frank Ocean is one of those dudes that keeps growing on me...his voice is amazing. Still don't believe he's with Odd Future lol...tbh I like him more than Tyler...not really feeling Tyler anymore...eh...

Mary J. Blige - Mr. Wrong feat. Drake

Official video...she released the video with just herself but apparently it didn't do so well, so maybe that's why she released it again except this time with Drake..hahaha.

Big Sean - Get It feat. Pharrell

Can't believe I never heard this off the FF album...smh at myself, other than that, it's a pretty chill tune, I like it.

From Me To You....

Friendship...this is for anyone who sometimes has trouble understanding this concept. Friendship isn't gonna be roses and daisies and rainbows. There are gonna be tough times, fights and points where you say you hate each other, but that's what makes strong friendships. If everything was all fine and dandy, yeah you wouldn't fight, but I think you guys would get pretty bored of each other. Everyday I'm always learning something new and trying to correct mistakes and flaws that I have and change my way of thinking into a better more positive one. As of late, I'm not seeing eye to eye with a few close friends...I dunno what to do, well it's more like I'm not in the mood/I don't feel like doing anything. Friendship has it's ups and downs, but that's what makes it fun. I told my friend this "Friendship is like a rollercoaster, it's not fun when it's going up, and yeah it is kinda fun when it's going just down...but it's the fact that it goes up then down that makes it more fun. Just like friendships, you need a healthy balance of ups and downs that'll strengthen your friendship." I dunno...I'm hoping to at least try to...right some wrongs, mend some broken things. Friends are supposed to be there for each other, and as a real friend...it does matter how your friend perceives you, but if that's all you care about, that's wrong. Sometimes you just have to care about that person so much for the sake of just caring for them and because you care about them. It's like giving presents, if you're giving presents just for the sake of hoping you get one in return, that's the wrong way of thinking. Just like friendship....I'm learning to care a lot about my friends, but not expecting them to view me exactly as important as I view them, it'd be a bonus if they did and as a friend, if they viewed me as a friend, they would....but I'm not gonna cry if they don't. Because they're my friend and I view them as important...if they view me as good friend but not a really close friend...that's all good...but still at the same time, friends should mutually view each other as important, close and valuable. I know I said a lot of confusing and contradicting things, but I hope you get the gist of it..lol.

Menudo - Inside Out

OHHH MANNN...this was my JAMMMMMMMMMM. When I first started downloading music...this was my first real BANGER!!! I use to think the group's name was It's Love...cuz that's what they put on the site, but when I tried to find more of their songs, it didn't work...then I searched the lyrics and found out the band name is Menudo...but damn...first started downloading music when I was liek in grade 10-11...so it's been a whilleeeee...

Keyshia Cole - Love

Remember her? Where'd she go? She was real good...she reminds me of like Rihanna/Keri Hilson

NBA Clip Of The Moment

So uh....the Toronto Raptors lost today against the 0-8 Washington Wizards giving them their first win....talk about embarrassing. "THE Washington Wizards" is trending on twitter..LOOOL so because the Raptors received such an accomplishment, I decided to bring back another accomplishment...when the Los Angeles Lakers visited them a couple years ago....and Kobe scored 81...sad thing is if you watch the score...the Raptors are leading for a good portion of the game, anyways...enjoy.

JRA - Billionaire Remix

I love the last verse... "If I was a millionaire, I'd never be mad. I'd pay all of the bills for my mom and dad." Mad cute...

Nike: Kobe System

New Nike commercial, notable appearances from Kanye West, Serena Williams, Jerry Rice and Hope Solo

Machine Gun Kelly - The Return

Random Thoughts

Sup...stuck in class right now. 3 hours...first hour I literally fell asleep, started snoring. Friend woke me up...was also watching the Raptors game. Break at like 8 ish...started playing doodle jump and then temple run for a good half hour till like 9 ish, now just chilling till the end of class..finishing up the Raptors game, so glad I have a day off tomorrow. Let's see, what happened today, so finished class at 2:30...had a break from then till 7. Was gonna play ball or go to the gym and break in my new shoes, but earlier in the day in my track and field pkin...I wore my new ball shoes cuz I was too lazy to go to my locker and get my running shoes. In the pkin we ran like laps after laps after laps...my shoes were still hard so my big toe kept hitting the tip of my shoes and I knew I was bleeding or something. Took my sock off and I had like a blister or something cuz a piece of skin came off :S gross I know...LOOOL. So that's why I didn't ball or workout. My friend was like, you should've wore your shoes inside your house to break them in...now I know. So I just loafted on my computer during my break. For all my stories up to date and at the current time, you really need to follow me on twitter @RTtheRealest. These are all just short summaries. Anyways yeah, chilled with these 2 asian twins in my program. They're maaaaaaad cute.....real talks. One of t hem went to get timmies and came back with soup for me lol, I didn't even ask, but she knew my throat was hurting hahaha maddd cute. But yeah...chilling in class right now, watching the Raptors game.

Katt Williams - American Hustle

LOOOOOL AT THE FIRST 20 SECONDS, IM DYING ALREADY

Cover Of The Moment

Drake - Crew Love feat. The Weeknd just got up, about to head out, saw this...had to share it....

Tim Hughes - God Of Justice

"Jesus, You have called us. Freely we've received, now freely we will give."

Random Stories

Sup...so forgot to mention that in church today, didn't go to Sunday school cuz I helped out my friend teach his Sunday school. It was jokes cuz they were grade 4-6 and as soon as I came in, these kids were already in their cliques lol and it's crazy how when I was their age, I just did my thing, but now that I'm older, you notice these kinda things right away lol. It was really like deja vu for me, cuz I went to church at their age, barely being able to grasp the ish, zoning out from time to time, just wanting them to shut up so I can talk to my friends lol. There was one point where 2 girls and 2 dudes go outside, this one girl comes back in crying, mad cheesed andd the 3 come back in looking guilty....more deja vu, you know that feeling. But yeah, other than that, it was a nice experience, the kids were cool, I really had fun, def looking forward to helping out more.

Katt Williams - White Friends

LOOOL HAHAHAHAHA

Random Thoughts

Sorry for no posts yesterday, was really busy yesterday. Tryna schedule a meeting with some dude at like 5 ish, but my friend wanted to go to the mall from 4-6 then his bday thing at 7. Talking back and forth w/ the dude cuz he was replying very slowly, ended up flopping and going to the mall, got home, showered, went to Dave and Busters for games and dinner. That place is really sick, food is good but pricey. Games are fun, prizes are waste and need way too many coupons for a small toblerone. Came home at around 1 ish and didn't sleep till 4...and I had to wake up at like 8 the next day...cheesed. Today I woke up, went to church, played ball at church till like 2 ish, went home and now gaming atm with friends. First full week of school tomorrow, not excited. 9:30 am to 10 pm :( But I have a huge break from like 2:30 till 7 my last class. Gonna use that time to ball, break in my new shoes, workout, eat, then go to class...yeah buddy.

Today....

Sup...today was a short, but reeeal tiring day for some reason. Started off in the morning, I fell asleep on the bus immediately, was mad tired...slept all the way to York, let everyone go off, finally got up and got off the bus lol. Went to class, this girl in the front row...ran up the stairs, tripped and fell...ran out of the class like Usain Bolt LOOOL everyone was laughing, oh man. Met some girl for my friend cuz he wanted to sell his book, she was cute-ish. Had a class at 1:30, but it was like 11:30, I was tired...dipped home. Bussed home, almost missed my stop...like i said it was a tiring day for some reason, slept on the bus right away...went to the mall, got new ball shoes...white hyperfuses, check my twitter for pics (@RTtheRealest). What else...came home, napped again, showered, napped again...church, home, loaft LOL.

On another note...2 funny stories I remembered from elementary school....
1) This one's not as funny so I'll start with this one....so it's track and field and we're signing up for things in class, we just started grade 7 or 8 can't remember, it was 7...got introduced to smt called 1500m....there's your standard 100m, 200m, 400m, 800m....1500m was like 3 laps and a bit? Cuz 400 is one lap...so yeah. So teacher goes around the attendance, ppl are saying what they wanna sign up for, comes to me, I say all my things, and at the end I'm like 1500m as well, teacher looks at me like are you sure? I'm surprised but impressed as well, I hope you can handle it. Now come race day there were like 10+ kids doing 1500m with me, I was never a runner but wanted to push myself. I was dying the whole time, but kept pushing it, near the end...I saw myself slowly start passing people, the dude who was 1st was waaaaay gone...but I was slowly passing ppl, I ended up getting 4th (top 8 get ribbons)...didn't make areas for that but when I passed the finished line, I stopped to breathe...saw NUFFF mans come after me....and these were guys who were way faster than me and ish, so I was mad proud of myself....wow, that wasn't funny at all...LOOOL

2)Kk this story is funny for sure, in g7...we did ball throw (that was my ishhhhh), so we did it...I got 2nd, my friend got 1st...we get to go to areas. Teacher comes to us after and goes...boys, I made a mistake, you're in g7 now, we weren't supposed to do ball throw, we were supposed to do shot put. He's like shot put is you try to throw/push a 5lbs ball as far as you can, in my head I was like not too bad (I was scrawny back then). We try it and practise, practise, practise cuz we never did it and though we won ball through, we had to do shot put for areas. We didn't think we were too bad...come areas....THESE DUDES WERE HUUUUUUUGE.....saw my friends from other schools (they were big) and they were like wtf...you guys won shot put? LOOOOL So we go up for our turn....ME AND MY FRIEND GET DISQUALIFIED TWICE....stepped past the line, but our balls went nowhere...soooo sad, it was like a little girl doing it LOOOOOLLL, didn't even stay...once we got dq'ed we dipped, didn't wanna watch it LOOOOL.

Erin Paula - Sooner Than Later

I was really feelin' this song...searched up covers, found my way back to Erin Paula...damn

Drake - Hate Sleeping Alone

The Weeknd - Same Old Song

This dude is just soooo talented...his voice is amazing.

Traphik - C.H.I.A. (Chilling In The Atmosphere)

This is really good, love the flow and beat of the song....mad cute as well

NBA Clip Of The Moment

That was just a duuurty pass, even better finish...

Machine Gun Kelly - End Of The Road

"Whatever you love can be taken away, so live life it's your dying day."

J. Cole - Best Friend

"I'll still be there for you, in your time of need, you can lean on me."

Today....

I was out and about all day, woke up and went to play ball in a SQUASH court...it was pretty small, but we managed to do 3 on 3. Ate lunch, came home and gamed until 8 ish, went to church to practise songs for worship on Sunday. That's pretty much my day lol...school tomorrow...it's also Friday, that'll be the first week of school....already thinking of summer, sigh.

Random Thoughts

As I was scrolling down, I was looking at the left bar, the posts and the titles...and this blog has really progressed throughout the years. December 15, 2009 to December 31, 2009...there were a total of 11 posts. That's crazy...then in the year of 2010, there were a combined total of 198 posts. This is the year I kinda started to blog a bit more, but still only do it when I had time or when I remembered. This was also the year I took off the blog, or at least stopped doing it for a few months. Then I got back into it and...2011...which I now call the "breakout year" because just look...1633 posts in the year of 2011...way over 50% of the overall posts in this blog, that's just intense. But yeah...here's to a long, successful 2012. I'm not gonna try to beat the number of posts in 2011 otherwise I'd just post random videos all day. And I think that's what happened in the beginning of 2011...that's why as the year was coming to an end, you saw the posts per month kept getting smaller. That's cuz, though I was posting less, I was really putting more effort and more of my heart into each post you know. And I think that's what I'm gonna do in 2012 as well...I'm not gonna focus on posting as much and as often as I can, but posting with my heart and my thoughts and just me. Quality over quantity, am I right? Thanks for sticking with me this far, thanks for making this as big as it has become, thanks for supporting me and my crazy, weird, dumb, cool, stupid blog...lol.

Kina Grannis - Strong Enough

Today....

Was my first day back at school...literally could not sleep. I went to bed at 12...loafted and rolled around till 1...listened to music till 2...rolled around some more and it was 3...finally went to bed. Woke up and was surprisingly awake, went to school. Funniest thing ever....first class, prof is talking for 10 minutes...I see 2 flashes in both corners of my eyes...I'm like....did someone just take a picture? It keeps flashing and someone's like fire drill...I was like saaaay word...hahha fire drill my first day back, first class. Came back with like half an hour left in class, literally fell asleep...LOOOOOL. Second class, in the same room. Now me and my friend are sitting in the aisle and 2nd seat. This girl in the row behind is, jumps one row (our row) into a seat, her leg is kinda like caught so it appears...I look at my friend I'm like, imagine if she got stuck....he turns to me and is like yo...I think she is stuck...I turned around and she was...I started DYINGGGGG...LOOOOOOOOL she was there for a good 3 minutes....struggling until she finally took off her boot and freed herself, mad jokes. What else....saw some cute girls from last year that I talked to. Chilled with this reeeal cutie that I met in my first year and we talked and just shared our breaks, etc....she's mad cute, like nerdy, silly, weird cute....but still cute. Anyways, it was a def fun and eventful first day haha.

We are not LOSERS, we are LASERS.

Me, Myself & I

Hi....I feel like I don't really put myself on this blog too often, not my thoughts or whatever, but like myself in general....simple things when you get to know someone and I feel like y'all don't really know me lol. Maybe some of y'all do but uh...I'm 19....turning 20 this year, bday is May 15th...born 1992....2nd year Kinesiology student at York University. Love basketball, music, fashion, poetry. One older brother...8 years apart, so he's 27. What else....Christian, love God, he's my friend, my Creator, my Savior. Rapping and writing is just something I do for fun and as a means of expressing myself. Gonna try to do this more often...y'already know what it is...follow me on twitter @RTtheRealest

Trey Songz - Love Lost

It use to be one song, but it's like the more I listen to Trey, the more I think about my ex...LOOOL awks...
"When the one you need don't need you, what do you do...when your love is lost."

J. Cole - Rise And Shine

One of the realest out there, I love his lyrics...

Random Thoughts

As of late...I'm been really all over the place, Christmas and New Years were hectic, really busy like planning things, going out here and there, just chilling and really enjoying myself..so blogging was kinda half hearted...my bad. As of late...a lot's been up and down lately. Chilling with the homies is always fun, gets the spirits up and overall just a positive environment. Anything I chill with the homies...it's memories man, we have fun, make jokes...bond...that's why they're my homies...I enjoy their company. I also love chilling with my church mans...they're fun to be around and as I grow closer to God, I find myself longing to get to know and bond with my church mans more and more. It's crazy how God brings together people. My church man and I are so different, in school....I probs would never chill with them and wouldn't think of even getting to know them. But church does that to people, brings people from different crews and sides of the wall and bonds them together...and finds common interests. Lately, I also haven't been seeing eye to eye with a few people as well...partially my fault, partially their fault, I'm not gonna get too deep into it. But all I know is...I feel a lot of the times, I'm trying way too hard while the other person is loafting, you know? But anyways...2012 is a new year, beef, drama and all that ish is the last thing I wanna worry about, and I'm not. Do I wanna fix it? Sure...if the opportunity presents itself...but I'm not gonna go out of my way to fix it...cuz the other party/s isn't doing that. i'm just gonna chill...school's starting tomorow, gotta get books, find my classes, really buckle down as we reach the last turn before the final stretch till summer and final exams. 2012, I'm ready for you...

PS: DON'T FORGET TO ANSWER THE POLL

LOL Of The Moment

Think Like A Man...looks like a jokes movie hahaha...

Hillsong United - One Way

"I turn to You and You were always there."

Clip Of The Moment

300 is a sick movie, go watch it if you haven't. SPOILER ALERT...this is the final clip of the movie, don't watch it if you haven't seen the movie and don't wanna ruin it for yourself.

Big Sean - So Much More

"Whatever you do in life, make sure you follow your heart. Nobody can see your vision like you can see it." Inspiring...

Real Talks Of The Moment

Read this

http://thebestyouneverheard.blogspot.com/2011/12/real-talks-of-moment_28.html?showComment=1325280581302#c1084202239532093736

Basically, I posted something a while ago but God testing us and how it's because he knows we're capable and ish like that. Yeah it's true, a pastor told me "Whenever God puts you in a situation, he always provides a way out." Recently, my friend commented on the link I posted and this is what she said in case you're too lazy to copy and paste the link:

"Yo bro :)
God tests us and throws challenges at us, yes, and He will afflict you if necessary to the point that you ARE overwhelmed! Not because He knows you are capable; this is untrue! We can do nothing without Him. (John15:5) But rather, the purpose is for you to know that you AREN'T capable, in fact you're weak beyond measure! Affliction beyond what you can bear is for the purpose of you directing all your attention and all your hope toward His Son: the only one who IS capable, who is your only way out...who already demonstrated this mighty strength when He conquered over sin and death to redeem your life from the grave. :)

2 Cor. 1:8-10 - For we do not want you to be ignorant, brothers, of the affliction we experienced in Asia. For we were so utterly burdened beyond our strength that we despaired of life itself. Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead."

That really hit me hard...and it was something I definitely needed. To know that, sometimes...God will put you in situations that are unbearable and he will break you down to the point of failure and till you can't take no more...but only because he wants you to recognize that you can't do this own your own strength and will alone, but you need to seek Him...and all his glory and he will guide you and provide for you. Too many times when we're struggling, we try to do it ourselves or go to our friends or family...when we really should be going to God. It isn't till you're in your lowest point until you realize God is capable of anything and everything and you must have faith in him. I dunno...I just keep reading the comment she posted over and over...it really is inspiring...to know that God is ALWAYS there for me.

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LOOOL mad jokes...

LOL Of The Moment

Effin' w/ Chaz - Dormtainment

Today....

Sup....today was a chill day, second day of 2012....so fun. Woke up at like 1 ish, went to my friend's at like 3 ish cuz his fam invited my fam and my other friend's fam for dinner, but that was later, I decided to reach earlier. We gamed, chilled, talked...it was real fun. Tomorrow's my last chill day before I start school on Wednesday. Gonna work hard as heck...gonna hit the gym, gonna ball....3 more months till exams, then I'm free...sorta. Probs gonna do summer school...so that's like 2 months, then 2 more month sof summer. OH YEAH....November holds the title for being the most viewed month with 6886...well....I'm proud to say that DECEMBER has now become the NEW MOST VIEWED MONTH OF ALL TIME with a whopping 7,150 hits...that's crazy. Don't forget we also reaching 10k hits in the month of December as well...that's amazing, here's to a long, bright and successful 2012.

Kanye West - Good Morning

Wyclef Jean - What About The Baby feat. Mary J. Blige

Kevin Michael - It Don't Make Any Difference feat. Wyclef Jean

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Okay, so I'm sorry there were no posts yesterday, I was out an about all day. Woke up at like 2 ish, reached to get chips and drinks for the countdown, reached my friends house with my xbox and the food. Chilled with friends till countdown, it was mad fun. We cooked, ate, chilled, gamed, played board games, watched movies...talked, laughed, made jokes...mad fun. But anyways...Happy New Year...2011 is gone, 2012 is here, the day is pretty much over...I hope your first day of 2012 was fun and eventful. If it wasn't, hey...you still got 364 days to make 2012 the best year of your life. As another year passes, I find myself another year older, a few more months till I turn 20, wow. But yeah...I hope y'all have a safe and fun 2012. No regrets, live life to the fullest, live each day like it's your last...I'm not saying go do something crazy, but seize the day...you only live once, break out of your comfort zone and do something you haven't done before or normally wouldn't do. Every new year we talk about change, changing clothes, schools, wardrobe, style....but I dunno....maybe that's not what you need to be changing you know...it's easy to point out other people's flaws but hard to recognize our own. So maybe what you need to change isn't what's in front of you, but it's you....anyways, I pray that 2012 brings all of you joy, peace and happiness...it's a new year, a fresh start...so forgive all your enemies, no grudges, no regrets, no beef...a new start, a clean state for everyone. Everyone deserves a second chance...no matter who it is and no matter what they've done....but yeha, HAPPY NEW YEAR...sorry I'm late...all the best, God Bless :)