Reunited...And It Feels So Good

I know March has been a slow month...my sincerest apologies...this is a story of how I was reunited with some of my childhood friends...it comes in 3 separate parts...here we go.

This one came when I was in elementary school...specifically grade 8 I believe...so you know on facebook how there are people you know through friends of friends...or when you go to your friends profiles and you just look at other people's profiles and you assume you kinda know them or like you see a bunch of mutual friends...any ways back in the day I used to just add a bunch of people I saw I had mutual friends with assuming I knew them. So any ways...I remember finding this girl on facebook...saw oh, she goes to central park public school, but we had a bunch of mutual friends...but another thing was...she looked really familiar...her name will remain anonymous LOL. Not only did her face look familiar, her name looked super familiar too...that's when it CLICKED...THIS GIRL USED TO BABYSIT ME...well her mom used to babysit me...cuz my rents used to work a lot...her mom would pick me up and she would babysit me till like 8-9 and my mom would pick me up. Chilling with her was jokes cuz her mom was FILTHY RICH...she was divorced from the husband who eventually became gay...her new husband had a son who was HELLA annoying...he was older than me by a couple years...hated this dude, HIS name was Edwin...cuz who cares, he'll never find me...lol. I remember this girl tho...was super annoying back in the day...LEGIT PRINCESS/SPOILED BRAT...any ways...I ended up messaging her and she remembered me too...and COINCIDENTALLY...I was on the soccer team back in the day...word...I played soccer, dang...lol anyways, we had an away game at central park...so I told her about it, thought it would be cool to see each other...so we did...I remember she brought ALL of her girls to come meet me...guess she was nervous or something...but I remember she wasn't a spoiled brat any more...she was actually a really nice, but quiet and shy girl lol. I remember keeping in contact with her throughout high school, I was like yeah our families should have dinner one day...cuz I told my mom about her...never happened tho lol...we still talk, but not often lol.

This second one was in grade 9...specifically orientation day at my high school. I remember walking into the gym where they just had a bunch of random activities going on. This dude pats me on the back and Rodmond? I turn around and don't recognize this dude at all...he's like you don't remember me? He told me his name and it CLICKED...this dude used to babysit me as well LOOOOOL...again my parents used to work a lot. This dude was like my BEST FRIEND back in the day...we used to watch power rangers together LOL...He babysat me when I was a super young kid...before the previous girl...but we're the same age...we ended up being pretty good friends throughout high school...not close but he was pretty chill...now I have no clue where he is or what he's doing lol.

This last one was in high school as well but I think like grade 11....this one kid was my best friend in grade 3...I'll always remember him cuz his birthday is the day after mine and in grade 3...we both liked this one girl and he ended up getting  her...we were those best friends who secretly hated each other...if that even makes sense LOL. Any ways...I remember going to this christian concert thing with a friend and we were about to leave and I hear someone honking and yelling from inside a car...I couldn't see cuz it was dark...he's like RODMOND...I go back and I kinda recognize him...he tell ms his name and I'm like OHHH YEAH....turns out we actually have a lot of mutual friends...and I see him quite a bit just through church events and softball and stuff.

Awkward Female Encounters

Girls are interesting creatures...needless to say, in my younger days...I was a very shy, introverted, straight up awkward child...so when you introduce girls and puberty into my life...it makes for some memorable encounters and stories LOL....here we go, for your viewing pleasure...based on true stories.

1) This girl invited me to her bday party one day and we were going to a movie. She was a cute girl, but I didn't like her...literally because I'm a nice guy and I thought it'd be the right thing to do...I bought her a gift...I think it was like a picture frame or something...guess what, no one else bought her a gift...so when I gave it to her she was really surprised, I was really awkward, she hugged me, the other people made fun of me...LOL.

2) This girl I liked in elementary school use to be very playful with one another...but at the same time I was a very rough kid back in the day...so we would always like arm wrestle, thumb war and like play mercy and stuff with each other...long story short, I don't remember what we were doing but I almost like broke her thumb....like it was super swollen the next day...keep in mind this was the girl I liked...LOOOL.

3) One time at a friend's house we were all chilling in his living room playing truth or dare with a bunch of guys and girls...it was my turn...picked truth...they asked me who do I like...I literally said this girl's name in the room and pointed at her...everyone kinda giggled and she gave this like...'damn...why me' kinda look...LOOOL

4) Told this story before...grade 9 I liked this korean girl...don't know how word got out to the entire grade 9 population lol...she didn't know who I was...I see her and her friend approaching me she points and goes 'that's him'...I point at her and YELL....I DON'T LIKE HER...LOOOL...that put an end to any possible future interaction with her lol.

5) This  one hurts my heart...this girl was a really good friend, wasn't sure how I felt about her...it was a snowstorm...she volunteered at a school I lived close to...I remember trucking through the storm to give her a card and a teddy bear...guess what happened...lost my keys, ipod and cell phone running to the school....cuz I put it in my jacket pockets whcih were loose I guess...wanna know something even funnier...she ended up dating one of my boys...smh LOL

6)This one is hilarious....there's this one girl I genuinely didn't like in school...she ended up being in my mandarin school...in class, I'm usually a quiet and nice kid, teachers like me. I remember getting into a huge argument with this girl in class...like YELLING back and forth in front of my mandarin teacher and all my classmates...teacher just had her arms crossed looking at me and shaking her head lol...

7) This one was when I was in grade 7....grade 8's ran the school cuz you're like about the graduate...so I remember I used to take the bus to school and grade 8's would always reserve the back seat and everyone knew it. One day I got sick of it and after school I ran to the bus and sat at the back...on my bus were like 3-4 grade 8 girls who always sat at the back...they came on the bus and saw me and started like yelling at me and ish and making fun of me. Almost got into a fight with this one white girl LOOOOL...but hey...dude's gotta do what he's gotta do...took a stand cuz I wanted to sit at the back...FIGHT THE POWER....

8) Back at one of the elementary school dances...I told myself I'd ask the girl I liked for a dance...the girl who;s thumb I almost broke LOL...usually how elementary dances work is they play like 3 slow songs...one near the beginning, middle and one to close off the dance...I remember missing the first 2 opportunities and told myself that's it...got up off the wall...saw her chilling with her girls at another wall and was about to ask her...some dude beat me to it...I literally just found this random girl my friend was chilling with and asked her to dance lol....I didn't know where to put my hands...I like put it on her hips like I was holding her belt....my friend comes up to us and wraps my hands around her waist and my hands are like pretty much near her butt...LOL...I looked at her and was like sorry about that...

9) I remember our grade 7 end of the year trip...we went to some outdoor trip...did this scavenger hunt and it was in pairs so the teacher was like pairing us off...one guy with one girl...out like 50 kids...the final 4 are me...my crush...and another guy and girl...I'm here sitting like...no way...it's actually gonna happen, I'm gonna get paired up with her and chill with her for like 2 hours...cuz it was a long scavenger hunt. I ended up getting paired with the other girl and my heart broke...she was like a chubby brown girl...I was super sour for the first bit...but...we talked cuz like dude...I had to do a scavenger hunt with her for like 2 hours...turns out....I'm a dick...she was a super nice girl...AND we won the scavenger hunt...OKAYYYY

10) I'm telling you homies...I've done some crazy things for girls...before I could drive...I remember bussing to Mississauga to surprise this one girl who was a super good friend and I wasn't sure how I felt about her...anyways...missiong to Sauga for her birthday...took like 2+ hours to bus there...secretly messaged her roommates and stuff...woke her up and stuff and she was super surprised...ended up spending most of the day there with her, my other friend and her roommates...my other friend was gonna sleepover leaving me to bus back at like 11 pm at night....luckily she didn't and we bussed back together lol

11) I remember one time...I had this reeeeally good girl friend...long story short, I thought I liked her...wrote her this card for her birthday and left it at her door...you know how she thanked me...she ignored me for like nearly half a year...didn't even say thank you for the card...you're welcome...lol

12) This really isn't about me...but about this other girl...who was psycho...like Gone Girl psycho...she liked this one guy...and you know how your parents make you write lines as a kid to practice hand writing and stuff...this girl wrote I LOVE _________ on lined paper...she wrote double sided like 5 PAGES and put it in the dude's locker...dude FREAKED OUT...they were dating but like yo...she was Gone Girl psycho...it ended soon after...and she FLIPPED...she would write his name on her books like a mad girl...I had her in my french class and trust...I saw the whole writing on her binders and notebooks live lol...

HOPE Y'ALL ENJOYED THOSE STORIES....hope you found it funny, awkward, stupid, lame...hope your opinions of me don't change too much lol...majority of these stories are like elementary school or early high school...I'm so open and honest because it's funny...and I think it's important too be confident about your past...it's the past...laugh about it....it made me into who I am today...I used to be scared to tell some of these stories...well not some...maybe like one or two of those...but it's my life...it all happened and has gotten me to where I am presently...so I embrace that ish.

The Ugly Truth

Your friends will fail you...simple as that. Hope that doesn't sound too negative lol...and I don't wanna come across the wrong way. This isn't the case for every single one of your friends...but it is true in many aspects. Your best friend right now...may not be your best friend a year or even a month from now. I'm kinda piggy backing on my previous post...especially the grade portion. It's so true though...you spend an entire grade with someone...maybe you sit beside them for an entire year...have a locker beside them...you spend a crazy amount of time beside them...talk pretty much every single day...you become really good friends...so when it doesn't last...it comes as a big shock cuz it's like dang...I THOUGHT this would last. And I guess some people in my life...I genuinely believed they'd be lifetime friends...and they turned out to be friends for only a grade...or multiple grades...not literally...but as in like...really good friends for only a moment...longer than expected. It really sucks...cuz I think back to certain individuals I know...who in my heart of hearts cared for with everything I had...people I invested my entire world in thinking they'd be lifetime friends...and they turned into friends for only a grade...wow it sucks. It made me think...friendship doesn't last forever. EVERY NOW AND THEN THO....you're lucky and blessed enough to have those friendships that DO last a lifetime...and it's beyond amazing. I guess even as old as I am now...and all the experiences I've had throughout my life thus far...you never really truly know if a friend is a lifetime friend or a grade friend...cuz someone you've been best friends for 4 years with can suddenly end....was that a lifetime friend...is that simply a dent in the friendship...or were they just a grade friend.Sorry to kinda bring down the negativity...the people I'm thinking of....I invested my entire world into...I shared my deepest, darkest secrets, best friends for what I thought would be a lifetime...years man...ending so abruptly...just has me thinking...damn...your friends will fail you...not all of them...but I'm saying be wise...be smart...pick and choose your friends wisely. Not sure where I'm going with this anymore lol...peace.

Class, Grade, Lifetime

Hello friends, it's been a while...my apologies. A while ago I was watching Radio Free Roscoe, which is a dope show...about 4 kids in high school who create a radio station and are anonymous, so they're free to speak their minds. Any ways...in one episode...one dude talked about how there are 3 types of friends...a class, a grade and a lifetime. Sometimes you're friends with someone for only a class...no more than a 'hey man' in the hallways...but that's all it's supposed to be. Then there are the friendships that seem like they're gonna last forever...you're best friends, super close, but then...just like that you move on. Then there are the friendships that do last forever...they have no expiration date, they just keep going and going. He then goes on to say..."when you know where you stand with a friend, you know how to act". When I first watched this episode...I was like wow...TRUTH am I right? How many of those friends or 'acquaintances do we know where we're only friends with them cuz we've been in like on class with them...they're a friend of a friend...you'd never ask them to hang out at the mall or invite them to your birthday...but if you saw them it'd be like hey what's up, how've you been, it's been a while. What about the friends for a grade...people you spent a considerable amount of time with...an entire year...since it is a grade...you guys are real good friends, you laugh, you joke, you talk...but after you move on to the next grade...you stop being friends...there's nothing there for you guys. How many of these friends do you know...a log came to my mind...certain things bring us together...sports, evens or occasions...and we get real close because we spend so much time together during certain times or events like if you go to a summer camp or join a club or something for a period of time...you meet lots of friends, become good buddies with people...but after that event or time...that's it...you had your moments but it never carried on. Then of course there are the friends that last a lifetime...your homies...your day 1's....your ride or dies. The people who've seen and been through it all. The people you either spend the majority of your time with...OR the people you may not necessarily see often...but when you do, it's as if nothing has changed. Those are your lifetime friends...when even tho you don't see each other often...when you do...it's all love and you guys never miss a beat. I reiterate the quote that the dude said again..."when you know where yous tand with a friend, you know how to act". When you know who are the people in your life and what they represent to you...every thing becomes so much simpler. It isn't about how big or small your circle is...but how tight that circle is.

Who Cares Baby, I Think I Wanna Marry You

While still on the topic of Dear No One...and finding someone to spend the rest of your life with. I recall a conversation with a friend a couple of weeks ago (see, majority my posts are about my friends) and we just talked about life and relationships and such. We talked about how a lot of our friends are getting married or at the stage or their life where they're thinking about getting married. We talked about how some friends are really eager to get married but may not be ready...how there are A LOT of couples who wanna get married and perhaps jump the gun, some ready and some not. Some couples get married as early as like 21-23...fresh out of college/university...dang, that's a BIG step...by all means some people can handle it...come out of school and they have a full time job and can afford it...while others I feel are more into the IDEA of getting married...but have no idea what it comes with...it's not just oh, picking dresses, writing invitations and stuff...it's so much more than that. But yeah...how this relates to myself...well one thing about myself is I've never been in a serious relationship...longest was maybe a couple months...and I've never had a lot of firsts...which I'm not gonna get into cuz it's not really important. I told my friend...that I've dreamed about...and I think about it a lot...and I can fully see myself marrying the first girl I seriously date...and that's coming straight from the heart...like it's something I truly believe. That doesn't mean I'm gonna jump the gun and the next girl I date...it's like BAM YOU'RE THE ONE. But it's being selective I guess...cuz for me...and my faith...what's the point of dating...the point of dating is marriage. So as fun as it is to flirt or have crushes...you have to really think about what the purpose of it is. Your current boyfriend/girlfriend...can you see yourself marrying them? If not...then why are you with them? For fun? I dunno...I guess now that I'm 22...and almost done school...I've been thinking A LOT about the future (everyone around me can attest to this) and if I'm gonna date a girl...I have to and I want to think about the future...and for me I've always or at least I consider myself a corny guy when it comes to relationship...I believe in a lot of old school things...like sex after marriage. But yeah...I can definitely see myself marrying the first serious girl I date...cuz what's the point...like what's the point of dating for like 10 years or so...no offence to those who have cuz there many be numerous reasons why you haven't gotten engaged/married...but yeah...for me...it wouldn't take me 10 years to pop the question cuz it wouldn't take 10 years for me to know I love someone. But enough of that lol...all in due time...God will provide...dear no one...this is your love letter.

Dear No One

This is my jam right now...it speaks to my heart forreal. I've had so many conversations with so many people about this exact same topic. I was watching an interview with Tori Kelly and she's like this is the single person anthem...forreal it is tho. "Cuz when the time is right you'll be here but for now...dear no one, this is your love song." Listening to this song and the word patience came to mind...that God has a person for me out there...I just gotta wait...the timing isn't right...in the meantime...I just gotta live and love life...but still actively search. This song just sings to my heart in so many ways...dang.

Of Course It's About You

You know how sometimes I talk about friends getting mad at me for talking about them on my blog and such...this is probably the opposite of that. A friend and I were talking a couple days ago and he's like hey...I read this post...was it about me? I'm like nah lol...but don't worry, I write about you. Truth is...I write about all my friends...that's all I do...I write about my life...and that's what my life is about...so of course that's all I'm gonna write about...my life, my fam, my friends. It's funny cuz friend's will come up to me and like try to guess what or who I wrote about in certain posts lol. That's more source of inspiration tho...y'all give me little sparks here and there by what you say to me, the conversations we have or simply what we've been through. So thank you for that...all my friends.

Dear Nice Guy

I'm reminded by a conversation I had a real good homie a while back...specifically how I think he's a super nice,down to earth and chill dude and vice versa. We were just sharing with each other our hearts...specifically relationships and just our thoughts about it and experiences...and I shared with him how I had no doubt...NO DOUBT...that we will find good girlfriends...because we're good guys, genuine nice guys and we deserve it, straight up. Fast forward to the present like a week ago I was driving my friend home and she and I were talking about my other friend who's been thinking about relationships a lot lately cuz he's getting at that age and I guess he knows a lot of people who are married or engaged at a really early age and you could say he's feeling the pressure...I told her how I have NO DOUBT he will find a girlfriend, a wife...he's just gotta have patience and trust in God, I know it's hard. But any ways...back to this...this is a letter of encouragement to you...nice guy. You may or may not be struggling or having trouble with girls...with relationships...wondering if she's the one...or wondering if you'll ever find the one. Keep persevering...most importantly...NEVER change for anyone...to get a girl to like you...to get anyone to like you. To all my nice guys...I genuinely believe in my heart of hearts that every girl secretly wants a guy who will treat them like they're the only girl in the world. Keep persevering nice guy...your time will come. It's hard I know...seeing girls you like end up with guys that aren't you...or seeing girls in general be with dudes who don't treat them right...and you ask yourself if there's something wrong with you...NO...keep your head up nice guy...I believe in you...I believe in the nice guy...in being a nice guy...in old school, cheesy, romantic love. If that's you...stay the course nice guy...your time is coming...be patient, have  a little faith...I PROMISE there is a perfect, special girl waiting for you...waiting for a nice guy to sweep her off her faith...a girl who's tired of dating idiots...stay the course nice guy...I believe in you.

York'd

Man...what a day...more like what a night lol. For those who don't know...as in those you who either reading this outside of Canada or those who simply don't follow the news or aren't well informed...my school York University is going on strike at midnight...for how long who knows, but classes will be cancelled. It sucks cuz I'm trying to graduate this year...finish classes in April. take one course in summer school and then graduate in October. With this strike who knows what's going to happen...who knows how long it'll be...what's going to happen to the courses in progress...are they going to be extended or whatever...what about tuition that's already been paid and stuff. It's just really annoying...to add onto that now I'm going to have an ENORMOUS amount of free time...I literally have nothing to do cuz I'm not working atm either...like damn...if this were any other year other than the year I'm trying to graduate...I would welcome the strike with open arms...dang this is just a big wrench in A LOT of people's plans. But hey...I''m trying to stay calm...well I am calm...for the most part...it's just a real big hassle and a mess...God...I'm trusting you...and your plan for me...for all of this...I know I'll graduate...in due time, whenever...it's just dang...this whole thing is so messy...and unnecessary. God...with so much time on my hands...give me a sign...show me something...what am I supposed to do about all this...I have faith tho.

Time Flies, White Lies

It's March...whoops. So much for the whole making posts everyday...and to think I was doing so well in January. See the thing is...well what happened was...man...damn...I'm just sorry lol. I have posts lined up...not even gonna say I didn't have time cuz that would be a lie...it just slipped my mind, I forgot...things happened. I'm sorry...but it's March...give me another chance, I know I always say that but I really do wanna make a conscious effort to put more time into this blog...not necessarily put more heart cuz my heart is always on this blog...but more time you know, sorry, if time really is tight sometimes...I'll consider writing from my phone...thanks for sticking with me...for continuing to make this blog what it is today, peace.