5 Lessons I've Learned Recently

Damn, how do I even start this lol…feel like I don’t even know how to do this anymore. It’s been too long, like actually TOO long and I apologize, Life got busy, other things took priority, time passed and here we are. My last post was in June, that’s crazy…I’ve been thinking about posting a lot tho, but sometimes I’m just like man no one cares bro…at most just put something short up on your story and call it a day. A lot of y’all have reached out and asked about the blog which I appreciate. A lot of y’all might not even know I have a blog if you’ve only gotten to know me recently lol. But anyways, this is less of an update post and more of just things that I’ve been learning. But before I say anything else, those of y’all who’ve been reading the blog will know I changed the layout again, moreso similar to the OG layout, something about that bright cream, beige-ish colour never really sat right with me and it was moreso change for the sake of change. So I decided to switch it back but with a lil bit of a twist (just different fonts and colours LOL). But anyways lets move on, the dope thing about life is I find myself always learning, no matter how old I get. Lately, I’ve found myself learning lessons that have been taught to me all my life, lessons that I know, but sometimes forget and need a stern in my face reminder of. So these are things I’ve been learning and reminded of lately, as much as this is for me, maybe it’s for you too.

Not Everyone Is Going To Like You
And that is perfectly fine. I’m definitely a people please and I’d say I’m a pretty likable person, so when someone tells me they don’t like me, red flags and alarms go off cuz it’s like oh damn, what did I do or what is it about me that they don’t like and how can I make them like me? When in reality you could’ve done nothing and they just don’t like you just because, that and the fact there probably isn’t anything you can do to change their mind either so don’t sweat over it. Be you, be real, if someone doesn’t like you, fuck’em who cares.

Your Only Competition Is Yourself
I know a lot of these are probably gonna sound cliché but it’s what’s been drilled into my head lately. Whether I’m at the gym and looking around and comparing myself to others or looking around at my group of friends and comparing myself and feeling inadequate. Everyone is on their own journey and it’s not a race, it’s not about catching up or passing anybody, everyone has their own timing for whatever that might be. When I’m at the gym I tell myself ay man, the same way you look at someone like oh damn he’s strong or he’s big, someone is probably looking at you the same way, focus on yourself and do you.

Stop Overthinking, It’s Not That Serious
I’m such an overthinker and the people that know find themselves constantly telling me to stop blowing things out of proportion and to relax. All you can really do is focus on what is on your plate in front of you, once you clear that then move forward to the next thing. From girls to he said she said drama to what people think of you or how people perceive you…ay man stop overthinking, it’s really not that serious.

If Someone Doesn’t Wanna Be In Your Life, Don’t Chase Them
I’m somebody who loves to sit back and think about the good times and I always wonder if things would be different if me and this person were still friends, if me and this girl had worked out, yada yada yada. But at the end of the day, I tell myself why am I focusing so much time and energy on people who aren’t and don’t wanna be in my life when I can be redirecting that and showing love and appreciation for those are that consciously choose to be part of mine and vice versa. I spend so much time thinking about the things and people I don’t have when I can and should be appreciating what I do have.

Know Your Worth
Kinda piggybacking off the last point, but this is something I keep replaying in my head over and over again. I say it’s applicable for all instances like friends, work, girls, life. But for this particular moment, I’m gonna focus on girls (and for you maybe it’s guys), similar to the whole not everyone’s gonna life you point, I really beat myself up over relationships that don’t work out or maybe ignoring red flags because you “have a good thing going” when in reality, as good of a thing as you may have, toxicity is toxicity and if something is unhealthy for you you gotta know when to cut ties. I’m a firm believer in trying to work things out and second chances, but you have to know when to say when and sometimes I don’t cuz of course the cliché of well what if I don’t find anything or anyone better comes to mind. But again, know your worth, trust that you’re dope and that you’ll find someone who compliments and supports you in a healthy way, through ups and downs.

Welp, that’s pretty much it, it wouldn’t be a return if it wasn’t a long ass ‘tldr’ kinda post LOL. But these are some of the things I’ve been learning lately, things I’m sure you’ve seen or heard or maybe told others. They’re simple enough lessons to grasp but sometimes you neglect it and give it to whatever it may be. It’s funny cuz you can learn the same lesson over and over again but take something different away from it each time and that’s what makes life so amazing and the concept of growth and maturity. I turned 30 this past year and it’s just been a lot of self-reflection, a lot of goal planning and a lot of growing up mentally and emotionally which ,means having to get rid of bad habits, distractions and unhealthy relationships. I wanna leave you with this last thing cuz it hit me really hard when I heard it. “You can be the juiciest peace in the world, but not everyone likes peaches.” Take from that what you will, but for me it’s a reminder to myself to BE myself, to dress how I like and to be comfortable, to make dumb and stupid jokes cuz I’m a goofy ass mofo and most importantly to surround myself with people I can be 100% genuine with cuz it’s just too exhausting and a waste of time having to be something I’m not to please or cater to someone or people I don’t give a fuck about cuz like I said, at the end of the day…you can be the juiciest peach in the world, but not everyone likes peaches. I’ll see y’all soon hopefully, peace.

An Update On Life (Youtube, Feelings, Things I've Been Learning)

Holy crap, do I even know how to do this anymore? Damn, I've missed you guys...a lot. Fair warning, this is probably gonna be a long post and it's probably gonna be all over the place cuz I have a lot to catch you up on. My last post was in January, got damn...to be honest I planned on doing an update post like 203 months ago but then I got sidetracked and get pithing it off and eventually forgot. First thing I wanted to say is that the blog is not dead, I'ver truly missed it and 2 million  views is still a very real goal of mine, it's just one that I put to the side in order to fully focus on my lil YouTube dream. Speaking of Youtube, lemme say that it was definitely harder and more work than I expected and didn’t really pan out the way I envisioned it, but with that being said it was fun, it was a lot of learning and there were a lot of challenges…but it was fun nonetheless. Honestly for the most part I took it one week at a time, I’d brainstorm ideas/stories to tell/things to talk about and also brainstorm different foods/cuisines I could try and plan my week accordingly as I had to pick a day to film, set aside time to edit post the video, then repeat that process and I did that for 6 months. Learning to edit was probably the most difficult and time consuming aspect as the better I got at editing, the more time consuming it became because I wanted to make the video as visually appealing as possible. There were definitely plenty of weeks where I’d struggle with thinking of what foods to eat (I know right) and thinking of topics to talk about without getting too repetitive and also making sure it’s interesting. Now that I’m 6 months in, I’m happy to say that I gave it a go and that I tried my hand at it, got some good feedback, learned some new skills and had a lot of fun along the way. But I am definitely leaning towards finishing off the year and then not necessarily calling it quits, but making it a part time side hobby, only really putting out videos for fun, when I have time or when tbe content it real dope (like if I go on vacay and wanna vlog it). What I’m trying to say is that I wanna get back into blogging, but not only that I am in the process of also (hopefully) changing or rather finding a career aka a big boy job cuz if you know me you know I’ve been grinding the same job currently for almost 4 years and it’s time to move on. 

With that all being said, lemme give you an update on life and what I’ve been up to…between juggling work and filming/editing the mukbangs, it was mostly a lot of hanging out with friends, going on walks and taking care of myself as covid was still up and down, things were kinda starting to reopen and people were slowly becoming less paranoid. Funny but also sad story, I got covid around January and missed one of my best friend’s 30^th birthday. It was actually really sad but the covid wasn’t that bad thankfully as I was double vaxxed at the time. At its worst it was honestly just a really bad cough, like a deep in your chest cough, other than that I didn’t lost my taste or smell and everything else was pretty chill. This year was a pretty big year cuz my closest boys and I are all turning 30. Couldn’t celebrate one of my boy’s 30^th in January but in April we celebrated another one of my boy’s 30^th birthday and it was dope, just good friends and family around, he had a like a pokemon themed party cuz he’s lowkey a 12 year old still LOOOL love you bro (you probs won’t read this). Then in May I celebrated my 30^th birthday and lemme tell you I went back and forth with wanting to have a big ass turn up vs a upperr small close friends only kinda dinner. I decided to have the best of both worlds and have a medium sized turn up with close friends and close-ish friends and it was such a dope time, being able to look around the room and see people I care about, people I’ve shared intimate moments, conversations and memories with, it meant the world to me. Then the week after I celebrated my actual birthday by going to Alberta with da boiz and it was such an awesome time. Hiking in Banff, Lake Louise, soaking in the views, then we also stopped by Calgary and Edmonton, it was meh LOL, but the trip was so dope. I’ve always been that kid that was super stingy with money because I never really worked when I was in school, but now I’ve adopted the mentality that you really can’t put a price on memories and I’m more often than not down for plans and events and trips with the homies. With that being said, I had a good feeling in my stomach that this summer was gonna be a hella memorable one and it’s really living up to it so far. Going to Alberta, having been to a few concerts already, everything is going back to normal, people are feeling more comfortable being out and about. I’m going to Hawaii in July, a cottage in July, more concerts, more events and stuff, maybe a trip in August, then hopefully after everything settles, it's like alright time to put on my big boy pants and find a career and figure out the rest of my life y’feel., 

 

What have I been learning lately…a lot lol. For one, no matter old you are or how mature, experienced or wise you think you are…there’s always room for growth and learning. And on that note, you can literally learn the same lesson more than once…because we’re human and we make mistakes and not only that sometimes we just don’t get it or need to hear it again and again and again. I’ve been following this page on Instagram called @wetheurban and they just really promote like self-care, self-love and overall, like positive messages and things you need to hear like it’s okay to be in a funk or a rut, deserving someone who appreciates you and reciprocates your energy and effort, knowing your worth, all that good stuff. It really coincides with what I’ve been learning and relearning lately. Like for one, it’s okay to be selfish sometimes if it means protecting yourself, being selective with who you surround yourself with and who you put your energy into. Being 30 now, it’s like I have more core group of friends and that’s not gonna change, everyone else around me is gonna come and go and because of that it makes me weary or who I let into my life and my inner circle and inner workings of my mind lol. Not only that but just like knowing your worth, that’s a lesson I’ll never stop learning because I always find myself going above and beyond for people who tbh don’t deserve it and I don’t say that disrespectfully, I say that in a sense of like I’m going above and beyond for people who wouldn’t do the same for me and I reinforce to myself that that’s not fair nor is it worth the stress. I just was reminded literally this morning as I was scrolling through Instagram to focus on the people who love you and stop worrying about those who don’t. Man it’s easier said that done since I’m such a people pleaser and I pride myself on being a likable person so when I find out someone doesn’t like me or feels a certain way about me, it bothers me. But I’m reminded that there’s so many people in my life that love me for me, that have seen me at my lowest and at my worst and still accept me and to the people who dislike me for whatever reason, who find dumbass reasons to feel a way about me…fuck’em. Life’s too short to be worrying about shit and people that don’t matter. Big picture wise, I really have been in such a good place lately, I’ve been seeing my friends a lot and just having a good time, living life, soaking in the vibes. Summer has and continues to look super promising and exciting. A lot of change is on the horizon as I plan to switch careers, I’m starting a new decade of life, my parents are healthy, I’m watching my niece grow before my eyes, my best friend’s having a baby any day (maybe even minute) now, my other best friend is getting married, I’ve got so much shit to be thankful for and excited about to be worrying about small and petty things. Life is good man and I’m beyond excited to share it with y’all and take you on the journey with me. The blog is back, I’m coming for 2 milli, I hope you missed me as much as I missed you. I’ll hopefully see you sooner than later. Peace.

An Update On Life

Hello friends, it has been a while. Happy new year! I hope you’re health, I hope you’re happy and I hope you’re doing well. It feels like we have so much to catch up on but I don’t really know what to say lol, this feels a little weird. For starters, the cats kinda out the bag…for a while on this blog I mentioned working on a side/secret project and if you’ve been following my socials…you’ll know that that super secret project is starting a youtube channel. It’s been something I’ve always thought about in the back of my mind and only recently, like these past several months did I really decide to push myself to do it. If I were to sum up why I decided to start a youtube channel, I’d probably chalk it up to 3 reasons (and this is a future video so y’all are getting a super sneak preview). One is that I wanna be able to say I did it, that I tried it and if it didn’t work out I’d have no regrets. The worst thing would be going about my life, finding a random career and constantly wondering what if I did this you know? Two would be, well I really enjoy it, I’ve always creating similar contents, recording my friends, making funny videos, making people laugh, having people relate or resonate to my friends, the blog definitely taught me that last part about myself. I’ve also always enjoyed watching youtube and take a lot of motivation and inspiration from a lot of youtubers. Third is probably the most important one and that’s simply wanting to do what makes me happy and wanting to enjoy the work that I do. My current job only reinforced the idea that money is not enough motivation for me to be at a place or do a job I don’t enjoy. So right now my motivation is doing what makes me happy and doing something I enjoy and am passionate about. I told y’all for the longest time that I was losing motivation to write on this blog, that it started to feel like a chore. Another thing is that it started to feel very limiting, it’s like when you read a book, you’re imagining the characters and the story in your head…but it might not be how the author intended for it to be, it’s all subjective and perspective. Similarly with this blog, when you read my posts you interpret it however you see fit but it might not be how I wanted it to be read or interpreted. With youtube, you get to hear my voice, my emotion and you get to hear my stories and my experiences the way I want them to be heard and I feel like I get to paint a more complete picture you feel. That and just being able to talk and physically share a story is not only easier but it’s been pretty fun tbh. Honestly recording is the fun part, it’s editing that is the tedious and time consuming aspect lol. If you ask any of the friends I’ve had conversations with about this they’ll tell you how excited I sound because I am, one of my friends said he hasn’t seen me this excited about anything in a long while and even that took my by surprise. This might be a random tangent, but I was just thinking of covid and how it really like put a pause on everyone’s life and everyone’s plans for a solid 2 and now 2+ years because everything is so uncertain. Birthdays, graduations, weddings, so many things got pushed back or rushed because of covid and it’s like damn, just when we thought everything was slowly getting back to normal it feels like we took 2 steps back and things aren’t looking great. It’s weird because it takes a toll on you mentally more than it does physically because you start to lose track of days and time, it all kinda blends together, for me at least. There’s really not much to catch y’all up on if I’m being truthful, most of my time and mental space is spent thinking and planning this youtube shit because it really is my priority right now, which Is why the blog is taking a back seat for now. Other than that, I’m just trying to live life and make the most out of the situation we’re in. Things are closed again, no gyms or indoor dining so I mean, lots of food and conversations in the car, lots of walks again lol. I’ve been spending a lot of time with friends and esp family, I really wanna be present and available for those around me and be in the moment with them. It’s been dope seeing my brother and his family over the holidays. Seeing my niece grow up is crazy, life is good man, the glass is always half full. I hope you’re doing well, self-care is not selfish, take care of your mental, check on those around you, spend time with your family and just appreciate life, don’t take shit for granted and don’t take shit so seriously…I’ll see y’all when I see y’all…DEUCES.

What’s Next?

Wow, I don’t even know how to start this post lol. First off let me just say thank you for 1,8 million views, y’all really been running this blog up in my absence lol. It’s been 3 months since I’ve posted, it was one of those things that started out as oh it’s been a month maybe I should post an update then another month passed and now it’s been 3 months lol. I appreciate those of y’all who have reached out to see how I’m doing and what I’ve been up to, it means a lot. There’s so much I feel like I wanna say to y’all and I hope I don’t forget anything. Let me say this right off the bat…the blog is not dead and this is not a goodbye post, but things are definitely changing in my life. If I’m being completely honest, the blog hasn’t been a priority in my life for quite some time and I honestly just haven’t had the motivation to write posts, it honestly felt like a chore sometimes like oh man it’s been a week, better try to write something before more time passes. When I finished school in March/April I honestly had no motivation for anything tbh, no motivation to look for jobs and certainly no motivation to write blog posts. This blop has ben such a big and instrumental part of my life but lately it just hasn’t been fun and like I said it started to feel like a chore at times. Being 29 going on 30, a lot of my priorities have been shifting as of late. For one, I’ve really been prioritizing my own happiness above all. Wanting to do and be around those that make me happy. My current job weas honestly the thing that really drove that point home to me, wanting to be in a place that makes me happy and wanting to do something that I enjoy for the rest of my life and just in general wanting to be happy with whatever situation I’m in. So I’ve been putting my energy into different outlets and following my heart and doing things that make me happy, whether it pans out in the long run is yet to be seen but I’m at a point in my life where I have to at least be able to say that I tried it rather than live with regret and what ifs. I know that all sounds mad vague but it’ll all come to light real soon. On top of my happiness, I’ve really been prioritizing my own health…my boy loves to ask “yo how’s your physical, how’s your mental, how’s your emotional?” And I’ve kinda taken that and ran with it, it really does kinda go hand in hand with happiness as well…surrounding myself with good people and good vibes. Physical health has also really been a big one for me, I’ve always had back pain for the longest time and made a conscious effort to go see a chiropractor to fix that, it crazy the amount of people that have back pain or just little nagging pains in their body and they just tolerate it cuz “it’s not so bad” but like yo that’s your body man, pain should not be a normal feeling lol. But anyways, with that all being said, the blog hasn’t and isn’t really a priority in my life right now…does that mean I won’t be on here anymore…no, it just means I won’t be on here…often. I don’t wanna make promises I can’t keep and say oh I’ll try to do one post every month or every few weeks, but I’ll. Just say that I’ll see you when I see you. The blog will always have a special place I my life and will always be a place for me to express myself, but for now like I said it’s just not fun for me and I’m not really motivated and I’m choosing to put my time and energy into other areas of my life. Who knows, maybe my other ventures will fall flat and I’ll be back here full time in a couple months lol, but the biggest thing is I’ll never know if I don’t try. Man as I’m writing and reading this, it reallt does sound like a goodbye post LOL, but it also feels like I’m talking to a friend who I haven’t seen in months and we’re just catching up. I don’t even know if I’ve talked about everything I wanted to or touched on the points that I warned to touch on lol…what have I been up to…work, life, taking care of myself and I guess more specifically when It comes to work and career, putting my time and efforts into something that makes me happy but importantly something I’m super motivated and passionate about. That was a big thing for me, being at my current job for over 3 years now, I came to realize no amount of money was enough motivation for me to be at a place that I disliked or doing a job I didn’t enjoy, So because of that, I’m been pushing myself to do and find things that I’m motivated and passionate about and also things I enjoy and can see myself ding for the rest of my life. That’s probably the biggest thing going on in my life right now. Other than that I feel like I’ve hit everything that I wanted to talk about, the blog ain’t dead and I ain’t going anywhere…you just might not see or hear from me on here that often…for the time being at least. If you know me and are in my circle of friends, none of this should come as a surprise to you and you should know exactly what I’m talking about, other than that, if you know me, you should know how to reach me, With that ALL being said, THANK YOU for 1.8 million views, thank you for sticking through my craziness and shenanigans, this is nowhere near the end, I promise you that. But I’ll see you when I see you, peace.

Life & Death

When I was young, I had an aunt that passed away and I couldn’t really comprehend the emotions that were going on around me. Everyone was crying, people were screaming and I was just like oh wow, they have candy and hot chocolate here. When it came time to cremate her body, they asked her daughter (my cousin) to push the button and she just could not stop screaming and crying and couldn’t bring herself to do it, as a kid, I just couldn’t understand what was going on and why everyone was so sad and such. I’ve personally never experienced what I would call the death of someone close to me so it’s hard for me to truly empathize what that feels like, but I can certainly imagine. I’m not somebody who cries easily or at all, it’s not even a masculine thing, it’s just not how I express sadness. At most I’ll tear up and there are a few things that are always guaranteed to make me tear up, one of them being the episode of Fresh Prince where Will’s dad leaves. But moving on, so I cried for the first time in a long time a couple of weeks ago…and I told y’all I’m not really someone who cries, but I found myself in a situation where I could not stop crying, like absolutely bawling my eyes out. Long story short, I found out that my cousin in Singapore passed away a couple of weeks ago. She was only like 22 years old, the last time I saw her she was a little kid, my baby cousin and then we lost contact and only reconnected a few years ago. Yeah I didn’t really know her too well, but when I was sitting in the car and trying to process it all, my heart just felt so sick and heavy and I just started crying and it wouldn’t stop. It’s been a few weeks now and I’ve had time to like digest and process it all and it just got me thinking a lot about life…and death. I think nothing wakes you up more about life and cherishing and enjoying it than death. It really puts everything into perspective, it reminds you who and what is important and also that nothing lasts forever. Not only that, but it makes me think about not wanting to waste time. We spend so much time working and grinding to be successful that we forget to just live and enjoy life because it’s not always guaranteed. I was telling my friend that after a certain point of working and making money for your own survival, it becomes about saving up for those after you, your kids and their kids and ensuring they have an easier life in the same way your parents most likely did as well. It just makes me wonder like when is it enough, like you won’t be able to carry over any of this material or physical stuff with you when you die, so what are you really living for? For me at least it just puts my own life into perspective that yeah I wanna work hard, of course I wanna set up my future kids with an easier life, but I also wanna live and enjoy my life cuz who knows when it’ll end. The other thing I’ve been thinking about as well is just how I want to be remembered and wanting to leave a lasting impact on this world or at least among my family and friends. Like what will people say about you when you die? How will you be remembered? Like oh this person was really nice, super happy and always outgoing or like this person was a dick, super selfish and always rude. Thinking about life and death just has me thinking about all these kinds of things, wanting to make the most of my time with my family and friends, wanting to live and experience and journey together with my family and friends. Whether that’s vacation, road trips or just outings and activities, anything to create more memories and just enjoy life make the most of it. I don’t really know where I’m going with this tbh, I think about my baby cousin who was only 22 years old…she had so much life ahead of her, dreams, goals, aspirations and she’ll never get to do any of those. I understand life goes on and tbh I was surprised and how quick I got over it or at least like how quick I kinda just got back to my regular routine of life because hey…life really does go on, no matter who you are and that’s also what got me thinking about wanting to leave a lasting impact and how I wanted to be remembered. But I just wanna leave on this note because I’m thinking about you right now, there’s so many things I wish I could’ve said to you, I wish we could’ve met up and hung up and caught up., This life is crazy and it sometimes feels unfair, my heart hurts thinking about you cuz when I think about you I picture my 10 year old baby cousin cuz that’s the last time I saw you. I miss you and I love you, I know you’re in a better place filled with so much happiness and joy. I can’t wait to see you again and I’ll always be your Rodmond gor gor.

Time & Priorities

Hey guys, it’s been a while since we’ve talked…it feels like I have so much to say to you guys, but I don’t really know where to start. When you’re young, you feel like you have all the time in the world. Not only that but you feel like you can jam pack as many things into your schedule as possible because hey, why not, As I’ve gotten older and life has gotten busier, I’m realizing that I really don’t have that much time to spare. Whether it’s juggling school or work, balancing life or just practising self-care…it sometimes gets hard make time for things like family, friends and fun. As you get older, time really is of the essence, and you begin to prioritize and pick and choose the things and people you put your time into. If you think about it, most people spend 4-5 days a week at school or work and on top of that you have to make time for family, relationships, kids, leisure and of course yourself. My teacher used to tell me that at his age, there really isn’t any time for friends, he’d be at work 5 days a week and on those days by the time he would come home he would spend time with his kids and put them to bed and by then he’s exhausted. On the weekends, there’s marking and spending more time with family that there really isn’t much time for friends unless you literally coordinate that stuff like a month in advance. And that’s something that I’m beginning to see in my own life, as my friends get older, get married and think about starting a family, there really is less time for friends because other things begin to take priority. Which brings me to the blog…this blog hasn’t felt and definitely hasn’t been a priority in my life as of late and maybe even for quite a while. This blog kinda reminds me of that friend you haven’t seen in months but every time you do find time to catch up it’s always love and nothing has changed. As I’m getting older, I find myself being selective with the things and people I put my time into because I don’t really have a lot of time and I don’t wanna be wasting it. There’s family and work which are absolutely staples, then there are the handful of friends that I talk to or see on a consistent basis and of course self-care whether that’s going to the gym, getting food, going for a walk or listening to music. Those have been my priorities as of late and it’s really hard to make time for anything else without feeling drained or fatigued. Oh yeah, as you get older you also just feel tired…always LOL Not even tired as in sleepy, but tired as in like low battery and you gotta recharge, maybe that’s just me lol. But I’ve definitely been putting a larger emphasis on my personal health because I don’t wanna be unhealthy or immobile when I get really old. What’s the point of this post, I really don’t know lol just kinda wanted to talk to y’all and kinda explain where my head has been at lately. I know it kinda sounds like the blog is slowly dying, which it certainly isn’t…at least not yet, when I decide to hang it up you’ll know. But it’s definitely taking a backseat to other things in my life and I’m putting my energy into other outlets and goals. Again, this is by no means goodbye, this is just like a notice in the case I do go ghost every now and then…I’m always thinking about things to write and things are always happening in my life that are worth writing about, but actually putting it onto this blog isn’t really a priority right now, that doesn’t mean it isn’t something I still won’t continue to do. I hope you continue to ride with me on this really weird and rocky journey that life is currently taking me on, I definitely have lots of updates for you guys and lots of stories and things that have happened lately that I really do wanna share with y’all…hope you stick with me for that lol. I hope to see you sooner than later, thanks…peace out.

React & Respond

Hi friends, it's been a while...again. I really don't know where the time goes to be honest, one day I'm writing a post and next thing you know it's been another 3 weeks and I haven't posted anything lol. I literally just updated y'all on what's been going on in my life so I'll save y'all the trouble of reading another update post lol. I've always been and still am a firm believer that it's not about what happens to you, but how you react and respond to it. Now this is something I've definitely talked about to no ends on this blog, but it's an important reminder that we all need. So I don't know who needs to hear this right now, but no matter how bad or shitty the situation or circumstance seems to be, you (almost) always have a choice in how you choose to react and respond. Now I get it's not always black and white and sometimes it really does depend on like your mood which will affect how you choose to respond to something but in most if not all situations, even when you are in a mood...you almost always still have a choice in how you respond to whatever is thrown at you. I went for a walk one day and I was on the sidewalk, this guy on his bike was riding towards me and literally taking up the entire lane and in that split second I was like alright I can either make this ia big deal and stand in his way or say something to him or just leave it be and move to the side...so I pushed him off his bike and told him off LOOOOL nah I'm kidding, I stood to the side and let it be, but in my head I was like man what would've happened if I said something to him as he passed me like yo stay on one side or something, it literally would've created a totally avoidable issue for no reason. I then think about the customers I deal with at work on a consistent basis...how customers are always complaining or arguing or yelling and in those situations you have a choice...you go back and forth with them or you leave it be and hopefully neutralize the situation. I'm not saying be a doormat and let them walk over you, I'm saying you can still stand your grand while deescalating the situation. I've met some people in my life who just always have to get a word in no matter what the situation is or who's right or wrong. My mom is like that where not only does she have to get a word in but she'll keep talking shit even when the conversation is over and depending on who she's talking to, sometimes it like reignites the argument and I'm just like bro why do you do that, just keep your mouth shut, it's over. But anywayas, back to the whole reacting to the things that life throws at you...I hate making it sound like I'm some all knowing wise ass person cuz I'm not, I've just experienced a lot and that comes with age. Whether it\s girls, school or life, you've heard me talk about it all...girls rejecting me, failing school, life throwing seemingly unnecessary tests at me, I've always had the choice in how to react and respond to it and I definitely haven't always responded int he way that I should have...and that's okay. I've sulked, I've cried, I've gotten angry, I've sat there just not being able to comprehend why...but as Ive gotten older, I'm understanding and accepting that that's life...and you always have the choice in how much you want to let what's in front of you affect you and bother you. I'm understanding that rejection, failure, setbacks, heartache, stress and difficult times are a necessary and healthy part of life. I don't always necessarily greet it with open arms, but I'm consciously aware that I'll get through it and over i t, I just gotta keep moving forward. I still have those phases where I'm like nah, I'm gonna respond like a dick or I'm gonna escalate this shit just for the sake of it and because I want to. But honestly for the most part, I've learned to justgo with and accept it. Control what you can control and learn to deal with what you can't, but don't let it stop you from constantly moving forward in life. I hope I didn't come off too preachy...I started off wanting to remind y'all of this important note then kinda started writing to myself as an encouragement to keep going and stay mentally strong. So with that all being said, I will hopefully see y'all soon...hopefully lol, peace.