Patience Is Key

Lamentations 3:25-26
The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the souls who seek him. It is good that one should wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.

Patience is something I'll probably always strive for and struggle with...it\s natural in humans. One thing I always wish and want is to get a glimpse into my future...just so I know I'm on the right track and walking down the right path. But the more I think about it...it's as if I don't trust God, as if I don't trust that the plan he has for me is a good one, a one that will help me prosper all while glorifying him. And I know he's building up a patience in me to wait for him and to wait on him...and to wait for his plan and his timing. It's hard sometimes...to wait on the /Lord...with a bunch of things..the future, jobs, relationships...all those kinds of things. To be honest with you guys...before I took the break on the blog...I was going to write a post about "The One"...as in like your future husband/wife...but things changed and tho I have it all written out, I probably won't ever end up posting it because it's not necessary. But that's another thing I struggle with...waiting for the one when I should be preparing myself to be the one for someone else. Well...whether I've already met her or have yet to meet her, I know that God has prepared a wife for me and I just have to wait on him and on his timing...that everything will work out. And that my future, life after school, relationships, jobs...all those things are already taken care of. I just have to have the faith that God will provide.

Just An Update - 1 Corinthians 1:25-31

So last week was reading week so it was a nice time to recuperate, but also a time to study lol. Lemme update you with as much as I can remember. All star weekend I ended up chilling with a bunch of the guys from church, definitely really fun cuz everyone was back from school and a lot of guys who don\t usually come out came through to chill. Sunday after church I chilled with 2 friends and had dinner at his house and watched the all star game. Then this week was back to school week...had an exam today, so spent most of this week studying...picked up my glasses on Monday, so that's been interesting getting used to lol. Other than that, not much has been going on. I've been really meditating on this one passage and another one which I'll show you guys later, this one is from 1 Corinthians 1:25...definitely put some perspective into my life atm.

"For the foolishness of God is wiser than human wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than human strength. Brothers and sisters, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him. It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God—that is, our righteousness,holiness and redemption. Therefore, as it is written: “Let the one who boasts boast in the Lord."

Time Flies...

What the...I didn't blog for a week...serious...dang, didn't even notice, time really did just fly by...update tonight, I promise...sorry.

Random Acts of Kindness

Probably shared this story before...but I remember in my 2nd year of university I was selling this textbook for like $140 or something and I was meeting this dude at the mall. I met him and he gave me the money and left. These were the new bills when they first came out and I remember people always complained how they stuck to each other really easily. So I remember when I was counting it the dude gave me an extra $50...and I remember something in me just clicked and I didn't even hesitate, just called the dude and was like yeah yo you kinda gave me an extra $50 and he was so grateful and was like woooow really, thanks man. So I met him at school and gave him the money back. Like a year or so down the road, turns out we had a bunch of mutual friends, including one of my close friends and I met him again and now we're pretty cool even to this day. We always talk about it and he's always like yeah, after that day I told all of my friends cuz it was such a big thing to him I guess LOOOL...this isn't even to brag, to me it wasn't a big deal, it was a no brainer to give him back the money...but to him, it was like wow $50 is a lot of money and this dude could've kept it and didn't I guess...so yeah that was cool.

The Good Ol' Days

I was watching an episode of Recess...which is an old Disney cartoon show, feel free to google it. Anyways this episode was about Mikey who is 9 years old and turning 10 and all his friends are making a big deal about it because it's the big one o. His mom still walks him to the bus stop and makes sure he has all his things and such, so turning 10 is like a big deal and all his friends are like oh what kinda juice are you having at your party and stuff. So Mikey kinda shifts gears and he back peddles from all this pressure and goes into this Bonkey phase...Bonkey is like Barney pretty much. He starts playing with Bonkey dolls, eating Bonkey popsicle sticks and his birthday party has a Bonkey birthday cake and all these little kids and his mom dresses up as Bonkey as well. Pretty much Mikey goes through this phase of unwillingness to grow up and leave behind his childhood...and at the end he finds himself walking to the bus stop by himself, making sure he has his lunch money all that stuff...and as the bus comes, you see his mom behind a tree watching him making sure he's okay. And it kinda relates to me...I don't know if it really is an unwillingness to grow up...or just me missing the past and wishing I could go back. But that episode definitely hit me hard...growing up is inevitable, change is inevitable, I guess it's all just how you handle it. But anyways...another thing about the episode that I really loved that brought back memories is all Mikey's friends going to his house all dressed up and comparing who bought him better presents. Those were the days...buying presents for people and receiving presents, just the suspense. Receiving invitations and either going to the person's house or going somewhere like laser quest or bowling. Those were the days...having cake, loop bags...man. But those days are gone...and all we can do is reminisce, remember and enjoy.

Growing Pains

It's been a rough start to the new year, what can I say,,,and this break was much needed. I'm still not really back to myself, but I do have a lot to say. The future seems to be the heart of all my conversations as of late...and with that comes change, good and bad and also growing up. I feel like life is moving really slow for me...but everyone is zooming past me...like I'm driving in the slow lane and everyone is passing me. Things aren't the same...and they never will be, cuz we're all growing up, and it sucks. I'm still in the phase where I wanna chill and play ball with the boys...have sleepovers...spend entire days gaming...things like that, those were the days. And I still see myself doing those things with the homies...but everyone's busy...with life. My close friends that I've known since elementary school are getting married...graduating...moving away...getting jobs...growing up. It seems like no one has time for anything anymore...but school, work and things of the sort. Literally I find myself on an island by myself, trying to relive the old days...holding onto my youth...but you can't stop growing up...and it sucks a lot. Just thinking a few years ago...playing ball outside, gaming all day, taking walks at the park...not it seems like there's no time for any of that. All my friends are too busy...with life...and it seems like they're all growing up faster than I am...graduating, getting jobs, getting boyfriends/girlfriends...they're moving on to a different stage in life...and part of me is unwilling to let go of that youth, the fun times and carefree times and move on with them...I dunno...it honestly sucks...all my friends seem like they don't have time for anything...for me...while I have all the time in the world. Damn...

Words I Never Said aka #TheReturn

I told you guys I needed a break...and I did...just had a lot of things on my mind that I couldn't and didn't wanna share. But I had to get it out...and this was it...it came to me kinda randomly...it's kinda like writing letters you don't intend to send, but doing it for venting purposes. Over the course of however long I was away...I was writing...and expressing myself, but instead of just keeping it to myself...I left it at random areas at school or wherever I was...along with my blog link at the bottom. This was my way of still "blogging" and also just venting at the same time. Thank you tho to the people who took the time to listen to me...it means the world to me...close friends are hard to come by nowadays.

PS: The pictures are blurred cuz what I had to say wasn't important...but just something I had to do...

Don't Call It A Comeback

Soon enough friends, soon enough... #TheReturn

Your Circle Of Friends

Recognize who they and appreciate them. These are the people that genuinely care about you and your well being. The people who\ll tell you what you have to and what you need to hear, even if it may not be what you want to hear. The people that will comfort you when you're down but also be there to celebrate the highs with you. This is not a comeback, yet...silence is still golden. I'm just thankful for the people I've had a chance to speak to in the last little while. I'll be back soon enough...

#TheReturn

Short Break...

I'm taking some time off here...this is honestly a spontaneous decision, but it has some thought behind it. It won't be for long...might even end tomorrow, or simply next week...but I just need some time to myself. This blog can't go back to the way it was before where I was completely uncensored, there are some things I can't, shouldn't and don't want to talk about here...for many reasons. But yeah, thank you to the few who know what's going on in my head right now. I appreciate you being there and hearing me out. This probs won't even be a break cuz I'll probs end up posting something when something does come to my head, but don't expect much. The things that I do wanna talk about...can't really be publicized...sorry, I know this came outta the blue. For those who do...please pray for me, for strength and patience. I hope you understand...

Jealousy

Is dangerous...and it comes in all shapes and sizes...it could be...seeing your ex with a new boyfriend/girlfriend, seeing person you like fall for someone else, seeing your best friend be someone else\s best friend. I dunno, it's something I struggle with sometimes and it eats at me...a lot. I don't even know any more...when I look at it from a different perspective, I shouldn't even be sweating it, I can't be sweating it, I said I wouldn't...I\m not supposed to, but I am...and I hate it. I don't even/probably shouldn't say any more...but this feeling kinda sucks sometimes.

Back On The right Track

I know as of late I've been very here and there and simply out of it. I told you guys I've been very restless and not really finding joy in anything as of late. But things have progressed and gotten betterand I can confidently say I'm back on the right track. And first and foremost I just wanna thank God...for always being there...no matter how many times or how far I stray away, he always goes out of his way to bring me back to him. I just wanna thank my friends, those who I have shared how I have  been feeling with...I know it's God's work that he sent you guys to me, to give me that push and bring me back on the right track, but it still means a lot to me, so thank you. I know the blog has beenloaft as of late, but I honestly haven't had much to talk about lol...that's how bummy I've been feeling...nothing's beenhappening in my life lol...