LOL of the Moment

5 Random Facts About Me

Since this blog is about me...why not let you guys know more about me...beside the personal and long rants here and there...this is more of that general stuff...

1. I'm secretly a shopoholic...I just don't really show it...but I love clothes, I know I have a lot, yet for some reason I still feel like I don't have enough and I always get more and I find that I don't even wear them all sometimes, but I still get more, or when I see something I like, I'm just like....waaanttttt!!!

2. I love food and I'm always hungry. Food, means everything...chips, chocolate, cakes, ice cream, desserts in general...pizza, burgers, fries, sushi, chicken, all that good stuff...then there's the asian foods, rice, noodles, pho, dim sum, all that stuff..I'm really picky when it comes to fruits and vegetables though, I know it's good for me, but I'm really picky...like I don't like brussels sprouts, spinach, cabbage, onions, peppers (only on pizza I like it), and a whooole bunch of other things...the only vegetables I like are broccoli, cauliflower, green beans, mushrooms, corn (vegetable right?)...what else...lettuce (only in caesar salad and burgers/sandwiches), tomatoes (only on pizza/sandwiches/burgers)...I think that's about it. As for fruits, I like the majority of them

3. I love sports...even if I'm not good at it...I'm open to learn...and I'm really quick to pick it up and learn how to play and I may not be good, but I'll work hard, trust.

4. I can't swim...after I say I can't swim, people ask if I can tread water...I have no idea what that means LOOOL. It's weird cuz I took classes when I was little and got certificates and stuff...but I just forgot how to swim...I'm not scared of the water, I just don't know how to swim.

5. I have a crush on A BUNCH of female celebrities, actresses, singers, youtube stars, etc...LOOOL, don't believe me...Cathy Nguyen, Kina Grannis, Selena Gomez, Ariana Grande, Victoria Justice, Miranda Cosgrove, Mila Kunis, Kate Upton, Dannie Riel, Melanie Iglesias, Christian Serratos, Megan Good, Gabriel Union, Paula Patton, Jennifer Love Hewitt, Jayesslee, Natalie Tran, Megan Nicole, Tiffany Alvord, Kierra Folsom, Arika Sato, Kelly Kelly, Arianny Celeste, Eve Torres, AJ Lee, Kim Kardashian...trust me when I say the list goes on...LOOOOOOOLLLL don't judge me

David Guetta & Usher - Without You Cover (August Rigo)

Today...

What's good, today was a fun and long day...woke up, pulled weeds for my dad...showered, headed out to a barbecue at my old teacher's place with a few friends. It was an amazing night...chilling with my old teacher, his wife and his 2 kids and my 3 other friends who I've known since elementary school. We talked about just life right now, how are of us are doing and of course...lots and lots of reminiscing, It was an amazing time...crazy to think I'd be at my teacher's house...having a barbecue...meeting his parents and his kids LOL. It's crazy also how my friends and I have known each other since elementary school, damn. It was an amazing time...even though we all go to different schools, to think we still keep in touch...after all these years after graduating elementary school...to think we still keep in touch and visit our old teacher. After that...my friend drove me home, and we just chatted a bit more...about life and school and religion and stuff like that...it's just great to catch up with old friends and old teachers...to think we've all known each other for that long...yeah.

10 Things I Find Attractive...

I was just talking to my friend about a bunch of these things and she's like, you should do this LOL...so here goes nothing, off the top of my head...

1. A nice smile...y'all know what I'm talking about fellas...when she smiles, your heart just melts
2. Nice eyes...someone who you'll want to maintain eye contact with as long as possible and you feel like you're looking deep into her soul.
3. A nice body...hey I'm a guy, don't judge me
4. A good listener/comforter...it's one thing to listen to somebody, but it's another thing to give them advice or try to comfort them and make them feel better
5. Wearing my clothes...I find it mad sexy if a girl is wearing say like my t-shirt that's too big for her...
6. A girl who can sing/cook...I'm in love with so many youtube artists or musicians not only cuz they're cute, but cuz they can sing as well...and if she can cook...wow, that's a keeper right there
7. Someone who shares my interests or will at least try them out...it's okay if you don't like to play basketball or videogames...I'll still find it super cute if you try it and genuinely try to enjoy it because you care
8. Somebody who understands me...you know, there are some people, your friends, your boyfriend or girlfriend, your siblings...you can just look at them...and know how they're feeling...you can feel the happiness, the pain, the emotion, just by looking at them...
9. Someone who'll want to spent every minute with me doing absolutely nothing lol...watching TV, movies, playing board games, taking walks, cuddling, playing sports, videogames, talking, play fighting, anything...you know...
10. Someone who loves God...someone who'll put God before me, who'll put God as the center of our relationship. To know that both of us are seeking to be closer to God will only make us grow closer as well.

Again, that was just 10 things that were off the top of my head...deuces

10 Songs On My Playlist...

So I was asked to do this by a few people cuz apparently they think I have "good" taste in music LOL...I sort of think I do...but at the same time...depends if you like the same kind of music I do...I just love music in general...the way it relates to you, comforts you, inspires, motivates you, etc...but yeah, here we go...

1. Hopsin - Ill Mind of Hopsin 5
- I'm a real big fan of dudes who have substance in their lyrics...who talk about issues and real life topics...not just money, girls, hoes, sex, cars, bottle popping, etc...so yeah...this dude contrasts dudes like Tyler the Creator and Lil B...he's the exact opposite...he feels the exact same way I do about music and it's shown through his lyrics.

2. Shawn Desman - Nobody Does It Like You
- Not usually a big fan of radio music since I don't ever listen to the radio...except when my friends drive me here and there and the radio is on...but yeah, heard this on the radio and it was mad catchy.

3. Jin - Dear Non-Believer
- Whether you're a christian or not...you can appreciate this song and the truth that Jin is speaking to you...

4. Olly Murs - Oh My Goodness
- Another radio song haha...I've seen this dude's name here and there on my twitter, had no idea who he was...heard his song on the radio...shazamed it and found out his name and stuff...

5. Hillsong - You'll Come
- A new song that was introduced to me through praise team...we're singing this on Sunday, so we've been practising and I just got hooked on it.

6. The Weeknd - Wicked Games
- The first ever Weeknd song I heard...my friend showed me this in his car and said it was his friend's cousin...crazy to think how big he's become in such a short period of time.

7. Hedley - Kiss You Inside Out
- Another radio song...I've been looking for this song...I kept hearing it on the radio, kept forgetting to Shazam it and it was so catchy...finally shazamed it and found out it was Hedley lol...I thought it sounded like Nickelback for a while too lol

8. Big Sean - Memories Part II feat. John Legend
- In anticipation for his new mixtape Detroit...I've been bumping Big Sean a lot...I love his flow

9. Frank Ocean - Forrest Gump
- Regardless of if he's into dudes or chicks...you can't deny this guy has a beautiful voice...

10. J. Cole - The Cure
- His newest song...J. Cole has skyrocketed to the top of the list of my favourite artists...maybe even above Drake...this dude has the flow, the swag and the lyrics...his lyrics are so motivational and inspiring to me...you can honestly feel the passion and soul he puts into his work and that's why I love his music.

I kinda like doing these...might do a bit more lol...these aren't necessary my top 10 songs btw...just 10 songs that came to my head.

Today...

Today was a chill day...woke up at like 9 ish...got a drink...went back to sleep, woke up at 1 LOL. Chilled for a big...went to my softball banquet at like 6 ish...it was such a fun time...good fun, seeing people from different churches, bonding with my team...having good conversations with a bunch of people I haven't seen in a while...it was a great night. Next year is gonna be my 3rd year playing softball...my first year I won Most Appreciated Player...this year was my second year and I was assistant coach...next year will be my 3rd and also my last year playing jr's for Themelios...I'm strongly considering head coach...but I still have lots of time to think about and pray about it...we'll see what happens...in a week, school will start on the 5th for me...even crazier that I'm going into my 3rd year...this is the year I have to finally take school seriously, stop slacking off and really buckle down...all in God's grace and mercy...I trust in His plan for me.

Jin - Dear Non-Believer

Crazy how Jin went from freestyle friday at 106 and Park...to being signed to the Ruff Ryders...to becoming someone to lives for Christ and is using his gift of music to glorify Him...

Ace Hood - Wifey Material feat Lloyd

Today...

Hola...sorry there haven't been any posts lately...been really busy, just out and about...chilling with lots of people before school starts and people go away for school or before everyone's busy again...

Sunday...I had church in the morning...last week teaching Sunday school with the kids, another 3 months and I'll be teaching again. After, we went to lunch with them, then came back for worship practise...then went home around like 4 ish to shower then back to church at around 6 ish for a birthday dinner and just chilling...we all sat together and made dinner and played board games into the night...it was a real fun night of just laughs and bonding.

Monday...My 2 friends came over, we gamed a bit, then headed to the mall to get food...went back to my place to game for a bit...then went to church at like 8 ish to play ball...played till 11 ish...then went to Sobeys cuz I had this major craving for freezies LOOOL

Tuesday...loafted the whole day mostly...napped like twice...woke up at 10 am for some reason...it was a really relieving day cuz there were 2 things on today...a gathering with a few church people and also a barbecue with my teacher and my friends...I had to go to the church gathering, but I really wanted to go to the barbecue as well...turns out my friend who couldn't do thursday ended up freeing space and we moved the barbecue to thursday so I can make it, went to the church gathering, had sushi...played monopoly into the night...haha I love board games...it's so fun...my friends are right sometimes when you're gaming...you don't talk that much...you do somethings, but not a lot, depending on a bunch of circumstances...but yeah, it was a real fun night.

Sidenote: Can't believe school's starting soon...everyone's gonna be going back to school and res if they live on campus...everyone's gonna be super busy...gonna miss seeing all their faces and all the time we've spent together over the summer...

Real Talks of the Moment

Hopsin speaking some real talks about the music industry...

LOL of the Moment

I'm a guy, don't judge me -_____-

Shawn Desman - Nobody Does It Like You

Major catchy song...

From Me To You...

This is from me to you, you the reader, you reading this right now...yeah right this second...this is directed to you. I've just been thinking about this blog...sometimes I still don't believe this blog has existed for over 2 years...3 years come December. Whenever I look at the stats...all the countries this blog has reached...how many views each country has...like I always wonder how on earth some of you guys even find my blog, that's crazy to me. To the people who visit my blog on a regular basis...this is for you, thanks...I appreciate it with all of my heart. This blog has over 68,000 hits purely from Canada, where I'm from lol. Over 18,000 hits from the United States...which is constantly mind blowing whenever I think about it because I don't know anybody...I don't think I know anybody from the States that is...so how y'all found me, I'll never know...why y'all still continue to come to this blog, I'll never know either. Why you're reading this post or those other ridiculously long posts, I'll never know either lol. Over 5,000 hits from the United Kingdom...okay now that's definitely ridiculous lol...the United Kingdom of all places...so random. And over 1,000 hits from Russia and Germany...I know a few Russian people...but don't think I know anybody from Russia exactly lol. The next highest country is Denmark with over 600...whenever I see these number...I'm always in awe to think how small my blog is in person and in the bigger picture and when you compare it to other sites, it's small....but just looking at the details...and how this blog started with nothing and the effort and hard work that's been put into this blog...it's become somewhat big in my own opinion lol. The most viewed page has been viewed over 4,000 times...damn, that's real interesting...that's why I love reading the stats on this blog...it's so cool to read and know about...like the most viewed month was last month with 8,900 hits....nearly 9000 in ONE MONTH...wow man, that's mind blowing. But enough of the number crunching...from me to you...thank you...for everything...for visiting my blog regularly, often, here and there, one time...for showing your friends...for giving me feedback...for making this small little hobby of mine a full time thing...for giving me motivation to continue to do this...for inspiring me to do this...for supporting me through the good and the bad times, the ups and the downs...from the bottom of my heart...thank you.

Random Thoughts

Yesterday after dinner, my friend drove me home and we just had a good hour long conversation about everything. School...to how it's starting soon, lots of stress, lots of work, lots of temptation...especially for him since he's living on campus...not that many people he can trust to keep him accountable and responsible for his actions...but a lot of people who'll cause him to fall and stumble in sin. Me and his other friends can message him here and there...but what's to stop him from lying to us right...he was saying to me he needs someone physically there to keep him accountable and be like hey...don't do this, stop that, etc. I told him how I just really need to work hard this year...it's kind of a make or break year...I either get into my program and go from there...or I don't get in and I don't know where to go from there you know. We talked about partying and drinking and chilling with our non christian friends. I told him how one of my closest friends is a non christian but he's so similar to me where he doesn't party, club or drink for the sole fact he doesn't want to...he just doesn't see the point in it either. I'm lucky enough to have a friend in him where I can talk about random life subjects, normal problems, church problems and everything...usually it's one sided where most people you can only talk to them about life...not like the spiritual side...but with my friend, I can talk to him about everything and he respects my faith and he understands it. We just talked about our family and how we have non believers in our family that we really want them to know God and experience His power. We talked about our church...the problems...the good things....how it's really good and healthy to meet christians outside of your church just to get that different point of view you know. We talked about specific people in our lives who have made significant impacts...we talked about friendships...how when you pour too much into one specific person and say you guys don't talk or you guys stop being friends...you're ultimately really vulnerable because you told that person everything you had. I dunno...me and this friend who drove me home have had a lot of deep and in depth conversations this summer...but I think yesterday's one was the most heartfelt, the most personal and the one where we connected most...I really just felt his pain and the things he was going through...I felt his spirit calling for God...I know he's hungry to know God but at the same time Satan still has that foothold on him...I pray for him...that God calms his heart and gives him peace...I pray that he continues to grow in Christ...continues to do devotions and pray...I pray that God continues to work in him and really reveals his plan and his purpose for him. I pray for strength and courage for the both of us...to resist temptation and to look at the bigger picture..,the finish line.

Inspiration of the Moment

Yesterday when my friend drove me home and we were talking...he told me about one of this friends...who went to blue mountain with a few of her friends for a few days and they were all partying, drinking and doing inappropriate stuff...my friend told me, this girl is a christian and all her friends were doing all that stuff and yeah it's easy to fall and just have fun with them because they're your friends and you don't wanna feel left out...but instead you know what she did...he told me she was in her room the entire time reading her bible. All her friends were trying to call her out and calling her a party pooper and trying to get her to have fun with them but nah...she stayed in her room and read her bible. To me that's just crazy faith...crazy self control and crazy love for God. Especially since me and my friend yesterday talked about everything...one thing being parties, drinking, chilling with friends and stuff like that...like if your friends are causing you to sin or causing you to stumble...maybe you should rethink spending so much time with them. I told my friend...you don't necessarily have to cut them off because if everyone cut off the people who have negative impacts on their lives...there would be no one to spread the gospel to those people. I told him...when it comes to partying and drinking...the number one thing is prevention, to not go and not even put yourself in the situation where you can get tempted. If you can't do that and you wanna go to at least chill with your friends...number 2 is self control...to find someone, keep him accountable and have him keep you accountable. Your friends, should know of and respect your faith enough not to try to push you or tempt you to do things you're uncomfortable with doing you know. My friend was saying how lately he feels lost and weird around his friends cuz all they talk about is partying and drinking and stuff and he doesn't wanna talk about that stuff...he likes chilling with like me and our other church friends and stuff...I told him that's God working in him....that when he desires to know God more...he's gonna wanna desire to know God's people more and really get to know others of similar spiritual faiths or stronger. But at the same time I get that sometimes, you just need that non christian person's point of view, you just want somebody to talk to and give you normal advice, not someone who always directs everything back to God. I dunno, it was a really enlightening and eye opening conversation, but whenever I think about that girl in her room reading her bible while her friends were partying...that's so inspiring and amazing to me, I pray God continues to work in that girl and keep her faith strong and that she may spread the good news to her friends.

Yesterday...

Yesterday was such a fun filled and exhausting day...woke up at like 9 ish, went to wonderland with 2 other friends...it was soooo fun. The first ride we went on was the new ride Leviathan...the wait was literally over an hour -____- but the ride was soooooo run. Went on a few more rides...had a funnel cake for the first time ever. Wonderland is honestly a really fun and good experience, but I can never see myself getting a season pass or going often only because the lines are such a piss off lol and the sun is a killer in those lines as well. Lined up for Leviathan one more time and it was only like a 40 min wait this time...after that, walked across the street, was craving a slushie and it was sooooo good, had subway, then headed home. Actually not home lol, cuz it was like 7 ish...drove back and got to church for fellowship at like 8. We had a wrap up bible study kinda thing...was soooo out of it cuz I was so tired...wanted to just fall asleep. After, had dinner with the fellowship and after dinner, my friend drove me home and we stayed outside my house for a good hour just talking...about everything, life, friends, problems, school, church, specific people,etc...which I'l elaborate on later.

LOL of the Moment

It's like my 5th time watching this, so funny how much trash this kid talks to John Wall...

Today...

What's good, today was a long day...ish. Woke up, had breakfast, friend called me out to the mall cuz he hadn't eaten yet. Went to Markville...the food court just opened, it's really nice...hopefully the mall will be just as nice when it's fully renovated. After, he came over, we gamed for a bit, he left, my other friends came over, we gamed as well. Then my other friend came back and we all sat down, like 5 of us and played monopoly LOL...I love board games. After, one of my friends left and we played yu gi oh and more videogames. After, headed to my other friend's house for a bible study...didn't eat dinner, so I was dying and tired the whole time. After, came home around 10 ish....ate dinner, 11 ish...cut hair and shaved...now chilling...waking up at like 8 tomorrow to go to wonderland with 2 other friends. Excited...haven't been in like a year...only been on Behemoth once in my life and never tried the new ride...and never had a funnel cake before LOL.

Frank Ocean - Forrest Gump

From The Heart: I Am What I Am

This is a topic that's really personal to me and a topic I'm sometimes really sensitive towards. But this blog represents me and everything that I am...but yeah. If you know me personally, or you have seen me or at least know what I look like, you'll know I don't look like your average guy. I have a skin condition called eczema, not sure how to explain that...feel free to google it. But yeah...that's why my face or my body or whatever may look a certain way. Why am I talking about this...well I wasn't born this way...I somehow got it when I was really young and have had it ever since. I bring this up because my mom and dad here and there always tell me, hey let's go to the doctors, let's try different creams and lotions and stuff...it annoys the heck out of me. Because I've been to so many doctors, in Canada, in Singapore...spent so much money on creams and lotions that don't work in my opinion and is all BS. But my parents constantly harass me telling me...well don't you wanna have good skin, you could be so handsome if you cleared up your skin. I get massively annoyed...cuz as I grow in my spiritual walk...I'm learning to love the skin I'm in...and just really embrace who I am you know. If someone is going to decide whether they wanna be my friend or whether they like me solely based on my looks...then I certainly don't even wanna associate with someone as shallow as that. Yeah sometimes, I sit and think about...if I looked normal...would I be more popular...would I have more friends...would more girls like me...would I be a ladies man you know? A lot of questions come up...sometimes I use to doubt God and question why he made me like this...and gave the really douchey people good looks and stuff...like I'm a good person right? But again, as I grow older and wiser hopefully...I'm learning to live with it...I'm not saying there is no cure...I'm just saying...I'm not making it my life goal to find a cure. If somewhere down the lines of life...I stumble upon it...sure...but I'm not going to go out of my way and become a completely different person solely to look good. I think of it like this...if I didn't look the way I am...would I still be the same person, have the same morals, personality, friends. Would I be one of those stuck up douchey, self centered, cocky guys who's all about looks. Sometimes I do get real sensitive and awkward when people bring it up, talk about it or ask me about it. But that's like...this is me you know. There was a point in life where all I wished and hoped for was to look normal...but then I realized...this outward appearance...doesn't define me. Yeah it may attract people at first, but it's what's inside that really keeps them there, it's whats inside that defines who I am. Just because I'm not the most handsome or good looking guy doesn't make me a bad person, and I sure as heck don't feel bad about it. I think sometimes, it's really hard when girls go all crazy over the cute celebrities or cute guys and stuff like that...it hits me sometimes...but again as I grow closer to God and grow stronger in faith, I believe that He has a plan for me...that everyone in my life is in it for reason...that there is a special girl out there for me. As much as I used to wish I looked normal and cute and handsome and or whatever...I'm glad I'm different. It helps people to remember who I am, I stand out, I'm different. Yeah there's the occasional people who'll brush me off or whatever...but most people who take the time to see past the surface. I think back then I was so concentrated on looks...because I knew I didn't have it, I tried to make up for it everywhere else, the clothes I wore, the people I hung out with, everything...was to look good. But now...at the age of 20...this skin condition I have...is something I live with, something I embrace...not ashamed of, but not necessarily proud of either...just kinda accepted it in a good way...where if you don't wanna be seen with me cuz of it...it's cool cuz I don't wanna associate with someone like you either. I just hate that my parents think it's so important for me to fix it and once I do...suddenly my life will be all better. I think of it like this...if I wasn't like this...I may be a completely different person, everything about me might be different, so I'm proud and happy about who I am and I'm definitely in no rush to change it.

Kanye West has a song called Everything I Am...and the lyric that sounds out to me is when he goes "Everything I'm not, made me everything I am."

So it's like...the fact that I'm not the most good looking guy instilled in my good morals, to not be shallow, to not judge a book by it's cover but to really get down deep and get to know a person. But yeah...that's just me man...got so much more to say, but just can't put it into words.

Laura Story - Blessings

These lyrics absolutely kill me...motivating, inspiring, hard hitting...wow.
"What if trials of this life...are Your mercies in disguise?"
"What if my greatest disappointments...and the aching of this life...is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy."

Random Thoughts

Can't believe it's already August 20th...school starts on September 5th for me. Damn...crazy how fast summer went by. These next couple weeks leading up to my 3rd year are really hectic and busy...all my friends are trying to squeeze in time so we can chill...so I'm like always doing something everyday...damn lol.

LOL of the Moment

Gotten numerous complaints from people who are like "hey uh...no offence, but I think your blog can be improved if you move your music to the top cuz a lot of the times, I'm playing music and I have to pause yours." LOOOOOOLLLLL I reply simply with this...that's the point...I put the music all the way at the bottom, so if need be...you have to scroll ALLLLLL the way down, through my entire blog to pause the music...hahahahahahaha.

From The Heart: Uneasy Thoughts

Saturday night...when I was trying to sleep...this whole thing about school and the future rushed through my head...and I couldn't sleep the whole night...it was funny cuz this was just after I had wrote the "Words of Wisdom" post a little bit lower down. I'm going into my 3rd year...didn't get into the program I wanted to...this year, just focusing on boosting my GPA and trying to get into that program again. But if I get in...that'll be another what...3-4 years, I don't even know. Then there's the other thought...the one I don't like thinking about and even mentioning...what if I don't get in. That's when I started to doubt myself, God, His plan...I was scared. I've never been a school type of person and I've never really buckled down and taking it seriously...so failing those 3 courses in my 2nd year was a real wake up call...a knockout punch that said YO...TIME TO GET UP OFF YOUR BUTT AND GET TO WORK. I was just really taken back...and scared...going into my 3rd year...normal people graduate in their 4th...I would too if I stayed on schedule...but failing those 3 courses made me realize this program wasn't for me. Yeah I could be like...well if only I did this in high school, or did this or did that. But thinking like that is hopeless and will only make me feel worse. I don't even mind seeing some friends I grew up with graduate before me, that won't effect me. I just wanna graduate and get that diploma...for myself, for my parents...to make myself and them proud of me. But this whole thing just had me scared...if I did get in to con ed...how long more would I be in school...and of course...what if...what if I didn't get in...then what. Then I just was like okay God, what do You have in store for me. I'm scared...of the future...of everything. I want to trust You, but I'm scared. Then I remembered to when I was taking the exams for the 3 courses...before I found out I failed...I knew I would need a miracle to pass...so I told myself...whatever happens happens...God YOU are in control, if I fail...I fail...it means I'm not ready yet, it's not in Your plan and that You have something better in store for me. God...as I head into my 3rd year...I pray that I put everything...EVERYTHING into YOUR hands and rely on YOU completely...to trust in the plan You have for me...and have faith in You that You will guide me down the right path.

Random Thoughts

So yesterday was our last softball game of the season, we came into this game with a record of 2-7...the other team who we somewhat know came into this game with a 0-9 record. The whole season, a lot of my team was looking forward to this game cuz we knew they weren't that good and their record reflected it. So the whole week, our whole team was boosting and hyping up...me included...about how we're gonna win...hit lots of homeruns, cuz it's a small diamond and stuff. We were so full of it, so cocky...and you know what happened yesterday, exactly what we deserved...we lost. We were up by 4 runs...somehow the caught up and we lost by 3. We're not even a good team to begin with, how do we have the audacity to belittle another team who's record isn't that different than ours. Myself included...I was all like yeah gonna hit homeruns and stuff. When I had realized we lost...it took a moment to sink in...me and a few other guys were the only ones who really took it to heart...mainly because we played sloppy, we had the lead, we lost the lead, and this was a game we were "supposed" to win. There was an uneasy tension among our own team as well because our coach...the team we faced, a lot of them were his cousins...so tensions rose cuz people felt he was being too easy...as well some of the umps were a little iffy. But eh...a loss is a loss....for a good hour I was sulking...mad cheesing...just shocked that we lost. Then after devos...and a good time to relax...I realized...this is exactly what we deserved, we underestimated them when we aren't even that great in the first place...overestimated ourselves...became cocky...made mistakes...let them catch up and win. It was exactly what we deserved...can't complain, I was annoyed at first...but we dug our own graves essentially. It's crazy how God will break you down when He feels you're too crazy or too in over your heads. This loss was just really humbling...it brought me at least...back down to earth....that God is in control of every situation and anything and everything can happen...if He so chooses it to, but yeah...the season's over...not a superb way to end it off...but we had a team dinner, team bonding, playing wii...it was a overall fun night to help forget about the game. As well...me and the coach have agreed we're DEFINITELY coming back to play jrs at least one more year...ayyyyyy...can't wait till next year.

LOL of the Moment

So yesterday when I was teaching Sunday School, there were a bunch of my kids in grade 6 going to the older class to just see how it was and try it out, so my class was pretty empty for the first bit...like 5 or so kids...so I was like okay we can either watch movies or have free time, and they wanted free time...then slowly more and more kids came, guess they were late or something, so I'm like okay free time, you guys can go play hide and seek or whatever...cuz they were asking me for the longest time to play lol...so I was like yeah go around the church, just don't be loud or get in trouble, cuz then I'll get in trouble. So most of them went, I stayed back with a few kids in the room just chilling and talking to them. 20 minutes later, this one lady comes and goes...where're your kids, I'm like well some of them are in the other class...and she's like what about the other kids...I'm like I dunno, free time? She goes yeah, I saw them upstairs running around and stuff...what were they doing...I'm like I dunno, I thought they were going to the other class cuz I thought they were old enough...so she gathers them all back and goes...did he let you guys out to do whatever you want...one of the kids who I was talking to...he goes no...why would he do that...we just thought we were supposed to go to the other class but we didn't want to...LOOOOL. You get it....so I technically would've gotten into trouble for letting them out and causing a ruckus and stuff...but that one kid was like yeah, it's our fault, we tricked him lOOOOL. So the lady left, and I was tlaking to the kids, I'm like yo...see this is why I told you guys to be quiet LOL, cuz if you get in trouble, then I get in trouble lol. Those kids are so jokes...had mad funny conversations with them.

Words Of Wisdom

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance." James 1:2-3

To me...this just means like in any trial, test, failure, fall, trip, stumble...it's all from God...and He will never put us through something He knows we can't handle (1 Corinthians 10:13). We have to go through struggles and failures to grow, to learn, to become stronger. God uses it to struggle...not for us to suffer for His pure enjoyment. So good, bad, happy, sad...rejoice and thank God in all circumstances...it's all for the greater good. The testing of your faith produces perseverance...trust in Him and have faith in Him...it'll be worth it. He tests us to...make us stronger...make our faith stronger...to let us know that He's always there for us to lean on and depend on.

Today...

What's good...today was a tiring, hectic, frustrating, fun, hilarious and eventful day. We slept at like 6...woke up at like 11. My friend had went to pick up his girlfriend and came back, so that had woke me up, but surprisingly I wasn't tired, got a good like 5-6 ish hours of sleep. But the morning started off slow and stressful...woke up to friends telling me they couldn't come anymore/they didn't wanna come anymore. This is honestly why I hate planning things, people flop last minute, give excuses and all that bs...spent like the longest time trying to convince them and just putting more stress onto myself...eventually gave up and tried to enjoy the day. More mans messaged me saying they couldn't come...like why you gonna tell me you can come...then just because we change our plans...all of a sudden you become busy and say you can't come...holy crap. But yeah, surprisingly, the day went uphill from there. People were complaining last night that everyone was like on their laptops and stuff like taht not like bonding...but at the same time, those people who said that were kinda putting up negative vibes towards everyone else and were being really rude about it and it was visibly obvious. So come today this morning...when everyone had just woke up and settled in...it was all calm, we all sat down, chilled, talked, laughed, played monopoly for the longest time and had a genuinely good time...it was so fun. After a few hours, we finally finished and a few people left...just me and 3 of the boys...we gamed, talked, laughed...man...this just made me remember why I love chilling with my boys, my homies..it's all fun, personal talks and stuff...but never any stress...I love it. After, another one of my friends came over and we just had more laughs, talks, dinner and stuff...an overall fun night. It was another blessing in disguise...it started out as a big thing with over like 10-15 people projected to come...with like plans to go to the beach and stuff...but slowly as the day and night revealed itself...plans changed, people backed out, people didn't wanna come...and yeah it was annoying and a bigggggg piss off at first...I forgot about it...tried my best to enjoy myself...and I did, it was sooo fun. I realize....you can't force people to do things if they don't want to...but it was ironic that as soon as people don't force them to do it, suddenly they wanna do it you know. Another thing is that, too many times...myself included...I put up invisible walls or create invisible problems and create this negative environment around myself and cut off people from myself...today I saw that in other people...and when they left...the different between them and someone else was the other person made a legitimate effort to talk to the other people and that's why we all sat down and played monopoly and had a really good time. I hope nobody takes this post offensively...I don't mean to be rude...just stating my observations...but yeah, today was just a really great time....yeah I could sit here and tell you guys what

Kanye West - Blame Game feat. John Legend

Today...

What's good...today has been a really productive and eventful day. Besides loafting all day and chilling...did my insurance homework, emailed that to my teacher, prepped for teaching Sunday school this Sunday. Had fellowship, after had dinner with the homies...then they came over and are still over...sleeping over, just chilling, gaming, laughs, talks, jokes, etc...it's 5 am right now...we're still wide awake, lights on, playing videogames hahaha. Man we are not waking up tomorrow...right now it's just 5 of us...there were a few more, but they didn't wanna sleep over. Other people are coming back tomorrow to have lunch together and just chill, then have dinner together as well.

DJ Khaled - They Ready feat. J. Cole, Big K.R.I.T., Kendrick Lamar

Good News

Woke up this morning...dad came clutch...made me breakfast and gave me the password for the wifi hahaha...using my Mac right now, but it's gonna die soon, gonna head downstairs and play xbox live!!! Also don't have to use my 3G anymore when I'm at home...I'm like 3/4 done my max and it's only halfway through August lol.

No Posts...

I'm taking down the blog...JOKES...lol...but uh, my computer's messed...was using it this morning, suddenly the screen turned black and it's just messed now...I'm typing this from my computer using safe mode...but my friend said he'll check it out for me...most likely a hard ware problem, so can't use this comp till he checks it on Friday, well I can use it, but no videos or anything...the colour is mad weird...pictures look so weird. And my mac...I can use that, but internet doesn't work. When I was gone to Cleveland, my dad upgraded the modem...and also his friend set a password for our wifi...when I came back...my dad tells me he doesn't know the password...how on earth is that possible...now my dad's loafting on calling his friend to get that password...though it takes only 5 MINUTES...so no wifi on mac or my phone...luckily I have 3G...but yeah...my bad for no posts...if he gets the password for the wifi...I'll be back in action...also I can't go on xbox live either...how cheesing is that, damn.

Tupac Shakur - My Dearest One!!

There R no words 2 express
how much I truly care
So many times I fantasize of
feelings we can share
My heart has never known
the Joy u bring 2 me
As if GOD knew what I wanted
and made u a reality
I'd die 2 hold u or 2 kiss u
or merely to see your face
my stomach quivers my body shivers
and my heart increases pace
2 give me $ or lots of gold
would not be the same 2 me
I prayed and watched the distant stars
and finally u came 2 me!

- 2Pac

I wrote this exactly how it was written in his book "The Rose That Grew From Concrete". This poem stuck out to me so much...2Pac was just an amazing lyricist...the power of words really showed every time and anytime he picked up a pen. I just felt so compelled to share this with you guys when I read it again.

The Old Me...

Sometimes I miss the old me...the old me was carefree...didn't care about nothing, had problems but didn't make such a big thing of them. I always tell myself or my friends that the old me would beat the present me up lol. The old me was honestly a g...a rebel, a troublemaker, a bully...nuff said. When I look at the old me...part of me sees freedom, care free, stress free, fun. The only thing I miss about the old me is just how stress free I was you know, I never took things to heart, I never made a big deal about things...drama was not that important you know, just me and the homies. But...then I look at how empty my old life was...how lonely and confused I was...living a life without a true purpose you know. If you scroll down and just read my post about life...yeah right now, life is tough...I'm older...my future is right in front of me, school is tough, life is tough, drama is everywhere...but that's life you know. I dunno...sometimes, I just wish I could get away with one or two real close friends...and just chill at a cottage or something for like a month...as summer's coming to an end...I think about all the fun and memorable times I had spent with the people I care about...but I also think about all the unnecessary drama that was brought my way...sigh.

Big Sean - So Much More

This song always gets to me..."been this way before you were born, dreamed of having so much more." It literally is so inspiring...just hits me hard, to work harder, go further, strive further...just to give my very best at anything and everything...and to never, never let anyone tell me I can't do anything. "Whatever you do in life, follow your heart. Nobody can see your vision like you can see it."

Life...

Life is tough, but then again, no one said it'd be easy. Sometimes I just wish I could read people's thoughts...not just girls so I can get with them...but people in general...just so you could know what they're thinking, how they're feeling. But then again...that would make life too easy, a big part of life are the struggles, the failures, the pain, the obstacles. I love using my roller coaster analogy...where it's like if the roller coaster only goes down...yeah it's fun, but it's the suspense when you're slowly going up that makes the down so much more thrilling, exciting and fun. Like life...if everything was all good, fine and dandy...yeah you'd be happy, but it's the pain, the failures, the trips, the falls...that make life so much more exciting and memorable...it makes you really appreciate the good things you have in life. There are all kinds of sayings...to appreciate the sun, you gotta know what rain is. You gotta go through the rain to get to the rainbow...nuff sayings. I guess what I'm trying to say...to y'all...to myself...is...life hasn't gotten easier, you've just gotten stronger. If you look back, or even if I look back...at all the things I've been through, all the people that have come and gone, that have stuck with me...I've been through so much, so have you...yeah you reading this right now. Life is tough, but that's what makes everything worth while...to know you went through all the pain, struggle, rain, failures...but you endured...it's so satisfying. So this...isn't just for you, it's for me as well...a constant reminder to look on the bright side, to focus on the good things in life...that days will get brighter.

Usher - Burn

I've just been really into that old school, throwback R&B lately...the Ne-Yo, Chris Breezy, Trey Songz, Usher, etc...

Random Thoughts

A lot of the times...I over think...but I'd say half of the thoughts that I have have some truth to it. I dunno...there are minor things, then there are major things that have been on my heart for the longest time. I just need peace you know...part of me misses Cleveland for the "temporary getaway" it was. Part of me also can't wait till school starts cuz that gets my mind off things cuz I'm at school half the time, chilling, meeting people, having fun. I'm just really struggling with a few things lately...but just talking to my friend today really helped ease my mind on a lot of things...it didn't solve it or answer a lot of the questions I had...but it really set my mind at ease for now.

From Me To You...

This morning and afternoon...was a really good time...something I really needed. I'm so glad we're friends and despite us not perhaps communicating on a day to day basis...we're still able to chill here and there and catch up and really just be there for one another. Thanks for listening to me and vice versa...allowing me to listen to you. I really needed someone outside of that zone...to just talk to and get input from. Sometimes, I look to you as that person I can tell everything to, because you have a different way of thinking...good different. We talked about everything from God, church, life, problems, girls, boys, school, everything...thank you for being there for me. I really needed someone to just tell everything to, I've been holding so much in lately, and even if I did talk to somebody, I would hold lots back...but today, I just really let everything out, and I really feel you did the same...I really hope we continue to keep this up...to really keep each other accountable and be there for one another in our times of need. Despite you going away for school, I hope we'll still remain close...I'll definitely make an effort to keep that up. Simply said, thank you for being there for me...I really appreciate the conversations we have/had...it means a lot to me, thanks.

Varsity - Future Love

Random Thoughts

It's 10 am right now...I just woke up this morning feeling really down you know. Part of me is really frustrated I can't even tweet or blog about everything that I want to cuz specific people will read it and get offended and because I see these people often, I don't wanna do that. But yeah...it's just...a bunch of emotions...I'm sorry I can't elaborate or give details as to why...I just...feel like I can't talk to anybody you know. Everybody has that one person they always message, always go to, or that one person who is always there for them. Sometimes I feel like I have that in some people, then sometimes I don't. In a friendship...it's a 2 way thing like I always say where both people have to pull their weight and do their part to reach out to the other person and see how they're doing. If it's only one person always telling their life to another person, they're more of a therapist than a friend. And on another hand, if one friend is always reaching out to the other friend and the other friend never messages or reaches out to that friend...that's not really a healthy friendship either. I dunno...I've been talking to my ex lately...and I'm in this mood where if I'm comfortable with you, no matter who you are...I'll talk to you...it's just nice you know, to have someone to listen to you, someone who genuinely cares. There's this person...who I feel like I'll always have a little thing for...no matter what we've been through, how close we are or how far we've grown...every time I talk to this person, it just feels like we're best friends all over again and part of me just wants to tell this person everything, but I don't. I dunno...I have all these mixed emotions going on right now...part of me misses Cleveland with the kids and the missions team...but part of me misses that "temporary getaway" everyone talks about so much...no problems, no stresses, no people...man. I wanna say so much more...but I can't...I can't.

Random Thoughts

When I'm alone...usually with nothing to do...I think...a lot...about anything and everything. I've been talking to my ex a lot lately...chilling with her here and there and seeing her here and there...not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. Haven't chilled with my boys since coming back from my trip...they asked me to ball a few times, but I was busy...miss them styll. Been chilling with church mans a lot...I honestly love the time we spend together...fun, chill time...yet able to have personal talks and be there for one another. What else...yeah just been loafting and chilling at home as well. Gotta keep these thoughts away...not healthy.

Today...

Was a real chill, loaft and fun day. Woke up at like 1...was that tired. Loafted on my computer, watched stuff, played games...friend came over at like 5 ish and we gamed for a bit, headed up to Swiss Chalet at like 7 ish for my friend's birthday, it was just a chill and good time. I love spending time with these guys...no drama, no stress...just fun, laughs, jokes and a good time. After dinner, headed back to my house for videogames...a classic tradition to end off the night hahaha.

Random Stories

So despite how "good" some people think I am in basketball...I've never been on a elementary or high school basketball team...I've been on a elementary school volleyball team and a soccer team, but never a high school team. Oh well...ultimate frisbee in high school...boss sport. But yeah...so in elementary school, I thought I was the best in basketball, no joke...I was literally up there, I was sick...it's elementary school, c'mon. But yeah, so I remember just not making it in grade 6 and 7 and it was literally my first ever heartbreak...when my world first ended...you know lol...basketball was all I really had cuz I was never a scholar either. So yeah, come grade 8...I made the first cut, second cut would have decided the team...I remember running to the room and seeing the list and not seeing my name...my life was over...my heart was broken...I wanted to cry but the tears just wouldn't come out. I then remember my friends trying to petition for me to get on the team cuz no offense, I was better than half the team...but they said no. So my friends brought me to one practise and I practised with them...got to scrimmage...I remember just knocking down 4 three's in a row...the coach was nodding his head in approval...my friends were all trying to feed me the ball lol...I remember going on a fast break, stopping and hitting a 3....went down again, on a fast break, about to hit a 3...but saw my teammate right beside me who's never touched the ball...so I passed it to him lol and everyone got cheesed cuz I didn't shoot it. After the game...I remember the coach coming up to me and saying I'm sorry I didn't put you on the team...but I can't anymore cuz it's full...just those words saying he wish he put me on...def made me feel a bit better...but yeah.

Lately...

I've been really busy, and really tired. I haven't even had time to sit down and have a proper dinner with my family since coming back from Cleveland yet. Came back on Sunday, they went to a cottage and came back on Friday afternoon, but I had fellowship that night, Saturday went out with fridays, Sunday had a church thing, Monday had a church thing Tuesday had softball, Wednesday bible study with friends, Thursday softball, Friday fellowship, Saturday dinner with softball mans, Sunday softball then dinner, now today is Monday and going out for my friend's bday...then tomorrow is softball again...Wednesday will probs be the first sit down dinner with my family, I love them to death...missed them so much when they were gone :).But yeah...anyways, these past few days...Friday I had fellowship I night, then went to dinner with the friends and always have good talks when that happens. Saturday went to the gym with my friend, came home and got ready, went to the movies with the softball team, saw The Dark Knight. Sunday, praise team was singing...after that, first time back teaching Sunday School...missed the kids haha, just how active and hyper the Cleveland kids were made me really appreciate my own kids. After that, went to lunch with few peeps, then went home and had softball...double header, there was a huge puddle around 2nd base and a minor puddle around 1st. Played the first game really well...the team was giving it their all and we lost...but it was really really close...so proud. The second game...could've been better...played well the first half, second half kinda got tired, lazy...played terrible...lost. One more game...facing a team that slike 0-9...so we gotta go hard you know, we're not the best either...we're 2-7...but our record doesn't reflect how good or how hard our team works. But yeah after softball, went to dinner, came home, showered...and crashed...was watching TV...fell asleep...forgot to blog, went straight to bed and slept. My bad...

Hillsong - You'll Come

Sorry for no posts yesterday or today...been long, busy and tiring days...will update y'all tomorrow...this song is just really speaking to me..."Chains be broken, lives be healed, eyes be opened, Christ is revealed."

Nas - You Wouldn't Understand feat. Victoria Monet

Paul Kim - You Left Me For That

Today...

What's good...today was a slow and loaft day. Ate lunch at home, watched lots of shows online...friend came over and we gamed literally from like 4 till 9 ish. Afterwards, went out to Wendy's for dinner with my bro then came home and chilled. My rents are gonna be coming home tomorrow night...can't wait haha, haven't seen them since I left for my trip, miss them :P.

LOL of the Moment

One of my fave clips from Community...

Olly Murs - Oh My Goodness

I've heard of this guy before, always see people retweeting his tweets or talking about him but didn't know who he was...then heard this song on the radio and it was catchy, so I Shazam'ed it and found out it was this...

Aaliyah - Enough Said feat. Drake

This song is just...enough said...

Today...

Today was just a real good day...woke up at like 8...couldn't sleep, my nose was stuffy so I couldn't really breathe and as well I was hungry. My friends messaged me up and asked me to go to breakfast. Haven't seen them since I came back from my trip, so we headed to Cora's...a breakfast place and had food. Afterwards, went to the dollar store around there and chilled a bit, got some candy and stuff, headed back to my friend's house just the 3 of us chilling, playing cards, poker and talking and laughing. Afterwards, she had to pick up her dad at the hospital, where we also found out one guy from our church was in the hospital, so us 3 visited him and prayed with him. Hospital's always just give me a scary vibe for some reason. But yeah after, us 3 had lunch with my friend's dad then headed back to her house and just chilled...we played some more cards, talked, laughed, threw stuff at each other and fought with like those paper towel rolls hahaha. Had dinner with her family and my other friend, then 2 other of our friends came over for a bible study...a weekly thing we decided to do...then just talked and chilled. I'm really glad I woke up and went out with my 2 friends...spent the whole day with them and just chilled and laughed...it was honestly a really good time, I'm thankful.

NBA Clip of the Moment

Here's to my boy Derrick Rose...praying for a speedy recovery and he can go back to being the best point guard in the NBA...fast don't lie!

Missions Trip: The Team

Here are some pics, not my own...gotten from somebody else...I'll post mine later, but here's the team...I'll say it again, crazy how some of us came in as acquaintances, knowing each other a bit...and some came in as total strangers, not knowing each other at all. But through this trip, we bonded...became friends...siblings in Christ...people who hold each other accountable...we went from surface level conversations to personal conversations, devos, sharings, testimonies...this is a family right here...I pray we continue to keep connected and check up on each other and hold each other accountable and responsible.

From The Heart: The Aftermath

Post 100,000 hits...wow...still can't believe. I'm just so thankful and so humbled. But now that it's over...gotta move forward, work towards that 200k and eventually that million. Got so many things for the future planned...I'm considering in investing in a DSLR camera...and I can play around with pictures and stuff...I kinda wanna get one that can record as well, but it's more pricey...we'll see. It's August already, meaning school's right around the corner, gotta start selling books and getting my things ready and get my mind back on track and sleeping patterns straight. Gotta hit up the booth and record all these tracks I've written. One thing that's gonna stay constant no matter how busy I get is that I'm gonna be blogging, just updating you guys with what's going on in my life and sharing my heart with you guys. I'm so excited you guys stuck with me and celebrated 100k hits with me...it means the world to me. I wonder who my 100k hit was...LOL, whatever...everyone who has ever visited my blog, read a post...has played a part in this momentous occasion and I'm super glad you were a part of it...and I can't wait for our journey to 200k to begin...no doubt there will be bumps and skids in the road...but that just makes it all the more memorable and worthwhile right? Thanks for sharing this with me guys...for being there during the ups and downs...for supporing me and encouraging me when I was down...and holding my hands high and celebrating with me when I was happy. As school starts in September...that just means December is all the more closer...Christmas, New Years...perhaps another trip for me to some christian conference...but December 15...mark that date on your calendar...the 3rd anniversary of the blog...it's almost been 3 years of existence for this blog...wow...that's crazy...but yeah, till then...stick with me on this ride, it'll be a memorable one, I promise.

The Weeknd - Same Old Song

Today...

What's good...today was a loaft day, woke up and just watched Fresh Prince all day. Hit up the mall to get a iphone charger cuz I left mine in Cleveland -__-...my friend then picked me up from the mall and we went to softbal practice...it was such a good feeling, I literally pushed myself and worked super hard...felt nice haha. Came home, bro bought home KFC and now we're just chilling. I'm really glad me and my brother have this time to just bond and chill. I don't think we've ever went out for food together and sat down and just talked, yesterday for dinner we went out for pho. Today for lunch we both made instant noodles and just talked, same for dinner...he brought home KFC and we just talked, no TV was on or no phones...just talked and stuff, it was really great.

100,000 VIEWS

HOLY MOLY, GUACAMOLE, RAVIOLI!!! It's finally happened...just give me a moment to take this in...oh my goodness...are you serious...like actually...100 thousand hits...wow...speechless...freaking out...omg. I'm gonna give y'all the usual schpeel...I'm no celebrity...I'm just a regular guy...struggling with school...juggling God, family, friends, life and my hobbies...reaching 100,000 hits....is...surreal. It's mind blowing...to think I started this blog in December of 2009 I believe...? And it'll be 3 years come December...to think we started with nothing...0...zero hits...averaging a few hundred hits per month...to a few thousand per month...to a bunch of thousand per month...to a whopping 100,000 hits. I remember I first started this blog...cuz my friend started a blog...legit, that's why I started it, I thought it was cool. Now everyone's on like Tumblr and stuff lol. Well turns out my friend would stop blogging after a couple of months...but I kept going for some random reason, but it was scarce. First started off blogging very rarely...whenvever I remembered or came across it...to blogging mainly songs and videos...this blog even went through a hiatus where I didn't blog for a couple of months. For some reason, I came back and just blogged everyday...still music videos and songs and funny videos...I don't really remember when I started to share my life on this blog and tell you guys more about me...but to think it's been that long...and this blog has grown so much...and reached so many people around the world really blows my mind. As appreciative and excited as I am...I'm thankful and humble for everything y'all have done and gave to me...I'm hungry to see what this blog has in store for you guys and what else my mind can come up with to put forth to you guys...this is just another milestone and stpeping stone for me guys...I'm aiming for that million...it's only a matter of time. First of all, all glory to God...who gave me the strength to continue blogging everyday cuz there were plenty of times when I wanted to give up and shut down...thanks for giving me courage to share my life with you guys and be as open as I am. Thanks for the people who have been with me and been with this blog...as few as you are...since the beginning...in our dark days...to now when we've grown to what we are now. I have so many things to say...so many feelings to express...overall, and to cut it short cuz I'm tired...THANK YOU...for everything...I blog to express myself...but also to please you guys...to inspire and motivate you guys...the fact that my blog is still relevant and going strong really makes me happy and encourages me to keep going...thank you...the viewer...you reading this post right now...from the bottom of my heart, I appreciate you with every fibre in my body. Like I said, we're not finished, we're not gonna take it easy or chill out...we're only gonna get better and stronger...thank you, thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I still have so many things to share with you guys from my missions trip, so many things I've learned, so many pictures and so many songs to record and put out for you guys...thanks for sticking with me for this long...peace and love.

- Rodmond

Meek Mill - Big Dreams

As we reach 100,000 in a matter of moments...this song comes to mind...how we came from nothing...to something. Small City, Big Dreams.

From Me To You...

For some reason, a lot of the heart to heart talks I have with people tend to happen in their cars...sorry for no posts today, was a loaft ish day but yeah...loafted all day on my computer, brother came home, went for pho with him, went grocery shopping with him while our rents are away. Friend called me to come over and play card games with him and others, went home at like 12 ish...stayed in the car for like an hour just talking...about EVERYTHING...life, school, family, relatives, parents, siblings, stresses, church, problems, friends, the future, the past...everything...I love how close we've become...I first came into this whole thing with the sense that okay, he's an open guy that I'm comfortable with and cool with...I can see myself talking to him. As time went on and we chilled more...I just became more open and comfortable with him...his natural personality just made it so easy to open up and trust him. I'm so thankful that not only is he a brother in Christ, but someone who can keep me accountable for my words and actions and someone I can talk to and laugh with and at hahaha. Thanks for the talks bro...it means a lot to me.

PS: sorry for the lack of posts...I've been busy/I've also been loafting...-_-....BUT WE'RE A FINGER AWAY FROM 100,000...however, it pains me to say I have nothing to give to you guys yet...haven't had time to go and record anything cuz I've been busy and my friend has been on vacation...but it will be coming asap...thanks.

Missions Trip: THE HOMIES

My roommates for the trip...my brothers, my friends, my accountability buddies...it's crazy how we went from jokes about the stupidest things, laughs, snoring and stuff...to serious talks, heart to hearts and devotions and testimonies...y'all have literally become family. I still can't believe we laughed at the same joke the entire trip. This definitely isn't the end of our mission, I look forward to serving with you brothers in the future. I'll continue to pray for y'all...for strength, for courage, for strong will and strong faith...that God will continue to work in you and shape you to His liking...that you will give your all to Him and make Him the center of your lives and allow everything to flow from that. Thank you for an amazing, memorable and humbling trip boys...y'all are my homies forreal...no disrespect to the girls lol, I'll get to y'all tomorrow as well, but this was the first picture I got to...the boys of the team...the four horsemen...Team Knicks LOOOOOOOLLLL.

From The Heart: No Confidence in the Flesh

Sup...so for one of our devos, we did Philippians chapter 3. The verses that stood out to me came from Philippians 3:7-9a, it says "But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whos sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ and be found in him". This also leads me to the song I just posted called Lead Me To The Cross..one of the lyrics says "everything I once held deep, I count it all as loss"...that just hits me really hard...especially since I put my time, energy, hope and effort into a lot of things I shouldn't be, or are putting too much of that into certain things when I should be putting it into God you know. This verse and the song really speak to me...it teaches me to not put my trust and faith into things of this earth...for they will fade away...and not to put my trust in friends, relationships, people in general...cuz they will fail you...but God...God's love endures forever, his grace and mercy are free...He is always there for us even though we reject Him and sin against Him, that's crazy. To think everything you've ever wanted and searched for can be found in Him...a friend, a comforter, someone to listen, someone to care and love you, to simply be there for you...a protector...a saviour...all those things can be found in God...yet we try to justify the fact that we need a physical presence in all of those things. Or we put our time and effort into things like our phones, TV's, computers....things that not only distract us and waste our time, but prevent us from becoming closer to God. This verse really just teaches me that everything and anything of this world that you're holding on to...it will fade away...you can't have one foot in the world and one foot in Christ...it just doesn't work. It's either one or the other...but yeah, that's just me..."I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus"...everything is meaningless and unimportant compared to knowing Christ...damn.

Francesca Battistelli - Lead Me To The Cross

Missions Trip Day 8

Our last day...home day. Woke up, packed and made sure we didn't forget anything...headed downstairs for breakfast. For devos...we went around and talked about things we're thankful for and also how we can be kept accountable. I was just thankful for this whole opportunity in general...coming to Cleveland, bonding with the team, meeting the kids, learning so much and teaching as well...and I can be kept accountable by just keeping me on track with devos and staying in contact with me. After that, we headed to the church one last time...for Sunday worship. Played with the kids, performed a song with them in front of their parents, then had lunch with the church and everyone, took pictures, chilled...then it was off to Toronto. The drive in total was around 8 hours...stopped by a few times for washroom breaks, I have so many things to say...but I'm really tired right now...def will post pictures, final thoughts and overall thoughts and everything I learned, so stay tuned...100,000 is also right around the corner, for now, peace.

Random Thoughts

I have so much more to say, but I'm just sticking to daily updates for now...got lots of pictures form my trip and just a lot of thoughts and things I've learned, stay tuned. Also 100,000 is RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER...Y'ALL AS EXCITED AS I AM??? Can't wait to hit the booth and record everything I have so far...it's been a long journey guys...it'll be 3 years come December...damn, thanks for all the memories.

Chris Tomlin - This Is Our God

Missions Trip Day 6 & 7

Day 6
Woke up to have breakfast, had devos with the team after devos we had lunch...ordered pizza at the hotel and just chilled and went around asking what we appreciate about one another. I love how much we've bonded and really opened up to each other in the short amount of time that we've been together. After that, we went to a senior home and had a message and played games and sang songs...it was really warming seeing them smile and laugh haha. After we headed to the church and did more gardening and weeding outside before heading out to dinner. The church wanted to treat us to dinner after all the work we've done, so that was real nice of them. After, we headed back to the church for our last day of VBS...and it was fun. The kids were fun and I'm definitely gonna miss them, I hope I see them on Sunday for worship. But yeah, after...we headed back to the hotel for a team debriefing and just discussing what the plan was for tomorrow, then we had a youth meeting and random sharing. And after that the guys went down and had cup noodles and cereal with no milk cuz we were mad hungry and just talking and laughing.

Day 7
Today was a rest day...with VBS over and us having Sunday worship tomorrow...today was a rest day. Woke up, had breakfast...did devos with the team and something that really stood out to me was we were asked "after we head back to Toronto, does the mission end?" What's something we wanna get done or something we wanna finish when we go back to Toronto. For me, one of the biggest things in my heart that I spoke out was to preach the gospel to my brother, to really allow him to know the power and love of Christ. Another thing was to preach the gospel to my non christian friends or christian friends who are struggling or falling. After that, we headed to a bunch of Amish tourist sites, had lunch at an Amish place...then went around to a few other flea markets and museum. After, we went to some outlet mall and that was real fun...got new shoes. After, headed downtown for some sightseeing and stuff, got lots of pictures and bought magnets for my parents cuz they love to collect them and put them on the fridge. Whenever their friends want to get them souvenirs they always tell them to just get magnets, so yeah they told me to get magnets as well lol. Had pho for dinner then headed badk to the hotel for a team debriefing and then chilling. Can't believe we're leaving tomorrow...it still hasn't hit me that we've been here for a week and that we're leaving tomorrow...I've learned so much, made so many bonds...but really just learned so much and taken away so many things...damn, I know that God has something in store for me after this trip...I just have to trust in His plan.

Misions Trip Day 5

Today was just an amazing day...woke up, had a light breakfast, had devos with the team, then headed out to a japanese buffet....sooooooo bomb. Then headed to the church and just chilled till dinner then VBS. VBS was just amazing..whenever I see the kids and them smile and laugh, it just brightens my day. After VBS, we came home, tired, fatigued and drained...debriefed with the team...then the youths gathered for just a sharing...it was really encouraging and uplifting...to think God brought us strangers together and in the short amount of time we've been together...we've bonded...developed new friendships...and really developed a trust where we can have open and deep conversation with each other and share our personal thoughts. We shared with the other youths and prayed for each other, just things that were on our hearts and things that were really stopping us from giving God our all. Afterwards, headed back to the room with my friend and he randomly just opened up to me and we just had a long conversation about God, faith and being open about your faith, another friend joined us and it was just a really stimulating, encouraging and eye opening conversation...we really helped to support, encourage and lift up our brother who was struggling...we prayed for each other and it was just a great time. Afterwards, our other roommate came back and we just had more conversation, genuine conversation...it's crazy to think God put together random strangers with different personalities and different strengths in faith and allowed us to bond and really be there for one another...this trip...as much as we've been helping the church...it really allowed us to give help and receive help as well...from our fellow brothers and sisters...but yeah, not much else to say, I'm just so thankful and happy right now. Praise be to God.

LOL of the Moment

Someone just showed me this, I died...

From Me To You..

So before I left for my trip, I updated y'all with the fact that July was officially the most viewed month of all time with 8,403 hits...but July wasn't even done yet...so the official number of hits for July is 8,905...so close to 9,000...wow, damn...thanks.

Random Thoughts

It's just been an amazing trip so far...one thing I can attest to is that you can't judge a book by it's cover or what you've heard about it. I've gotten to know some people really well and am still getting to know people more...it's true that when you desire God, you also want to desire people who love Him just as much and desire to know Him just as much, that's something that's been in my heart this past year or so...desiring God and desiring to be with His people. But yeah, this trip has really opened me up to others and really appreciating God for who He is and the good...and bad things that he puts in my life. I've been a mentor to others and others have been a mentor to me...where I can give advice to others based on my experience and others can do the same to me. This trip has just been a blessing and a constant learning experience...so glad God brought me here and gave me this opportunity, and as well surrounded me with the people that he has.

Andy Mineo (formerly C-Lite) - The Cross

Missions Trip Day 4

What's good, woke up bright and early this morning. Had breakfast...headed to the church where we met with people and they wanted us to help fix the community garden, we did weeding, mowing, shovelling, all that stuff, sweated like a beast. Had lunch with the team, then went back to finish it off...after it, headed back to the hotel to chill and ish cuz people were tired. Then headed to church for dinner than our VBS, it was really good...the kids really began to open up and talk to us and just have fun in general, it was a great and encouraging sight to see. Afterwards, headed back to the hotel for a team meeting and after that, one of the youths called for a youths meeting where we just share about the trip so far and testimonies as well...it was a real bright spot...just to get to know each other on a more personal level, it's really encouraging for people to open up to each other and pray for one another. God is doing some great things this trip as it is...damn.