Life Goes On

I met up with a friend I haven't seen in a while and sometimes...those kinds of relationships are nice...ones where you haven't seen the person in a while, but when you do meet, you see how much they've grown or changed. I love chilling and talking with this friend because we're so open, honest and comfortable with each other. We talked about everything...and it's just crazy how much we've been through together...and the people and that come and gone in both our lives. It brought me to this topic of life...and how it moves on...nothing truly lasts forever. We talked about childhood friendships or friendships we've had for a really long time...how some have endured, some have faded and some may be hanging on a thread. Sometimes you just have to recognize when it's time to cut ties with someone...you can't be constantly holding onto the fact that you used to be best friends or that you've known them for a certain amount of time. Sometimes people just grow in different directions, change in different ways...that you just can't be friends. I've had to end lengthy friendships simply because it wasn't healthy or I just didn't see eye to eye/know the other person any more. On the other hand I've worked my butt off to preserve lengthy relationships because I felt it was worth it. Life goes on tho...you can't hold onto past memories of someone...because that may not be the person that they are today. My friend and I were talking about church...all the people that have come and gone...all the things that have happened...how yeah it is sad to think about sometimes...but it was all necessary for us to get to where we are today...and each person that came, stayed and or gone...each situation that happened...helped us get to where we are today. We reminisced to all the times we shared together with our friends...how it was a simpler time back then...but that's life...we're growing up...finishing school...life is just beginning...and it's crazy, scary, yet so exciting at the same time. I was sharing on twitter how as nice as it is sometimes to reminisce and think about the past...it's not good to dwell in it and compare it to the present and wish things were different. The past is the past...you can't relive it...you can reminisce about it, but you can't relive it. The people in your life for example...it's cool to reminisce about the people you were once close with or whatever...but to sit and sulk wishing you were still close to them does nothing. I've learned as of late to appreciate the present...to appreciate my surroundings. I've been just really focusing on the now....while thinking and planning for the future...and occasionally sitting back and reminiscing about the past. The now is where we're at and that is what I'm currently focusing on...what I'm doing now and the people that are currently in my life...that is what is important and that is what I'm concerning myself with. I'm super appreciative and thankful for the people that are in my life right now...all that we've been through...how close that we've grown. That's what's important to me right now...the present...my surroundings...my friends...my family...and what's on my plate. As nice as it is to reminisce...to think about a time...a person...life goes on...and so should you.

Clear & Calm Waters

I've bel really peaceful as of late...well at least more than I usually am. Life as of late has literally been school, church and basketball in a nutshell. I was chilling with my boys tonight and I was telling them how I haven't really been seeing or chilling with anybody but my church friends as of late. How my phone has been really quiet cuz I haven't been texting many people. I haven't cut anybody out don't get me wrong, it's just everyone is busy with their own lives ou know. Aside from my church friends, I haven't been in contact with many of my other friends aside from the 2 guys I saw today. My friend said well why is that, what's wrong with saying hi or sending a text, it's not gonna add any stress to your life. I couldn't answer it lol...I just said I know everyone is busy with their own things in their own lives, which is true. I used to see these 2 guys everyday pretty much, now it's different cuz we go to different schools, but I don't him that doesn't mean we're still not close friends, cuz the time that we do chill and get together, it's still love you know. I do apologize to the friends I haven't been in contact with...but at the same time, why haven't you nessaged me? Regardless, it's not a debste or a concern lol. Back to the point that I've been real peaceful as of late...and it hit me today...aside from school and church and stuff...which stresses me out...that's life. I asked myself why am I so calm...what's missing...that's when it hit me...drama. There's no drama in my life...and it's absolutely beautiful. I'm not chasing any girls, thinking of it, but that's different. Usually it's always like oh shoot I think I like this girl or oh shoot his friend is mad at me or whatever and there's always drama. As of late it's been peaceful...just straight business...and I like it that way. My friend asked me is that a good thing? Yes and no...I would say...zero certain extents....yes because it's peaceful, it's quiet, I'm happy. No in a sense where I've isolated myself from friends or I haven't really tried to keep in contact. But ts like if we do talk or chill it's still all love, the situation just hasn't presented itself. But anyways...life is good as of late...quiet, peaceful, busy in terms of work load...but it's good, I'm content.

The Background

Lecrae's song Background...also on my playlist for the blog has been really speaking to me. How sometimes...for me at least...I try to take control of my own life and like I want things my way, I want this, I want that. When in reality...I should be submitting to God and in the plan that he has for me. Sometimes I get so caught up in what I think is good for myself, how this will work, how that will work...when I just gotta chilllllllll...and let God take a lead. This refers to everything in my life...I was thinking a lot this week about what to talk about for Sunday school cuz I'll be teaching again tomorrow...I struggled so much about what would be a good topic to get them engaged...found old books and stuff...you know how I eventually decided on a topic...sitting eating breakfast, reading the bible and doing devos...it just hit me in the face...BANG, that would be a great topic. It's crazy how God works when you let him work. That's what I've been learning lately...to let God take control of every aspect of my life. As scary as the future is...as much as I want to have a say and know that there's a sense of security...I know God's got my back. It's like when Peter walked on water...the minute he began to doubt and see the wind...he sank...that's exactly like me...God's saying LET GO...I got you...but I see all the scary things around me...all the bad possibilities and I get scared and hold on even tighter...God, I know you're asking me to let go...to let you take control of my life...and I pray for strength to allow you to do so.

To My Future Wife Part 2

Part 1

I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you, I can't wait to have a family with you, I can't wait to show you off to all my friends.I wanna go on fancy dinner dates for no special occasions where we dress up really nice for no reason. I wanna bring you breakfast in bed and spend all morning cuddling and watching cute, romantic movies. I wanna grow old with you...I wanna sit at the park with you and watch our kids play in the playground. I wanna comfort you....I wanna be there when you cry and so I can tell you that everything will be alright and that I'll always be there. I wanna tell my friends I can't chill with them today because I wanna spend time with you. I wanna surprise you at work with flowers for no reason. I wanna lead you in your walk with Christ...I want you to keep me accountable when I get too hot headed or am simply being stupid. I wanna be your best friend...I want you to confide in me your deepest thoughts, desires, feelings, goals and dreams. I wanna go on spontaneous dates with you, but I also wanna spend evenings at home with you doing nothing. I wanna be your superman...I wanna love and protect you. I want you to always feel safe and comfortable around me...I wanna be vulnerable around you...I want you to know every little detail, thought and secret that I never thought I'd be able to share with anybody. I wanna put you and your needs above my own. I wanna love you more than I love myself...and pour out every single bit of my heart to you. I want us to be open and honest with each other...through our mistakes and disagreements...I want us to be in the eye of the storm...to see each other at our worst and still persevere. I never want anything to come between us and more importantly I never wanna stop loving you...to my future wife.

Humble Beast

Today's sermon was about humility, the humility of Jesus. The passage came from Philippians 2:1-18, feel free to search it up yourself. Humility is essentially putting others above yourself...and Jesus was the ultimate humble beast. He humbled His perfect self and took the cross for all of us. I don't wanna get all preachy on you guys cuz you reading this may or may not be religious. But it was just a good reminder to myself...that not everything is about me  To try to understand what it means to put others and others' needs above my own. Sometimes we put ourselves on too high of a pedestal...oh I'm a great guy, any girl would be lucky to date me...oh I'm a smart kid, any company would be lucky to hire me, Humility is about lowering yourself...not thinking so highly of yourself...you don't have to put yourself down...but someone who's really good at something like basketball for example doesn't need to constantly let everyone know about it you know. To me, being a humble beast is being a BEAST at whatever you do...sports, music, school...but being humble, not bragging, but going about it like you've been there before you know. In today's society where pride and being on top and egos and boasting reign supreme...it's hard to be humble...to lower yourself and put others above yourself. We all wanna be praised...but we aren't willing to praise others and give others the glory. I mean...allow me to be preachy again if you will...but Jesus...who was perfect in every single way...lowered himself to  the lowliest of positions...washing his disciples' feet, being stoned and rejected and being crucified. The title of the set of verses is called imitating Christ's humility...to think...trying to put this into today's perspective...it's like if Obama decided he didn't wanna live in the white house....instead he wanted to live like a regular person, eat with and like us regular people you now...lowering himself. It's not an accurate representation but I hope you get it. I know it's hard...cuz we all have things we're good at...and we all wanna be noticed and appreciated...but being humble is a true sign of maturity and success...to be confident. comfortable and content with and in who you are...not being dependent on the opinions of others...being humble is to lower yourself...but to also understand your true value...not needing reassurance you know.

Old Habits Never Die

I know, I know...December and January were such good months...now I'm slowly reverting to my old habits...I'm sorry, no excuses. I haven't been up to much as of late...it's legit just been school and basketball. But finally it's reading week...had my last exam on friday. Hope to slowly start getting back on track and on top of things. I'm gonna be teaching sunday school again at church...it's been a while since I've done that...like 6 months or so cuz I wanted to give myself a break and focus on myself. The gym I signed up for is going to be opening up soon so I can get back into shape and stuff. Tonight was a fun night...all star saturday...I went to a friend's house with a bunch of the guys...a bunch of familiar faces...guys I went to high school with and we just had a good time...this week is going to be nice...and relaxing. Everyone back from university...just chilling and catching up.

Nights Like This Part 3

Part 1 http://thebestyouneverheard.blogspot.ca/2014/08/nights-like-this.html
Part 2 http://thebestyouneverheard.blogspot.ca/2014/08/nights-like-this-part-2.html

Today was a great day...got on the bus to go to school and the presto machine wasn't working so I didn't have to pay...what a great way to start the day. Had my stats exam and felt pretty confident going in and leaving the exam...I find it funny how stats was the course I feared most and now it's the course I'm most comfortable with and find the most enjoyment lol. Any ways...tonight was a good night...got to chill with my 2 homies which I haven't seen for a while. We watched a movie then went to Swiss Chalet for dinner. It's nights like these that really make me smile...I've said it numerous times...yeah it's nice to do activities, go bowling, watch movies and stuff...but like the thing I was telling my homies...one reason why I don't like going to the movies is cuz no one talks...we just sit there. The more I think about it...the funnest, most enjoyable and memorable times I've spent with people I care about...we were just sitting around...chilling...talking and enjoying each other's company. I love doing activities don't get me wrong...but I love it even more when during those activities we can still interact and laugh and have fun and everyone isn't just doing their own thing or on their phone. You know it's a fun time when no one's on their phone cuz they're too busy having fun and talking and stuff. But yeah...nights like this...are nights I look forward to and nights that I cherish, thank you boys.

I Drop Tears For My Homies That Ain't Here...

Hello, nice seeing you again...it's been a while. It's a busy time...exam on tuesday and friday last week and got another exam tuesday and friday this week and then reading week. But let's just get straight to it...Meek Mill has a song called Traumatized where he says "I drop tears for my homies that ain't here and still think about you even tho that it's been years." Man this hit the heart...now he's referencing his homies who are dead most likely. But it made me think about the homies in my life that I've grown and drifted apart from...people who I may have been super close to but aren't with me and by my side presently. I drop tears for my homies that ain't here...cuz it makes me sad that people I once called close or best friends aren't with me...I still think about you even tho that it's been years...you guys still cross my mind...every single waking day.Specifically there is one friend who comes to my mind...the Shaq to my Kobe, this dude was my Westside ride or die brother...we shared so many laughs and memories...he taught me how to slow dance, his family is my family, I ALWAYS saw joy in his eyes and in his smile...and I drop so many tears my brother...cuz it's been too long...way too long. It legit hurts my heart to think about what you've been through...and it kills me to know I haven't had the courage to hit you up and see how you've been...it actually makes me feel like a terrible friend, considering what a truly stand up guy you are. I think about you...a lot...cuz you saw real kindness in everyone...we shared interests, hobbies, faith...I miss you man...

Your Pain Is My Pain

When you care enough about someone, you feel their pain. I'm not talking about if someone stubs their toe, you're gonna feel the same pain that they're feeling. This is more on an emotional and personal level. A lot of my friends think I don't like it when people cry, that I can't handle it cuz I always say...please don't cry. But they don't understand where that comes from...it hurts me when I see my friends cry cuz all I can do is sit there and watch them and either sit with them or comfort them with words. When you care a lot about someone...you feel their pain...if they break up with their loved one, lose a family member or are simply going through a hard time...their pain is your pain, you feel for them, you feel their sadness, you feel their anger. Sometimes it sucks seeing your friends upset, knowing you couldn't be there to prevent it from happening. What may be even worse is seeing them upset and knowing you can't do anything to cheer them up. I think in those cases the most important thing is just being there for them...even if they don't want you there...make yourself available. It's not about you...it's about them. It's not about what you could've done, what you can say or do at the moment...it's simply about making yourself available to them...knowing that they have someone who is there plain and simple. I don't like seeing my friends or family sad...cuz I put myself in their shoes and I feel their struggle. When my boy gets rejected my a girl he really liked...I've been there and feel his struggle...when a friend experiences a death of a loved one...I may not have experienced that, but I have envisioned that scenario a countless amount of times and cried real tears enough to feel their pain as well. Breaking this all down very simple...when you care about someone...it's one thing to be there for them and stuff like I talked about...but when you have a real connection with that person...you'll feel their pain, their sadness and their sorrow.

You're Beautiful

Girls only, boys keep out...just kidding...but this is catered to my females. Here I am...studying for my health psychology exam tomorrow. I've been reading about a plethora of topics...some topics that I've been reading about that triggered this post are eating disorders, binge eating/drinking, exercise, smoking...all these things. It reminded me of one of Timothy Dela Ghetto's videos/raps about insecure girls...go check it out if you want. And it made me really inspired to make a post like this. To tell you girls...yes you, you reading these words right now...that you're beautiful...you're absolutely gorgeous...and despite what other people, television or media says...you're beautiful exactly the way you are. For those girls who do all these things...diet, dress or act a certain way to impress other guys and look beautiful in the eyes of other people...know that you're beautiful exactly the way that you are...embrace the beauty that God gave you. Don't get me wrong now...I'm not saying all girls are like that...there are the girls who put on make up, dress all nicely, go to the gym...for themselves...to look beautiful and feel good about themselves...and all I gotta say to those women is more power to you...you do you...and do whatever makes you feel good. Where it all goes south is when girls start doing things to please other people...whether it's going on extreme diets...putting on make up...wearing revealing clothing...acting ditzy or whatever. Like damn...be yourself girl...some girls are so eager to meet a guy or be in a relationship that they jump the gun...they find a guy and like change themselves to cater to what they think he likes. When really...they need to just be themselves...whether that's make up or no...sweatpants or a dress...be yourself...embrace your naturalness and the right guy will come along who will love and appreciate you exactly the way that you are...and everything else will be just a bonus.

My Happy Place Part 2

Part 1 http://thebestyouneverheard.blogspot.ca/2013/10/my-happy-place.html

You actually gotta read part 1 or you won't understand lol. Any ways...couple days ago my friend showed me American Horror Story. I'm not big on like horror/scary/torture movies. Freaks me out...brings out  the little kid in me and it legit scares me lol. Like everyone still has that little kid inside of them that's scared of monsters, zombies, whatever it may be. I have those moments for sure...like the girl from the movie The Ring...she's freaky dude. Any ways...back to my happy place...after watching some clips from American Horror Story, some of the characters started like freaking me out and I imagined then trying to get me in bed. So I tried to go to my happy place...sitting, drinking tea with the 2 fancy frogs...but this time it wasn't working...the monsters ans stuff were coming closer and closer. Here's a picture for you in case you can't imagine...in my dream...my happy place revolves in like a wide open grassy field...with one house just perched in the middle...this is where I chill with my frog homies. The grass gives me peace...the openness, the coolness of the grass...I love it. But yeah...so you have all these monsters coming from all sides cuz it's an open field...and usually...me chilling with these frogs is sufficient to keep me cool and at bay...but that night...the monsters were coming closer and closer...and my happy place wasn't working. That's when the dream continued...and NO JOKE...the door knocks...and in comes a couple other guests to my "tea party". I kid you not...here I am sitting at the table...with 2 frogs...and Mario...yeah Mario from Super Mario...the red power ranger...and Samurai Jack. No joke that gave me so much peace...just knowing those guys were there specifically to have my back made me happy...made me smile...andgave me peace LOL. I wouldn't say my happy place has changed....but I've gotten more insight into it...like how it's in an open field and stuff...before all I knew is it was just me chilling with 2 frogs...the cool thing is the guests at my tea party are always different...and they;re just there to chill...hang out and make sure the monsters don't get me LOL...okay go ahead and laugh -_-