An Update On Life

So I know the blog's been slacking heavy as of late...like posts have been scarce. Honestly, I just haven't had much to say...not much as been going on lately lol. It's just school and work...then gym and trying to have a life in between. Sometimes I'm like I should probably post something, but nothing comes to mind lol. I'll sit in front of the computer for like 15-20 minutes trying to think of something to write about and nothing will come to mind or nothing sounds interesting enough to write about. I guess I'm somebody who just writes very spontaneously and on the spot lol...that's why even tho I say I have like topics on my phone, it's a mood thing, if I'm not feeling it or if I'm not interested in writing about that topic, I'm not gonna write about it. I also feel this weird pressure sometimes...pressure to put out interesting, funny and just quality posts. It gets to a point where I'll push it off a day or two, a few days becomes a week and yeah lol. But oddly enough, the views have still been piling up...in waves, like August and September were POPPIN' for the blog in terms of views...and went from 800k to 900k pretty much in the span of around a month, which is pretty insane to think about. Again, I don't really have much to say...so I'm just gonna spitball everything that;s on my mind and the things that I've been thinking about as of late...

So we sold our house, but we probs won't be moving till like 2020 for sure. The person that bought our house doesn't intend to live in it, so we're renting it back from them...weird I know, but it saves us the hassle of moving to a rental place then moving again to a new house and it gives my parents more time to find a permanent home. My rents wanna go back to Singapore as well as Japan and Thailand for a month in the summer which I'm pretty excited about cuz I haven't been back in like 10 years...that's pretty much when I was in my first year of uni...so clearly a lot has happened and changed. I gotta find a placement for school in /January, but I feel like I've been in school for so long that I have a leg up on a lot of my classmates cuz I know the rundown of how school works, how fast it goes and stuff and in a weird way...I'm stressed about the work, but not really...like I'm pretty chill about ti cuz I know how I like to work and I know how to manage my time somewhat after so many years of being in school lol. What else has been going on...I haven't been to church in like a solid few months...and I don't really know how I feel about that tbh, but maybe I'll save that for another post, it's a weird time in my life right now. I'm definitely at a point in my life where I'm seeing some of my closest friends move on and start to begin their life as like full fledged adults...meaning like moving out, living on your own, thinking about marriage and shit, it's pretty wild...obvs there's a sense of feeling left behind, but what's more is a sense of like losing a friend kinda. I wanted to make a post about this part as well..the fact that I've been thinking a lot about reaching out to a lot of people...but I keep putting it off or stopping myself or wondering if it\s a good idea or just convincing myself that if they wanted to reach out they would...old friends, old flames, people I used to talk to, people I don't see eye to eye with anymore....but at the end of the day people I have love for, but yeah lol. Life goes on and so should you...that's a title of a post I've written, search it up, it's a good one. Again, there's not much on my mind tbh lol...I'm definitely focused on school for sure, with work...it's definitely just a routine, but I enjoy seeing and talking to my coworkers...with the gym, that's like my stress relief...and with friends and having a life and going on dates and what not...that's just extracurricular. I'm at a phase in life where I'm just trying to figure a lot of things out...about life, about love, about myself, about others...so yeah, I'll leave y'all at that...see you soon, peace.

900,000 VIEWS

Got damn, 800,000 came and went real quick didn't it...it's pretty crazy cuz I feel like I haven't really been fully focused on the blog as of late. I mean posts are always coming in and out of my head, but I just haven't been translating it onto the blog lately. School and work have been keeping me busy and trying to have a life in between as well lol. I have a lot of stuff in my head and a lot of stuff planned before the year is over....December is gonna be TEN YEARS since the blog started and a million views is right around the corner...it's a crazy time for the blog and I wanna end of the year with a BANG. I think it's definitely time for a makeover for the blog...I think I've only changed the layout like maybe once or twice...I think only once cuz I vaguely remember what the blog looked like when I first started, but it's definitely time to change things up with our 10 year anniversary coming up and a milli on the horizon. Beyond that man...who knows what's gonna happen...I flip  flop with the idea that hey...maybe 10 years, a million views...it's a good time to slow it down and hang it up...we're in the end game now lol...but then I come back down to earth and I'm like naaaaaah, not yet. It's always funny when people like yo man you're blowing up lol...I've never really seen myself or the blog as a big deal lol, I mean it's cool don't get me wrong lol...but to me, it's like me chilling with my friends, talking about life and shit. I'll save all the sappy, sentimental stuff for the 10 year or the million post...till next time, thank you for effing with me this long...here's some bts pics from the shoot I did for 900,000...see y'all soon.

When The Timing Is Right

Do you ever think about a certain situation you're in...say a relationship, a job, a hobby...and be like...this is it, I know I was placed in this exact spot in this exact moment in time for a reason. Does that even make sense? Like imagine Lebron James...he's probably like, man I was born to do this, to get buckets and to inspire a generation with my story. Or imagine like if you're in a serious relationship and you're in talks of marriage...do you ever have thoughts of like...this is it, I know that I was placed in this situation with this person for a reason. I hope I'm making sense lol...anyways, so I'm sorry for going ghost these past 2 weeks but school's been getting a bit busy as of late, but that's also kinda what I wanted to talk to you guys about. If you guys don't know I'm in social work and in a lot of the courses if not all the courses I'm taking, they talk a lot about feelings and emotions and looking inwards and introspecting and how important it is to be open with your thoughts, feelings and emotions in order to be able to help clients to the best of your ability. Like I'm not even trying to toot my own horn...but I've heard a lot from my friends or from people like oh you're a really good listener or oh you're really easy to talk to and what not. I'm really enjoying school and the stuff that we're learning about...yeah it's hard work and yeah there's a lot to do...but it's interesting. This one courses I'm taking especially...is called interpersonal communication and a lot of it is just looking inward and being self aware because the more aware you are of yourself, your own needs, your own thoughts and emotions...the more aware and helpful you can be towards other people. We had to do this assignment about emotion and honestly it felt like I was writing in my blog...except it was a paper that I had to hand in. My prof was like “the more you're able to reflect and introspect, the more you'll enjoy your job and the less likely you'll burn out.” Obviously I understand it's not just gonna be talking to people and having a good ol time...but the more I learn about the job and the kinda stuff you have to do...and moreso the kinda person you have to be...I sometimes get the feeling of like shoot...I feel like I was put in this program for a reason...at this specific moment in time, 27 years old, having graduated from university and gotten some work experience and been through plenty of ups and dwns of life...I feel like the timing is right, I'm more mature, I understand myself and my feelings more and I'm much more comfortable in being open with it and with my struggles and hardships...I feel like I was put here for a reason. I really hope I'm making sense and that you're still with me lol. It's cool cuz I'm still learning things about myself things I can work on if I intend on being a social worker and how I can really help people and be available...and it's also things I take with me to my daily life...when I'm interacting with my friends and trying to be there for them, it's funny when I catch myself saying things or applying things from class to conversations with my friends and I'm like oh true lol. Again, it makes sense in my head lol...being in class, being in this program...in this current stage and point in my life...it just feels right.