Big Krit "Music has always been my therapy"

Where Have You Been...?

Even with a new laptop I'm still so loaft lol sorry, haven't posted since Wednesday, will def update you guys...been cooking lots of things up...got lots of topics and things I want to talk about, been writing a lot as well with a very special announcement regarding that...what else, softball season is coming up and I'm so excited to coach...school's finally over and now I'm just waiting for a job...can't think of anything else yet...oh yeah...the blog is about to hit 150,000...damn...LOOOL oh right....my birthday is coming up...damn...21...I can't even comprehend that yet, till very soon, thanks for being patient with me.

Dreams...

I've been dreaming about you lately...again. Every time I'm in that place, it brings back so many memories...when we were chilling and talking in the stairs. I also remember after volleyball, waiting for my ride and you were upstairs pretending to read your room in the window when really you were watching me lol...I never told you this but I was purposely trying to impress you lol. But lately...I was listening to this one song by Alicia Keys....and it's weird...you know how you have dreams of like cuddling with someone or walking down the beach with someone or the park...hand in hand...I've been having those dreams as of late...and usually I picture the most randomest girl sometimes, but as of late...it's just been you, it's always been you...I don't know what that means. It's like you were in my life, then you weren't and it was all good, we were both walking down our own paths...and I don't even know how it happened, but it's like you're back in my life again, somewhat...

Almost Done...

Hey guys, I know it's been a while since I've blogged and even when I do it seems really rushed and lacking. But uh, what have I been doing lately...Monday and Tuesday nights went to play ball at church. What else...got a new laptop lol...so ever since my macbook got stolen, my parents were always saying how they would get me a new laptop and to just use theirs for now...well school's pretty much over, I only have one exam left and they got me a new laptop now LOOOOL...but I love it and am so thankful cuz all the key actually work so I can blog peacefully now, not sure what's wrong with my desktop keyboard. I have a lot of things to say...lots of topics stored up on my phone in the notes app as usual which I will get to in due time. Got lots of things to do this summer...number 1 is probs find a job...what else, I'm coaching softball this year...should be fun. Gotta sign up for the gym and go ham..,what else...cheesed I just had lot but lost my train of thought....uh record some songs and put it out of course...my birthday is coming up in less than 30 days...21...damn, that's crazy.

FYI...

As I've stated my keyboard is super messed right now so it's super hard and annoying to try to type and blog sorry...the b n m & even the apostrophe keys are messed...trying to fix it asap...sorry.

Big Krit - Bigger Picture

Last Leg Of The Race...

I intended to do a diff and longer post but my keyboard is messed right now...the b n m keys are messed right now...had to copy and paste that...but yeah...6 more days till I'm freeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

The Last Time I Cried...

This always gets me teary eyed...last time I full out bawled was watching this...

Drake - Good Ones Go

Library Life, Ball, Temporary Escape Routes...

What's good, today was a real long and tiring day...went to lunch with the homies and this chinese brunch place, then headed to the library..spent a good like 4 hours there...got lots of studying done, took some breaks and ish lol. Afterwards, went to ball at church and it was a solid turnout, like 3 teams of 5, so we got plenty of runs. But yeah, I've told you guys I've been talking to my ex a lot lately and yeah today she finally explained to me why she wants to go so far for school...well she somewhat did, I moreso figured it out...she was talking about family and stuff like that, having more freedom...she said it's my "escape route". That just got me thinking...about life...and how life gets hard sometimes, and when life gets hard, you can't just quit and like go to sleep for the rest of your life...or when an obstacle gets too tough, you don't just stop and give up. I'd like to relate this to a video game if possible...but it's like an RPG game...or a puzzle game...when you reach a level you can't beat, no matter how many times you try and try and try...and it frustrates you, you don't give up and never play again...you be persistent and keep getting at it. Same thing in life...when things get hard, you don't quit...everyone experiences tough times, it's necessary to build us up and to strengthen us. One of my favourite verses in James which I've shared with you guys says that the testing of faith produces perseverance and it's only helping us mature and become closer to God. So I know...well am slowly learning and accepting that every hard task in my life, every time it feels like it's the end of the world...every situation that makes me want to punch a wall and yell at the top of my lungs...is all for a reason...all for a purpose...and it shows me that I still have a lot of growing and learning to do, but I know it'll be worth it. These "escape routes"...are only temporary...I told her that you're just running away from the problem, that doesn't mean it's going to go away...it'll still be there when you come back. Or even "sweeping it under the carpet",,,if constantly sweep dust or dirt under the carpet instead of vacuuming it, eventually the carpet gets to full and the dust or dirt reappears...same with your problems, if you kinda just push it away or brush it off, eventually it'll rear it's ugly head. My advice to her and to you guys....is to really relax and clam down, reevaluate the situation with a cool and collected mind...try to find the positives of your situation, or at least what you can take out of it.

Inspiration of the Moment

One of, it not my favourite artist J. Cole...really inspires me the way he writes and the way he raps...and this picture was taken a few years ago, but based upon J. Cole's picture...take a look.

LOL of the Moment

Was cleaning my computer and found the folder where all my old msn convos were and been reading a few of them lately and some of then I'm hesitant to read lol, just cuz I don't wanna have to relive those memories again, but I probably will, eventually.This was a bit after my ex and I broke up but were still talking a lot and on and off, you know that kinda deal...so there was this church retreat coming up and she was gonna be there and so were my friends and I and my 2 friends who are girls came up with a list of rules for her LOOOL I was dying when I read this...I remember only telling one of them and then she told this guy and he told another girl lol so they were all like monitoring me the entire weekend making sure I didn't break those rules...there were 4...it was like can't sit with her during the sermons, can't sit with her during lunch, limited free time with her, no physical contact...LOOOOOL I was dying reading that conversation cuz I knew my friends hated her, but wouldn't actually say it out loud...too funny.

R. Kelly - Same Girl feat. Usher

he jammmmm...these are the kinds of R&B songs I love...

Nice Guys Finish _______

What's good, spent most of the day loafting at home...went out at night just now with my friend and picked up my other friend cuz it was his birthday...we went to Demetre's for his birthday and got some dessert, saw our friend from high school who apparently works there, it was my first time going there so I didn't know he worked there, haven't seen him in the longest time lol. But yeah got to just chill and talk with the homies as per usual...we stayed till closing and we got 3 desserts, but when the bill game, the guy we know comes and is like we only charged you for 1...all of us looked at each other like wow...we payed, went out and were like damn, that's crazy...that's just a really nice thing to do. We weren't even really that close to him or anything, just went to high school with him, but it was definitely nice...and it just made me think of being nice to people on a consistent basis, even if they aren't nice to you, and you'll eventually be repayed. But also, don't do nice things with the hopes of getting something in return, just do it cuz it's the right thing or cuz it's out of your heart.

Sleep Is The Cousin Of Death...

Thought I'd spit to you since I'm not tired whatsoever and it's like 3 am right now...instead of being tired, for some reason I'm super hungry, scratch that...starving...but I probs shouldn't and won't eat...stupid healthy living. But yeah, since school's over...this is such a terrible habit that I really don't wanna start...sleep super late also means waking up super late...gotta stop that if I wanna sign up for the gym soon and wake up early. Also gotta look for a job asap...

The Voice - Danielle Bradbery - Mean (Taylor Swift)

So the Voice's youtube channel doesn't play their videos in Canada anymore, which is annoying cuz I used to watch their videos on youtube and that's how I found it...but my friend sent me a site that has all the episodes so I've been watching...this girl is my favourite so far...I'm like 3 episodes in and this is my favourite audition so far...but they didn't have it so this is the studio version which is just as amazing...

Chillin' With The Homies...

What's good...today was a great day...woke up around 12 ish...missioned all the way to Rexdale with my friends for some Somalian food, it was bombbbbb. After, went to some plaza and got some chocolate from bulk barn lol. Afterwards, came back home and we played some videogames, then some cards and some board games lol. Then, we went to ball at church, brought back devotions...definitely was a bright spot, hope to continue and make it a consistent thing to do devos before or something during ball.

CANADA, WE UP IN HERE!!!

I think yesterday or the day before, Canada officially hit OVER 100,000 HITS...damn...my blog has like almost 150,000 hits and it's crazy to think that more than 100,000 are from Canada...WHERE MY CANADIAN HOMIES AT!!! I love you guys to death...being so close to 150,000 means were halfway to 200,000...slowly but surely making movements...bout to blow up lol...be on the lookout, I'm so thankful right now, God is good.

Letoya Luckett - Torn

I was gonna write a long post about this...but I think this song kinda sums it all up for me instead.
"A part of me wants to leave but a part of me wants to be here with you. And every time I think that we're over and done, you just make me fall back in love."

From Me To You...

Thank you...from the bottom of my heart...thank you. You know those friends where you may not see them everyday, you may not even talk to them everyday, but you just have a really special connection with them that'll always keep you close. Yesterday I was talking to my friend in his car, haven't gotten a chance to sit down with him and have a legit conversation. Y'all know I've been really struggling with school as of late, what I wanna do after school or even what I wanna do next year with my program and just a bunch of things...but it really ate at me...and it bothered me to no end. So yesterday I was just talking to him, catching up, we both go to the same school but I don't see him much and we're both busy, so we got on the topic of school and I told him my situation...and he's a really smart dude...he gave me some of the best advice I've ever heard. I went from being really lost for the past few months and really confused and doubtful about my future and stuff...to being at peace...to have at least some sort of basic plan and foundation...all thanks to him, and it was like this huge boulder of a weight was lifted off my shoulders...and it means the world to me to have a friend like him by my side to really help me and also bring it all back to God at the same time, thank you brother.

Perspective Is Key

How you perceive things, how you see things is very important. Say I get a B on a test...depending on perspective, you can either say I did really good or really bad. You can wow, you did a great job, or that's it...you could've done better. Perspective and how you see things is very important. And I guess that's just a big lesson for me as of late. Through good and bad, just trying to find joy in all circumstances, knowing that it is for a greater purpose and for God's plan for me. Another thing for me also is to just look on the brighter side of things you know...when something bad happens, most people sulk...like really dwell in that situation, me included...but I'm slowly learning that there's no point on dwelling in something that already happened and you can't change...you just gotta move on, or try to find a positive to take away from it.

Quick Update

What's good, today was a long but pretty relaxing day...went to my last R&B class this morning...picked up my journal and did pretty well, had interviews for our participation mark...then had tutorial for my lecture tomorrow...we did review since our final is tomorrow...then just studied in the gaps I had for my final today. It was so easy...he gave us 10 long answer questions, he would pick 5 and put them on the exam and we choose 2 to answer...so easy...finished in like half an hour lol...so yeah...tomorrow is the last day of school for me...final in the morning then I'm done..free...UNTIL April 25th lol...my only final in the exam schedule...so yeah, can't believe it's pretty much over...damn...things I gotta do this summer...look for a job, main priority...coaching softball this season...sign up for the gym as usual...and just chill of course.

Chris Brown - Fine China

Didn't wanna post the video cuz it's longer with like skits and stuff in between...but yeah this song is song bomb...has a different vibe than the usual Chris Brown vibe to it...reminds me a lot of Michael Jackson...even the video...he dances like him too. There's definitely no doubt Chris Brown is on top of the male R&B game...like this generation's Michael Jackson or Usher...

Don't Judge A Book By It's Cover

It's always interesting when people go "wow Rodmond, I never knew you were so deep" or "I never you wrote so much/wrote so well"...it's always jokes when people go on my blog for the first time or go on my blog in general...and people tell me that I don't seem like that type...and some say I do...that there's something "mysterious" about me LOL....but yeah, just thought I'd share that...

Def Jam Poetry - Shihan - Flashy Words

From Me To You...

I've known you since elementary school...and I've always stuck by your side, I've always defended you when people said you were rude or had a very disrespectful attitude. I saw it, but I also saw your kind and generous side, and that side outweighed the disrespectful side. I've seen how kind and respectful you are to parents and myself...and how caring and protective you are of your friends. But as of late...it's hard...as of late, the more we chill, the more I see how much you've changed, not necessarily how much we've grown apart cuz you're still my homie and I got your back in a second...but just seeing how much you've changed...and seeing what kind of person you are. It's crazy...you don't treat people that way...I always knew you were a talkative person who's mouth would one day land you in a lot of trouble...and I still believe that...but I was very tolerant of it, cuz I was used to it...but seeing you more and more and seeing you rundown people...maybe you've changed, or maybe my perspectives just changed and I'm not blinded anymore, or maybe it's both...I still view you as a really close friend, a brother...but I just really don't like and disagree with your attitude and the way you carry yourself...that's not you...I know the real you, but the real you has gotten lost...in all of this...nonsense, I dunno.