Hello friends, hope y'all enjoyed yesterday's guest post, I don't got much to say, so I'll just leave y'all with today's guest post.
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Dear 17 Year Old Me
First off, I'd like to thank Rodmond for asking me to guest blog. Won't lie, it was a bit out of the blue and unexpected, but it was great because it made me go back to writing things out to reason out some of my thoughts; which I actually haven't done in a while. Words definitely come with an immense power, so thank you for letting me remember that through this.
A little about myself; I'm a 20 year old who just moved downtown for her first year of pharmacy school. I was immensely blessed to get into pharmacy after 2 years of undergrad, usually most people get into pharmacy school after finishing their undergrad - sometimes even after a Master's or PhD.
Now, it's funny because I remember getting rejected from a highly competitive pre-pharmacy program which basically guaranteed students a spot in pharmacy school after 2 years of undergrad. I remember reading the rejection email & feeling like it was the end of the world. I remember thinking that I'd never get into pharmacy school after 2 years of undergrad like I had planned to. I remember thinking I'd probably never even get in after my undergrad/masters/PhD. I remember feeling like a failure.
So, I wrote this letter to 17 year old me in hindsight of it all; wishing I was less hard on myself, wishing I slowed things down.
Dear 17-Year Old Me,
You probably feel like a massive failure right now, but stop being so damn hard on yourself, because things will all work out one day. Have faith that whatever is meant for you through God's will, will be set apart for you, and things set apart for you will eventually gravitate towards you. Remember that. It may not be the path that you imagined. You're gonna have to work a lot harder than others and a lot harder than you planned to, but it will pay off - so don't lose hope. You're gonna get your first 60 in organic chemistry later on, and you're gonna feel like your chances of ever getting in are ruined for sure. But, you will get into pharmacy. In fact, you'll get in being one of the youngest in your class; and it's gonna be hella scary being the underdog, but you'll adjust.
But remember to slow down and enjoy things while you can. Say yes to your friends when they ask you to go to the mall after school because they're gonna all end up going to different universities than you and you're gonna wish you spent more time with them. Your friends that you'll meet in September at Waterloo; say yes to them more as well. Even though they're super understanding about you having to study for your upcoming test, don't take them for granted. You're gonna end up leaving them too by the end of 2nd year. You're gonna miss them so much when you go on to pharm school - wishing you could simply walk over to chill, until you realize you can't anymore. Spend more time with grandpa - even if that means watching wrestling with him, because 2 years down the road God's going take him back.
You're gonna take the risky chance of trying out for university-level competitive cheerleading. You're gonna freak out at try outs, seeing girls who did all-star level since elementary school while you only have 2 years of high school experience. You'll end up making it on the team somehow and you'll find out that it's cause the coach loved your smile and personality (and your adequate skill; of course). Keep doing that; keep showing people who you truly are & keep taking opportunities that scare you.
Speaking of opportunities, stop turning people down! Give some guys a chance. After all, dates usually consist of food (and we both know how much your fatass loves food). It's okay to say yes because it's not like you're gonna end up dating every guy you go on a date with. Stop worrying that boys will distract you from school. Also, don't use the lame excuse of being too busy with school/clubs/cheer practice to convince yourself not to say no, because we also both know you're capable of watching 6 episodes of Grey's Anatomy in one sitting. Plus, you're only going to get busier, so learn to make the time. If you keep turning people down, you're gonna end up thinking about a lot of "what ifs"...it might drive you a little insane.
You're gonna have a lot of late nights; late nights studying, late nights watching movies, late nights out...but take care of yourself - physically and most importantly, mentally. A lot of people around you are going to end up feeling depressed by 2nd year - which is when "school gets a lot harder". "It's common", is what a lot of people will tell you. In fact, your best friend is going to end up with some pretty serious depression. It's gonna affect you and your mental well-being as well. You're gonna really learn why people kept yapping about mental wellness. Remember that no person, no such thing, no exam, no degree should ever come before your mental health. As cheesy as it sounds, you and your best friend are gonna get through it together.
I know 3 yrs doesn't seem like a lot of time, but a lot is going to happen. Hold tight onto your faith and never forget that above all, God's got you. Life's got a funny way of taking care of us afterall.
Much love,
20-Year-Old You
First off, I'd like to thank Rodmond for asking me to guest blog. Won't lie, it was a bit out of the blue and unexpected, but it was great because it made me go back to writing things out to reason out some of my thoughts; which I actually haven't done in a while. Words definitely come with an immense power, so thank you for letting me remember that through this.
A little about myself; I'm a 20 year old who just moved downtown for her first year of pharmacy school. I was immensely blessed to get into pharmacy after 2 years of undergrad, usually most people get into pharmacy school after finishing their undergrad - sometimes even after a Master's or PhD.
Now, it's funny because I remember getting rejected from a highly competitive pre-pharmacy program which basically guaranteed students a spot in pharmacy school after 2 years of undergrad. I remember reading the rejection email & feeling like it was the end of the world. I remember thinking that I'd never get into pharmacy school after 2 years of undergrad like I had planned to. I remember thinking I'd probably never even get in after my undergrad/masters/PhD. I remember feeling like a failure.
So, I wrote this letter to 17 year old me in hindsight of it all; wishing I was less hard on myself, wishing I slowed things down.
Dear 17-Year Old Me,
You probably feel like a massive failure right now, but stop being so damn hard on yourself, because things will all work out one day. Have faith that whatever is meant for you through God's will, will be set apart for you, and things set apart for you will eventually gravitate towards you. Remember that. It may not be the path that you imagined. You're gonna have to work a lot harder than others and a lot harder than you planned to, but it will pay off - so don't lose hope. You're gonna get your first 60 in organic chemistry later on, and you're gonna feel like your chances of ever getting in are ruined for sure. But, you will get into pharmacy. In fact, you'll get in being one of the youngest in your class; and it's gonna be hella scary being the underdog, but you'll adjust.
But remember to slow down and enjoy things while you can. Say yes to your friends when they ask you to go to the mall after school because they're gonna all end up going to different universities than you and you're gonna wish you spent more time with them. Your friends that you'll meet in September at Waterloo; say yes to them more as well. Even though they're super understanding about you having to study for your upcoming test, don't take them for granted. You're gonna end up leaving them too by the end of 2nd year. You're gonna miss them so much when you go on to pharm school - wishing you could simply walk over to chill, until you realize you can't anymore. Spend more time with grandpa - even if that means watching wrestling with him, because 2 years down the road God's going take him back.
You're gonna take the risky chance of trying out for university-level competitive cheerleading. You're gonna freak out at try outs, seeing girls who did all-star level since elementary school while you only have 2 years of high school experience. You'll end up making it on the team somehow and you'll find out that it's cause the coach loved your smile and personality (and your adequate skill; of course). Keep doing that; keep showing people who you truly are & keep taking opportunities that scare you.
Speaking of opportunities, stop turning people down! Give some guys a chance. After all, dates usually consist of food (and we both know how much your fatass loves food). It's okay to say yes because it's not like you're gonna end up dating every guy you go on a date with. Stop worrying that boys will distract you from school. Also, don't use the lame excuse of being too busy with school/clubs/cheer practice to convince yourself not to say no, because we also both know you're capable of watching 6 episodes of Grey's Anatomy in one sitting. Plus, you're only going to get busier, so learn to make the time. If you keep turning people down, you're gonna end up thinking about a lot of "what ifs"...it might drive you a little insane.
You're gonna have a lot of late nights; late nights studying, late nights watching movies, late nights out...but take care of yourself - physically and most importantly, mentally. A lot of people around you are going to end up feeling depressed by 2nd year - which is when "school gets a lot harder". "It's common", is what a lot of people will tell you. In fact, your best friend is going to end up with some pretty serious depression. It's gonna affect you and your mental well-being as well. You're gonna really learn why people kept yapping about mental wellness. Remember that no person, no such thing, no exam, no degree should ever come before your mental health. As cheesy as it sounds, you and your best friend are gonna get through it together.
I know 3 yrs doesn't seem like a lot of time, but a lot is going to happen. Hold tight onto your faith and never forget that above all, God's got you. Life's got a funny way of taking care of us afterall.
Much love,
20-Year-Old You
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