THE CHASE

I hate the chase

I hate being in this emotional place

I hate closing my eyes and seeing your face

And opening them to see an empty space

I hate the games you play

I hate over-analysing every word you say

I hate constantly checking my phone for your name

I hate wondering to myself if you feel the same

I hate that you aren't really real

I hate not knowing how you feel

I hate the pain and stress that you cause

I hate nitpicking at every one of my flaws

I hate that I might not be the only one

I hate that you might just be doing this for fun

I hate that I let my guard down for you

I hate how I'm so emotional and vulnerable too

I hate all these feelings that come with the chase

But somehow I always end up back in this emotional place