Day 31/31
Wow, we made it..2 months straight of putting out blog posts everyday...I'm exhausted, it literally feels like a burden has been lifted from my shoulders lol...not that blogging is a burden, but like I said...doing it everyday sorta becomes a chore and as I'm sure y'all have noticed...some of the posts get pretty boring or seem rushed/forced because they are. Now that we'll be resuming back to the regular schedule of...well whenever I want LOL, things will get better, content will be better (hopefully). I'm still definitely gonna try to be consistent, but everyday is just way too much...and content and quality takes a significant hit and I really don't like that.
So I've never really been into books, the only book that I was really into and could not put down was Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets...it's also the only Harry Potter book I've read from the series. I remember getting it from Scholastic only because it came with this dope hardcover notebook LOL...I ended bringing the book on vacation with me when I was in Paris with my family. Literally I could not book the book down, I would be reading it as we were walking from destination to destination, in restaurants and even crossing streets...my mom would get cheesed at me cuz she's like yo you're gonna get hit by a car, put the dang book down lol. So when you're reading a book, some chapters are longer, some chapters are shorter...some chapters are more interesting and some chapters are more boring...some you wanna reread over again and some you wanna get through as quick as possible. Isn't life kinda like that? Some chapters in your life are shorter than others and some are longer...some are more interesting than others and some are more boring...some you wanna constantly relive and others you just wanna get over with. The whole point is that...there's always a next chapter. No matter how frustrating, boring, scary or stressful a past or current chapter may seem...the point is there's always a next chapter...and whatever current chapter you're not feeling or feel stuck on...well it passes and eventually ends. Whether you're stressed about school, figuring out the future, worried about your love life...all that stuff passes and the next chapter is just a couple of pages away. Really tho, close your eyes and look back to some of the chapters in your life, some of the happiest, maybe the scariest or the darkest chapters in your life...yeah they seemed difficult or tough at that moment...but that's when you open your eyes and realize not only did you make it past that chapter, but you've got so many more chapters ahead of you...good, bad, stressful, beautiful...I'm a big proponent of looking forward and constantly moving forward...to never stop or look back for too long because it distracts from the now. Sometimes, you're so eager and anxious to like skip ahead and take a peak at the next chapter to see what's going on...but you ruin the suspense and possibly the story...half the fun of life is the twists, turns and surprises along the way...so I just wanted to say...whatever chapter of life you're on right now...enjoy it or endure it...because the next chapter is almost here. See y'all soon.
Tuesday, January 31, 2017
Monday, January 30, 2017
Guest Writer #30: B.C.K.
Day 30/31
I think it's pretty fitting to have our 30th guest writer post on the 30th...don't you think...pretty crazy to think I started this whole thing in 2013...and here we are in 2017, 30 guest posts later...hope y'all continue to enjoy this as much as I do and super duper shoutouts to all the guests over the years...I appreciate it.
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Thank you, Rodmond, for giving me the opportunity to post on your blog. It has taken me quite a long time to bring myself to guest write. A myriad of insecurities would keep me from writing before, however, I remember one day Rodmond telling me that with his blog, he didn’t care about how many people or who would read the blog because he writes for himself, and other people reading it is just a bonus. With that in mind, I decided to write for myself, and share the broken pieces as they are.
Sometimes, I get really sad looking at my list of Facebook friends. Facebook is the social media that everyone just sort of has, and adds each other on just for the sake of having each other on Facebook. Your friends list just kind of keeps building up, until you don’t even realize how long it is. I get sad because the people I really cared about are just names on a list now.
They used to be the ones who would stay up late and talk with me. They were the ones who told me that I could open up to them because they were real friends. They were the ones who would say that we would keep in touch forever, BECAUSE we had Facebook. Now, they’re buried in a never ending list of people I’ve met once or twice, people I’ve had passing conversations with.
Thinking about it, hearing from one of them now would be just as shocking and random as if someone I had only spoken to twice would be. I don’t think that these friends were lying to me when they say that they’re going to keep in touch, they just didn’t realize how busy they themselves would be. And I totally understand, it’s impossible to keep in touch with hundreds of friends, so you naturally just stop talking to some, and forget about the others.
I guess if I’m truly being honest with myself, I get really sad because I’m always the one of forgotten.
Sunday, January 29, 2017
Wandering Aimlessly
Day 29/31
Most of the time, I love and savour my alone time...it's rare, whether listening to music or just kinda taking in the silence...I like my alone time. But sometimes...it's dangerous, it's toxic...cuz you think a lot...about life,about your friends, about the future, about anything and everything...wherever your mind chooses to wander.I love it and I hate it...sometimes I have to like distract myself otherwise my mind wanders too far off. It's like when you're a kid and you're at the mall with your parents...you kinda wander off in your own direction but your parents pull you back before you get too far and they can't see you anymore. I like have to kinda do that internally...grab the inner me's hand and be like woah woah, don'tt go too far now. Sometimes, my mind just like creates problems out of nothing lol or like makes problems out of things that shouldn't be problems. So I like my alone time, but sometimes...thinking too much is a bad thing, it adds unnecessary stress...which is why I also like keeping myself busy when I'm not feeling the alone time lol. I don't got much to share with y'all today...I'm kinda busy, it's the ROYAL RUMBLE...if you know what that is...you a real one...I skipped ball just for this LOL.
For some reason this post came to mind for some reason...so uh yeah, see y'all tomorrow lol.
Most of the time, I love and savour my alone time...it's rare, whether listening to music or just kinda taking in the silence...I like my alone time. But sometimes...it's dangerous, it's toxic...cuz you think a lot...about life,about your friends, about the future, about anything and everything...wherever your mind chooses to wander.I love it and I hate it...sometimes I have to like distract myself otherwise my mind wanders too far off. It's like when you're a kid and you're at the mall with your parents...you kinda wander off in your own direction but your parents pull you back before you get too far and they can't see you anymore. I like have to kinda do that internally...grab the inner me's hand and be like woah woah, don'tt go too far now. Sometimes, my mind just like creates problems out of nothing lol or like makes problems out of things that shouldn't be problems. So I like my alone time, but sometimes...thinking too much is a bad thing, it adds unnecessary stress...which is why I also like keeping myself busy when I'm not feeling the alone time lol. I don't got much to share with y'all today...I'm kinda busy, it's the ROYAL RUMBLE...if you know what that is...you a real one...I skipped ball just for this LOL.
For some reason this post came to mind for some reason...so uh yeah, see y'all tomorrow lol.
Saturday, January 28, 2017
DISTANT
Day 28/31
This is something I wrote in class in November (coincidentally the same day as today) cuz I was bored and couldn't really focus...I was gonna take a picture of it but my writing was really ugly...so I decided to rewrite it here cuz I stumbled upon it just now while sifting through my notes...
November 28, 11:20 AM
You go your way, I go mine
Given time and space, you'll be surprised the things that you find
Distance is good sometimes, it helps a person grow
But it's hard to turn around and simply walk away I know
I saw potential in you, it made this thing appealing
Until I realized you didn't share the same feeling
A short momentary pain, it felt like deja vu
I would've never expected that I would fall for you
Now I find myself walking down a familiar path
I've been here way too many times, I can't help but laugh
But I always bounce back, hopefully sooner than later
It's gonna take time to get me back all the feelings I gave her
I don't want it to be weird, I'm sorry I can't help it
I need to focus on myself, sorry to sound selfish
I know our paths will cross again when life allows it to
So for now, know that this is my farewell to you
RT
This is something I wrote in class in November (coincidentally the same day as today) cuz I was bored and couldn't really focus...I was gonna take a picture of it but my writing was really ugly...so I decided to rewrite it here cuz I stumbled upon it just now while sifting through my notes...
November 28, 11:20 AM
You go your way, I go mine
Given time and space, you'll be surprised the things that you find
Distance is good sometimes, it helps a person grow
But it's hard to turn around and simply walk away I know
I saw potential in you, it made this thing appealing
Until I realized you didn't share the same feeling
A short momentary pain, it felt like deja vu
I would've never expected that I would fall for you
Now I find myself walking down a familiar path
I've been here way too many times, I can't help but laugh
But I always bounce back, hopefully sooner than later
It's gonna take time to get me back all the feelings I gave her
I don't want it to be weird, I'm sorry I can't help it
I need to focus on myself, sorry to sound selfish
I know our paths will cross again when life allows it to
So for now, know that this is my farewell to you
RT
Friday, January 27, 2017
The MSN Cypher
Day 27/31
So uh...I got nothing today, BUT I dug up this gem from 2010 when my boy called me out to have a "cypher" we eventually got another one of our other friends into it. I don't think either of them read my blog, if y'all do...wassuppppppp...here y'all go.
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pretty self explanatory, like 11 pm, we have nothing better to do but diss each other LOL
So uh...I got nothing today, BUT I dug up this gem from 2010 when my boy called me out to have a "cypher" we eventually got another one of our other friends into it. I don't think either of them read my blog, if y'all do...wassuppppppp...here y'all go.
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pretty self explanatory, like 11 pm, we have nothing better to do but diss each other LOL
- ttTttT says:
yo
freestyle battle ONLINE
let's go
Rodmond [100 - 7] Exclusive - Outerspace Love ===> says:
LOL
lets doooo it
- ttTttT says:
when i step in the picture, rodmond runs back to his mommy,
all the girls are over me, taeyang wishes he was tommy.
cameras flashing, all the girls saying "call me",
i'm a superstar in music, yo, fuck mr. colley!
LMAO
Rodmond [100 - 7] Exclusive - Outerspace Love ===> says:
thomas wu, you are gay
you got nothing to say
open your eyes when you battle me
cuz my face is the last thing you gonna see
i'll dunk on you while wedding dress is playing
taeyang is laughing at you wondering what you are saying
number 11, cuz you cant be number one
you look a lot like bruce lee's grand son
LOOOLLLLL
hahaha we are doing this everyday
- ttTttT says:
im going to add matt
matthewho. ][ has been added to the conversation.
- ttTttT says:
ONLINE FREESTYLE BASTTLE TINGZ
Rodmond [100 - 7] Exclusive - Outerspace Love ===> says:
the asian boy cypher
LOL
step up matt
matthewho. ][ says:
sorrry i was eatin
- ttTttT says:
i'm crossing up rodmond, not because he didn't do his lace,
2 points is 2 points, i be wetting threes in his face.
- ttTttT says:
LMAO
nick had a sick rhyme today..
he was like..
"i know you're pretty good on the court,
but don't think you're kobe because you wearing kobe 4s,
you might think you're kobe in a ball game,
but in this rap game if you're kobe then i'm lebron james"
soemthing like that
i forgot
LOL
it was sickk
Rodmond [100 - 7] Exclusive - Outerspace Love ===> says:
matthew ho, frisbee mvp
you're not an athlete, more like a wannabe
typical asian, glasses and you're short
dont even think about stepping on a ball court
i think you should stick to computers and rice
you tommy nick are like the 3 blind mice
you're asian and you have really small eyes
and when it comes to genitals you're lacking in size
- ttTttT says:
matt ho, i'm here, and ima talk about size,
when it comes to height, damn, you're no top prize.
we playing on 7 ft rim, and you still can't reach the hoop-a,
maybe you should join willy wonka and the oompa loompas.
Rodmond [100 - 7] Exclusive - Outerspace Love ===> says:
LOL whats a hoop-a
- ttTttT says:
LMAO RODMOND HAHAHAHA
hoop
with an a
so it rhymes
Rodmond [100 - 7] Exclusive - Outerspace Love ===> says:
too bad nick and karston cant see this show
cuz if they saw your rhymes they'd be like hell no
if they were here i'd tear them apart like fried chicken
you're athletic abilities really get me sickened
you guys take so long i swear you're writing an book
i'm a legend in this game you 2 are more like rooks
hurry up my time is precious i dont got all day
you cant beat me if you went to chruch to pray
LOOLL softieesss
me too, shower, step uppppp matt
matthewho. ][ says:
Move aside rodmond the frisbee game is mine
You’re a non factor especially on my line
I score all the points, make all the nice plays
You occasionally catch the disc then throw it away
Its all me and Kevin hung and im sorry to say
If it were you vs derrick I’d pick derrick anyday
And I don’t blame Kevin always going to me on the dipset play
As for you tommy wu, couldn’t make the first line
Its not
Its not like ball, its not your time to shine
Its all about line 1 and 2, not line 4 or 3
So just go join tony chen in the D-league
Work on your throw, learn how to catch
Line 1 versus 3 man that isn’t even a match
Just like this battle both of ya’ll wont win
Its like saying some random freestyler against junior jin
Rodmond [100 - 7] Exclusive - Outerspace Love ===> says:
haha first line killed it already
ahahahahahahaha
matt killed me
kk shower, think of rhymes to smash you matt
matthewho. ][ says:
LOL sure bud
sure
hmm i like online better than foreals
microsfot word
plan it all out
LOL
I don’t need size to be a factor in the game
I play my own game to get respect for my name
But for you its definitely not the same
I may be 5’2 but I’ll still be showing my hops
I may not jump as high as you, but I’ll still be getting blocks
Legit blocks that go straight down to the ground
Not ones that you block and go to opposing players around
Cause that’s not what I do, give up points to my ma
Cause that’s not what I do, give up points to my man
Feed him the ball like im his biggest fan
I wanna win this year and I believe we can do
But first we gotta get rid of some players like you
replies tommy?
Honestly boys, you guys are no fun
I spit 2 verses and the battle was done
It was long over and its clear that I won
Cause I’ll take on both of you 2 vs 1
I don’t need any back, I’ll take on both of you alone
Its like shooting 2 birds only with one stone
Its 3 straight verses and still no rebuttle?
I just ignited the flame and took off like a shuttle
You cant catch me boys just cause im just to fast
Cause im the future of the game, and you’re still sitting in the past
cmon boys
is this a battle?
Rodmond [100 - 7] Exclusive - Outerspace Love ===> says:
matthew ho, tommy wu i know you guys are really gay
you look at each other in homosexual ways
kevin or matt, frisbee mvp i would choose neither
only way you would win is if you bribed shin or weber
funny how you talk about tony, cuz you should be on his line
we dont need you or kevin, me and derrick are fine
matthewho. ][ says:
LOL that was good
Rodmond [100 - 7] Exclusive - Outerspace Love ===> says:
tommy wu, remember when i dunked on you
you were like oh no now what do i do
you hid all the tapes, pulled a lebron james
only want people seeing when you have a good game
haha fine
this should go on facebook
LOL
matthewho. ][ says:
LOL
sure
Rodmond [100 - 7] Exclusive - Outerspace Love ===> says:
lol when the other softie comes back and we finish it
matthewho. ][ says:
LOL
- ttTttT says:
..
brain malfunction
LMAO
Rodmond [100 - 7] Exclusive - Outerspace Love ===> says:
LOL
tommy wu you're so slow, i think you're busy sucking dick
you come to school like taeyang thinking you look slick
im sorry the taeyang jokes are getting kinda old
if this were a poker game, you really should fold
cuz im a shark i'll take your money in a blink of an eye
stab you in the heart, take your girl and leave you to die
- ttTttT says:
Matthew ho, spitting rhymes, thinking he’s got flow,
tryna steal my thunder, tryna steal my show.
talking bout line 3, thinking he’s so diezed,
we got Dwight howard, don’t need no small pipsqueak.
LMAO RDODMONDDDD
HAHAHAHAHA
Rodmond [100 - 7] Exclusive - Outerspace Love ===> says:
LOL
matthewho. ][ says:
kevin never throws to you and its definitely not a surprise
cause obviously doenst have faith in any of you guys
but he always throw to me and I don’t blame him for that
when the only ones with talent on line one are Kevin and matt
we don’t need Dwight howard, we got amare and nash
and howard’s no use if line 3’s nelson can’t pass
Rodmond [100 - 7] Exclusive - Outerspace Love ===> says:
LOOLL softie
matt ho, dont think i forgot about you
thinkin you're kobe, more like a pops mensa bonsu
dont need you on the team cuz your simply trash
i hope you get drunk and die in a car crash (not really )
like a watermelon your head i wanna smash
kick punch stomp on and bash
im a ninja matt, you wont even see when i catch the frisbee
i'm so fast i still have time to call your girl and ask if she missed me
matthewho. ][ says:
LOL POPS
Rodmond [100 - 7] Exclusive - Outerspace Love ===> says:
LOL
- ttTttT says:
LMAOOOOOOOOO
last line, tooooo sick
Rodmond [100 - 7] Exclusive - Outerspace Love ===> says:
LOL
this is all in good fun
- ttTttT says:
phalanges, ulna, femur,
i got it all down,
when i try to teach you,
you be looking dumbfound.
matthewho. ][ says:
You trying to teach me for Friday’s test?
I’ll slap in your zygomatics the kick you in the pubic crest
Rodmond [100 - 7] Exclusive - Outerspace Love ===> says:
tommy wu playing peacemaker still wont save you
i gotta posterize you though i dont really want to
cuz its too easy, it wont make court cuts
for a living you should be picking up cigarette butts
matt ho you had a good frisbee run
but now i think your career is officially done
i'll fly over you like nate over dwight
catch the frisbee and disappear, you'll think you're losing your sight
- ttTttT says:
matthew ho, god damn bro, step up your game,
every time i see you, it's still the same.
why do you just keep texting, man, take some action,
asking her out is as easy as simplifying fractions.
in front of her, you're sweet, acting like a fairy,
but jsut show your true self and be legendary.
now hurry up, outta the holster pull out your gun,
don't make edlover tell ya "C'MON SONNNN!"
- ttTttT says:
matthew ho, passed away in a urinal,
now rodmond and i are attending his funeral.
how young this man had to go,
but whatever, it's not like he had any flow.
I’ll spit my last verse before the night’s done
I don’t really need the verse cause I already won
But tommy wants more, he wants to get killed
Some say its guts, some say strong-willed
I think its neither, he just admires my rhymes
He wants to learn how to throw actual punch lines
And I don’t need your advice on how to ask people out
Im just waiting for the moment where I have no doubt
If asking people out comes to easy to you
Then how come you asked on MSN, you know that its true?
Don’t be hypocritical on your own dating game
I wont be that arms I wont mention any names
Rodmond [100 - 7] Exclusive - Outerspace Love ===> says:
hey matt everybody thinks that you're really small
no wonder when you guys play, tommy never gives you the ball
cuz he's a hog eventhough he sucks a lot
hey tommy take up badminton, thats just a thought
Thursday, January 26, 2017
We Back...Tomorrow
Day 26/31
Hey friends, today was a very up and down day, it was UP...then it was DOWN. So I've been stressing over these 2 seminar presentations...one yesterday and one today. It was such a relief to finally get them both done like man, you don't understand how nice I feel cuz now it's just small assignments or essays. It's not that public speaking is the worst thing...but I'm just not a fan of presentations, that being said...today's one was great, My other classmates were like yo you did really good...so that was dope. We got our exams back and I don't even wanna boast...but yo I'm killing it this year in school...I've never buckled down so hard before in my life...ALL my friends can attest to this...so to finally start seeing B's and A;s....man it's a weird but beautiful feeling. But THEN...I was supposed to bus home with my boy so he could drive me home but he like stopped responding, he either died or his phone died. So I had to take 2 buses home then walk like hella far in the cold...took me over an hour to get home which was a down way to end such a dope day. This weekend feels...FREE...I have stuff to do, but it's unimportant or irrelevant stuff...I feel nice. BTW...I've been feeling hella impulsive...so I might wake up with a lot of my hair gone tomorrow...it's just time for a change lol...um, yeah. I'm in a rush right now, I'm tired, I'm lazy...I've had a long day, cut me some slack...WE BACK IN FULL FORCE TOMORROW...PINKY PROMISE.
Hey friends, today was a very up and down day, it was UP...then it was DOWN. So I've been stressing over these 2 seminar presentations...one yesterday and one today. It was such a relief to finally get them both done like man, you don't understand how nice I feel cuz now it's just small assignments or essays. It's not that public speaking is the worst thing...but I'm just not a fan of presentations, that being said...today's one was great, My other classmates were like yo you did really good...so that was dope. We got our exams back and I don't even wanna boast...but yo I'm killing it this year in school...I've never buckled down so hard before in my life...ALL my friends can attest to this...so to finally start seeing B's and A;s....man it's a weird but beautiful feeling. But THEN...I was supposed to bus home with my boy so he could drive me home but he like stopped responding, he either died or his phone died. So I had to take 2 buses home then walk like hella far in the cold...took me over an hour to get home which was a down way to end such a dope day. This weekend feels...FREE...I have stuff to do, but it's unimportant or irrelevant stuff...I feel nice. BTW...I've been feeling hella impulsive...so I might wake up with a lot of my hair gone tomorrow...it's just time for a change lol...um, yeah. I'm in a rush right now, I'm tired, I'm lazy...I've had a long day, cut me some slack...WE BACK IN FULL FORCE TOMORROW...PINKY PROMISE.
Wednesday, January 25, 2017
I;ll Never Understand
Day 25/31
MERRY CH...oh true, it's January. Lowkey looking forward to the end of this month cuz seriously...posting everyday is hectic and borderline stressful LOL...it's like OH SHOOT, haven't blogged today, like most things in life...I like to do it on my own time lol. Anyways...today was good, presented one of my seminars, the other one is tomorrow. The boring part was having to sit through the movie again after already watching it in order to prep for the seminar...but it was great, people were talkative...my partner and I got through like half of what we wanted to do get through lol so I'm glad we had some good discussion, one more tomorrow then I can coast for the most part of January and February.
So I feel like sometimes, when one door closes another one opens...easy enough to comprehend right. But sometimes, when one door closes...what if another one doesn't open...it's not like life is always going to be handing you opportunity after opportunity just cuz you miss one. Sometimes you kinda wander for a bit and just...search...like you're in a space shuttle in space just kinda floating around...I feel like everyone has those periods of just floating y'feel. Sometimes when unexpected things happen, I'm just kinda like man...God I'll never understand your plan...but you do you. Then it kinda hits me...that's the point, we're not supposed to understand his ways y'feel. Otherwise it'd be similar to like knowing our future. Cuz if God always opened one door after one was closed...we'd figure it out and when something goes wrong it's like oh...it's cool, I can chill cuz another door is gonna open anyways. God always and will continue to surprise me with his plan and I just kinda sit there like dang...I never would've thought, expected or seen things going that way. I'm beginning to understand that you're not meant to understand God or His plan...that's what makes Him so much more than us in every conceivable way. In the series finale of Boy Meets World, Cory (the main character) is talking to his new little brother about life and how he's gonna have to go through a lot and he's gonna meet a lot of people and stuff...then he goes oh...Boy Meets World, I get it now. I feel like life is like that...it's not gonna be until we've crossed the finish line and are looking back and the path we took to get to the finish line that we're gonna be like wow...what a journey.
Tuesday, January 24, 2017
Day 24
Day 24/31
BRUH...couldn't even think of a catchy title...so let's just chat...no slacking, let' finish off this month strong guys...but I'm like hella swamped right now...I got a seminar to present tomorrow and another seminar on Thursday, then I'm back to just regular assignments which is cool...I just really need to focus on buckle down today and tomorrow...hope y'all understand. Today was hectic...had a cold milk tea with extra sugar and I started tripping balls...my heart felt like it was gonna explode...like it was beating super fast...that was a big mistake, either that or the fact that I downed it really fast was a mistake. After class I went to the library at 1 and left at like 6...after like 3 hours it started to feel like a prison and I was so depressed but so focused at the same time LOL. I hate leaving York when it's dark...well one for safety purposes...two, it feels like I've been there all day...but at least I'm getting work done right. I started reminiscing about my first few years at York, I was gonna make a post about it but there really isn't much content. It's just me not going to class...or when I did go to class I wouldn't pay attention. Y'all know I'm taking a 7-10 pm class on Monday, I had one in my 2nd year and BOOOOY...I like went to 1/8 of those classes...don't know how I managed to pass that class. People would like stream Raptor games, my friend would full on sleep. I remember in my other class I would sit ALLLL the way at the back and watch Fresh Prince...to the point where I was like screw that let's just stay home and watch Fresh Prince...boy I was a slacker, still am...but I know when to focus and buckle down...sometimes. Anyways, back to work...tomorrow's seminar is more chill cuz it's my women's studies class and they're all talkative and I have a partner so I'm not too worried. Thursday is kinda nerve wracking cuz there's like less than 10 people and it's pretty quiet...which makes me less anxious but like it also means less discussion which is the point of a seminar...so we'll see how that goes...Friday never looked so much further than it has this week. Anyways, catch y'all tomorrow, peace easy.
BRUH...couldn't even think of a catchy title...so let's just chat...no slacking, let' finish off this month strong guys...but I'm like hella swamped right now...I got a seminar to present tomorrow and another seminar on Thursday, then I'm back to just regular assignments which is cool...I just really need to focus on buckle down today and tomorrow...hope y'all understand. Today was hectic...had a cold milk tea with extra sugar and I started tripping balls...my heart felt like it was gonna explode...like it was beating super fast...that was a big mistake, either that or the fact that I downed it really fast was a mistake. After class I went to the library at 1 and left at like 6...after like 3 hours it started to feel like a prison and I was so depressed but so focused at the same time LOL. I hate leaving York when it's dark...well one for safety purposes...two, it feels like I've been there all day...but at least I'm getting work done right. I started reminiscing about my first few years at York, I was gonna make a post about it but there really isn't much content. It's just me not going to class...or when I did go to class I wouldn't pay attention. Y'all know I'm taking a 7-10 pm class on Monday, I had one in my 2nd year and BOOOOY...I like went to 1/8 of those classes...don't know how I managed to pass that class. People would like stream Raptor games, my friend would full on sleep. I remember in my other class I would sit ALLLL the way at the back and watch Fresh Prince...to the point where I was like screw that let's just stay home and watch Fresh Prince...boy I was a slacker, still am...but I know when to focus and buckle down...sometimes. Anyways, back to work...tomorrow's seminar is more chill cuz it's my women's studies class and they're all talkative and I have a partner so I'm not too worried. Thursday is kinda nerve wracking cuz there's like less than 10 people and it's pretty quiet...which makes me less anxious but like it also means less discussion which is the point of a seminar...so we'll see how that goes...Friday never looked so much further than it has this week. Anyways, catch y'all tomorrow, peace easy.
Monday, January 23, 2017
The Journey Continues
Day 23/31
I read this post (give it a read) and it kinda inspired me talk about it lol. This blog to me...is my life...my diary...but to a lot of you, it's...entertainment, it's something to read and laugh at or be like hm that was cool or interesting. In a lot of ways it's like you're reading a book and I'm the protagonist.
This is a story about a boy named Rod
He never believed in himself but he believed in God
That's all I have so far...I've actually had that line just laying around for a while LOL. But forreal tho...y'all have seen me through so much stress, pain, failures, heartbreak and such..it's like you're right here with me on the journey. Like watching the entire Harry Potter franchise, you get invested in him, you want him to succeed (hopefully). In the same way, I feel this blog is similar in that way...y'all wanna see that "I Made It" post or that "I Think She's The One" post. Cuz y'all have seen me go through it all...seen me get so close but just miss the mark. I kinda owe it to you guys LOL. I was listening to this Big Sean song yesterday (his new album is going to be dope btw) and he was saying "I know what it feel like to think you found the one, told mom that so many times I'm sounding dumb." Trust me, I'm eagerly waiting to be able to write that post just as eagerly y'all are waiting to read it. I hope y'all are enjoying or have been enjoying...me, my growth, my life, my stories, my struggles, my triumph...I don't say it enough, but I'm really thankful for y'all...cuz you motivate me on the days I don't feel like doing this, on the days I feel like hanging it all up and calling it quits, thank you. Thanks for sticking with me, thanks for stopping by, thanks for even just visiting. I'll catch y'all tomorrow.
I read this post (give it a read) and it kinda inspired me talk about it lol. This blog to me...is my life...my diary...but to a lot of you, it's...entertainment, it's something to read and laugh at or be like hm that was cool or interesting. In a lot of ways it's like you're reading a book and I'm the protagonist.
This is a story about a boy named Rod
He never believed in himself but he believed in God
That's all I have so far...I've actually had that line just laying around for a while LOL. But forreal tho...y'all have seen me through so much stress, pain, failures, heartbreak and such..it's like you're right here with me on the journey. Like watching the entire Harry Potter franchise, you get invested in him, you want him to succeed (hopefully). In the same way, I feel this blog is similar in that way...y'all wanna see that "I Made It" post or that "I Think She's The One" post. Cuz y'all have seen me go through it all...seen me get so close but just miss the mark. I kinda owe it to you guys LOL. I was listening to this Big Sean song yesterday (his new album is going to be dope btw) and he was saying "I know what it feel like to think you found the one, told mom that so many times I'm sounding dumb." Trust me, I'm eagerly waiting to be able to write that post just as eagerly y'all are waiting to read it. I hope y'all are enjoying or have been enjoying...me, my growth, my life, my stories, my struggles, my triumph...I don't say it enough, but I'm really thankful for y'all...cuz you motivate me on the days I don't feel like doing this, on the days I feel like hanging it all up and calling it quits, thank you. Thanks for sticking with me, thanks for stopping by, thanks for even just visiting. I'll catch y'all tomorrow.
Sunday, January 22, 2017
Say What's Real, Say How You Feel
Day 22/31
I got fake people showin' fake love to me, straight up to my faaaaaaace. My friends will attest that I'm that dude who literally makes a song or sings about anything lol...to the point where I'm annoying, but they miss it when I'm not around to do it LOL. I dunno, I just feel like even if I don't like you...I can respect you if you're straight up just like Rodmond I don't like you...because this or that...or I just don't like you, no reason, we just don't mesh. I prefer that over someone who's shady and not real with their feelings. To keep it real or to keep it 100 is to just be honest, if you don't like something, say it. I just don't like people who put on faces to please people...NOW there is a difference when say you're going to like your girlfriend or boyfriend's house and you're trying to impress them...I wouldn't call that being fake, I'd say that's just trying to be polite and respectful. But you know what I'm saying...shady people.,..have like that aura about them, you just don't know what their motives are. The dope thing about your best friends is when they're completely honest with you...even tho it might suck at first...at least they're honest. People will sometimes tell me I'm rude or I'm mean...but hey, I'm real, I wouldn't wanna be any other way. Now that's not to say go to everyone and say what you don't like about them...there's boundaries you feel...I'm moreso saying...don't be fake, if someone asks you something...or when the situation calls for it, be honest. Don't go to your friends now and start listing things you don't like about them...use common sense. Why do you think they call me RTtheRealest...cuz I'm the realest dude out here...LOOOOL okay I'm joking. Literally, I was just trying to think of a twitter handle because y'all roast me for using psychospin...and I don't even remember how I came up with RTtheRealest...I know I didn't wanna use my name or some sort of variation cuz it sounded lame...then I thought of RT...and wanted to add something onto that...realest just kinda...came to mind.,,and it stuck...and now that's like most of my usernames for everything lol. You know when something sounds weird at first but then later it grows on you and you get used to it...like "thebestyouneverheard" sounded super weird to be at first...but now it's...a thing...a ting...LOL.
So I usually do my whole random tangent thing at the beginning, but I really wanted to start off with the whole straight up to my faaaaace thing LOL. Anyways...sometimes I forget that I have like a lot of adult friends on facebook...but wait Rodmond, aren't you an adult? Yeah, but I mean like aaaaaadult...like 40+ LOL. Part of me is believes that my viewing range is like 15-30 LOL...but I forget sometimes there are some genuine like adults who go on my blog and have years of wisdom under their belt. One of my counselors at church...but wait Rodmond, aren't you a counselor? Yeah, but when I was in high school, he was my counselor and I kinda still see him in that light cuz he's always looking out for us. So anyways, I remember a long time ago, I found out he read my blog cuz he owned a blackberry 10 and nobody else on this earth owned a blackberry...for the most part at least lol...so I remember writing that on my blog one time how a user with a blackberry viewed my blog and he called me out on it the next day at church LOOOL. So anyways...today at church, he was like hey I stumbled onto your blog again and read this post called Flirty Versus Friendly and he was like I thought it was cool, it's definitely very relatable and a good topic to discuss, he was like yeah you should bring that up to your kids or even to the other university guys and gals...he's like man, I've struggled with that before and I'm sure a lot of people still do. I started dying at the fact that he was like yeah man /I feel you, I've been there LOOOOL...anyways, if you manage to come across this, thanks for always being so cool and down to earth. And with that, I'll see y'all tomorrow...peace out.
I got fake people showin' fake love to me, straight up to my faaaaaaace. My friends will attest that I'm that dude who literally makes a song or sings about anything lol...to the point where I'm annoying, but they miss it when I'm not around to do it LOL. I dunno, I just feel like even if I don't like you...I can respect you if you're straight up just like Rodmond I don't like you...because this or that...or I just don't like you, no reason, we just don't mesh. I prefer that over someone who's shady and not real with their feelings. To keep it real or to keep it 100 is to just be honest, if you don't like something, say it. I just don't like people who put on faces to please people...NOW there is a difference when say you're going to like your girlfriend or boyfriend's house and you're trying to impress them...I wouldn't call that being fake, I'd say that's just trying to be polite and respectful. But you know what I'm saying...shady people.,..have like that aura about them, you just don't know what their motives are. The dope thing about your best friends is when they're completely honest with you...even tho it might suck at first...at least they're honest. People will sometimes tell me I'm rude or I'm mean...but hey, I'm real, I wouldn't wanna be any other way. Now that's not to say go to everyone and say what you don't like about them...there's boundaries you feel...I'm moreso saying...don't be fake, if someone asks you something...or when the situation calls for it, be honest. Don't go to your friends now and start listing things you don't like about them...use common sense. Why do you think they call me RTtheRealest...cuz I'm the realest dude out here...LOOOOL okay I'm joking. Literally, I was just trying to think of a twitter handle because y'all roast me for using psychospin...and I don't even remember how I came up with RTtheRealest...I know I didn't wanna use my name or some sort of variation cuz it sounded lame...then I thought of RT...and wanted to add something onto that...realest just kinda...came to mind.,,and it stuck...and now that's like most of my usernames for everything lol. You know when something sounds weird at first but then later it grows on you and you get used to it...like "thebestyouneverheard" sounded super weird to be at first...but now it's...a thing...a ting...LOL.
So I usually do my whole random tangent thing at the beginning, but I really wanted to start off with the whole straight up to my faaaaace thing LOL. Anyways...sometimes I forget that I have like a lot of adult friends on facebook...but wait Rodmond, aren't you an adult? Yeah, but I mean like aaaaaadult...like 40+ LOL. Part of me is believes that my viewing range is like 15-30 LOL...but I forget sometimes there are some genuine like adults who go on my blog and have years of wisdom under their belt. One of my counselors at church...but wait Rodmond, aren't you a counselor? Yeah, but when I was in high school, he was my counselor and I kinda still see him in that light cuz he's always looking out for us. So anyways, I remember a long time ago, I found out he read my blog cuz he owned a blackberry 10 and nobody else on this earth owned a blackberry...for the most part at least lol...so I remember writing that on my blog one time how a user with a blackberry viewed my blog and he called me out on it the next day at church LOOOL. So anyways...today at church, he was like hey I stumbled onto your blog again and read this post called Flirty Versus Friendly and he was like I thought it was cool, it's definitely very relatable and a good topic to discuss, he was like yeah you should bring that up to your kids or even to the other university guys and gals...he's like man, I've struggled with that before and I'm sure a lot of people still do. I started dying at the fact that he was like yeah man /I feel you, I've been there LOOOOL...anyways, if you manage to come across this, thanks for always being so cool and down to earth. And with that, I'll see y'all tomorrow...peace out.
Saturday, January 21, 2017
I Felt Like A Celebrity
Day 21/31
What's good friends, so I had a GREAT start to my day. Went to timmies, ordered an iced coffee, paid for it, held it by the top and dropped it in my car as I was putting it in the cup holder. So there was like a good amount of coffee inside both cup holders and some on my phone and stuff. Man I was so annoyed, but at the same time I was in a rush so didn't even get to ask for another iced coffee, just got a bunch of napkins to clean the car. So my day was kinda slow after that for the most part, time is really of the essence cuz I have 2 seminars next week and like hardly any time to work on them so uh...pray for me to get through this week.
So my boys and I decided to go to an NBA D-League game cuz seats are cheap, we ended up getting COURTSIDE tickets. So we got 2 pairs, one in the middle and one in the corner so we switched every quarter. Man, I literally felt like a celebrity...being so close to the players, hearing everything that's being said on the court. It takes watching a basketball game to the next level...hearing the players yell things like THATS A FOUL REF or hearing the ref talk to players like hey, stop yelling LOL. It was such a dope experience and tbh I lowkey prefer it over sitting like 200-300 for Raptor games. Like I can't explain it, it's such a different experience being on the court, so close to everything and everyone. But yeah, it made me feel like I was some next level famous person or something. Yeah that's all I wanted to say, I'm in a car right now...so I'll see y'all tomorrow, peace out
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What's good friends, so I had a GREAT start to my day. Went to timmies, ordered an iced coffee, paid for it, held it by the top and dropped it in my car as I was putting it in the cup holder. So there was like a good amount of coffee inside both cup holders and some on my phone and stuff. Man I was so annoyed, but at the same time I was in a rush so didn't even get to ask for another iced coffee, just got a bunch of napkins to clean the car. So my day was kinda slow after that for the most part, time is really of the essence cuz I have 2 seminars next week and like hardly any time to work on them so uh...pray for me to get through this week.
So my boys and I decided to go to an NBA D-League game cuz seats are cheap, we ended up getting COURTSIDE tickets. So we got 2 pairs, one in the middle and one in the corner so we switched every quarter. Man, I literally felt like a celebrity...being so close to the players, hearing everything that's being said on the court. It takes watching a basketball game to the next level...hearing the players yell things like THATS A FOUL REF or hearing the ref talk to players like hey, stop yelling LOL. It was such a dope experience and tbh I lowkey prefer it over sitting like 200-300 for Raptor games. Like I can't explain it, it's such a different experience being on the court, so close to everything and everyone. But yeah, it made me feel like I was some next level famous person or something. Yeah that's all I wanted to say, I'm in a car right now...so I'll see y'all tomorrow, peace out
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Friday, January 20, 2017
Forever Young
Day 20/31
As promised, here is today's second post. I was listening to a J. Cole song and one lyric that stood out to me was when he said "boy you got your whole life to get old". I started thinking about Peter Pan, who's a made up character. He's defined as a free-spirited, mischievous young boy who never grows up. In the 1991 movie Hook where Robin Williams plays Peter Pan, he grows up and becomes an adult and works as a lawyer or something and neglects his kids cuz he's so consumed with work and making money. People always ask me...Rodmond why're you always so chill or some of my friends will complain I'm never serious and stuff. Instead I would say that some people take things TOO seriously. I love this lyric and the movie not because it encourages you to be a kid and a goofball your entire life. But it's a reminder to never forget where you came from and to never forget the kid inside of you. Don't be so caught up with life and with work and stuff that you forget to have fun, you forget to acknowledge and love those around you. Like J. Cole says...you have your WHOLE life to get old, to work, to stress, to sleep, to die...don't forget the little things, to take breaks in between, to enjoy yourself, to acknowledge and appreciate your friends and family. You'd be surprised how many people I know or see who are so work and goal oriented that it becomes like tunnel vision for them and that's all they see. Yeah it's easy to say nahh...once I make X amount of money...then I'll have fun and enjoy myself...but it's never ending cuz you're gonna want more, it's never gonna be enough you feel. I love the idea of Peter Pan being a grown man in the movie but like embracing his childhood...food fights, fart jokes, hide and seek...all that stuff...I never wanna lose the inner kid inside of me...I've said it before, I feel that's what makes me so relatable (at least I think) to younger kids. It's not me holding on and not wanting to let go of my childhood...it's me preserving the fun, sane side of me that keeps everything in check and in balance. It's the side of me that's gonna have fun and play with my kids you know. I'm not saying you have to stay forever young and be a child for the rest of your life...we all have to grow up, it's inevitable. I'm saying you don't have to suppress that inner child in you just because you're an adult, you don't have to be serious 24/7...that's no fun to be around for anybody. Chill out,relax, don't take things so seriously.
As promised, here is today's second post. I was listening to a J. Cole song and one lyric that stood out to me was when he said "boy you got your whole life to get old". I started thinking about Peter Pan, who's a made up character. He's defined as a free-spirited, mischievous young boy who never grows up. In the 1991 movie Hook where Robin Williams plays Peter Pan, he grows up and becomes an adult and works as a lawyer or something and neglects his kids cuz he's so consumed with work and making money. People always ask me...Rodmond why're you always so chill or some of my friends will complain I'm never serious and stuff. Instead I would say that some people take things TOO seriously. I love this lyric and the movie not because it encourages you to be a kid and a goofball your entire life. But it's a reminder to never forget where you came from and to never forget the kid inside of you. Don't be so caught up with life and with work and stuff that you forget to have fun, you forget to acknowledge and love those around you. Like J. Cole says...you have your WHOLE life to get old, to work, to stress, to sleep, to die...don't forget the little things, to take breaks in between, to enjoy yourself, to acknowledge and appreciate your friends and family. You'd be surprised how many people I know or see who are so work and goal oriented that it becomes like tunnel vision for them and that's all they see. Yeah it's easy to say nahh...once I make X amount of money...then I'll have fun and enjoy myself...but it's never ending cuz you're gonna want more, it's never gonna be enough you feel. I love the idea of Peter Pan being a grown man in the movie but like embracing his childhood...food fights, fart jokes, hide and seek...all that stuff...I never wanna lose the inner kid inside of me...I've said it before, I feel that's what makes me so relatable (at least I think) to younger kids. It's not me holding on and not wanting to let go of my childhood...it's me preserving the fun, sane side of me that keeps everything in check and in balance. It's the side of me that's gonna have fun and play with my kids you know. I'm not saying you have to stay forever young and be a child for the rest of your life...we all have to grow up, it's inevitable. I'm saying you don't have to suppress that inner child in you just because you're an adult, you don't have to be serious 24/7...that's no fun to be around for anybody. Chill out,relax, don't take things so seriously.
The Feeling Of Being Replaced
Day 20/31
Wait, but Rodmond what happened to day 19? I'll tell you what happened, I got lazy is what happened lol...when it comes to blogging I'm like a nightowl...I just prefer to do it at night, so on the days I know I'm going out I try to write something in the afternoon so I can post it later at night. But sometimes, life gets the best of me and I forget and am sitting staring at my phone outside at like 10 pm like shoot...I still have to blog. So the easy thing to do would've been throw up an old post or an old poem and be done with it, but I was like naaaaah...let's just do TWO posts tomorrow, so look out for another post tonight! Wasn't really looking forward to the weekend yesterday because I have so much stuff due next week...so excuse me if I'm stressed next week, after that I should resume to normality hopefully.
I don't think anyone likes the feeling of being replaced. Whether it's seeing your ex date someone else or seeing your best friend make new friends...it's a crumby feeling. I remember my friend telling me one time that she would be there for me "as long as I needed her" and for the longest time that annoyed me because it felt like she was like filling in as a temporary kinda thing you know She would always be like once you find a good girl that I approve of, you won't need me anymore. But it ended up being the opposite when she got a boyfriend and I essentially told her the same thing when I was like, it seems like you don't need me anymore. So yeah...anytime my dad is around kids...he gets like hella excited...and I joke with my brother like yo I think dad wants another kid LOOL. But the lowkey inner child in me is like bruuuuh, stupid kid....in my head I like throw a rock at him and peace out. No one likes the feeling of being replaced. Even tho they're your ex, it's still a weird feeling seeing them move on and date someone else you know. It also makes so much sense to me when people say that they hate their best friend's other friends or they hate their boyfriend's girl friends or girlfriend's boy friends...does that make sense? Like if we really care for someone, we feel like they're ours and when someone kinda threatens that, we don't like it. It's a pretty interesting thought that I'm sure everyone has felt or imagined one way or another. That's all I really wanted to say, look out for another post tonight...aka in a couple of hours lol PEACE.
Wednesday, January 18, 2017
Guest Writer #29: Mike Bibby
Day 18/31
Hey y'all, not gonna waste too much of your time because today's guest post is a long one, but it's deep...so give it a full read, I'll catch y'all tomorrow.
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SO I guess I will be talking about 2 things today. Quality and Quantity of life (Yes I know, RT has talked about this b4), and I also will be talking about life in general. So I guess, I’ll start with why I decided to talk about this. I was reminiscing my childhood idol, MC Jin and his music. He was like who I looked up to and as I grew up, I stopped listening to him because I just didn’t keep up with him. So for those who don’t know who he is, he is basically the first Chinese rapper to make it big in the NA scene. He would do freestyles and rap battles. I grew up in HK, and he was basically the HK version of Justin Bieber. Anyway, it was interesting because he came to Christ, and does Christian rap and other stuff which I didn’t know about until I recently picked up his music again and looked into his life. So the motivation for this blog post was from his song Hallelujah, it’s basically a song that talks about his life, and his testimony and talks about God’s Grace. (I’m Christian, if you haven’t realized by now). He has this one line in the song that says “We can all be here today, Gone tomorrow”. When I heard this line, I was like yo damn what the hell, that’s some deep stuff yo. But that is honestly the reality of this world, we don’t know when we will die, we don’t know what happens the next second, we as humans have no control over what happens. I was always a kid that would be scared of death, scared of not knowing what happens and not knowing the future. Even now, during this blog post, which I’m writing in Math Class LOOL, I don’t know what will happen in my life, what University will I go to? What job will I be doing? What if I don’t go to Uni? What if my goals and wants to not line up with God’s plan for me? Just last week, or 2 weeks ago, I woke up one day and I was like “yo I’m wasting my life, I feel like shit, and I don’t feel like there’s a purpose in this world or rather I don’t know what I am doing with my life” and I was talking to a few people, and some of you may think, oh you are too young to be worrying, there’s so much more of life ahead of you (assuming the fact you still have that long in life). I came to a realization and a reminder that God has a purpose for me and I should just let him guide me in life, live out your life and make the most out of your life. I think living life as a Christian is kind of like the song I will Follow by Chris Tomlin, it says “Where you go, I'll go Where you stay, I'll stay When you move, I'll move I will follow” We should go where he goes, where he tells us to go we go, we are called to serve him and make disciples of all nations. For the non-believers, I just want to ask you a question, what is your purpose in life? Sorry this is a pretty big ramble and the post is all over the place, but I want kinda go back to the song Hallelujah. When you die, and you can no longer live on this Earth, could you say you made the most out of your life? Do you have any regrets? I guess what I am trying to say that I’ve learned from the past few years especially, rather from faith, school or even relationships, is that don’t do something you will regret. So if you find a girl cute? Ask her for her number, If you want to get into a certain university? Work hard and get into it, if you wanna be rich? Work hard now and get a high paying job. I am not saying this is going to be easy, but if you want something in life, no one is going to give it to you, you have to work hard FOR IT. I’m not saying if you want a girl’s #, you slide into every girl’s dms (shoutout to rodmond’s post LOL.) You have to be reasonable in doing things. I guess I learned this year in my math class, that you have to do everything yourself sometimes with God’s guidance and stuff of course. My math teacher doesn’t really teach or give out any sheets, and your basically on your own. I kind of learned that things aren’t just handed to you, you have to work hard, earn it and reach your goals YOURSELF. I’ll be blatant honest, I’m not doing well in math, I kind of blamed my teacher for my mark being low, but I realized a good 80% into the semester that It wasn’t just his fault. It’s my dumbass’ fault and that I can’t just blame him, I am given the same opportunity and chances as everyone else in my class. I am given the same tests and assements as everyone else, why can someone people “succeed” in the class and I can’t? I can’t just blame him for everything. I guess the point I really want you to realize is that everything comes from YOU. You have to earn it yourself. YOLO, honestly, you do only live once on this earth, do you want to do anything that you will regret forever? It’s 18 days into the new year and I just wanna leave you with a question, it’s 18 days into the new year, what have you done, I challenge you to make CHANGE. I want to thank you for coming so far but there’s still more LOL. You might ask how does the quality and quantity of life come into this? I feel like in life, we really do measure our success, how our quality of our lives are, and if we’re really making the most of our lives QUANTITATIVELY. Some measure success by how much you make and others differently. I’ve noticed that in life we often measure quality through quantity. Sure, you can definitely measure quality through quantity but not for EVERYTHING. I’m serving at a fellowship, and one of the things I definitely learned is that look at the quality of the fellowship instead of the quantity of the people that come. When your able to see quality not through quantity, you see a whole lot more. I challenge you, to measure your quality in your life. Are your relationships of quality? For me, I’ve come to really appreciate the time I spend with my girlfriend, and to just appreciate the quality of spending time with each other instead of the quantity. In that aspect, are you qualitatively making use of what you have in life? Or are u living out life to it’s fullest? I’m not saying that you have to go party 24/7 and say that’s living out life, I guess what I am saying is just live out your life in a reasonable sense. Life is short, make use of it. If your not making use of your life, or your life isn’t of quality, then change that, tomorrow is a new day. One of my favourite quotes that I’ve ever heard was “Yesterday is not ours to recover, but tomorrow is ours to live or lose” (Lyndon B. Johnson). I want to thank you for coming all the way this far and reading all of this. I hope I inspired you and that you just reflect on your own life. Tomorrow is a new day. Shoutot to RTTHEREALEST for letting me write this long post. If you ever need a bucketgetter, hit him up! Peace yo, have a good day or night. “Yesterday is but today's memory, and tomorrow is today's dream” (Khalil Gibran).
Tuesday, January 17, 2017
For The Love Of Money
Day 17/31
Hey guys, hope you\re doing well...decided to take today off, the weather was way too gloomy, it was slippery outside...wasn't bout it. I woke up this morning to go to lunch with my friend and while scraping the ice off my car, I was literally slipping and I had to hold onto the door handle to stay still and scrape the ice off the car. At the library right now, trying to do work...clearly it's not working if I'm sitting here writing this post instead.
Money's a touchy topic I feel...but it's pretty black and white in my opinion. Money's great, it allows you to buy nice things whether for yourself or other people, it allows you to provide for yourself and for others...it's a necessity but also a luxury. That one saying 'money is the root of all evil' has been running in and out of my head as of late. My dad would always say you have to learn to save before you can know how to spend, which is really true As kids, we're always taught to like do well in school so we can get a good job....and most people's definition of good job is one that pays well...that's why the most common jobs parents tell their kids about are like doctors and lawyers. But what happens when money becomes your only motivation and reason for working and stuff. When it becomes a priority over things like family, friends, health and happiness. Money is nice and such...but people get so caught up with spending their entire lives making as much of it as possible that when it finally comes time, there is none left to spend and enjoy it. It's like you spend your entire life working hard to save money to spend on your family, but in reality all that focus and attention towards money is causing you to neglect your family...which was the sole purpose of you wanting more money in the first place...isn't that interesting? I dunno, I've just been seeing that a lot around me lately...money being such a motive that things like health, happiness, family and friends are neglected and forgotten. Work hard, play hard right? Everyone's mentality is going to be different...some people wanna work hard now so they can enjoy later while others wanna enjoy now and work hard later. But some people work so hard all their lives they forget to enjoy...or other people enjoy their entire lives that they forget to work and end up slacking or struggling to barely get by. It's about finding the balance of working and playing...what's the point of making so much money if you have no time or no one to spend it on?
Hey guys, hope you\re doing well...decided to take today off, the weather was way too gloomy, it was slippery outside...wasn't bout it. I woke up this morning to go to lunch with my friend and while scraping the ice off my car, I was literally slipping and I had to hold onto the door handle to stay still and scrape the ice off the car. At the library right now, trying to do work...clearly it's not working if I'm sitting here writing this post instead.
Money's a touchy topic I feel...but it's pretty black and white in my opinion. Money's great, it allows you to buy nice things whether for yourself or other people, it allows you to provide for yourself and for others...it's a necessity but also a luxury. That one saying 'money is the root of all evil' has been running in and out of my head as of late. My dad would always say you have to learn to save before you can know how to spend, which is really true As kids, we're always taught to like do well in school so we can get a good job....and most people's definition of good job is one that pays well...that's why the most common jobs parents tell their kids about are like doctors and lawyers. But what happens when money becomes your only motivation and reason for working and stuff. When it becomes a priority over things like family, friends, health and happiness. Money is nice and such...but people get so caught up with spending their entire lives making as much of it as possible that when it finally comes time, there is none left to spend and enjoy it. It's like you spend your entire life working hard to save money to spend on your family, but in reality all that focus and attention towards money is causing you to neglect your family...which was the sole purpose of you wanting more money in the first place...isn't that interesting? I dunno, I've just been seeing that a lot around me lately...money being such a motive that things like health, happiness, family and friends are neglected and forgotten. Work hard, play hard right? Everyone's mentality is going to be different...some people wanna work hard now so they can enjoy later while others wanna enjoy now and work hard later. But some people work so hard all their lives they forget to enjoy...or other people enjoy their entire lives that they forget to work and end up slacking or struggling to barely get by. It's about finding the balance of working and playing...what's the point of making so much money if you have no time or no one to spend it on?
Monday, January 16, 2017
Just Keep Swimming Part 2
Day 16/31
PART 1
So my entire day today was like messed...like my brain was like fried today. So I have this morning class from 10:30 to 12:30 and I had a quiz and the quiz is usually at the last hour/half hour of class, so I originally planned to catch the bus at 10:30 or 11 and be there just in time for class, but then I felt bad and was like whatever I'll just catch the bus at 10 and be like 10 minutes late for class. So this morning, my mom like woke me up abruptly and it like freaked me out cuz I think I was still in like deep sleep mode, so like my heart started racing and my brain like thought I was somewhat dremaing still, so I felt like that in itself messed up my whole day. So I went to check my phone to see what time it was, realized my phone hadn't been charging the whole time (the wire is messed). So had to charge my phone for as little as I could before leaving, found out it was 10, so had to catch the bus at 10:30 like I had first wanted to do. Lemme tell you my whole day felt like a ream...I was dozing off in all my classes, /I just kept replaying my mom like abruptly waking me up and part of me felt like I was still sleeping, so yeah my brain was just done today, I have my night class today but there's no way I'm going because there's no way I'm going to be able to stay awake.
Sometimes I feel like a lot of things I say get repetitive lol, of the themes and moods and talks that I have with you get stale sometimes...but they always hold true, because they\re always relevant. One being this idea of life being a race...and you gotta keep moving forward, how looking back slows you down. Life takes you through so many ups and downs, twists and turns that when you FINALLY get to a good place, when you're finally in a good situation...you just wanna sit still and embrace it and not change anything. It's like those old televisions with antennas, you move the antenna until you get it just right then you have to keep it there otherwise it'll mess up. I'm definitely like that, after so many ups and downs...when I finally am in a good position, I don't wanna move, it's comfortable, what if it doesn't get any better? But life goes on...with or without you, it's constantly changing and moving forward that if you don't change and adapt and move forward as well, you get left behind. Yeah it's dope when you come across good things and situations, be happy...embrace it at that moment, then move on and move forward. Just imagine yourself going on a road trip to Disney Land. If you stopped and rested a week at every dope scenery spot or tourist spot...you'd never get to Disney Land. In the same way, with life...if you keep stopping for long periods of time to admire what's around you, you'll never get to your final destination. I'm rereading that right now and man, it sounds dope...LOOOL, what I mean by that is like...it's really hitting me. Cuz a lot of times during road trips, the goal is to get to the final destination as fast as possible you know, to avoid detours and pit stops. But sometimes you can't help yourself...whether you gotta go to the washroom, you're hungry or you see something dope...you just wanna stop, but pit stops and detours are meant to be quick and fast...because it distracts from the main goal...and you wanna cut it to as little as possible because the whole point of the trip was the destination, not the pit stops right? So it's okay to stop and sit...and admire...but don't forget about the final destination, that's what you're here for.
PART 1
So my entire day today was like messed...like my brain was like fried today. So I have this morning class from 10:30 to 12:30 and I had a quiz and the quiz is usually at the last hour/half hour of class, so I originally planned to catch the bus at 10:30 or 11 and be there just in time for class, but then I felt bad and was like whatever I'll just catch the bus at 10 and be like 10 minutes late for class. So this morning, my mom like woke me up abruptly and it like freaked me out cuz I think I was still in like deep sleep mode, so like my heart started racing and my brain like thought I was somewhat dremaing still, so I felt like that in itself messed up my whole day. So I went to check my phone to see what time it was, realized my phone hadn't been charging the whole time (the wire is messed). So had to charge my phone for as little as I could before leaving, found out it was 10, so had to catch the bus at 10:30 like I had first wanted to do. Lemme tell you my whole day felt like a ream...I was dozing off in all my classes, /I just kept replaying my mom like abruptly waking me up and part of me felt like I was still sleeping, so yeah my brain was just done today, I have my night class today but there's no way I'm going because there's no way I'm going to be able to stay awake.
Sometimes I feel like a lot of things I say get repetitive lol, of the themes and moods and talks that I have with you get stale sometimes...but they always hold true, because they\re always relevant. One being this idea of life being a race...and you gotta keep moving forward, how looking back slows you down. Life takes you through so many ups and downs, twists and turns that when you FINALLY get to a good place, when you're finally in a good situation...you just wanna sit still and embrace it and not change anything. It's like those old televisions with antennas, you move the antenna until you get it just right then you have to keep it there otherwise it'll mess up. I'm definitely like that, after so many ups and downs...when I finally am in a good position, I don't wanna move, it's comfortable, what if it doesn't get any better? But life goes on...with or without you, it's constantly changing and moving forward that if you don't change and adapt and move forward as well, you get left behind. Yeah it's dope when you come across good things and situations, be happy...embrace it at that moment, then move on and move forward. Just imagine yourself going on a road trip to Disney Land. If you stopped and rested a week at every dope scenery spot or tourist spot...you'd never get to Disney Land. In the same way, with life...if you keep stopping for long periods of time to admire what's around you, you'll never get to your final destination. I'm rereading that right now and man, it sounds dope...LOOOL, what I mean by that is like...it's really hitting me. Cuz a lot of times during road trips, the goal is to get to the final destination as fast as possible you know, to avoid detours and pit stops. But sometimes you can't help yourself...whether you gotta go to the washroom, you're hungry or you see something dope...you just wanna stop, but pit stops and detours are meant to be quick and fast...because it distracts from the main goal...and you wanna cut it to as little as possible because the whole point of the trip was the destination, not the pit stops right? So it's okay to stop and sit...and admire...but don't forget about the final destination, that's what you're here for.
Sunday, January 15, 2017
The Art Of Being Lowkey
Day 15/31
Hey guys, hope y'all are doing fine and dandy. I was sitting around thinking today and I was like man...there's probably like a good 20 people that I see/talk/chill with on a consistent basis. That's just a rough number, the point of me saying that is I have a good enough general idea of like a handful of people that read my blog. The other people...well sometimes I'm like super curious as to who reads my blog you know. I'm only saying this because sometimes people will like my post on facebook...like I'll get a notification and then it won't be there meaning they unliked it and I'm like truuuue I see you. But yeah, other than that...I'm okay with the mystery, it motivates me I feel and it's nice for when the occasional random person tells me they read my blog or I find out cuz I'm like wow that's cool.
When I was younger I used to make a big deal about being noticed and being known as certain people's friends. Like I would make a big deal about little things like being called "bestie" or like taking, saving and posting pictures of my friends and I. Another thing would be like birthday messages, I would like get super happy when my friends or when people would send me hella long birthday posts on like facebook for example so people could see and be like wow, never knew y'all were such close friends or something like that. Now, I'd like to think that I don't care as much. Like one thing I've noticed about myself is that a lot of the friends that I have, not many people know or expect that I'd be friends with that specific person. Take this blog as another example, I remember creating a facebook page for it and messaging everybody on my friend's list telling them to like the page. I literally messaged over like 500 people hoping they would like the page and it would get more attention. Now, obviously I still wanna get it out there, but for the most part I kinda just throw the link up on my facebook and such an whatever happens happens. I think in general I've just become a person who doesn't get too concerned with like little/trivial things you know...and a recurring thing for me is to just go with the flow and kinda see what happens and where it takes me. Yeah, I think that's all I wanted to say, my thoughts are kinda all jumbled right now so uh...see y'all tomorrow.
Hey guys, hope y'all are doing fine and dandy. I was sitting around thinking today and I was like man...there's probably like a good 20 people that I see/talk/chill with on a consistent basis. That's just a rough number, the point of me saying that is I have a good enough general idea of like a handful of people that read my blog. The other people...well sometimes I'm like super curious as to who reads my blog you know. I'm only saying this because sometimes people will like my post on facebook...like I'll get a notification and then it won't be there meaning they unliked it and I'm like truuuue I see you. But yeah, other than that...I'm okay with the mystery, it motivates me I feel and it's nice for when the occasional random person tells me they read my blog or I find out cuz I'm like wow that's cool.
When I was younger I used to make a big deal about being noticed and being known as certain people's friends. Like I would make a big deal about little things like being called "bestie" or like taking, saving and posting pictures of my friends and I. Another thing would be like birthday messages, I would like get super happy when my friends or when people would send me hella long birthday posts on like facebook for example so people could see and be like wow, never knew y'all were such close friends or something like that. Now, I'd like to think that I don't care as much. Like one thing I've noticed about myself is that a lot of the friends that I have, not many people know or expect that I'd be friends with that specific person. Take this blog as another example, I remember creating a facebook page for it and messaging everybody on my friend's list telling them to like the page. I literally messaged over like 500 people hoping they would like the page and it would get more attention. Now, obviously I still wanna get it out there, but for the most part I kinda just throw the link up on my facebook and such an whatever happens happens. I think in general I've just become a person who doesn't get too concerned with like little/trivial things you know...and a recurring thing for me is to just go with the flow and kinda see what happens and where it takes me. Yeah, I think that's all I wanted to say, my thoughts are kinda all jumbled right now so uh...see y'all tomorrow.
Saturday, January 14, 2017
Flirty Versus Friendly
Day 14/31
I feel like this is something that both guys and girls struggle with. It's something guys struggle with discerning and something that girls struggle with appearing to be. I can't count the amount of conversations I've had with my guy friends about not being able to tell if a girl is being flirty or friendly. But I've also had conversations with some girls about their worry of coming off flirty when they're really just friendly. I think that's why as of late, my advice to people is to be direct with your intentions. That way people will know and can react appropriately you know. Otherwise if people don't know it's hard to be yourself because you don't wanna convey the wrong message. Other advice for my dudes is to be patient, I know some dudes who're quick to fall for any girl who initiates conversation with them lol. And for girls...think before you speak I'd say, don't be too touchy-feely, that can be easily misconstrued. Trust me when I say this is something I've struggled with discerning, but experience comes a long way you know. That's all I really wanted to say, sorry the posts have been so rushed and lazy lately, I've been on the go so much, my bad, but I'll see y'all tomorrow.
I feel like this is something that both guys and girls struggle with. It's something guys struggle with discerning and something that girls struggle with appearing to be. I can't count the amount of conversations I've had with my guy friends about not being able to tell if a girl is being flirty or friendly. But I've also had conversations with some girls about their worry of coming off flirty when they're really just friendly. I think that's why as of late, my advice to people is to be direct with your intentions. That way people will know and can react appropriately you know. Otherwise if people don't know it's hard to be yourself because you don't wanna convey the wrong message. Other advice for my dudes is to be patient, I know some dudes who're quick to fall for any girl who initiates conversation with them lol. And for girls...think before you speak I'd say, don't be too touchy-feely, that can be easily misconstrued. Trust me when I say this is something I've struggled with discerning, but experience comes a long way you know. That's all I really wanted to say, sorry the posts have been so rushed and lazy lately, I've been on the go so much, my bad, but I'll see y'all tomorrow.
Friday, January 13, 2017
Stand Up, Stand Out
Day 13/31
Hey sorry for the late post yet again, here's another oldie but a goodie...from 2010.
We live in a world where we can’t let our emotions show
But I’ll admit I sometimes still get scared you know
Cuz Kanye said “we all self conscious, I’m just the first to admit it”
And if you pass me that chronic, I’ll pass it on and not hit it
I keep both feet on the ground and stand up for what I believe in
I constantly keep it real while you change through all four seasons
You get high to ease the pain, I take the pain as a lesson
It helps me strive to overcome, no matter how hard I be stressin’
I get high of my music cuz she’s all I really know
I know I’m breakin’ the rules by letting my emotions show
I live to love...and I love to live
People love to hate, but I’ll be the first to forgive
Cuz hate in your heart will consume your soul
And drag everything into it, something like a black hole
See our life was meant to be lived to the very best we can
So you gotta start thinking with your brain instead of your two bare hands
While the world conforms, I’m not afraid to stand alone
Cuz with my God in my heart, I’m never really on my own
Hey sorry for the late post yet again, here's another oldie but a goodie...from 2010.
We live in a world where we can’t let our emotions show
But I’ll admit I sometimes still get scared you know
Cuz Kanye said “we all self conscious, I’m just the first to admit it”
And if you pass me that chronic, I’ll pass it on and not hit it
I keep both feet on the ground and stand up for what I believe in
I constantly keep it real while you change through all four seasons
You get high to ease the pain, I take the pain as a lesson
It helps me strive to overcome, no matter how hard I be stressin’
I get high of my music cuz she’s all I really know
I know I’m breakin’ the rules by letting my emotions show
I live to love...and I love to live
People love to hate, but I’ll be the first to forgive
Cuz hate in your heart will consume your soul
And drag everything into it, something like a black hole
See our life was meant to be lived to the very best we can
So you gotta start thinking with your brain instead of your two bare hands
While the world conforms, I’m not afraid to stand alone
Cuz with my God in my heart, I’m never really on my own
Thursday, January 12, 2017
How's Life?
Day 12/31
Hey friends, writing this post on the go so sorry if it's shorter than the norm lol. But uh just thought I'd hit y'all with a quick update on life and school and such even though I've been kinda doing so sporadically. Today was my last class of the week so I'm just chilling right now. It's looking to pick us pretty fast cuz I got my seminars coming up. This semester also looks to go by faster too because it's only like 12 weeks whereas September to December was 16 weeks. It's pretty crazy to think I'll be graduating again in 12 weeks...saying it like that makes it seem faster than saying 3 months. I'm pretty excited for summer because there's a lot going on...I might go on vacay with my fam, my friends wanna go on vacay, my home church is starting a softball team and of course there's job hunting. My boy just turned 25 last week and realizing I'm turning 25 soon is making me feel like an adult more than it ever has. Just little things like not being able to eat as much at all you can eat sushi or like not really having much time for video games anymore. Btw I'm at dinner with my boys right now so shoutout to M-Diddy and Imaderp4. Yeah that's all I got to say right now, it's really cold outside lol, peace out.
Hey friends, writing this post on the go so sorry if it's shorter than the norm lol. But uh just thought I'd hit y'all with a quick update on life and school and such even though I've been kinda doing so sporadically. Today was my last class of the week so I'm just chilling right now. It's looking to pick us pretty fast cuz I got my seminars coming up. This semester also looks to go by faster too because it's only like 12 weeks whereas September to December was 16 weeks. It's pretty crazy to think I'll be graduating again in 12 weeks...saying it like that makes it seem faster than saying 3 months. I'm pretty excited for summer because there's a lot going on...I might go on vacay with my fam, my friends wanna go on vacay, my home church is starting a softball team and of course there's job hunting. My boy just turned 25 last week and realizing I'm turning 25 soon is making me feel like an adult more than it ever has. Just little things like not being able to eat as much at all you can eat sushi or like not really having much time for video games anymore. Btw I'm at dinner with my boys right now so shoutout to M-Diddy and Imaderp4. Yeah that's all I got to say right now, it's really cold outside lol, peace out.
Wednesday, January 11, 2017
My Experiences As A Teacher
Day 11/31
So a couple of things to talk about before we get to today's post. One being...yeah this whole like posting everyday...is a bit weird. I feel like posting everyday devalues the posts, makes them less special, sometimes even boring because people can pick and choose which ones to read. But hey, maybe that's just me. It's like when shoe brands release only a limited number amount of a certain shoe, it automatically makes it more special and exclusive than if it were sold everywhere from Footlocker to Walmart, but that's just me. There's also the added pressure of having to put out something everyday and sometimes I just got no content lol or I'm not in the mood. Anyways, moving on but also kinda continuing from what we were talking about yesterday. School's been tiring...but good...like I've been getting a lot of my marks back from all the things I handed in before the break and I'm doing...surprisingly well...well not surprisingly because I've been working my butt off...but I'm used to seeing like C's and D's y'feel? So seeing A's and B's...despite being a welcomed change...is not only new, but weird...LOOOL.
Anyways. so I thought I'd share with y'all my experiences as a teaching assistant/teacher. For those who don't know...from like September to February of 2015-2016, I helped out my old elementary school teacher at the new school he teaches at. But instead of just like giving me mindless tasks to do..he actually let me teach whole classes and lessons LOOOL. I remember just like sitting around when our class had like music or something, so him and I would be sitting around like marking for example and we'd just be talking about life, family and stuff...like he shared with me some of his personal struggles and it was crazy considering this man taught and coached me for the better part of elementary school. I remember marking some math tests and giving it back to him and he goes WOW...you're an easy marker, I would never give those marks...I started laughing, I was like oh true...did you want me to change it and he started laughing he's like nah do your thing LOOL. He's like wow they would love you, you're such an easy marker lol. I guess that was pretty true, like sometimes the kids would leave answers blank or write very little and I'd somehow try to justify giving them like part marks or something and he's like bruh...just give them zero, there's nothing there LOOOL. Writing comments was also fun too cuz I'd be like...why'd you leave this blank or like your writing is very messy and hard to read LOL. Some answers were super dumb I sometimes wanted to write things like "bruh" or "are you serious..." LOOOL. He was like don't be afraid to write things like oh that was funny or oh I liked that. So I rolled with it, there was this one funny answer and I was like wow, that really made me lol....yeah I actually wrote "lol". It was super dope talking to kids on a personal level...whether at lunch they'd ask me all these questions about my life...or if they stayed inside I'd be like well why're you not outside for recess? And obviously there are some kids who you just naturally click with and I guess "like" better than others. Like for me, it had to be the sporty kids or the kids who talked in class...like if you don't talk, how can I gel with you. I remember playing basketball with this one kid and like we were talking trash to each other the whole time and the other teacher supervising in the gym with me was like wtf...LOOOL. The really encouraging and enjoyable times tho were when the kids would come to me and my teacher for advice...with life troubles and stuff, it was dope and it really pushed the fact that I love working with kids/being a teacher. I was there so often it got to a point where my teacher just let me run every single gym class and most english classes, he would just give me an outline of what we're doing and he's like yeah just run with it man, the fact that he trusted me so much was super dope. He even made me rap on multiple occasions for a couple of classes lol, one kid was like yo you sound like Eminem LOL. It was dope having a homeroom, seeing the same kids over and over, you bond with them, they get to know you on a deeper level. Then came things like extra curriculars, I got to help coach volleyball and basketball and he introduced me to the teacher leading the poetry club and I helped them out with that stuff because he told them I was a "rapper" LOOOL. Now whenever I go back and visit it's so jokes cuz they\re all like oh hey Mr. Tham, long time no see haha. It was hilarious cuz for the longest time they'd alternate with calling me Rodmond and Mr. Tham cuz my teacher kept doing so...till one day he called me Rodmond and he was like shoot, I mean Mr. Tham, I'll call you that from now on LOOOL. Man, that was definitely a real fun experience and something I could possibly get used to...not teaching like math and geography and that kinda stuff, cuz I know nothing about it....but like...teaching...hmmm, I guess I have a lot of thinking and decision making to do.
So a couple of things to talk about before we get to today's post. One being...yeah this whole like posting everyday...is a bit weird. I feel like posting everyday devalues the posts, makes them less special, sometimes even boring because people can pick and choose which ones to read. But hey, maybe that's just me. It's like when shoe brands release only a limited number amount of a certain shoe, it automatically makes it more special and exclusive than if it were sold everywhere from Footlocker to Walmart, but that's just me. There's also the added pressure of having to put out something everyday and sometimes I just got no content lol or I'm not in the mood. Anyways, moving on but also kinda continuing from what we were talking about yesterday. School's been tiring...but good...like I've been getting a lot of my marks back from all the things I handed in before the break and I'm doing...surprisingly well...well not surprisingly because I've been working my butt off...but I'm used to seeing like C's and D's y'feel? So seeing A's and B's...despite being a welcomed change...is not only new, but weird...LOOOL.
Anyways. so I thought I'd share with y'all my experiences as a teaching assistant/teacher. For those who don't know...from like September to February of 2015-2016, I helped out my old elementary school teacher at the new school he teaches at. But instead of just like giving me mindless tasks to do..he actually let me teach whole classes and lessons LOOOL. I remember just like sitting around when our class had like music or something, so him and I would be sitting around like marking for example and we'd just be talking about life, family and stuff...like he shared with me some of his personal struggles and it was crazy considering this man taught and coached me for the better part of elementary school. I remember marking some math tests and giving it back to him and he goes WOW...you're an easy marker, I would never give those marks...I started laughing, I was like oh true...did you want me to change it and he started laughing he's like nah do your thing LOOL. He's like wow they would love you, you're such an easy marker lol. I guess that was pretty true, like sometimes the kids would leave answers blank or write very little and I'd somehow try to justify giving them like part marks or something and he's like bruh...just give them zero, there's nothing there LOOOL. Writing comments was also fun too cuz I'd be like...why'd you leave this blank or like your writing is very messy and hard to read LOL. Some answers were super dumb I sometimes wanted to write things like "bruh" or "are you serious..." LOOOL. He was like don't be afraid to write things like oh that was funny or oh I liked that. So I rolled with it, there was this one funny answer and I was like wow, that really made me lol....yeah I actually wrote "lol". It was super dope talking to kids on a personal level...whether at lunch they'd ask me all these questions about my life...or if they stayed inside I'd be like well why're you not outside for recess? And obviously there are some kids who you just naturally click with and I guess "like" better than others. Like for me, it had to be the sporty kids or the kids who talked in class...like if you don't talk, how can I gel with you. I remember playing basketball with this one kid and like we were talking trash to each other the whole time and the other teacher supervising in the gym with me was like wtf...LOOOL. The really encouraging and enjoyable times tho were when the kids would come to me and my teacher for advice...with life troubles and stuff, it was dope and it really pushed the fact that I love working with kids/being a teacher. I was there so often it got to a point where my teacher just let me run every single gym class and most english classes, he would just give me an outline of what we're doing and he's like yeah just run with it man, the fact that he trusted me so much was super dope. He even made me rap on multiple occasions for a couple of classes lol, one kid was like yo you sound like Eminem LOL. It was dope having a homeroom, seeing the same kids over and over, you bond with them, they get to know you on a deeper level. Then came things like extra curriculars, I got to help coach volleyball and basketball and he introduced me to the teacher leading the poetry club and I helped them out with that stuff because he told them I was a "rapper" LOOOL. Now whenever I go back and visit it's so jokes cuz they\re all like oh hey Mr. Tham, long time no see haha. It was hilarious cuz for the longest time they'd alternate with calling me Rodmond and Mr. Tham cuz my teacher kept doing so...till one day he called me Rodmond and he was like shoot, I mean Mr. Tham, I'll call you that from now on LOOOL. Man, that was definitely a real fun experience and something I could possibly get used to...not teaching like math and geography and that kinda stuff, cuz I know nothing about it....but like...teaching...hmmm, I guess I have a lot of thinking and decision making to do.
Tuesday, January 10, 2017
What Am I Doing With My Life?
Day 10/31
Man, so it's only the second day back to school and I'm...well I'm def not feeling it. I'm like 70% in holiday mode still. Gotta get back to the grind, I have to do seminars for 3 of my classes this semester and I signed up for 2 of them early in the semester, like January so I can get them over with...but they're coming up so I gotta get to that real soon. So this morning it was snowing like crazy and I was very tempted not to go to school...but I did lol. I was debating between going to my usual bus stop at Centennial versus going to the Y. I was leaning towards the Y but decided to go to Centennial, I went to the garage to park and it was full...so had to book it to the Y asap in order to catch the bus and not be late for class. I get to the Y and it's hella full and I'm struggling to find parking spaces. Just a bunch of half spaces cuz a bunch of dumb drivers take up 2 spots...I eventually find this kinda small space and decide to try to fit and I do but I'm like hella close lol, thought I missed the bus already, but saw a huge line and I was like oh shoot, guess I didn't miss it and didn't have to stand either thankfully.
So anyways...the questions that the title poses...what am I doing with my life? I feel like a lot of people have been asking me that or I've been hearing a lot of people ask themselves that. It's a good question to ask yourself...it forces you to have a general plan of some sort. Y'all know that I wanna be a teacher...and I'm in school right now for one year for another degree even though I just graduated. I'm doing well, it's tough, it's hard work, I'm not sleeping very much and I'm drinking more coffee/caffeine than I ever thought I would have, but I'm doing well and I'm managing, somewhat. The biggest question I've been asking myself is what do I want to do after school? I feel like the answer keeps changing. When I was applying to come back to school after graduating, I was like alright...after graduating, if I get the marks, I wanna go to teacher's college. But when I started school in September, I was really regretting it and was wishing I was working instead. Then halfway through first semester when I started to get used to the grind and noticed I was doing well, I was like wow, teacher's college is seeming like a real viable option after graduation. But now...it's like a complete 180 and my mind is somewhat leaning towards working again. Like I've been in university, in York...since like 2010 fam....this is essentially my 7th year in university (long story, if you know you know). If I graduate and hypothetically get into teacher's college and I go...that'll be another 2 years of school...like part of me is already so sick and tired of school, the homework, the studying, the readings, all of it. And I just don't know if I wanna do another 2 years of school right away...that'll be 9 straight years of university, 9 straight years at York and I just don't know if that's what I want right now. I don't even know when teacher's applications are due, I'm sure it's soon, my boy said it might've passed already...but I'm kinda just going with the flow...like I usually do and seeing what happens. Like if I miss the deadline, maybe it's a sign that I should work for a year and see how it goes. But my mom was like if you work are you sure you're going to wanna go back to school? That's something my friends have told me as well...and I don't know to be honest, it would definitely depend on the job that I get. The last kinda thing I've been stuck on is whether I truly wanna be a teacher...meaning the marking, teaching lessons, the kids, etc. Whether I truly enjoy ALL aspects of teaching...or whether it's just being around kids that I truly enjoy because if it's just being around kids, then that opens so many other doors for jobs for me...and it would mean I wouldn't even need to go to teacher's college. So I dunno, I'm definitely struggling a lot right now with all the above...and I don't really know what to do.
God, you already know what's going to happen, you already know how it's all going to unfold. And I'm just asking for the strength to keep moving forward...and the faith to trust you in every circumstance...even when things seem cloudy, confusing and unsure...give me the strength on my own two feet God. I've gotten this far and I know it's all by your grace and love...I know you'll continue to walk with me, making sure that despite twists and turns, I get to the finish line.
Man, so it's only the second day back to school and I'm...well I'm def not feeling it. I'm like 70% in holiday mode still. Gotta get back to the grind, I have to do seminars for 3 of my classes this semester and I signed up for 2 of them early in the semester, like January so I can get them over with...but they're coming up so I gotta get to that real soon. So this morning it was snowing like crazy and I was very tempted not to go to school...but I did lol. I was debating between going to my usual bus stop at Centennial versus going to the Y. I was leaning towards the Y but decided to go to Centennial, I went to the garage to park and it was full...so had to book it to the Y asap in order to catch the bus and not be late for class. I get to the Y and it's hella full and I'm struggling to find parking spaces. Just a bunch of half spaces cuz a bunch of dumb drivers take up 2 spots...I eventually find this kinda small space and decide to try to fit and I do but I'm like hella close lol, thought I missed the bus already, but saw a huge line and I was like oh shoot, guess I didn't miss it and didn't have to stand either thankfully.
So anyways...the questions that the title poses...what am I doing with my life? I feel like a lot of people have been asking me that or I've been hearing a lot of people ask themselves that. It's a good question to ask yourself...it forces you to have a general plan of some sort. Y'all know that I wanna be a teacher...and I'm in school right now for one year for another degree even though I just graduated. I'm doing well, it's tough, it's hard work, I'm not sleeping very much and I'm drinking more coffee/caffeine than I ever thought I would have, but I'm doing well and I'm managing, somewhat. The biggest question I've been asking myself is what do I want to do after school? I feel like the answer keeps changing. When I was applying to come back to school after graduating, I was like alright...after graduating, if I get the marks, I wanna go to teacher's college. But when I started school in September, I was really regretting it and was wishing I was working instead. Then halfway through first semester when I started to get used to the grind and noticed I was doing well, I was like wow, teacher's college is seeming like a real viable option after graduation. But now...it's like a complete 180 and my mind is somewhat leaning towards working again. Like I've been in university, in York...since like 2010 fam....this is essentially my 7th year in university (long story, if you know you know). If I graduate and hypothetically get into teacher's college and I go...that'll be another 2 years of school...like part of me is already so sick and tired of school, the homework, the studying, the readings, all of it. And I just don't know if I wanna do another 2 years of school right away...that'll be 9 straight years of university, 9 straight years at York and I just don't know if that's what I want right now. I don't even know when teacher's applications are due, I'm sure it's soon, my boy said it might've passed already...but I'm kinda just going with the flow...like I usually do and seeing what happens. Like if I miss the deadline, maybe it's a sign that I should work for a year and see how it goes. But my mom was like if you work are you sure you're going to wanna go back to school? That's something my friends have told me as well...and I don't know to be honest, it would definitely depend on the job that I get. The last kinda thing I've been stuck on is whether I truly wanna be a teacher...meaning the marking, teaching lessons, the kids, etc. Whether I truly enjoy ALL aspects of teaching...or whether it's just being around kids that I truly enjoy because if it's just being around kids, then that opens so many other doors for jobs for me...and it would mean I wouldn't even need to go to teacher's college. So I dunno, I'm definitely struggling a lot right now with all the above...and I don't really know what to do.
God, you already know what's going to happen, you already know how it's all going to unfold. And I'm just asking for the strength to keep moving forward...and the faith to trust you in every circumstance...even when things seem cloudy, confusing and unsure...give me the strength on my own two feet God. I've gotten this far and I know it's all by your grace and love...I know you'll continue to walk with me, making sure that despite twists and turns, I get to the finish line.
Monday, January 09, 2017
Texting Etiquette
Day 9/31
Hey y'all, so really random...well not really, so usually when I go out, my parents...moreso my dad will always ask oh, so who're you going with....my answer is usually "church friends" because it makes my life easier. I'll say church friends,even though I'm not going with church friends, not cuz I wanna lie or have stuff to hide, but it's that they ask so many questions when I say other people y'feel. So I went out a couple of days ago for my boy's birthday and I told my dad and he's like oh who're you going with and I said my boy's name and I was like yeah it's his birthday, he's like oh okay. He comes back into my room like 2 minutes later and he goes you're not going drinking are you? I'm just like what? He's like don't go drinking...I'm like bruh...when do I ever go drinking, when do I ever drink at all? Like this is why I just say church friends, because it makes my life easier.
So moving on...I think texting/messaging etiquette is really important. I think for the most part...I'm pretty well versed, tho I have my moments where I slip up like forget to respond or respond late. Buy yo...some people are so bad at texting/messaging that it literally makes you not wanna message them at all, y'feel? My ex used to take like DAYS to respond...like days? You might as well just write and mail me a letter instead. I had this other friend who would take forever to reply too. One day I like was looking at her phone and I was like bruh why do you have 70 unread messages, she's like ooh yeah people text me and I just don't reply...I'm like but whyyyyyyy. Like I'm not saying I'm faultless, there are sometimes where I genuinely forget to reply, but it's very rare that I'll take more than a day to reply to a text. When I was a younger, I hated playing games...as in like (and girls really love doing this) counting how long that person took to reply to you and taking the same amount of time or longer to reply to them...like I've gotten used to this game now that I'm older, but I don't particularly enjoy it you know lol, that's childish. I think that's a major reason that I prefer face to face interaction...I absolutely hate phone calls lol...I don't know why, it's just weird to me, and I feel obligated to give the person my full attention, so I'm just sitting there staring aimlessly while on the phone. But yeah, I dunno...just little things that annoy me, but it makes me...or it makes people not wanna message you when you do things like that you know.
Hey y'all, so really random...well not really, so usually when I go out, my parents...moreso my dad will always ask oh, so who're you going with....my answer is usually "church friends" because it makes my life easier. I'll say church friends,even though I'm not going with church friends, not cuz I wanna lie or have stuff to hide, but it's that they ask so many questions when I say other people y'feel. So I went out a couple of days ago for my boy's birthday and I told my dad and he's like oh who're you going with and I said my boy's name and I was like yeah it's his birthday, he's like oh okay. He comes back into my room like 2 minutes later and he goes you're not going drinking are you? I'm just like what? He's like don't go drinking...I'm like bruh...when do I ever go drinking, when do I ever drink at all? Like this is why I just say church friends, because it makes my life easier.
So moving on...I think texting/messaging etiquette is really important. I think for the most part...I'm pretty well versed, tho I have my moments where I slip up like forget to respond or respond late. Buy yo...some people are so bad at texting/messaging that it literally makes you not wanna message them at all, y'feel? My ex used to take like DAYS to respond...like days? You might as well just write and mail me a letter instead. I had this other friend who would take forever to reply too. One day I like was looking at her phone and I was like bruh why do you have 70 unread messages, she's like ooh yeah people text me and I just don't reply...I'm like but whyyyyyyy. Like I'm not saying I'm faultless, there are sometimes where I genuinely forget to reply, but it's very rare that I'll take more than a day to reply to a text. When I was a younger, I hated playing games...as in like (and girls really love doing this) counting how long that person took to reply to you and taking the same amount of time or longer to reply to them...like I've gotten used to this game now that I'm older, but I don't particularly enjoy it you know lol, that's childish. I think that's a major reason that I prefer face to face interaction...I absolutely hate phone calls lol...I don't know why, it's just weird to me, and I feel obligated to give the person my full attention, so I'm just sitting there staring aimlessly while on the phone. But yeah, I dunno...just little things that annoy me, but it makes me...or it makes people not wanna message you when you do things like that you know.
Sunday, January 08, 2017
I Wanna Know You
Day 8/31
Sorry again folks, feeling hella lazy, in a rush as well. Here's something I wrote in 2011. Before the blog was poppin'...I wrote A LOT of stuff and posted it all on facebook, I've been rereading a lot of them lately and it's just dope to see how much I've grown and changed in so many aspects. This is something that stuck out to me and thought I'd share with y'all. Trust me when I say I know the majority of my old stuff is all like love/relationship based. It's funny cuz I can remember the exact thoughts in my head and how I envisioned it flowing as I was rereading it lol, enjoy.
I wanna know you like the back of my hand
I wanna be your support when your feet won’t let you stand
I wanna know you like the shirt I have on my back
I wanna be your shield whenever you feel under attack
I wanna know you like my first and last name
I wanna be your umbrella to shelter you from the rain
I wanna know you like the shoes on my feet
I wanna be the words you say when your lips cannot speak
I wanna know you like this pen in my hand
I wanna surrender to your one and every single demand
I wanna know you like the hair on my head
I wanna hold to heart every single word to me you said
I wanna know you like Dr. Seuss knows rhymes
I wanna relive the time we met about a few dozen times
I wanna know you like we’ve grown old together
I wanna whisper in your sleep that you make me so much better
I wanna know you like I know my own self
I wanna sacrifice my own well being for your health
I wanna know you from the inside out
I wanna know anything and everything you’re about
RT
Sorry again folks, feeling hella lazy, in a rush as well. Here's something I wrote in 2011. Before the blog was poppin'...I wrote A LOT of stuff and posted it all on facebook, I've been rereading a lot of them lately and it's just dope to see how much I've grown and changed in so many aspects. This is something that stuck out to me and thought I'd share with y'all. Trust me when I say I know the majority of my old stuff is all like love/relationship based. It's funny cuz I can remember the exact thoughts in my head and how I envisioned it flowing as I was rereading it lol, enjoy.
I wanna know you like the back of my hand
I wanna be your support when your feet won’t let you stand
I wanna know you like the shirt I have on my back
I wanna be your shield whenever you feel under attack
I wanna know you like my first and last name
I wanna be your umbrella to shelter you from the rain
I wanna know you like the shoes on my feet
I wanna be the words you say when your lips cannot speak
I wanna know you like this pen in my hand
I wanna surrender to your one and every single demand
I wanna know you like the hair on my head
I wanna hold to heart every single word to me you said
I wanna know you like Dr. Seuss knows rhymes
I wanna relive the time we met about a few dozen times
I wanna know you like we’ve grown old together
I wanna whisper in your sleep that you make me so much better
I wanna know you like I know my own self
I wanna sacrifice my own well being for your health
I wanna know you from the inside out
I wanna know anything and everything you’re about
RT
Saturday, January 07, 2017
Does Knowledge Determine Success?
Day 7/31
HEY HEY KIDS, sorry I was just watching The Simpsons. Anyways...moving on lol, this post is gonna be pretty subjective, cuz it can differ to each individual. Everyone's gonna have a different definition of success...is it being rich, getting your dream job, being good at your job, being happy, etc. I feel like when I'm passionate about something or I really like/enjoy it, I take it very seriously and it makes me mad/annoyed when people take it for granted or don't do a good job you know, obviously I'm sounding kinda harsh, which to an extent I am, but here me out. I used to get really mad at my friend when we played NBA 2k cuz he would always ask to play, but after a while he'd be like oh whatever, I'm gonna lose anyways, I'm just not gonna try, and I'd get annoyed and tell him like damn...if you go into life, a test, an interview with that mentality...you've sussed yourself, like just because I'm good at the videogame doesn't mean you can't beat me, which he had done on multiple occasions, but his mentality never really changed. I'm the same in actual basketball too, I get mad at dudes who mess around and goof off or don't take it seriously when we're playing an actual game. If we're just shooting around, do whatever the heck you want, but if it's a game and your'e on my team...don't mess around. There's a big difference between being not good at something but you're trying versus not being good and something and not caring. So there's this girl in one of my seminars who's a real keener...she the type of girl who remind the teacher that we had homework...nuff said. So one day we're all talking in class and she goes yeah I'm not good at public speaking but I need to be if I wanna be a teacher. The thing is she's hella smart and she's probably gonna get anything that she wants or puts her mind do, but does that mean she's going to be a good teacher? Just seeing the way she interacts in class, with classmates and our prof has me like I wonder if she would make a good teacher, I wonder if she'd be able to communicate well with the kids. Like 90% of the job is the kids. When you're a student, you always say things like oh they're a bad teacher, they don't know how to teach, bur when you're at that age...a lot of that is unwarranted because you don't know that teacher, what they're about and stuff. But now that I've had firsthand experience as a teacher and worked as a co worker with fellows teachers...I can fully say there definitely is such a thing as bad teachers, teacher's who just aren't good at their job AND/OR don't care...and that's a piss off/really sad to see. Like genuinely lazy teachers who don't care about their job and more importantly the kids. They spend more time complaining about their job than actually doing it...it's frustrating to see. It sucks knowing and potentially being someone who is good at a specific job but not having the opportunity to prove it or show it you know. I dunno, that's just kinda what I wanted to say...I know it's long, and maybe even all over the place lol, sorry...see y'all tomorrow tho.
HEY HEY KIDS, sorry I was just watching The Simpsons. Anyways...moving on lol, this post is gonna be pretty subjective, cuz it can differ to each individual. Everyone's gonna have a different definition of success...is it being rich, getting your dream job, being good at your job, being happy, etc. I feel like when I'm passionate about something or I really like/enjoy it, I take it very seriously and it makes me mad/annoyed when people take it for granted or don't do a good job you know, obviously I'm sounding kinda harsh, which to an extent I am, but here me out. I used to get really mad at my friend when we played NBA 2k cuz he would always ask to play, but after a while he'd be like oh whatever, I'm gonna lose anyways, I'm just not gonna try, and I'd get annoyed and tell him like damn...if you go into life, a test, an interview with that mentality...you've sussed yourself, like just because I'm good at the videogame doesn't mean you can't beat me, which he had done on multiple occasions, but his mentality never really changed. I'm the same in actual basketball too, I get mad at dudes who mess around and goof off or don't take it seriously when we're playing an actual game. If we're just shooting around, do whatever the heck you want, but if it's a game and your'e on my team...don't mess around. There's a big difference between being not good at something but you're trying versus not being good and something and not caring. So there's this girl in one of my seminars who's a real keener...she the type of girl who remind the teacher that we had homework...nuff said. So one day we're all talking in class and she goes yeah I'm not good at public speaking but I need to be if I wanna be a teacher. The thing is she's hella smart and she's probably gonna get anything that she wants or puts her mind do, but does that mean she's going to be a good teacher? Just seeing the way she interacts in class, with classmates and our prof has me like I wonder if she would make a good teacher, I wonder if she'd be able to communicate well with the kids. Like 90% of the job is the kids. When you're a student, you always say things like oh they're a bad teacher, they don't know how to teach, bur when you're at that age...a lot of that is unwarranted because you don't know that teacher, what they're about and stuff. But now that I've had firsthand experience as a teacher and worked as a co worker with fellows teachers...I can fully say there definitely is such a thing as bad teachers, teacher's who just aren't good at their job AND/OR don't care...and that's a piss off/really sad to see. Like genuinely lazy teachers who don't care about their job and more importantly the kids. They spend more time complaining about their job than actually doing it...it's frustrating to see. It sucks knowing and potentially being someone who is good at a specific job but not having the opportunity to prove it or show it you know. I dunno, that's just kinda what I wanted to say...I know it's long, and maybe even all over the place lol, sorry...see y'all tomorrow tho.
Friday, January 06, 2017
New Phone, Who Dis
Day 6/31
Really random, but I find that whenever I blog, I can't be doing anything else. For example, I was listening to music then I was like alright let's get started on this blog post...then I was like dang I can't concentrate and had to turn of the music lol. But anyways...I didn't get a new phone, don't worry. But when people get new phones, it's like oh who are you or oh who's this, it's a good chance to declutter in a sense and like people that didn't already have your number...well you probably don't talk to them enough anyways for you to warrant giving them your number again or for them to wanna ask anyways. So I remember a long time ago...like I wanna say a couple of years ago, my boy was like yeah so I bumped into this girl that we went to high school with and we got into the usual casual conversation and my boy mentioned yeah I still chill with Rodmond or this person and I still see this person and such. And she was like wow...you really don't know how to move on do you/wow you haven't moved on eh? And when I was talking with my boy and he told me she said that I was like what? So once you graduate high school, you're supposed to 'move on' and dump all your friends...that's essentially what she was saying when she was like wow you really don't know how to move on do you. How does that make any sense in the world. With that logic, every time you graduate or move to a new job or location, it's like alright peace, time to drop everything I knew and start fresh, like what. Does that logic make sense to you? I completely get moving on and moving forward in life...but that's like completely starting a new race y'feel? So my boys and I were talking like a month ago and it was like oh remember this dude, oh remember this girl and such. So I was bored and decided to search her up on facebook and I saw she had created a new facebook and we only had like a few mutual friends, meaning she didn't bother readding all of her high school friends, only a couple. I'll never understand that whole starting new or starting fresh kinda thing you know. Like I know of people who've had really bad high school experiences and they want nothing to do with it...but like dang. That's next level, to like try to create for yourself a 'new' identity or 'new' life so no one can see how you're doing or what you've been up to and essentially cut all ties with your former self and friends. Which I guess can kinda lead me to something that just ran through my head...and it's this idea that some people can be so quick to pick up and pack their bags and move somewhere really far or just away from everything they once knew you know. Like bruh, I can't ever imagine leaving my family or my friends behind and having to make new...everything. Even going away for university is something that I hardly considered you know. Like I applied to 5 universities, but I was like 140% sure I was going tog et into my top choice which was close to home...the other 4 were interestingly enough not just far but HELLA far. But realistically, I knew deep down I was never gonna go away for university...I'd be leaving too much behind, even tho it wouldn't be 'forever'. I dunno, are you like that? After high school...or after university...you kinda are like PEACE OUT to everybody and go about making new friends and such.
Really random, but I find that whenever I blog, I can't be doing anything else. For example, I was listening to music then I was like alright let's get started on this blog post...then I was like dang I can't concentrate and had to turn of the music lol. But anyways...I didn't get a new phone, don't worry. But when people get new phones, it's like oh who are you or oh who's this, it's a good chance to declutter in a sense and like people that didn't already have your number...well you probably don't talk to them enough anyways for you to warrant giving them your number again or for them to wanna ask anyways. So I remember a long time ago...like I wanna say a couple of years ago, my boy was like yeah so I bumped into this girl that we went to high school with and we got into the usual casual conversation and my boy mentioned yeah I still chill with Rodmond or this person and I still see this person and such. And she was like wow...you really don't know how to move on do you/wow you haven't moved on eh? And when I was talking with my boy and he told me she said that I was like what? So once you graduate high school, you're supposed to 'move on' and dump all your friends...that's essentially what she was saying when she was like wow you really don't know how to move on do you. How does that make any sense in the world. With that logic, every time you graduate or move to a new job or location, it's like alright peace, time to drop everything I knew and start fresh, like what. Does that logic make sense to you? I completely get moving on and moving forward in life...but that's like completely starting a new race y'feel? So my boys and I were talking like a month ago and it was like oh remember this dude, oh remember this girl and such. So I was bored and decided to search her up on facebook and I saw she had created a new facebook and we only had like a few mutual friends, meaning she didn't bother readding all of her high school friends, only a couple. I'll never understand that whole starting new or starting fresh kinda thing you know. Like I know of people who've had really bad high school experiences and they want nothing to do with it...but like dang. That's next level, to like try to create for yourself a 'new' identity or 'new' life so no one can see how you're doing or what you've been up to and essentially cut all ties with your former self and friends. Which I guess can kinda lead me to something that just ran through my head...and it's this idea that some people can be so quick to pick up and pack their bags and move somewhere really far or just away from everything they once knew you know. Like bruh, I can't ever imagine leaving my family or my friends behind and having to make new...everything. Even going away for university is something that I hardly considered you know. Like I applied to 5 universities, but I was like 140% sure I was going tog et into my top choice which was close to home...the other 4 were interestingly enough not just far but HELLA far. But realistically, I knew deep down I was never gonna go away for university...I'd be leaving too much behind, even tho it wouldn't be 'forever'. I dunno, are you like that? After high school...or after university...you kinda are like PEACE OUT to everybody and go about making new friends and such.
Thursday, January 05, 2017
The Other Guy
Day 5/31
HEY Y'ALL...feeling hella lazy right now, sorry about that, but uh here's an oldie but a goodie...dedicated to my boy with them girl problems right now...LOOOL, this is for you...
Written on March 11, 2011
HEY Y'ALL...feeling hella lazy right now, sorry about that, but uh here's an oldie but a goodie...dedicated to my boy with them girl problems right now...LOOOL, this is for you...
Written on March 11, 2011
You deserve better but you choose to settle for less
You choose to deal with the pain, heartache and the stress
You know he's not right for you, yet you still choose to stay
You're telling me you're all good when I know you're not okay
You're telling me you love him when he hurts you every time
I wanna hold you close but I gotta stay behind the friend line
You tell me that he loves you but I hardly see him show it
I've told you that his words are empty and deep down you know it
What does he have over you, that keeps you coming back
You're a smart girl, you should know his charm is just an act
I see you sad and hurting more than I see you with a smile
He hurts you then he says he loves you, yeah I know his style
He's rude to you, saying things a boyfriend never should
Making empty promises saying he wishes that he could
Nice guys finish last, I'm at the end of the pack
But slow and steady wins the race so you can bet that I'll be back
You choose to deal with the pain, heartache and the stress
You know he's not right for you, yet you still choose to stay
You're telling me you're all good when I know you're not okay
You're telling me you love him when he hurts you every time
I wanna hold you close but I gotta stay behind the friend line
You tell me that he loves you but I hardly see him show it
I've told you that his words are empty and deep down you know it
What does he have over you, that keeps you coming back
You're a smart girl, you should know his charm is just an act
I see you sad and hurting more than I see you with a smile
He hurts you then he says he loves you, yeah I know his style
He's rude to you, saying things a boyfriend never should
Making empty promises saying he wishes that he could
Nice guys finish last, I'm at the end of the pack
But slow and steady wins the race so you can bet that I'll be back
Wednesday, January 04, 2017
Back To Life, Back To Reality
Day 4/31
So I'm going back to school tomorrow, it feels weird...going for one day of class, then having Friday off, then 'officially' going back to school on Monday. Why do I start on a Thursday you ask...I'm not sure. At first I was like, yeah I'm probably not gonna go, there's like 12 people in class, who's actually gonna go, really hoping there's gonna be a decent amount of people in class and it's not like 5 people sitting in a 3 hour seminar. But yeah, it feels weird, considering I'm still in holiday mode, sleeping at like 2-3 am, waking up at like 1-2 pm...good thing my class tomorrow isn't till 2:30, so I guess I don't officially have to get back into school grind until Monday. But yeah, 3 more months of grinding...then...graduation, part 2...LOL. It's jokes cuz I went to dinner with my dad like I told y'all and I was like so dad...I'm graduating this year, again...but I don't think I'm gonna go to graduation, like I've already been, the moment and excitement is kinda dead. And he was like bruhhhh, why not...he's like yo, if I won a championship or something, I'd wanna claim the prize every single time no matter how repetitive it was. I was like yeah but it's not a championship fam LOOOL. Long story short, I'm going to graduation again LOOOL...just for my parents this time. Haven't told many people, but I've been heavily leaning towards working for a year after graduating instead of going to teacher's college. It's just this whole idea of being in universty for what feels like and is almost a decade. Don't get me wrong, I'm still gonna apply, but...whether I go is still up in the air. My boy was saying I might have even missed the deadline already to apply, so I gotta figure that out when I go back to school...if I've already missed the deadline...maybe it's a sign then. I'm literally just going with the flow and taking what's given to me as it comes...taking it one step at a time and trusting God to lead the way.
So I'm going back to school tomorrow, it feels weird...going for one day of class, then having Friday off, then 'officially' going back to school on Monday. Why do I start on a Thursday you ask...I'm not sure. At first I was like, yeah I'm probably not gonna go, there's like 12 people in class, who's actually gonna go, really hoping there's gonna be a decent amount of people in class and it's not like 5 people sitting in a 3 hour seminar. But yeah, it feels weird, considering I'm still in holiday mode, sleeping at like 2-3 am, waking up at like 1-2 pm...good thing my class tomorrow isn't till 2:30, so I guess I don't officially have to get back into school grind until Monday. But yeah, 3 more months of grinding...then...graduation, part 2...LOL. It's jokes cuz I went to dinner with my dad like I told y'all and I was like so dad...I'm graduating this year, again...but I don't think I'm gonna go to graduation, like I've already been, the moment and excitement is kinda dead. And he was like bruhhhh, why not...he's like yo, if I won a championship or something, I'd wanna claim the prize every single time no matter how repetitive it was. I was like yeah but it's not a championship fam LOOOL. Long story short, I'm going to graduation again LOOOL...just for my parents this time. Haven't told many people, but I've been heavily leaning towards working for a year after graduating instead of going to teacher's college. It's just this whole idea of being in universty for what feels like and is almost a decade. Don't get me wrong, I'm still gonna apply, but...whether I go is still up in the air. My boy was saying I might have even missed the deadline already to apply, so I gotta figure that out when I go back to school...if I've already missed the deadline...maybe it's a sign then. I'm literally just going with the flow and taking what's given to me as it comes...taking it one step at a time and trusting God to lead the way.
Tuesday, January 03, 2017
How We Met #3: My First Friends At Church
Day 3/31
How We Met #1: My First Girlfriend
How We Met #2: My Rival
Hey boys and girls...woah, that sounds weird, my bad...sounds like I'm getting ready for story time with some 10 year olds or something lol. So I'm pretty sure I've told this story...well at least PART of it to many people, so if you've heard the first part many times, I apologize, but there is definitely more to the story. So if you know me, you'll know the current church I go to, well I've been there since it was built...like probably since I was in like grade 7-8 y'feel. So I've known and grown up with a lot of the people at church, it's crazy. So this first part revolves around the first person I ever became friends with at church and the second part revolves around the first group of friends that I met at church.
So this dude...is my day 1 homie...since...well what feels like forever. So when I first came to this church, we weren't in a church, the building wasn't built yet, we were in a school. I had always gone to church on Sundays, but it was like go and come home, no new friends kinda ting...like I was new, I wasn't too social (I'm still not really) and I didn't really take my faith too seriously. My parents got to talking to some of the pastors and counselors and they were like hey, your son should go to fellowship, there's a bunch of kids his age and he'll meet lots of people, so my parents forcefully made me to go fellowship LOL. I was the kinda kid who would like sit at the back or sit away from people y'feel. So I went to fellowship and I picked like the middle ish row, but sat all the way in the corner away from civilization with my hood up, a CLEAR sign not to bother me. I can't really see my peripheral vision cuz my hood's up, but I hear a voice go "hey what's up?" I look and it's this like hella weird dude with glasses smiling at me like hey are you new and such. In my head I'm like dang, who this boy tryna be all friendly and stuff. Little did I know that dude would pretty much become my best friend at church like a decade or so down the road. We still talk about it to this day lol...we'd eventually go on to play lots of basketball with each other, a lot of video games, and see and go through many struggles with each other. We shared hella common interests like our PSP's, delivering papers, our love for sports and our general quirkiness. I'd go to bat for this dude any day and I'll forever have his back, I got you homie...always.
So moving on to my first 'group' of friends at church...which kinda stems off the first friend I made at church since they were his friends and they were the dudes that he chilled with. But I didn't meet them through him, well kinda. The one standout moment I remember was always seeing them play basketball in the school's gym before fellowship. I remember one Sunday wearing a Tracy McGrady shirt and one of the dudes behind me was like hey, you like basketball? He's like yeah we play on friday's like an hour or two before fellowship...and we kinda just hit it off from there...it was jokes cuz it was mainly 4 dudes whom I first met and chilled with. My first friend, his brother...and then two other guys, who just so happened to be brothers as well lol. Who'd a thought something like basketball would be the factor that would've allowed me to meeting and making my first few friends at church.
Looking back now...to those friends, where we are and how far we've all come and grown, it's surreal. Or even just looking at the friends I have now and how we met...sometimes it's like the oddest of origins...it's pretty funny to look back on. What about you...how did you and some of your closest friends first meet? It's pretty cool and nostalgic to think about. See y'all tomorrow.
How We Met #1: My First Girlfriend
How We Met #2: My Rival
Hey boys and girls...woah, that sounds weird, my bad...sounds like I'm getting ready for story time with some 10 year olds or something lol. So I'm pretty sure I've told this story...well at least PART of it to many people, so if you've heard the first part many times, I apologize, but there is definitely more to the story. So if you know me, you'll know the current church I go to, well I've been there since it was built...like probably since I was in like grade 7-8 y'feel. So I've known and grown up with a lot of the people at church, it's crazy. So this first part revolves around the first person I ever became friends with at church and the second part revolves around the first group of friends that I met at church.
So this dude...is my day 1 homie...since...well what feels like forever. So when I first came to this church, we weren't in a church, the building wasn't built yet, we were in a school. I had always gone to church on Sundays, but it was like go and come home, no new friends kinda ting...like I was new, I wasn't too social (I'm still not really) and I didn't really take my faith too seriously. My parents got to talking to some of the pastors and counselors and they were like hey, your son should go to fellowship, there's a bunch of kids his age and he'll meet lots of people, so my parents forcefully made me to go fellowship LOL. I was the kinda kid who would like sit at the back or sit away from people y'feel. So I went to fellowship and I picked like the middle ish row, but sat all the way in the corner away from civilization with my hood up, a CLEAR sign not to bother me. I can't really see my peripheral vision cuz my hood's up, but I hear a voice go "hey what's up?" I look and it's this like hella weird dude with glasses smiling at me like hey are you new and such. In my head I'm like dang, who this boy tryna be all friendly and stuff. Little did I know that dude would pretty much become my best friend at church like a decade or so down the road. We still talk about it to this day lol...we'd eventually go on to play lots of basketball with each other, a lot of video games, and see and go through many struggles with each other. We shared hella common interests like our PSP's, delivering papers, our love for sports and our general quirkiness. I'd go to bat for this dude any day and I'll forever have his back, I got you homie...always.
So moving on to my first 'group' of friends at church...which kinda stems off the first friend I made at church since they were his friends and they were the dudes that he chilled with. But I didn't meet them through him, well kinda. The one standout moment I remember was always seeing them play basketball in the school's gym before fellowship. I remember one Sunday wearing a Tracy McGrady shirt and one of the dudes behind me was like hey, you like basketball? He's like yeah we play on friday's like an hour or two before fellowship...and we kinda just hit it off from there...it was jokes cuz it was mainly 4 dudes whom I first met and chilled with. My first friend, his brother...and then two other guys, who just so happened to be brothers as well lol. Who'd a thought something like basketball would be the factor that would've allowed me to meeting and making my first few friends at church.
Looking back now...to those friends, where we are and how far we've all come and grown, it's surreal. Or even just looking at the friends I have now and how we met...sometimes it's like the oddest of origins...it's pretty funny to look back on. What about you...how did you and some of your closest friends first meet? It's pretty cool and nostalgic to think about. See y'all tomorrow.
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