From The Heart: God's Plan Part 2

Hey guys...so after school today, I texted my brother if he could drive me and he called me saying he got into an accident and was with my parents. The first thing that crossed my mind was are you okay...the car was in pretty bad shape...the whole left side of the front was like dented...so the whole mood of the house tonight has been pretty down...my brother wasn't hurt luckily...his knee got the full impact but the seatbelt kept him safe, so it's just a bit sore. But this just got me thinking to a lot of things, the future...life in general. How God has a plan for each and every one of us. And I remember this couple at my church sharing one time that they're just newly married like a couple months and it's tough obviously settling down in your own place and stuff...and he said...it's interesting, cuz sometimes it feels God shafts me...he never gives me enough...when the fact is he always gives me JUST enough...just enough to get by...not too much for you to get prideful and too happy, not too little where you can't survive, but JUST enough for you to get by. It made me think about life and my struggles, my obstacles, my problems and how I want answers...God's not going to give me ALL the answers I want and he's not going to make me pass every single test ands obstacle in my life with flying colours...but he isn't also going to leave me dry and completely hanging...he's always by my side, watching me...giving me just what I need and just what I need to hear at that time to get by. It's so humbling to know he is always watching over me and even though I may be struggling in a situation and asking God for more, he has given me enough and I just haven't realized it yet. Another thing that happened tonight is we prayed for my brother, just for his health and stuff...and when my mom prayer, she brought in me...and my skin...for all of you guys who don't know...I have a skin condition called eczema...it's not a disease...it's just a condition...I'm not handicapped or anything. But ever since I was little, my parents have made it one of their biggest goals to quote unquote "cure" me...like this is some sort of disease. I can't tell you how much money we've spent on creams, doctors, specialists, medicines, soups, diets, everything...we've spent boatloads of money on all this stuff...and when I was younger...like elementary/high school...my appearance was all  I cared about...and I was cosigning with my parents that I wanted to "cure" myself...as if once I had clear skin...all of my life's problems would be gone...I would go and get girls, be popular...that bs. But as I've gotten older...I've slowly began to accept it...I've developed great friendships with people who see past the surface and love me for me....for my personality and who I am. Sometimes, it annoys me that my parents think that I'm sad or depressed or something and that I NEED AND WANT to fix my skin...to be completely honest...it's been over 10 years and I'm perfectly fine...I'm growing into a man, my morals and attitudes haven't changed...I'm a humble and growing and imperfect son of God but he still loves me. This "skin condition"...isn't even a big deal to me anymore...if people really want to judge me based on how I look, that's perfectly fine with me...if people want to take the chance and get to know me, that's lovely as well. But all this concern of taking me to more doctors and spending more money and trying all these dumb methods and stuff...really pisses me off sometimes...I've accepted who I am and I literally am happy and comfortable in my own skin...this is who I am...sometimes I think to myself if I looked "normal" as some of you like to say it....would I be the same person? I love who I am, I love who I've become...I've become confident in who I am...relying not on my looks to get me places, but my personality, and who I am on the inside. The quote "don't judge a book by it's cover" can't describe my life any better...but yeah...this post is a real personal one for me...I know that God has a plan for me...God made me the way I am for a purpose and has shaped me and moulded me into who I am today for a purpose...and this "condition" is the least of my worries and isn't even something I'm concerning myself about...I'm leaving everything up to God.