Wasn't Meant To Be

This...is where it all started lol. Funny story behind this poem, which was written in February of 2008. This was I believe where I really started writing, before rapping and stuff...this was where I first started writing. This was about this girl I had the biggest crush on in high school. I was a really shy guy back then, still am sometimes...so I wrote this, told my friend who is pretty popular and likable I'd say to post it on his faecbook cuz I felt he would get a better reaction from it and I wanted to see what people would say lol. So yea...I pasted it to him and he put it on his facebook...and he got a really solid reaction lol, but as you read it, it's pretty bait who I'm talking about lol, so I kinda got him in a bit of trouble lol...thanks bro, I appreciate it.

I met you in our first year of high school.
The first thing I noticed was your fiery red head.
Your beautiful eyes, sweet smile, and just how nice you were.
I decided I would try to get to know you.
Luckily after a few introductions and some random messages, we became friends.
As days went by, and nights went on, your face kept running through my mind.
After constant messaging, we poured out hearts out to each other, it felt GREAT.
As time went by, I felt our relationship grow.
And suddenly, in a blink of an eye, all had changed.
Every time I saw you, I felt a tingly feeling in my stomach.
I would approach you, but the words wouldn’t come out.
My heart would race, my mind swirling with words, and my stomach with emotions.
Because of this, I feel like I ignored you, pushed you away for fear of rejection.
The thing is that I’ve been keeping this in far too long.
See as crushes developed, and relationships broke, the last thing on my mind was you.
Even when I was with other girls, why is it that you kept running through my mind.
Well as a year goes by, I find myself stuck, not moving forward nor backward.
But stuck in a place and unable to make the move. 
Why is it that I’m at a loss for words.
As a new year begins I find myself back in the same place.
Feeling like I’m in a race I can’t win, but yet I still try.
Eventually I realize that this is pointless.
I would rather have u as a friend than not have u at all.
So here I am back in the place again.
Not trying to win, but not giving up either.
Instead I’ve realized and accepted the fact that it wasn’t meant to be