Note To Self

Hey Rodmond,

I know you're struggling right now...but there's going to come a point in time in the future where you're going to look back on this and laugh...more so you're going to understand why it was all necessary. Cling onto this hope...it may be sometime in the near future, or the far off future...but cling onto the fact that with anything and everything you've been through...there ALWAYS came a point where you were able to look back and laugh...and understand. I know it's tough right now...it feels like the end of the world...it's a familiar feeling isn't it...like we've been here before. There're some things that your friends and family aren't going to be able to help you with...there are some things you're going to struggle and fail real hard...but I promise it's all purposeful to shape you into a better you. I know it sometimes seems unbearable...stay strong, have faith...it gets better, it always does. I'm so proud of the man you're becoming, you still have so much left to learn, to grow, to understand. Sometimes, things might not make sense...and that's okay. Sometimes, the answer might not be in black and white...heck, sometimes you might not even find the answer...and that's okay...have faith that it's okay not to know the answer, it's okay not to understand what's going on at the given moment. After all, faith is being sure of what you hope for and being certain of what you don't see. I promise that all this will serve to strengthen your faith if anything...that this pain, this hardship, this struggle you're going through right now...will all be worthwhile when you finally get to that point where you can look back and laugh and most importantly...understand. For now...don't think so much (as best as you can), stay strong...persevere, have faith.