LOL of the Moment

Best scene from Dude Where's My Car...

Random Thoughts

Me and my friend were in his car...the majority of these deep talks always happen in cars for some reason lol. We were just talking about school and stuff...how he failed a class and how I'm pretty much starting from scratch as well...we were just talking about how failure builds success and that we just really need to step it up in school. We were talking about just really buckling down and not letting any distractions get in the way. I've had a lot of talks with this friend as of late and it really warms my heart to just be able to have these kinds of talks you know...just having that support system and being able to be there for one another not just about school stuff, but also like spiritual stuff or general stuff...yeah lol.

Today...

What's good, sorry for no posts yesterday. Woke up, hit the gym with a friend...played ball for the longest time...didn't even hit the gym. After, got food with him and went to my place and played some videogames and then took a shower and headed to another friend's house to watch the NBA draft and then headed home. Today was a chill and loaft day...skipped the gym to finalize course selection stuff...got Mon/Fri off and one class on Tues...full Wed/Thurs...then just did some insurance class homework and planned a bit for Sunday School. Had fellowship then went to dinner with homies...nothing unusual lol...

Random Thoughts

It's funny whenever I write personal posts I say to myself...eh, no one's probably gonna read these anyways...it's always funny though when people tell me...hey are you okay, I read this blog post...or I read this off your blog lol...I always used to think people would kinda scroll past the big, long posts with just words and go straight for the videos, music or funny pictures...it seems like it's the exact opposite...well at least from the few people who I've gotten feedback from. A lot of people actually come here specially for those long, heartfelt posts lol...that means a lot to me, and it means a lot to me that you guys actually take the time to read it...especially those really long ones. A message to my friennds though...like I've said enough times how as a friend, my blog shouldn't be the main source of you finding out how I'm doing...if you consider yourself a friend or a good friend of mine...you'd take the time to ask me how I'm doing instead of waiting till I post on this blog, just saying...and the whole "well you telll more on your blog and you're more honest" is bs...y'all just need to try harder and talk to me more often...but that's my two cents.

From Me To You...

I know you might not feel the same way...don't get the wrong impression by that first line. Talking to you today...was...relieving...it felt nice. To know that through however long we've known each other and whatever we've been through, I know things may not be the same and we've grown apart and found different people to open up to and share our world's with. For some reason though...whenever I have heart to heart talks with you...it just feels right...you know. Like nothing's changed...I still feel so comfortable with you and part of me always just wants to tell you everything but I don't...I hold back only because I know things are not the same this time around. As hard as you or I try...it will definitely take time on both accounts...ut for some reason, as distant as we may be or have been...opening up to you felt right...like old times, it felt comfortable. I dunno...I'm not really one to open up everything to one single person, maybe bits and pieces here and there to him or her...but a part of me wanted to just tell you everything I've been through and everything going through my mind with the hopes you would tell me how you're doing and things would just go from there. I dunno...I guess I'm just really grateful we're still talking and on grounds where we're still able to have personal conversations here and there...thanks.

Today...

Was a real loaft and waste and unproductive day...sigh. So...yesterday we had made plans to go downtown and just shop or whatever, so because of that I decided not to go to the gym with my friends and my other friend who wanted to chill, I had to say no to her cuz I was going downtown. This morning, I get a call saying how it's pretty much a flop but still a slight chance of going...it ended up totally flopping. I went from having so many plans to no plans at all...stayed home...watched movies, played games on my computer, played xbox, loafted around...I felt so waste. I hate staying at home cuz I'm so loaft and unproductive and time moves soooooo slow...unless my friend comes over and we chill or loaft or game or something...sigh. Gotta hate when you cancel your own plans for other plans and those plans flop so you end up with nothing to do. Mad cheesing...

Neverest - About Us

Can't remember where I first heard these dudes, but they're real talented...

John Legend - Tonight (Best You Ever Had)

I was watching Think Like A Man today...the movie with a bunch of well known celebs like Kevin Hart, Chris Brown, Terrence J, Megan Good, Keri Hilson, Kelly Rowland...and a bunch of NBA players like Metta World Peace, Lisa Leslie, etc. Mad jokes movie...but yeah, this song played a bunch of times throughout the movie...real catchy and yeah.

Hillsong - Lord of Lords

Logic - Worthy

Y'all know I've grown into a huuuge Logic fan...y'all need to know I reeeeeeally love the Unthinkable beat, it's soooooo nice...was bumping Logic at the gym and came across this...the down side to having a lot of songs is you don't get to take in every single one...luckily this came on.

DMX - Keep Your Head Up

"When I think I don't deserve it, I think about Jesus and the fact that he was perfect and he thinks that I'm worth it. I know I got a purpose, so when I don't like what I see in the mirror, I learn to look past the surface."

Today...

What's good...today was a real loaft and blah kinda day. Had church, taught Sunday school...the kids were real cool today...probs cuz we were watching videos, I wanna do my best to incorporate fun games, videos and activities and still have them learn about God and the Bible you know. Afterwards, got left behind at church -_-....my friend drove me home and went to lunch with him. Came back to church for practice and then headed home and just chilled the entire day. Man...I really need a car to drive somewhere...but I need a buddy to just chill and loaft with even more...sigh -_-

Chris Brown - Final Destination/Flying Solo feat. Dre

I remember when me and my friends were all up on music websites looking for underground songs...this was my jaaaaam for the longest time.

Words of Wisdom

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11

Today

What's good...today was a real blah kinda day lol. Woke up early for insurance class...last class, but I found out that I actually have to do homework...soooo cheesed...12 small assignments each worth like 5 marks or something and 1 take home test...it's kinda easy and stuff but it's just time assuming and really waste -_-. Headed home and got stuff for sunday school and planned for it as well, other than that, just loafted at home...spent a lot of the rest of the day just thinking and prepping what to do for sunday school...and yeah lol.

Jin - Nick Of Time (Jeremy Lin Inspired)

I love that Jin is using his ability to rap to glorify God now and this song is inspired by point guard of the New York Knicks Jeremy Lin and his incredible cinderella story...

Chris Medina - What Are Words

Dude was on American Idol...automatically fell in love with his audition and his voice...his story is even more amazing...check him out.

Today...

What's good...today was a slow day...for some reason, the entire day I felt like everything was moving in slow motion you know...and I was just really out of it the entire day. Skipped the gym this morning to cut my hair and plan for fellowship. Afterwards, took a nap...was really tired...headed to a friend's house for his birthday, he had a pool party...it was real hot. Only stayed for like an hour cuz had to go to church. Saw the ex and had a good chat, real good seeing and catching up with her. We still talk lots, but haven't seen her in a while, so that was nice. Then headed to fellowship and we had prayer night, I really like this idea of care groups cuz it's less intimidating and is more inviting for people to share and open up you know. Tomorrow is my last insurance class and I am beyond excited...I just wanna get it done...it's so damn boring lol. On another note, there's been this girl who I never really talked to a lot, she found me on facebook and we reconnected cuz I hadn't seen her since like grade 9-10 ish...she's just been talking to me a lot and really spilling her heart out, not sure how to react to it...besides just do my best to give advice...I've had this gut feeling before...but it's just a hunch...eh...

Maroon 5 - Payphone Cover (Jayesslee)

I can't stop listening to it...these girls are just so cute as well...oh man

Today...

What's up...today was a long day ish. Woke up, was contemplating whether to go to the gym or not cuz I was feeling tired...ending up going, def was glad I decided to go, got a good workout in, got a few good ball runs in. After, had lunch with friends, headed home and went to a elementary school reunion thing cuz I told y'all my old teacher who I'm really close with is leaving to another school in Richmond Hill. It was bittersweet...seeing him and all the students I used to volunteer with or coach and kids from high school...but it was nice talking to him and reminiscing and stuff. After that, headed home and a friend came over and we gamed for a bit. Wanted to go downtown to watch the game at some bar, but that flopped...wanted to go to the restaurant in town, but that flopped too lol...went to a friend's house and just gamed and ordered pizza and watched the game. Still can't believe Lebron finally got his first ring...congrats...can't believe even more that the NBA season is over... :(

Picture of the Moment

Watched the NBA Finals game today and Miami won...4-1...those 3's really were the deciding factor, they just couldn't stop Miami today. It really saddened me seeing KD cry after the game hugging everyone and hugging his mom...just shows how much he loves the game and really wanted to win...heartbreaking but so inspiring.

Machine Gun Kelly - Invincible feat. Ester Dean

Motivation of the Moment

You know whenever I'm doing something...working out, playing ball, writing music...whatever. Besides pumping music into my ears and getting hyped...I think about things, to get myself in that mindset...of hard work, success, pain, perseverance, etc. I think about all the people who doubted me, laughed at me, said I couldn't do it, never believed it me...that really hits a hard spot...it fuels me...pushes me to go harder, when I feel I've reached my limits, I think about that, about proving them all wrong, showing them up. I also think about all those people who are better than me, how I still have so much left to learn and so much left to go...how if I'm not giving my all, someone else out there is and they're working harder than me and getting that edge that I should be getting. I think about the finish line...the finished product...say playing ball, I think just about becoming the best that I can be, reaching my full potential. I think about so many things, besides motivational music...I really try to get myself in that mindset of success at all costs...hard work and pain are all apart of that. How the destination is so much more beautiful and enjoyable when you look back and see all the obstacles, pain, tears and blood you left back there...it's kinda just blah when you look back and it's just a straight, sunny road...cuz it doesn't mean as much cuz it was easy...it may not be easy, but it'll be worth it.

Melanie Fiona - This Time feat. J. Cole

This song is so catchy...something about a lot of her songs are really catchy, maybe it's her voice...I really like it...and it doesn't hurt that J. Cole is on the track.

Cutie of the Moment

Kate Upton...you leave me speechless...can't believe this girl is the same age as me...I almost died when she did the cat daddy and now this...hooooly....

Shontelle - Impossible Cover

Her name is Maddi Jane...so talented.

Today...

Sorry for no posts...today was an extra long and very tiring day. Woke up at 9, hit the gym at 10:30. Played ball for a good 3 hours. It was real nice cuz I ran full court with the really good guys and all that hard work and practice has def been paying off cuz I see so much improvement. Friend came and we worked out a bit, got lunch, visited my old elementary teacher who I told you was leaving. It was real sad but real happy to have seen and talked to him again. We'll def keep in contact, he's moving to a school in Richmond Hill and wants to have me and a bunch of us over his house for a bbq. After, picked up some friends, went to some park for some more ball for another 3 - 4 hours. After, went to friend's house and chilled with 2 friends and had some heart to heart conversations. After my one friend left, it was only me and my other friend and we had a really good conversation till like midnight pretty much. I hadn't really seen her or talked to her seriously in a while so it was really nice to sit down and catch up. Came home around 12:30, ate dinner, napped for half an hour, showered and now it's 1:30...def skipping the gym tomorrow, gonna sleep in..so tired as of late. Probs chill with friends, softball in the evening, the game at night, dope.

Big Sean - Memories

Today...

What's up...today was a really long and rough day...woke up early for worship practice before we lead worship. Messed up the last song pretty bad, but eh it's all a learning experience, I didn't take it too hard. After, lead Sunday School...it was real hectic, kids weren't paying attention, were disruptive and everything...maybe I was just out of it, but I used every bit of energy to keep cool and just try at least to have fun with it. After that, I was already exhausted...then had a prayer meeting and praise team practice. After practice, mans were complaining about how yeah we dress nice on the days we do have practice....but we should also dress somewhat nice on the days we don't have practice. How hats, sandals, shorts and t shirts weren't "acceptable"..I'm not even going to getinto that cuz then I'lll just get frustrated but...it's summer...how is me wearing shorts going to make another person stumble. Isn't it more important that my heart is into it and that I'm praising God with all my heart, instead of LOOKING like I am...c'mon son. After that, chilled at home...friend came over and we watched the game, can't believe OKC lost...NOT a good day so far...sigh.

Kendrick Lamar - ADHD

Random Thoughts

Today, I chilled with my friend for a good portion of the day...from gym, the ball, to bbq at his house, to movies to just good heart to heart talks. We're both christian and we talked with both our parents and also just us two about him getting baptized. He said he wasn't ready and didn't feel called, I know his parents really wanted him to cuz they brought it up to my parents a bunch of times. I talked to him one on one and just eased his mind...told him not to feel pressured to do it cuz of his parents, cuz his friends are baptized or whatever...but you know to take it one step at a time with God and when the time is right, he'll know and he'll be called and be ready to get baptized. Baptism is literally a declaration to the world saying you're a christian and that God is your Saviour. I just pray he continues to grow in Christ and that God continues to shape and mould him. He's taking a leadership role in the upcoming summer retreat and it reminds me a lot of when I was first asked to help and ever since then, I just became more and more involved with church and stuff like that. I pray that sometime along the lines of that happens to him, but I know God has a plan for him and it's out of my hands, his hands, his parents hands...all in God's hands. One thing that really hit me was his parents and my parents pulled me aside and his parents told me how much they admired me and how involved I was in church and what a role model I was and how they really want me to rub off on my friend. Other parents have told me the same thing about their kids who I'm really good friends with...it really got to me and made me smile...but I took a step back, took a deep breath and really just gave all the glory...ALL THE GLORY back to God. He's blessed me with so many things and given me the strength to break out of this shell and has called me to be a leader and to get more involved in church and to really do my best to support. lift up, encourage and set an example for the younger ones...so yeah, as much as they were complimenting me, they were really complimenting God and his works in me...and all the glory they gave me...I give back to him on humbled knees...thank you for being by my side always.

Today...

Sorry for no posts...literally been out all day, no joke. Woke up at like 8 ish for insurance class at 10. So boring...thought I was gonna be late, got there at like 10:20, I was the first one there, before the teacher..LOL. It was only like 4 of us...me, this cute girl, some dude and another girl. Insurance class is the most boringest thing of life...wish I had one of those loaft people who didn't care and just gave me the certificate. Only thing good that came out of that class was the cheap and good food downstairs and also, I left early last week for my friend's bday and she first said I had to make the hours I missed which was 2 and a half hours...but today she filled in my sheet and gave me the full 5 hours. So before I still had 1 and a half classes left but since she gave me the full 5 hours, next week is my last class...YEAH BUDDY!!! Insurance class ended at like 3 ish and my friend wanted to gym at like 4 ish, he was gonna pick me but I decided to bus so he wouldn't have to come all the way down to pick me. I first didn't think we'd make it cuz we also had a bbq at his house after at like 5 ish. Got home at like 4:20 ish, he picked up and we hit the gym, worked legs and played some ball, then headed to his head at like 5:30 in time for the bbq with both our fams and 1 other fam. We had real good talks me and my friend, I've seen him a bunch of times these past few days and we've had lots of good talks...I really miss that, but yeah after the bbq we watched some movies, talked with our parents, headed home took a shower and planned sunday school and now it's almost 1 am...should go to sleep soon since I have to wake up at like 8 ish to make it to church at 8:40 for practice before we lead songs.

Chris Tomlin - This Is Our God

Random Thoughts

So if you don't know this about me or you're new to this blog...I write poetry, rhymes, I rap...or try to at least. Today before church, I had worship practice for Sunday and we were sharing...I said how this week, I've really been inspired by music and God is trying to tell me something through music. Lately, I've been listening to a lot of worship songs and a lot of Lecrae, it's just been really speaking to me and I really relate to it and I can feel God trying to break me down. This week, he's really inspired me and given me the knowledge and words to speak and write...I've been writing a lot lately and just trying to use words to tell the world how amazing God is you know...the words just kept flowing...funny thing, I felt kinda sick in the middle of writing this one verse...like literally fatigued, exhausted...and I was like, maybe this is satan trying to stop me from finishing this you know LOL...so I took a step back and was like, God give me the strength to finish this and endure whatever I need to...I took a quick break, came back and the words just continued to keep flowing...so yeah.

Sidenote: I'm going on a missions trip in July...the pastor apparently never got my form and never signed it off, so me and my friend were like, if he doesn't have it, it's probs too late for us to refill it in and go. We both started to reevaluate whether we wanted to go or not and whether we were going for the right reasons and maybe this was a sign from God telling us we weren't ready for missions yet. I started to ask myself whether I was going on missions just for the sake of it, just for the experience or just to bond with people you know. Low and behold today...God throws a sign right in front of my face...we were talking to the pastor today and he goes yeah apparently some dude at our mother church, the one coordinating the trip has both our forms...he didn't know how he got them, but he just got them...lol...so I thought to myself...wow God...you really do work in mysterious ways...we'll see what happens, I pray that God just uses me as his instrument on this trip to share his word and do whatever he needs and wants me to do. I hope he continues to shape and mold me and continues to teach me cuz I have so much to learn still and so much growing to do.

PS: Wow...lots of written posts today...I love days like this, where I don't just shove links and links down your throats and make you guys listen or watch it. It's just that sometimes I don't have anything to talk about or when I do, I tell myself I'll blog about it late and end up forgetting or writing a condensed version with no details lol....but yeah...

Today...

Was a quiet, calm, yet relaxing day. Woke up and didn't go to the gym cuz I had no ride, instead worked out at home...I actually didn't slack off and got a good leg workout done. Literally sat staring at my laptop for like 2 hours trying to figure out what to do for church cuz I was leading games that night. Rap up and down, searched far and wide on google to find games and kinda prayed about it and asked God for help and low and behold he gave me ideas right on the spot. Finished planning, took a shower...came out and saw a white dude sitting on my couch...apparently it was my brother's co worker. Thought he was going to the cottage tomorrow but it's tonight...when he told me he was going to the cottage I thought it was like his girlfriend and some of his buddies and for a few nights. Apparently, it was just him and his friend, going fishing, for one night, both of them riding on his motorcycle...3 hour ride. Uh...awkward? LOOOOOL....yeah no comment. Church was fun, I really broke out today or tried to at least and tell myself a lot of things that I think are happening aren't and most of the problems I "see" are actually in my head...so yeah. Had bunch of good talks with my friend in his car on the way to dinner and driving home as well, glad he's here for the summer so we can chill more and stuff of the sort. Tomorrow is insurance class...NOT EXCITED...but after that a barbecue at the same friend's house with his fam, my fam and 2 other fam's...should be good.

From The Heart...

Today I was in the car with my friend...I dunno why so many of these kinds of talks happen in people's cars. He was just like hey man, what's up with this person, how come they don't really come anymore and we got to talking about people who have come and gone. We talked about how in past summers and past times, we would gather as big groups and chill together at people's houses...watch movies, cook, eat, laugh, play games...yeah some people have come and gone, but there are still a lot of us who are still here and always have been here, but kind of have drifted off and done our own things and don't really chill as much or ever. We were talking about how that's just life...we're all growing up, jobs, schools, people change...different interests. But me and him were saying how we shouldn't use that as an excuse...we were saying how we both really wanna make an effort to kinda start chilling more with each other, try to find time that fits everyone's schedule...cuz honestly...I miss those times, that bond, that feeling of family you know...where we all chill and get together on our own time...not cuz we have to, but because we genuinely enjoy each other's companies and want to spend more time with each other. So yeah...I definitely wanna go out of my way to see that happen and to make it happen...those were some real fun times and it helped me build bonds and strengthen bonds with a lot of people...I'm so glad I have friends who I haven't seen in a long time or may have been distanced for a bit cuz of school or whatevever, and can see each other and still have deep talks and share with each other you know...friends that keep you down to earth and bring you back when I get over my head.

Random Stories

I've only been skiing like 3 times in my life...all in elementary school for field trips. So since I was so young, I remember just blowing money on food and snacks and drinks from the vending machine, like no joke. I would get like $20 from my mom for food then like an extra $20 for whatever, I remember spending about like 10 of that on food like burgers and fries or something like that and then just blowing the rest of snacks...chocolate, candies, hot chocolate, chips...no joke lol...now that I look back on that, I'm like damn...I spend almost as much time inside with snacks and food than I did skiing LOOOOL.

Random Thoughts

I got some pretty sad news today...my elementary school teacher/coach is leaving my old elementary school. I've known him since I was in grade 6 and I still keep in contact with him. I remember on the volleyball team, he really pushed us and made us train so damn hard. We had team dinners and really bonded, I really looked to him as a mentor. I remember, me and 2 of my teammates failed a math test in his class and he made us retake it and get 80%+, not just a pass but over 80 in order to play volleyball...that made me study so hard and work so hard and we all ended up getting over 80 and stayed on the team. Throughout high school, I went back every year and helped him coach volleyball for both genders and basketball for both genders, we stayed close, became friends. Even to this day, I still visit him and we're great friends...we've known each other for like 8 years...how crazy is that...who would've known an elementary school teacher would have such a lasting impact on me, that I would want to visit him so often and frequently. He's the one who helped me decide what I wanted to do in university...helped me write numerous reference letters at my request. The fact that I heard he's leaving really breaks my heart...I don't know the full details...but his going away party is at the school on Thursday...I def wanna go before that just to see what's up and why he's leaving and where he's going...it's really sad though, cuz I know he was getting tired and impatient with the school, the staff and the kids...it just wasn't the same as when we were in school...damn...

Justin Bieber - Right Here feat. Drake

I keep listening to this...love Drake's part...JB's aiiight as well...

Random Thoughts

After having that talk with my friend in his car one day...he told me so many things...told me to take a step back, reevaluate, distance myself you know. I'm socially awkward sometimes, around people I don't really know or people who I'm still trying to figure out where I am with. And I told my friend this and she told me to make sure I don't distance myself off too much to the point where there isn't a friendship left. A lot of the times, I write theses posts thinking eh...no one'll probs read this...but for the most part I'm wrong lol. For the most part, I hope she reads this cuz it's easier than me confronting her and she'll probs be awkward if I do anyways. But not just for her, for a lot of people...I find myself distancing myself from them and really keeping to myself. But lately...I've gone off that and I'm really making an effort to reach out and reconnect and make that first move you know, to reassure people...hey, we're still good right? A lot of times I make problems in my head that aren't really there...then act as if they actually happened. So I feel like I've distanced myself from some people and a few people in particular...and I don't want that to happen you know. For certain people, it's too late...and as bad as I want it to be back to normal, I can't...I'm learning to have no regrets...that whatever happened, happened for a reason. But I am trying to make things brighter for the future. I'm really doing my best to reach out, get out of my comfort zone and put myself in awkward situations cuz I value the friendships of these people you know. I just feel like as of late, I'm not getting any response you know...like it's a 2 way thing, friendship should be mutual with both people contributing, but lately...I feel like I'm talking on the phone and no one's on the other end. But I don't get sour or down...I keep trying...who cares if they get annoyed...I'd rather know that but at least know that I tried instead of sit back and let the thing die you know...I've let go and see too many friendships die for that to happen. But I dunno...defs got mixed feelings about this whole thing...who knows.

LOL of the Moment

Exciting News!!!

So I've been real loaft lately lol as you know...but I haven't been totally loaft...I have been working...as of this moment, I have 4 projects under construction. 2 small freestyles that I've finished and just gotta hit the booth and record and edit then put out, got a full song I've started on and hope to get done during this summer and another track as well...just the idea so far, but it's the one I'm most excited about, stay tuned, thanks!

Lecrae - Boasting feat. Anthony Evans

My jam...so motivating, inspiring and humbling. The lyrics really hit me hard and speak to me...

Today...

Hola...sorry for posts yesterday...was loafting and got lazy but was also kinda too lol. Went to the gym in the morning, got a good workout and some good ball runs as well. After that, chilled for a bit then had softball practice. Bumped into my ex's sister who's also dating my boy lol so that was awks cuz she kept bringing up her sister and how she always talks about me -_-. After practice, headed home and caught game 1 on the NBA finals...OKC won!!! Today went earlier to the hip to get some ball runs in cuz my friends always loaft...after that worked out with them and went to lunch and now just chilling lol.

The Beach Boys - Wouldn't It Be Nice

They kept playing this song in the movie 50 First Dates...it's real catchy.

Today...

Well hello there folks...today was a good day...Monday's are great cuz it's chest day. Woke up, headed to the gym...it was insanely hot outside. I don't mind hot weather, but I'd rather it be sunny with a nice breeze but not so much breeze that you can't play ball lol, enough to keep you cool and not sweating just standing around -_-. After the gym, had food with the homies, chilled for  a bit then headed home and took a nap for a while. After, played ball outside with diff homies, got some good runs in, rained a bit slightly but played through it...then began pouring so we all ran to the cars haha and headed home. Now just chilling lol...finally caught up on writing music...been so slack lately. Hope to record this week or the next, get ready!

Hillsong United - One Way

"You are the Way, the Truth and the Life. We live by faith and not by sight for You. We're living all for You."

Random Facts

This blog has been visited over 15,000 times in the United States...wooooow...crazy seeing as I don't know anybody that lives in the States...I don't think I do at least...damn lol.

D-Pryde - Glitter To Gold

Today...

Sorry no posts for the past 2 days...uh let's see what did I do? Friday hit the gym with the crew...went to sushi lunch then headed up for a few hours then had fellowship. Had a good talk after fellowship at dinner...I love heart to heart talks...warms my heart and reassures me that everything is going to be okay. Saturday I had insurance class...dipped early so cheesed cuz I thought lady would let me off but she said I have to make up the hours...not cool. Anyways, left early, went to friend's house for a surprise party...it was real fun, food, games, good friends. Headed home and was gonna watch the game, shower and prep for Sunday school cuz I was teaching...friend called me and wanted to come over and watch the game...surely enough we had a really good conversation it was real nice to have him back in town and we kinda were distanced but it was real nice catching up. Today, had church then taught Sunday school...played some games and they were pretty calm and cooperative for the most part lol. Went to lunch with church peeps, came back for worship practice then headed home. Now about to shower then head to a buffet for a church friend's bday dinner...gonna be niiiiice.

Motivation of the Moment

This is damn motivating...from the beat to the words Kobe Bryant is speaking.
"If you really want it, you will push past pain. Use it. Control it. Glory. If you really want it, live your dreams. If you really want it, learn from defeat. Learn how to win. If you really want it, you feel everything to your fire. All the pain, failure, critics, glory. Take the ball, take the last shot. You can do anything you want to, if you really want it."

Random Thoughts

Hope you like the updated playlist, just a few Logic songs...Logic is someone I recently found out about and am absolutely in love with, dude is so talented and his lyrics speak to me real hard. He's in my top 5 and maybe even top 3 lyricists...maybe even artists...check the playlist out.

Also...wanna hear a funny story...can't remember when this happened, a while ago...but my friend who goes on my blog here and there goes "hey man, you know what you should do...some people wanna listen to their own music or whatever when they go on your blog and have to scroll all the way down to the bottom of your blog to pause your music, you should move the playlist to the top or the side so it's easier for them." To which I responded...that's kinda the post...I put the playlist all the way on the bottom so you guys have to scroll all the way down to the bottom and also hopefully checking out all the posts before getting to the playlist LOL :P

Today...

What's up, sorry for no posts yesterday...I can't remember what I did actually lol, besides gym in the morning then food. Loafted at home for the most part cuz I was really tired and sore then watched the game, so glad OKC won despite being down 18. Today, hit the gym again, worked out, played ball...went to friends house and had a small barbecue, some burgers, bacon and samosas. Then went home, decided not to go to softball practice, too tired, blister on foot, sore...just wanted to let my body recuperate. Wanted to go to ball at church but that was cancelled -_-...now just chilling, watching the Miami/Boston game...

Clip of the Moment

I love this user his videos are too sick...this is a compilation of all 6 games of the Western Conference Finals...Oklahoma City Thunder vs San Antonio Spurs.

Meek Mill - Dreamchasers feat. Beanie Siegel

Today...

Has been a real long day...woke up at like 11 ish, loafted for a few hours, gamed a bit...hit the gym at 2 with friends, played some ball as well...got food at around 4 ish...headed to softball practice at like 6, finished around 9 ish and expected to head home cuz we usually do Tuesday movies cuz it's half price, but my friend wanted to stay home and watch the ball game but last minute decided he wanted to go to the movies, which was cool lol. Got home, washed my hands, feet and legs, changed then headed out to get food then movies. We watched Snow White and the Huntsman...it was alright, lots of walking...was kinda boring at times...Kristen Stewart is kinda cute though...got home around 1 ish, showered and now just chilling...gotta sleep soon since I'm hitting the gym again tomorrow morning...I love that my friends workout everyday early and that motivates me to do the same too...

Cuteness of the Moment

A clip from the movie "The Wedding Singer". Drew Barrymore and her husband the dude beside her are going to Vegas to get married, but the dude is a jerk...cheats on her, she doesn't know. She secretly loves Adam Sandler. Adam Sandler realizes he loves her and goes on a plane to try to find her, coincidentally...she's on the same plane.

Clip of the Moment

Bad Boys 1 I believe? LOOOL Reggie!!!!!

Pet Peeves

Cars...I hate that I know so many people who are obsessed or really interested in cars. I'm always kinda just chilling by myself or on the phone cuz I know absolutely nothing about cars...all these dudes are like oh look at that lip...look at that turn...oh he slid out...oh nice rims. I find that stuff soooo boring...I guess people can say that about my interest in basketball or whatever...just depends on personalities I guess...but I feel left out when I'm chilling with my friends and they start talking about cars...lol

Today...

Was just a long and tiring day...usually go to the gym around 11:30-12...friend called me at 10 and was like we're going at 10:30 -_-. Went to the gym...worked out chest with them. The thing I love about working out with friends, especially my friends who are serious about working out...is that they push you and motivate you. If I go myself, I'm loaft and slack...some days I might be like eh I'm tired, I have to bus, etc...or even when I'm at the gym, I might just be slack in general and can't push myself and try heavy weights. I love that they push me and they can spot me and correct my form and give me advice and stuff. After that, played ball for like a good 3 hours...this one dude was pissing me off so bad...he was really physical...and I'm okay with being physical but this dude didn't set picks for people, he body checked you...he set one pick and dipped his shoulder and literally like ran into me and I fell...I was like wtf man. He was like grabbing me and pulling me and holding onto me...I was like wtf...pissed the whole time, wanted to like freaking hit him. But yeah, got some food, got home at like 4-5 ish...gamed for a few hours with my friend, left at like 8 ish, now just chilling lol.

LOL of the Moment

In elementary school...I use to call myself "The Franchise"...LOOOOOOOL and no joke I made people call me that too...it was my "nickname"...hahahahahaha...I don't even remember where I got it from...but it def sounded cool...lol The Franchise...sigh.

D-Pryde - Applause

His new album "Flagship" is amazing...he's def growing on me at a fast rate...he's real talented and I like it when he sings too...damn.

Random Stories

LOL alright so uh...in grade 9, I remember I liked this girl, I don't think she knew who I was, you know when you're young and you see a cute face and you're like okay...I like her, yeah this was that. So I remember I told somebody I liked her and somehow...a bunch of people found out. And I heard like she didn't know who I was or something like that...so after school one day, I'm walking down the stairs and I see her and her friend who I know and talk to...they're walking my direction and her friend points and me and goes that's Rodmond...and she goes ohh and for the most randomest reason, no joke...I pointed at her and yelled "I don't like her"...LOOOOOOOOOOL don't even ask why...it was at the heat of the moment -_-. Don't worry though, I ended up telling her my bad and stuff, that I thought she was cute and all that stuff...lol I found that funny though...

Random Thoughts

You know what's funny...whenever I write these, I sometimes feel the need to watch what I say cuz some people read these things and get offended or take it so seriously cuz they think it's about them lol. I dunno...lately, I've been so chill you know...chilling with my friends, hitting the gym, playing softball...just having a good time. But sometimes, when I'm loafting at home or when I have time on my hands, I think...a lot...about random things. I picture different situations and scenarios in my head. I think about things in my life, people in my life, things I have to do, etc. I often sometimes create invisible problems in my head and act as if they actually happened. Sometimes, I make problems bigger than they actually are until my friends bring me back down to earth, tell me to take a deep breath, calm down and take a step back from this. I dunno...trust is a big thing with me lately. I don't have very many people I can tell everything to...matter a fact, I have only like 1 maybe 2 or 3...but the thing I hate about telling me people things...is you don't know if they're going to tell their best friend you know. It's pretty much a given, but yeah, I just don't like it. Another thing is when people constantly ask you to tell them what's bothering you or tell them your secrets, but when you ask them the same question, they're all like uh yeah...and kinda avoid the question. I dunno...lately I've been having conflict with myself and my heart...and having good talks with my friend who gives me advice and vice versa. I've just been really burdened here and there sometimes about...well...I dunno how to put it. There's a fine line between being a friend and being more than a friend, let's just say that. My friend told me that I had to take a step back, keep my distance and not get so involved and once I do that, I'll get a clearer picture of how I really feel. Past experiences have definitely shed some light on things like this...and I dunno...it reminds me of the sermon today, where it's like..."Who do you turn to for advice?" That's so true...when we need help or are in trouble, who do we turn to? Friends...parents...siblings...etc...I don't even know where I'm heading with this post, just kinda a bunch of random feelings and a bunch of random words in my heart jumbled together. Sometimes, when certain people ask me what's up...I really do wanna tell them, but it's either, I don't fully trust/feel comfortable with them, it's about them...or I don't wanna get in too deep with them you know. I dunno man...lately, I've been so chill...having fun, no stress...chilling with my boys...hitting the gym, playing softball, making jokes, I like that life, I like having fun with no burdens. But I also like, life with serious notes here and there and being able to have serious conversations...I dunno. Sometimes, I just wish I had that one person...not a girlfriend, just a friend...who I can completely pour my heart out to....loaft with, play board games with, videogames, sports, talk, chill, have fun, you know. And a big part of me tells myself...God should be that person that I completely rely on, focus on and give my all to...and it's so true...he should be the one I'm devoting everything that I have into, all my energy. But sometimes, you also need that physical companionship...you know...I've had a lot of close friends come and go...real close ones...so I guess trust doesn't come easy with me...I dunno...it's 1:30 am...maybe my brain is just working overdrive...gotta get up in like 10 hours and hit the gym...deuces.

Big Sean - Life Should Go On feat. Wale

Picture of the Moment

A different take on that song "Call Me Maybe"...

LOL of the Moment

Today...

Today was a long day...woke up at 8:30...on a Saturday. Went to insurance class...10-3:30...soooo boring, the class was like 10 people or so and I couldn't loaft or whatever cuz I was kinda late and had to sit in the front. So boring...she kept talking and talking, 30 minute break then headed outside and she showed us how to change a tire and stuff...all in all I didn't learn anything permanent that'll stick with me...sigh...3 more Saturdays to go. Afterwards, headed home and just chilled...long day tomorrow too. Early morning at church for practice, then lead worship, then teach sunday school, then prayer meeting, then baptism, then who knows...lol.

Freestyle Friday: Hall of Fame Cypher

Wow this takes me baaaaack...106 brought back a few hall of famers to make a huge cypher...Postaboy and Jin takes me baaaaaack...s/o to Blind Fury, Kay M and Bones as well...they were crazy, never seen Relly, but he sounds nice.

Logic - Let Me Go feat. Lykke Li

Logic is all I've been bumping lately...I created a playlist just for him with his 3 mixtapes and have been bumping them at the gym...dude's lyrics go so hard, he's def making a run for my favourite artist.

From The Heart: Make You Proud

A few hours ago, my dad sat me down when I came home and talked to me a bit school and just wanted to know how I was doing and stuff. It really sucked knowing I wasn't doing so well but I told my dad I was doing fine. He asked me if it was hard, if I was doing okay, things like that. He told me that now that I'm in university, I'm more free and he doesn't really know what's going on too much in school and stuff. But he told me it's okay, cuz he trusts me and he wants me to have a plan...especially since my brother didn't finish school...he just wants me to do what I like and not quit halfway. That really hit me hard, and it broke my heart...I just sat there and didn't say a word, just taking it everything he was saying to me. He told me he just wanted to see me happy...that he and my mom work so hard not for themselves, but to make my life and my brother's life easier. It really hit me hard this whole school thing...how I'm pretty much starting from ground zero...I dunno...I've had this convo with friends before, how none of use are gonna be failures, we're all gonna do fine in life...but no doubt there'll be bumps and falls down the road to the destination. It really sparked a soft spot in me...my dad was just talking about working hard and things like that. And I just really wanna make my parents proud you know...they're providing and doing everything for me now and when it comes time, I want to be able to do that for them. My dad just talked about a lot of things from school to work to life to friends...I wish I blogged right after the conversation but I had dinner...I dunno...as much as I get annoyed and sometimes frustrated and I give my dad attitude when he gives me those talks and stuff like that, I really do love it deep and I know that it's for my benefit. I guess I'm trying to cherish the time you have with your mom and dad...listen to every word they say because they only care and love you and want the best for you. It's weird, but I've thought about the day my parents pass...and the funeral...and just breaking down and not being able to speak or whatever. My dad always tells me, he has 4 other siblings and when his dad use to give lectures, they would all leave the dinner table and my dad would stay and listen to everything he had to say. Same with my dad, my brother would always leave and I would always stay...not to be rude though...sometimes I would zone out, but would stay not to be rude, and sometimes I would actually pay attention. So I guess what I'm trying to say is...as angry, frustrated and pissed off you get at your parents for whatever reason or whatever...think long and hard before you act out and give them attitude, I have to work on this too, but yeah...they love you with all their heart, they might show it weirdly or have trouble trying to get through to you and you might take it as rude or mean...but they love you with all their heart and I can tell you from personal experience it breaks their heart when you talk back to them, give them attitude or brush them off and ignore them. They just want the best for you and they have so much more experience in this world and they just hope that they can share this wisdom with you so you don't make the same mistakes that you do. But yeah...I often give advice that I need to take as well...but yeah, that's it...thanks for reading all the way here, appreciate it.