Random Thoughts

You know when you roll a snowball and it gets progressively bigger and bigger...that's how I feel my life is going right now, it's getting worse and worse. From failing 3 courses, to struggling with my future, to not getting into con ed, to losing my wallet, to losing my bag and my mac. Granted there have been good times in there, but sometimes the bad just outweighs the good. Sometimes, I wonder...I ask God...when are You ever going to give me a break? Sometimes, it just feels like life is filled with disappointment after disappointment. I've never felt this horrible and depressed before...angry, yeah I have. Now...before you read this and freak out, let me just say that it wsa just a thought, it crossed...no, more like flashed into my head for a split second...this whole ordeal, and how my life is just going downhill...or so it feels, and how I feel like I'm never or haven't gotten a break...well the thought of suicide just briefly and barely crossed my mind, so don't freak out...but yeah, that's how terrible I was feeling...I dunno man...pray for me is all I can say...