Hillsong United - Glory

Missions Trip Day 3

Today was a good day...sleeping was good yet bad. Was soooooooo cold, used the thinnest blanket...was dying the entire night, woke up in the middle and got a sweater cuz it was soooo cold. Had breakfast, then devos with the team. It was interesting cuz we did Philippians 1:12-26...and me and my friend have done a bible study before on this passage with our church, so it kinda hit a spot. "For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain." Take in that for a second...Paul is just so confident in the Lord...so trusting in Him that every breath of his life is for Christ...and he's not afraid of death, as he knows when he dies, he will be with Christ, damn. After that, headed to the church, went to the gardening site where we're gonna help mow the lawn and plant weeds tomorrow. After that, chilled in the church for a good few hours...playing volleyball, badminton and cards...had dinner and after dinner, the kids came...less numbers that yesterday...like 10 ish or so kids...so we didn't break into groups, did everything together, it was fun and interesting. Tomorrow's gonna be a long day...5 hours in the hot sun doing outdoor work -_-

Hillsong United - The Stand

This song has been in my heart lately..."I'll stand, with arms high and heart abandoned, in awe, of the One who gave it all."

Missions Trip Day 2

What's good guys...had a iffy sleep yesterday...the dude I was sharing the bed with hit me twice -_-...it was hot and I just kept waking up here and there. Woke up thinking it would be a dope breakfast, it was alright, but nothing spectacular...waffles, bagels, cereal, muffins...I guess just gotta be thankful. Had lunch with the team, went to the church, decorated it and finished planning. Loafted with the team, played big 2 for pushups, just more bonding...real fun. Afterwards, ordered takeout and had dinner...then finally the kids came...just a blessing...they were shy at first, but they were amazing...they really broke out after a while...they were friendly and interactive...it's gonna be a fun week. Real tiring though, played octopus and freeze tag and just running around a whole lot...then came home, debriefed and had cup noodles...now just chilling in the room with wifi!!! Thank God for a successful and good day 2....it's gonna be an amazing trip.

PS: Met some girl who goes to the school Lebron James went to...St.Vincent St. Mary's or something like that...sooo dope...

Missions Trip Day 1

WHAAAAAT'S GOOD!!! Coming to you from CLEVELAND....here's the deal, woke up early this morning, 7:30...headed to church to practice, sang for gospel Sunday, afterwards said goodbye to people and headed to Bridal Trail Baptist Church for a meeting before we dipped. Saw me ex...that was always nice lol, talked and stuff...had lunch, then started the drive to Cleveland, spent over 6 hours in the car. Had mcds for lunch...it's so cheap, filling and there was free wifi....finally arrived at the hotel around 10 ish, chilled a bit, talked a bit with the team...showered and now it's 12, just chilling, not that great wifi in the rooms, only in the lobby...so yeah, just chilling...can't wait to see what God has in stored for us tomrorow...thank the Lord for keeping us safe, strong, healthy and filled with energy. Keep y'all updated tomorrow too, our first full day...DEUCES

Today...

Sup, sup, sup...I'm in a mad rush right now...it's almost 1 am...I have to be up at 7:30 to be at church at 8...worship team is playing for gospel sunday, so have to get ready...if you don't know...tomorrow after church I'm going away for a week. Going on a missions trip to Cleveland from the 29th to the 5th...doing a VBS...kids program at a church there that needs help. No time to update you on the past 2 days, sorry...very busy...had full day of softball games today...my bad, came home around 9 ish, showered and stuff...been packing all night and still not really done ish...I'm gonna be dying tomorrow...this might be the last post for the next week...but apparently there's wifi at the hotel, so hopefully I can still let you guys know what's up with me...if there isn't then this is goodbye for now...DEUCES...


PS....ON A MAJOR SIDE NOTE....this month has become the MOST VIEWED month of ALL TIME with 8,403 hits and the month isn't even over yet...last month was the highest with like 7,700 something...but this month really went ham....and also, 100,000 is KNOCKING ON THE DOOR...I've been uber busy, no time to record, I hope when I come back it isn't past 100,000 so I can go record and put somehting out, for now...later guys.

Owl City & Carly Rae Jepsen - Good Time Cover (Megan Nicole)

Megan Nicole is actually the cutest thing on the earth...her eyes are so beautiful and then her smile...oh man...never heard of this song until this cover and it's actually a really happy and upbeat song haha, I like it

Today...

Was a really loaft day to begin with...watched Fresh Prince all day...it was raining and gloomy all day. Basketball at church was cancelled...so if it kept raining, I could go to volleyball at another church, but it stopped raining eventually and went to softball...it started off really loaft then it got productive and fun. Not much else to say lol...

LOL of the Moment

Hopsin - Ill Mind of Hopsin 5

Just wow...I heard the one where he was dissing Tyler the Creator...I think that was 4...but this one is absolutely insane...I love dudes who are dope with lyrics.

Blind Fury - Friends Before Lovers

The same dude who was on 106 & Park's freestyle friday and also the BET Awards cypher as well..

Drake - Brand New

The first Drake song I ever heard...filled with so much emotion, heart and lyrics..."knowledge is pain, that's why it hurts to know."...this is the type of flow I wanna do next...or like Houstatlantavegas or Sooner Than Later..

From The Heart: Temptation

I just finished doing devo's cuz I had to renew my passport this morning...it was about temptation. It said that we all face temptation, its unavoidable, but the question is not will you be tempted, the question is when you're tempted, will you be ready? In our own strength and by our own ability, we can't. But when we put God's Word in our hearts and when we lean on His strength and trust in His plan, there are no temptations we can't overcome.

"God wants you to trust Him to bring victory in every area of your life. By His grace, you can!"

Funny also that today's verse was one I put in the top section of my blog...

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful, he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." 1 Corinthians 10:13

Dear God,

I thank you for who You are. I come to You in all my sin, all my shame and all my brokenness asking for forgiveness. You know me from the inside out, You died on the cross as a sacrifice for our sins...to cleanse and purify us, to give us new life. God I thank You for Your mercy and grace, I thank You for being there when no one else was. I realized everything that I'm searching for...a friend, a role model, a comforter, a pastor...all that can be found in You. I thank You for never forsaking me and never giving up on me, I lift up my heart and my hands to You. I pray all of these things in your Son's most previous name,

Amen.

Nas - Daughters

This is off Nas' recent album Life Is Good...it got rated a XXL from XXL magazine and they don't give that rating to many albums...damn...Nas still got it...

Today...

Hola...today was a great day. Woke up, hit the gym with my friend...had a real nice chest workout, after, headed home with my friend cuz he's fasting, so I decided to just eat some food at home instead of spending money. Afterwards, we gamed for a bit...that was real fun and productive...hahaha, we played 3 good games...this was probs my favourite...but he didn't people to know his score LOL

Afterwards...he left, headed out for softball practice...it started off slow, not very many people, but it picked up...finally got to talk with one of my friends. Asked her to lunch a few days ago, but she was busy with school and stuff...chilled on the side for a bit and we just shared what's been going on lately and yeah...I def really enjoy talking to her...we also talked on the car ride home...it was just really comforting and a loaft off my shoulders...but yeah...afterwards, no movies or anything after...just came home, ate dinner, showered...chilling now.

Evolution of Hip-Hop

Some dude posted this on facebook...pretty cool

Kanye West - Don't Look Down (The Phoenix Story) feat. Mos Def, Lupe Fiasco, Big Sean

Random Stories

 These are 2 separate stories...

So this was like in elementary school, the summer of grade 7, I would be going to grade 8 come September. I remember this one day, I got an email from this girl...she had sent it to every grade 7 in our school...it was a warning supposedly...there was a picture of this girl attached with the email...she's like, this girl is coming to our school next year, she's such a b****...etc, etc...just cussing her out and stuff. She's like, me and my friend went to school with this girl in like grade 5 or something like that and she was a horrible person, we were her friends but she thought she was the leader, treating us like slaves...yeah she actually used the word slaves LOOOL...she's like she would beat us and make my other friend crawl around like a dog...she's terrible, she wears a pushup bra and she stuffs it with tissue paper....yeah she said that too LOOOOOOOOL....but yeah, she sent a super long email just totally cussing the girl out and stuff...so come grade 8 when school finally started and she came to school...well firstly, it was evident she wore a pushup bra...stuffing it, who knows...LOOL...but yeah, everyone was mad cold to her, dunno whether all that stuff was true or not...but yeah, all I know is that around the halfway point of the school yeah...they were all friends LOL...no comment...women...


Story number 2...so you know how popularity is super important in school and stuff like that...so in grade 6 I believe, there was this new girl...she was pretty cute, she automatically chilled with our group and before she came, this one girl in our group pretty much ran tings...she was the it girl everyone wanted to get at, da boss...but at the same time, she was loved as much as she was hated cuz she had a terrible personality, full of herself, etc...so this new girl and her became best friends right away...the new girl was really nice, sweet, good personality...they became best friends...as they became best friends, the new girl became like really popular as well. And as we all chilled more, people started to dislike the girl who was really full of herself cuz she was just not a nice person, but I guess being around the new girl emphasized her negative traits...so I forgot who came up with it...but they were like, we're not chilling with her anymore, we're kicking her out...I was just like huh...they're like what we're gonna do is during recess...we're gonna run away from her...LOOOOOLLLL I guess when you're in elementary school that's a big deal...I kinda kept away from them...so yeah come recess, they ran away from her...she literally chased after them...they kept running away from her...to the point where she started crying and went to the teacher and they all got in trouble...but the teacher couldn't force them to chill with her...so she was "kicked out"...but you know what that reminds me of...Mean Girls...when Regina George puts her own picture in the burn book and cries and snitches on them...hahahahahahaha

Picture of the Moment

Forever my first ever favourite player in the NBA...

Picture of the Moment

The top 2 in the game right now...

Andy Mineo - In My City

In everything that you do, whatever your passion is...there is some way you can do it to glorify God...whether that may be sports, like Jeremy Lin, Tim Tebow...or music...like Lecrae and this dude right here...Andy Mineo, formerly known as C-Lite...his lyrics are pretty dope.

LOL of the Moment

This is such a jokes commercial....the old man ends up crossing and jamming on them....and it ends up to be Kyrie Irving.

Jon Connor - The Way I Am

My brother introduced me to this dude...HE IS A BEAST! His album The People's Rapper LP is soooo sick...he pretty much just goes over Eminem beats...you name it....Till I Collapse, Lose Yourself, When I'm Gone, 8 Mile...his lyrics are just so sick...he reminds me of the J. Cole's, the Logic's...the dudes who rap with substance in their lyrics...damn. He also has a previous album called The Blue Album...where he just goes over Jay-Z beats...

Today...

Sup my peoples...sorry for no posts yesterday...what did I do...oh right...woke up early morning for a meeting at church...had lunch with them, went to someone's house to practice songs that we led today. Got home around like 4 ish or something like that, loafted a bit, watched a movie...started planning for Sunday school which I taught today...barely halfway through and my friend called me up and asked if I wanted to ball, so went out to ball at like 8, came home at like 11 -__-...luckily planning didn't take too long, got home ate dinner, showered and finished planning. Today was a really really long and tiring day....I was so tired the entire day, woke up early to head to church to practice before leading worship. After worship, taught Sunday school...afterwards, I was chilling in the gym waiting to go to lunch when one of my friends came and sat beside me...we got to talking and I just literally bursted out sharing everything that's been on my mind...lately I've been going through a lot and my mind's been heavy and I just really needed someone to talk to but everyone seemed busy or not there...so we talked a bit in the gym, then went out for lunch and talked for another good hour...it was just a really good, warm and reassuring feeling...we both shared about what was on our hearts and we both comforted and gave each other advice...I really appreciate conversations like those. Afterwards, he dropped me back at church for a prayer meeting then worship practice for next week's gospel sunday...I can literally say after practise, I was completely drained....came home, napped for an hour, showered, napped for another hour, ate dinner, napped for another hour, then loafted on the computer lol....what else what else....100,000 IS RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER!!!! I've had literally no time to record...but I have so many tracks lined up...I wanna get it done and out before 100,000 but I'm also super busy as of late...I'm leaving next week Sunday after church for my missions trip...I'll be gone from the 29th to the 5th, coming back at night...and everything up to me leaving is just so hectic...got softball practice tuesday and thursday, double header on saturday...missions meeting on friday and I and my friends have to plan games for missions, a weeks worth of games...plan and prep for care group night on friday...and on top of that I wanna squeeze time to record hopefully but I can push that up if I must...then I wanna gym still and play ball...still wanna chill with friends and fam...pray for me...for organization and time management, for strength and faith...need to keep up with devos as well.

A Prayer...

Dear God,

I may not show it, I may not tell people, but God I'm slowly being broken both inside and out...I feel like I put so much effort and time and heart into relationships and friendships...that when it fails me, I fall along with it. Lord, I'm so fortunate to have people in my life who care about me, genuinely want me to do well in life. I'm thankful for the people who keep me accountable...but God, lately...I've been lacking motivation...lacking inspiration, give me the passion for You, renew my fire. God, I feel your presence around me, I know that you're trying to reach out to me especially this summer...so many opportunities and chances to trust you, to take that first step...but I'm scared. Lord, I pray you guide me, you push me to take that first step...I pray you speak to me the words I need to hear...I've been so lost lately...lacking direction...God, lift all these burdens from me please. I'm tired of hurting, I'm tired of being stressed...I'm tired of the problems...I know temptations and trials are apart of life...and that you will not tempt us beyond anything that we cannot handle...but God, sometimes it gets so hard. I pray you break me down, rid me of my sin and shame...rekindle the passion for You...put you as the centerpiece in my life and allow everything to revolve around it. God I pray for the people around me...I pray that you weed out the negative influences...take out the trash, the people who do nothing but bring me down...Lord I pray you send a positive influence, a positive role model to me, someone I can look up to...someone to guide me and correct me when I'm wrong. God, a lot of the times I rely on others' understanding when they barely know you either...God, I know you have a plan for me, I know you're looking down on me saying everything is going to be alright...I pray you rid me of these feelings, of this stress...of these unnecessary thoughts...change me, shape me, mold me to a Godly person, more like you. God, rid all of the distractions in my life...I want to put my faith not in man, not in family, friendships or relationships but in you and you alone...and through you, all of these things will come naturally. God, as the missions trip is coming up...I pray I not simply use this as a vacation to get away from everything...I pray I use this opportunity to get to know you, to share Your word and spread Your gospel. I pray I use this opportunity to praise You and gloryify You. Lord...lastly, I pray you push me, send me a sign, help me want to know You, want to open Your word...in order to know You, we must know Your word. Reading Your word is exactly like You communicating directly to us...I pray I be influenced and motivated and changed by Your word...I pray you speak the right words to be...I pray I do everything in order to follow and fulfill Your will for me, not my own will...God I pray you continue to look over me, guide me and watch over me...I'm still a spiritual baby...teach me Your ways...change me how You see fit...give my life a purpose glorifying to You, I pray all of these things in your more precious name.

Amen

From The Heart: The End

I was just sitting in my room, lying down...when this thought came to me, what if blogger one day shut down...or what if one day my blog gets taken down. I don't know what I'd do...how freaked out or traumatized would I be. From all the hard work I've put into it...2 years or posts, hits, thoughts, feelings, emotions...gone...just like that. Everything I've worked so hard for up to this point being up in an instant...that's a scary thought. I have a tumblr, but like I don't really work that hard on that or advertise it or really put much heart into it, it's just pictures...I don't know how to create a website, probs have to pay for it...but to make thebestyouneverheard it's own website you know...I pray that it never happens...that blogger stays strong and that my blog stays strong...for now at least...whatever the future holds...just gotta be ready for it. But that's a really scary thought for me right now...like say tomorrow...what if blogger shuts down...or goes out of business...I guess these thoughts came into my head cuz I was on blogger just clicking on random blogs and a lot of blogs are from families or parents who wanna blog about their families and a lot of blogs in general are inactive...meaning people stopped using there or people blog like once a week, once a month...occasionally I'll find someone who blogs as frequently as I do...but that's a scary thought, to think this blog could be gone in an instant...my life, my soul, my hard work...could be all gone in an instant with no way of getting it all back...having to start pretty much from scratch...oh man, I don't even wanna think about that, that's scary...

Random Stories

Okay so this is actually 3 different stories...

Story number one...so in high school, this asian girl who's like one or two years younger than me added me on facebook randomly but I had a bunch of mutual friends with her so I was like okay. We got to talking and stuff like that and found out she lives in Scarborough I think, so we started talking more and more and then one night she was like hey, can I call you? She was like it's late and I wanna go to bed but I wanna keep talking to you...LOOL so I was like, uh sure...gave her my number and she called me and this became a habit...we would talk on like msn or something and then she's like I wanna go to bed, so I'm gonna call you okay...I'm like sure...and she was so random on the phone sometimes too...she's like hey, I'm chilling in the bathtub right now...cuz I don't want my parents to book me on the phone LOL. Keep in mind, I still haven't met her in real life...but my friends apparently knew her, so I knew it wasn't like a sexual predator or something LOL. So we still haven't met and then one day she's like so my birthday is coming up and I'm thinking of renting out some banquet hall or something and she's like I'd really like for you to come. I was kinda hesitant cuz well...I've never met her lol I was a young kid in high school, nervous as heck, but I figured she liked me, she was kinda cute...not sure how I felt about her, so I went with my friend. For some reason, I pictured this to be a really huge party cuz she said she invited a bunch of mans and rented out some hall..it turned out to be a pretty small place with I'd say like less than 25 people...so I met her and we talked and stuff and chilled and stuff...she was a really cool girl, I won't go into detail with what happened at the party LOL...but yeah we never really officially went out or anything, but we just chilled a whole lot and talked a whole lot...eventually we kinda just stopped...I can't even remember why lol we just stopped talking. But yeah...present day...today, she messaged me...weird...she was like hey, it's been a while, what's up and all that stuff...just catching up and stuff...she's like we should chill and catch up, it's been a while...LOOOL...I was just like uh yeah sure, why not...whether the plan actually goes through, who knows...but that was a pretty interesting experience.

Story number two goes like this...story number one just reminded me of this story I guess. So I was talking to my friend, this girl...we were talking a lot, back and forth on facebook...a few days later, this random girl adds me and the girl I was talking to is the only mutual friend we have, so I ask her how she knows me and she's like oh I don't, but I'm friends with the girl you're talking to and you seem like a cool dude, so I added you...LOOOL, is that weird or what? I asked my friend who this girl was and she said both their moms work together, that's how they know each other...she was like, yeah I'm not even that close with her so even I don't know why she added you LOL. Nonetheless...I talked to her, back and forth for a long time. One day, she was like...hey, wanna webcam...this was before skype...so I was like uh, my room's kinda messy, she's like don't worry I don't care, so we webcammed...and this too became a habit...we would go on msn, play games and stuff...and just like that she would send me a webcam invitation...LOOL, it was mad random...but I got to know her more and stuff like that and she lived in Pickering...she's like I go to Markham here and there, we should chill or something, I was like okay...so we picked a day to chill and I forgot what happened, but she's like turns out I can't chill, I was like oh okay...she's like can I come over instead.......? LOOOOOOOOL I was dying...mad random, mad awks...but I was just like uh....she's like c'mon...I was like alright fine, keep in mind, early high school...I was young. So yeah, we chilled and stuff...got close, etc....we still talk here and there...but that experience was...interesting...lol...she came over a few times and we chilled a lot...I wonder what ever happened to her lol...

Okay it was only supposed to be 2 stories, but as I was writing story number 2, story 3 came to my head...I don't even know how I met this dude, how we started talking...all I know is we had the same last name, that's it. He was my age and lived pretty far I believe, but had a cousin that lived really close to me. So yeah, we've talked a lot, never met...one day, he goes...yo I'm going to my cousin's house...wanna chill and like play sports or something...at first, I said yes...but last minute, kinda got creeped out and nervous and was like sorry I can't make it...lol...cuz we had no mutual friends and I'd never seen the dude, only pictures...but yeah, I flopped on him and he's like oh ok. Another time, he asks me to chill...I was with a few friends, so I was like yeah sure why not...and we met and stuff and he was a cool dude lol.

Yeah, I've met a lot of random people for some reason...and yeah...lol...back in the days of like Zuup and Asianavenue when the whole point was to add and connect with random people...now with Facebook and stuff, that's just weird...but that's how I met a lot of people, or know of people lol...Zuup and Asianavenue were like blogs kinda...you can personalize it and follow people and the point was to besides follow you friends, follow random people and also try to get followers as well...but yeah, that's how I met a lot of random people, maybe that's how I met dude from story number 3...hm....LOL

Today...

Was a real loaft day...woke up at like 12 ish...the cut on my foot was still there on my left foot, the one on my right foot is healing...doesn't hurt that bad. Was literally such a loaft day, ate lunch, watched movies, repeat LOL. Watched like 3 movies today and a bunch of youtube videos...on another note, my brother's karmaloop shipment came in today...finally. Was supposed to go to softball practice with a friend today, but me and her both flopped cuz she didn't really want to and I couldn't really with my foot...Thursdays are also ball at church, couldn't go to that either cuz of my foot...my friends asked to play ball at the park, couldn't do that either...literally loafted in my room the whole day...was even too lazy to go downstairs and game...-_- only time I went downstairs was for food...

Def Jam Poetry - Shihan - This Type Love

What Girls Really Do At Slumber Parties...

Haha this is so jokes...it's probably like  80% true too LOLL...

Motivation of the Moment

Today...

Today was a really good day...woke up early cuz it was too hot in my room and I couldn't sleep. Played videogames for a bit, then went to lunch with the whole fam...went to some bar for wings, ribs, fries and sandwiches...it was sooo good. Afterwards, went bowling with the whole fam, got 2 and a half games in and payed for an hour so it wasn't too bad. This was like a belated celebration for my dad since yesterday all we did was have dinner and cut cake cuz he worked late. After, came home, chilled a bit, watched a movie...friends called me out to play ball and went....surprisingly wasn't that crowded, wish we could play till really late but it gets dark and there aren't any lights...so yeah.

Frank Ocean - Pink Matter Cover (Jeff Bernat)

This is a song off his new album Channel Orange...this dude does the song justice!

Top 10 Michael Jordan Buzzer Beaters

Today...

What's good, today was a real fun, yet tiring day so far. Woke up and chilled for a bit...hit the gym at like 12, got a reeeeal good workout in, no time for ball...was way too tired, exhausted and sore, hit up the mall for some food and walked around a bit, headed home with my friend and we played videogames for a bit. Today was my dad's bday if you didn't know, my friends wanted to go watch a movie, I also had softball as well. Found out my dad finishes work at 9 so we weren't gonna go out or anything, just cut a cake and maye a simple dinner, so I figured I'd have time to do one of those things, ended up flopping on softball and wanted to go movies with my friends, tried to make it work, but long story short, I was gonna go, then flopped last minute cuz I realized I wouldn't be back in time for dinner with my dad and to cut the cake as well, because I flopped, my friend was hesitant to go as well and therefore flopped -___-...cuz of that the 2 other friends we were supposed to meet ended up going alone and one was kinda cheesed lol. Def understandable, cuz I always say how I hate people who flop last minute and stuff like that, so I def get that she's mad, I would be too, and I def feel really bad about flopping last minute as well -___-

Happy Birthday Dad!

To the hardest working man I've ever know, the man who instilled the morals and values into me and shaped me into the man I am today. The man who has taught me so many life lessons, the man who works his butt off every single day and every single night to put food on the table so our family can life a good life, specially so me and my brother have an easier life in the future. My dad...my role model, my hero, my friend...it's cliche to say, but my dad honestly works so damn hard...harder than anyone I've ever known and harder than all of your dads LOL no offense. You really don't appreciate and understand how hard your parents work...whenever I see my dad come home from work, tired, showering mad late, staying up late to watch TV and get the little time of relaxation that he has...I see him hurt, his back hurts sometimes, his body is beginning to grow old and slow, it hurts me...when I see him come home from work sometimes and just fall asleep on the couch cuz he's that tired...it hurts me. I love him to death...he works so hard, not for himself...but for me, my mom and my brother...to make our lives easier cuz he knows he won't be around forever. Yet he still manages to do so many more things, joins choir in church, leads small groups in church, plays guitar and other instruments and is someone people go to for advice and comfort...now that I'm older, I see so many similarities and traits that he's passed down to me. As annoyed as I get, I LOVE my dad's lectures...most of them occur at the dinner table...when we're eating, my brother often doesn't stay and leaves...and my dad would always say, you know when my dad gave lectures, all my siblings would leave too...but I would stay, cuz my dad was wise and I knew he wouldn't be with me long, so I wanted to spend as much time with him as possible, that just makes me so happy inside...when he tells me stories, or lectures me through his experiences. My dad is just an amazing person...I don't wanna be boastful, but so many people respect and look up to my dad...even when my friends come over and he lectures them, they're so into it and paying attention, they all think he's so cool. I love my dad...happy birthday, to many more safe, healthy and blessed years...thank you for everything.

Lupe Fiasco - Never Forget You feat. John Legend

This is my jam at the moment...so relaxing and I can relate to it.

Matt Redman - 10,000 Reasons

This song was the theme song for our retreat...my friend said there's always a new song in retreat that you just can't help but fall in love with and sing with all your heart. Another friend said I just love the way the whole congregation was singing together as one loud and with all their hearts, the chorus is so powerful and catchy...I kept humming and singing it the entire retreat.

This Summer...

This summer has really been a humbling experience and I really sense God's presence and I just feel Him speaking to me and ccalling me. From me failing 3 courses in school and being stressed and learning to trust Him and have faith in Him...to teaching Sunday school, being on worship team, having conversations with friends, being a group leader in retreat...and of course the upcoming missions trip. I just feel like this summer...not getting a job a decision I'm really glad I made...besides giving me time to loaft, go to the gym, ball and chill with friends...it really allows me to take time to read the bible, do devos and connect and get closer with God. This summer, which isn't even over yet...God has taught me so much...that just cuz you know about Him, doesn't mean you know Him. That the strongest people in faith, the smartest people or the people who've grown up in church...they can fall away just like that. That walking with God isn't gonna be easy, but it'll be worth it. That the plan I have for myself may not be the plan God has for me. That He has the blueprint in His hands, He knows everything will be okay..I just need to trust Him and lean not on my own understanding, but His understanding. There's so many things I could say that God has done or is doing in me right now...or the lessons He's been teaching me...and this summer isn't even over yet. I'm so excited and I can't wait to see what God has in store for me and the plan He has for me...all I know is that as long as He is by my side, I will not fail...and when I fall, He will pick me up.

"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me." Psalm 23:4

This Weekend...

This weekend was just an amazing time, a beautiful and glorious and wonderful retreat. Those of you who don't know, this weekend, my church went to Redeemer College in Hamilton for our church retreat. The first day, woke up real early on that Saturday and got there around 9 ish. Had time to unpack and register...got the weekend started with the first message of the retreat...everything felt a bit rushed and most people didn't bring their bibles or pens and the group leaders didn't bring their notes, but it was still a really great sermon. Small group time was only half an hour and we spent half of it introducing ourselves and really just settling down, got a few questions going but the main point was to really just get to know one another first, get comfortable with each other and get some sort of discussion going. After lunch we had a time of games, which was a real flop lol, mostly cuz we were supposed to go outside but it was too hot...then we went tot the gym but another group took half the gym so we didn't really have any space, so just had free time. We played ball for a bit, then went outside to have a football game...all of a sudden, it gets broken up for no reason and everyone goes to play soccer...soo cheesed, threw the frisbee around for a while before going back in and having some good runs of ball. After dinner, we had our 2nd message and small group time. Everyone by then had gotten somewhat settled in and we had a good hour of small group time...for my group at least, beside getting into deep discussion and asking the questions, I really wanted to simply get some flow of discussion and having everyone being comfortable with talking. It was really good, went in a circle and everyone shared, some people were still shy..but the fact they shared at all made me really glad. Finally, the moment everyone who goes to retreat is excited for, nighttime. Nighttime doesn't mean sleep, nighttime is where we all gather in one house and talk, chill, play games and have a great time. It started off slow, but got a bit better and went to amazing. Chilling in my house with 3 other guys just playing cards, loser doing pushups...slowly, a few people came into our house and next thing we know, our house was the house everyone gathered in LOL. Us 4 played cards the whole night...I ended up doing like over 200 pushups -_-...not cool. Ended up sleeping at like 3 ish...which is pretty good considering I slept at like 5 last year at retreat. The next morning set my alarm at 8 for 8:30 lunch, stopped it and next thing I knew, it was 9...and lunch ends at 9:30 -_-...jumped out of bed, threw on a shirt and went out for breakfast...was so tired and sluggish and entire day, everybody was. It was the last day and we would be leaving after lunch...after breakfast, we had our last message of retreat, everyone was really tired...if you looked around, you saw nuff people dozing off or with their heads down and eyes closed lol...small group time, we talked for a good 15 minutes and then just chilled the next 15 cuz everyone was majorly exhausted I guess. Afterwords, we had free time but me and my friend chilled as our small group left and we just talked and had good conversation...I'm glad that no matter how far we drifted apart, we still came back, though we may not be as close as we were, we're still on the level where we can talk and share about our lives and stuff. We had closing ceremony and everyone headed home to pack and stuff, it was time to say goodbye. Everyone was really bummed and sad cuz it was so short, only 2 days and 1 night...their complaint was they wanted to have more fun. I think the reason I would wanna have it 3 days 2 nights is cuz looking around, I saw lots of people I didn't know, or lots of people that have been coming for a while, but no one has realy reached out to them, even at lunch, they would sit with a group but not talk or no one would talk to them. My biggest thing is I wish it were longer and I wish they were more activities or things scheduled that allowed us to interact and mingle and really get to know one another. My pastor was saying during closing ceremony that retreat is one of the best times cuz we all sit in one house or whatever and we just tlak and have fun and really get to know one another. I was disappointed I didn't get to really reach out to everyone, but there's always Sundays and Fridays. Anyways, friend drove me home...was going with her to watch her softball games and cheer her on, ended up getting lost and ended up in Mississauga...-_-....started raining hard and both her games ended up being cancelled so we went to get some food, then went to the mall and met up with her friend and just chilled. Afterwards, we went back to her house and watched some movies, her friend left and 2 other of our friends came over and we just chilled and watched more movies, it was such a long day lol...didn't get home till past 12...showered, ate, and didn't sleep till like 1...I missed my shower and bed so much...wow this is a long post lol...hahaha kudos to you if you legit read all the way down here.

Words of Wisdom

"If you ain't lifting the burden, you probably adding to it." - Joe Budden


I feel like in life...you have tons of friends, different kinds and different groups. But ultimately, they all can be categorized into 2 groups. Good friends and bad friends...now by this, I don't mean good or bad people, I mean like encouraging or supporting friends. For example, a friend that is always there for you, listening to you, giving you advice and comforting you is a good friend. A bad friend is someone who always talks and talks and talks but never listens to you. A good friend is someone who keeps you accountable for your actions, makes sure you don't do anything stupid at say parties or gatherings. A bad friend is someone who eggs you on to do stupid things, who pushes you to say drink or tries to peer pressure you into smoking or doing drugs. I feel like lots of people are struggling with lots of things and a key factor in trying to fix it is the people you surround yourself with. If you're struggling with partying and alcohol...yet you constantly surround yourself with people who attend parties and get drunk, obviously what do you think is going to happen. However, say you're struggling with your faith and going to church or sinning, but you surround yourself with solid christians who are firm in their faith...they will keep you accountable, check up on you to see how you're doing, bring you to church, maybe even do devotions or bible studies with you. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying you have to completely cut the bad friends off, but limit the time you spend with them, cuz their habits will become your habits and if you're weak willed or easily tempted...this will turn out pretty bad. I have friends to drink, do drugs, go to clubs and parties...some of these kids I grew up with, some of these kids I call my closest friends...but I hate chilling with them when they do those kinds of things...and they know that..I'd rather gather, order some pizza and play some videogames or watch the ball game. So instead, I surround myself with my close friends who don't do those things, who share similar interests and similar mindsets. I don't wanna put myself in that situation to get tempted even in the slightest...cuz you say you have self control and that you can watch yourself, but accidents happen and people do crazy things in the heat of the moment...I say, why bother even putting yourself at that disadvantage. It's like being a vegetarian, yet going with your friends do an all you can eat meat buffet...why not just convince your friends to go somewhere else. But yeah...that was just something I learned tonight...or something that reoccured in my head...to reevaluate the people you chill with...and whether they are influencing you for better...or for worse.

Today...

What's good, today was a productive day surprisingly. Didn't hit the gym, didn't game...instead did laundry, cleaned and vacuumed my room. It's so nice and neat now haha. Went to church and prayed for the retreat coming up tomorrow, played ball...something I haven't done in sooooo long...def missed it. Afterwards, headed to mcds with 2 friends and we just talked about life, God. parties and all that kinda stuff...it's always encouraging when I have these kinds of conversations with friends cuz it's either they help me and give me uplifting and supporting advice or I use my experience and what I know to help them. I love chilling and talking to church people in general...I was saying how when you grow closer to God, you begin to desire Him more and also you desire to be around people who desire to be closer to Him too and people who are spiritually strong that can keep you accountable. Joe Budden once said "if you ain't lifting the burden, you probably adding to it." I was really trying to emphasize that tonight, where you have different kinds of friends...either ones who help you, support you and are with you...or people who are against you and do nothing but bring you down and hold you back. It's like war...you can't sit in the middle...you're either on one side or the other.

Motivation of the Moment

Al Pacino's speech in the movie Any Given Sunday..
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Today...

Was a real loaft day...woke up, ate lunch, chilled a bit, worked out at home. Watched some movies, Kill Bill 1 & 2, Kung Fu Panda...gamed a bit...definition of a loaft day hahaha. Had a meeting at church for my missions trip coming up, it was good, prayed, talked, shared and yeah.

Traphik - Magnetic feat. Tori Kelly

The title of his mixtape really says true...Cruise Control...this would be such a dope song to blast with the top down...

Testing, 1, 2, Testing.

Sup guys, I'm just writing this post on my phone to see if it works. Going away this weekend to my church retreat and I don't wanna bring my laptop, but I still wanna be able to blog, so just checking to see of this works. Thanks y'all!

From The Heart: Late Night Confessions...

In high school, I would consider myself an all around dude, meaning I was cool with a lot of people, I was one of those dudes that the majority of people liked, but didn't really stand out very much. People use to tell me I was popular, but I didn't really let that get to me...cuz I didn't really think I was. But yeah...aside from playing sports, listening to rap music or whatever and like working out or chilling with my black friends...a lot of the times, I consider myself a nerd lol or a geek hahha. I love videogames, I love board games, I'm just a simple kinda dude. I'm that dude who'd rather stay in with a good group of friends and have fun rather than go out and get drunk and do drugs. Never a fan and still not a fan of drugs or drinking...yet a lot of people I know are like man, I can't wait to drink, man I'm only going to this party if there's alcohol. I was never a club scene kinda dude...yeah I've been, it's alright, but it's not my type of environment, that's not how I like to meet people, yeah my friends still drag me out here and there, but they know it's not my type of thing. Those big time parties with alcohol and dancing and crowds of people...eh...that's not really my thing either, for some reason, I just don't like meeting people that way you know. I'm that type of dude who would rather chill at the park with a group of friends, play some basketball...invite friends over and play some board games, videogames or have fun food. I'm not criticizing you or trying to convince you not to do those things, whatever you like...some people prefer that type of environment where it's loud and crowded and stuff like that...I dunno, that's just not me you know. I prefer to meet people the old fashioned way..and I don't even know what that means lol...so yeah, maybe I guess that's why, sometimes I consider myself a geek or a nerd...LOOOL, but I don't mind...that's just me, I've learned to embrace and be proud of who I am and everything I represent.

Random Thoughts

It's a weird feeling, but a happy feeling. You know those girls...who you know so well or have known for a long time...that just by looking at them you automatically know how they're feeling, you may not necessarily know what's going through their head, but you know what it's about.

Or...

That feeling when you see a girl smile...and her smile alone just forces you to smile...I dunno why lol...I just caught myself smiling writing this sentence...hahahha, I dunno why...when I think of cute smiles...besides like celebrities and stuff, a few people come to mind...lol caught myself smiling like an idiot again haha.

Or...

Those girls who you can kinda just sit with and chill...talk about life, personal stuff, random stuff...whatever. Just the fact that you're spending time together is sufficient...and I'm not even talking about like a girlfriend...just a friend...it is possible, with lots or work and self control, guys and girls can be good friends.

But yeah, that's just me...

Inspiration of the Moment

My favourite scene in the movie Pursuit of Happyness...also used this line for my grad quote...

Kanye West - New God Flow feat. Pusha T

I've been really feeling Pusha lately...dude is a lyrical beast.

Random Thoughts

I was having this discussion with a friend and he was saying how he's known this guy (whom I kinda look at as like a little brother) for a really long time, but has never gotten the chance to talk to him or get to know him. He was saying how he really wants to get him to open up and talk to him and be good friends with him. For some reason, it kinda hit a nerve with me, knowing both of them, I know my friend is a really introverted, shy kinda guy and he's really reserved and the fact that my other friend kinda wants to push him to open up and for them to be friends, I don't really see any good coming out of this. I want the best for my friend as well, I want him to be able to open up, but only when he feels good and comfortable, not because someone is pushing him to...that'll only drive him, or anybody away...you have to let people open up on their own terms, you can't force someone to open up to you just cuz you wanna get to know them more.

Today...

What's good, sorry for no posts yesterday, it was a long day with just back to back to back things to do. Woke up at like 11 ish and hit the gym at 12 with a friend. Had lunch with him, walked around the mall for a good while cuz we both had to get some things. He got some shoes, I got some slippers and stuff. Didn't know we spent that long at the mall, ended up going home at like 5 ish and rested for a bit, then had softball at 6. Like half the team showed up, so we scrimmaged with another church that was there. I was pitching to one of the dudes on my team, cuz it's a self pitch league...he hit a grounder straight down center and it hit me on my inner left thigh...a few inches shy from me never having kids again. I was def thankful it hit my thigh instead of the other place since the thigh has lots of tissue and fat, so no bruise or anything, just hurts a bit when I rub it right now. Today was simply a loaft day...woke up, worked out at home a bit, watched Freedom Writers, ate lunch and lots of junk food, watched more stuff on my computer, then had a meeting at church at 7:30 for the retreat coming up this weekend, it should be fun, Yeah the majority of people, including me are unhappy about it being 2 days 1 night instead of 3 days 2 nights cuz we feel you go, unpack, sleep and you're gone the next day, but eh...I'm trying to be positive, not just about this but in everything in life as well...positive that I'm just gonna have fun and make the best of the time that I do have there you know.

Wale - Ambition feat. Meek Mill, Rick Ross

Today...

Sorry for no posts yesterday...church in the morning, taught sunday school, had lunch with friends...headed and chilled for a bit. Then had softball, the game was real good, went 0-3 batting, flew out 3 times...played very well defensively though. The whole team stepped up and played their hearts out, down by a bunch of runs, ended up winning the game by 2. Afterwards, headed to the coach's house for some food, worship and games. It was real fun to just bond, talk and have a good time..especially since a lot of my friend's teams are really competitive and only about winning and don't bond outside of softball.

Today, went to the gym, afterwards had lunch with friends...chilled with them after at the park for a good while, then went back to their house and watched Disturbia and Pink Panther...I honestly love those kinds of chill times, though we don't talk during movies, just the company in general...and the time spent...it def worth while...afterwards, had a training session for my upcoming missions trip, just went to church where they had a kids program and we just helped out, real fun.

Oh right, don't know why I'm just remembering this now, during the game yesterday, a bunch of people on the senior team came and supported us as well as people from our old team and low and behold my ex was there lol. After the game she sits like right beside me, but doesn't acknowledge me LOL, so I tapped her and was liek hey and we just hugged, caught up and stuff like that. I genuinely still care about her and wanna know how she's doing, so we talked for quite a bit, told her I def wanted to see her in the summer and just chill and see how she's doing and keep her accountable with her christian life...that was a nice talk.

Cutie of the Moment

Or should this be titled "Cuties of the Moment" since there's so many of them LOOOLLLL, someone posted this on FB....so cute and so addicting to watch LOLLLL...the cheerleaders from the Miami Dolphins cover Carly Rae Jepsen's Call Me Maybe.

Today...

Today was such an amazing and beautiful day...just a real humbling experience. Woke up at 12 ish got my stuff ready and headed out for 2 games of softball. Our first game was at 2, this was our first game of the season. I was so proud of my team, through tough times, errors, mistakes, they played hard and brought their A game, they really stepped up. One moment in the game where one guy on our team was getting really frustrated and the fact that he missed a few easy balls. It's his first year playing and he reminded me so much of me last year, so much emotion and passion and competitiveness, he was really beating himself up. After a play, I ran up to him and talked to him, calmed him down, I saw so much potential and heart in him, but I wanted him to have a clear head and recognize the reason we gather to play this game. I was really proud at how he conducted himself after...damn. We lost the first game 8-13...but I'm so proud of how well the team played, they encouraged and supported each other, amazing. The second game, we were all tired, it was hot outside...but with that bitter taste of defeat in their mouths, they rose to the occasion, stepped it up and literally carried the team with a few of our key players missing. One instant happened where we were up, I hit the ball and some dude missed it and it hit his face, he was bleeding and there was a small cut around his eye and the game was called out due to that and we were running out of time, so we won that game 12-8. It's just really encouraging to see 2 teams, opponents, coming together after one player gets injured, to help him out and yeah...today was a really uplifting and encouraging day. Game tomorrow at 6...can't wait.

Eminem - Stan feat. Elton John (Live)

This song was originally featuring Dido, but this performance was different cuz he got Elton John to sing the chorus...so passionate and emotional, no lip synching, straight from the heart.

The Cypher Round 1 feat. Ghods, Omar

Can't believe we made this video over a year ago...haha man this really brings back memories...don't worry, there are talks of a round 2, just need to get some other things off my plate first and of course record the tracks I've written already. Rewatching all my old videos I posted back then, man my flow was whack, but I def saw improvement as I watched each video...I also def seen lots of improvement in my lyrics and just the substance you know...damn haha it's been a long road.

Backstreet Boys - I Want It That Way (Boyce Avenue Cover)

Today...

Was a loaft day...gym in the morning flopped on me, ended up working out a it at home, made myself a protein shake and some fruits, really trying to not only workout but as well have a healthy diet too. Chilled the entire day just watching movies, documentaries, etc on my computer. Had softball in the evening and that was fun, was really hot the first it, but we scrimmaged with the senior team from the same church, started off nice...our team has lots of potential, I just hope we can keep that up this weekend.

Frank Ocean - I Miss You

Doesn't matter what his sexual orientation is, this dude can siiiiing...his voice still remains amazing, he's still the same person, damn, still love him. He originally wrote and gave this song to Beyonce, guess he just did a little cover performance kinda thing live.

Wreck It Ralph Trailer

This movie looks too jokes lol...all the bad guys in videogames haha

One Direction - What Makes You Beautiful (Cimorelli Cover)

I think I've showed you these girls before, 6 sisters who sing on youtube...so talented...cute too :)  

Today...

What's good, today was a loaft day, but a fun one at that. Woke up and chilled, watched a movie on my computer, my friend came over and we gamed for like a good 4 hours LOOL. After that, it was like 6 pm and just chilled the entire day pretty much. Oh yeah, I ordered from underarmour  like last week and my package came today, that was pretty nice. My brother ordered from karmaloop last week and I got a few things too, so that should be coming soon too. Other than that, just a regular day. Lots of things coming up though...I have 4 tracks lined up, done, just ready to record and put them out. My church's retreat is coming up next weekend, my mission trip to Cleveland is the week after that. Got 3 softball games coming up this weekend, 2 on Saturday and one on Sunday...so yeah, lots of stuff coming up. Def really relaxing though ever since I finished course selection though...just chilling as of late.

Chief Keef - I Don't Like Remix feat. The Game, Chris Brown, Kanye West, Jadakiss, Big Sean

Today...

What's good, today was a really loaft day. Was supposed to hit the gym...flopped on it cuz my friend wanted to come game, he flopped on me...so no gym and no gaming...ended up staying home the whole day by myself just loafting. Had softball in the evening and had plans to watch a movie but it was all sold out so that flopped as well...headed home and just had dinner and took a shower...just a real flop day -_-

LOL of the Moment

So I was eating dinner with a bunch of friends the other day and my friend goes, hey wanna hear something funny. So I'm talking to my girlfriend on msn and he's like hey, we have to talk, I have to tell you something. So she starts freaking out and calls him up right away...he goes hey ____, you know, we've been dating for 2 years and (she's already freaking out to this point) you've only made me 2 sandwiches, that is absolutely unacceptable. LOOOOOOOOOOLLLL she got soooooooo cheeeeeesed and he just laughed...me and my friends were dying, we were like...why on earth would you decide to start a conversation like that LOL, he's like...it sounded funny in my head. My other friend goes, heheh...that was a good one, I'm gonna try it on my future girlfriend, we all stare at him and start dying lol, we were like you might not get so lucky...she might do more than just get cheesed...like kill you LOOL.

Bobby Valentino - Turn The Page

I've been jamming to old songs lately, specifically old r&b songs...this is the jam.

Important News!!!

What's good, good morning. This is a change isn't it...usually I blog at night cuz I get lazy and procrastinate...nah son, blogging first thing in the morning today, yeah buddy. But yeah, so up until now the most viewed month of all time on this blog was December 2011 with 7150 hits...well yesterday June 2012 officially became the most viewed month of all time with 7713 hits...yeeeeeah buddy. This blog will only continue to grow and get better...and I'll continue to give you more of me...thanks.

Meek Mill - Dreamchasers feat. Beanie Siegel

Only fitting after hitting 90,000...

90,000 HITS

No long speech, no hyped up celebration, reaching 90,000 means one and only one thing...I'm less than 10,000 hits away from that FIRST 100k hits...to think this blog lasted this blog, made it this far and accomplished this much is mind blowing. I have so many projects coming up...got like 4 tracks writtena nd ready to record and there are talks of perhaps a music video...but I give the credit to all this to God who helped me through all the tough times and all the good times...every heartfelt post I've ever written, all the glory goes to Him. Second, thanks to all you guys, the viewers...this blog...this small website has become such a big part of my life now...thanks to you guys. Third...all my friends who supported me through it all...and shouts to those who never believed in me...and still doubt me to this day...y'all remain one of my biggest motivations.

From The Heart: My Dad Use To Say...

Today at the beach, literally like less than half an hour of chilling there, something happened. We're all chilling, me and my friend are throwing around the frisbee, I see my friends making food, sandwiches, chips and stuff, bringing out water...then I see them bring out alcohol...beer, vodka, etc. I keep playing frisbee with my friend...next thing I know...2 cops are there...we're like a few metres away, so we stay back for a while, they stay there, they start like going through our things. Me and my friend went back and they were giving them their licenses to first make sure they were even old enough to have alcohol in the first place. After than, the cop proceeds to check out bags and stuff and finds drugs in one of my friend's bag...so besides bringing alcohol to the beach...which we're not allowed to do, they had drugs on "us" as well. Sat us down, and said we're not allowed, etc...how they're letting us off easy with just ONE ticket of $120...instead of 9 tickets and one person having to go get fingerprinted, they made the dude with the drugs pour out all the alcohol and take the ticket and we would or whoever would chip in for the ticket. The whole time, as we were sitting there...I kinda zoned out...just everything flashed before my eyes...I know it wasn't anything super serious...but it was kinda serious to me. I've never dealt with the police before, not that I remember anyways. What he said was right, it could have been worse...say my friends brought more drugs...we could've been in so much more trouble...or if they called our parents or something...one ticket and nothing else is pretty fair if you ask me. Now like 3/4 of the people there were going to drink and half of them do the drugs I'd say. So I was talking to my real close friend who doesn't do either of that...saying how I don't feel it necessary for me to chip in to pay for the ticket...people were like yo, yo it's okay...I got your back...in my head...I was like are you stupid to bring that here in the first place and put that in the open. My dad always use to tell me to watch who I hang out with and I never understood why. He said hanging out with bad people is bad...I would always back talk and say but I'm not going to do the bad things.;..but just that simple fact that you're there gives people the assumption you are doing it and that you're associated with them. When the cop was talking about the alcohol and drugs he wasn't referring to just a single person, but to all of us as a whole and it really just made me reevaluate this whole thing...I'm not gonna dump my friends for this one incident, but it makes me more sensitive next time they hold these kinds of gatherings you know...I dunno, I had so much more to say, but I lost it...it was a real hectic first hour...afterwards we got in the mood and let it go and chilled and played sports and stuff....sigh, I thank God that nothing serious or severe happened to us.

Today...

Was a real long and tiring day...woke up early and went to church for praise team practise before leading songs for worship. After that, taught Sunday school, watched a movie, after that...rushed home and got ready and hit up Cobourg beach with my friends for Canada day. Got a story and some heartfelt stuff about that later in a diff post, but yeah. The people there were all white, really nice and friendly...the beach was beautiful, the sand, the water...the girls lol. We played football, frisbee, talked, chilled, it was an amazing time from the car ride there to the car ride back. Got home around 9:30 ish, ate dinner, watched TV for a bit then showered and now writing this post...