Last Post of 2013

Sorry guys I've been so loaft lol...but lemme give you a quick update...Thursday, went out to breakfast with my 2 friend who I haven't seen the entire break...definitely miss them and their company and just the conversations we have...we went to Cora's and it was also Boxing Day so we hit up Markville after for a bit and just walked around, it wasn't that packed surprisingly, I just got a belated Christmas present for my brother. Then that same night there was basketball at church. Friday, honestly can't remember anything but fellowship lol and we had a combined program with the high school fellowship...but that's when my eyes really started hurting and still have been somewhat bothering me lately...so went home right after and went to bed. Saturday I went to the Raptors game with my friend cuz his work gave him 4 free tickets...and they were nice seats too lol. I also grabbed dinner with him before the game and we went to Chipotle, my first time and it was so bomb lol. That night was fun, we won, got free piza and it was Demar Derozan bobblehead night lol. Sunday, another busy day...woke up early after a late night to lead worship. Then after service we had a meeting at 3-6 but I had to leave early at like 5 to pick p some food and go to my softball team reunion dinner...that was real nice but I was so tired the whole night, but def nice to see the team and talk about next year and just chill and have fun together. Monday, was a maaaaad busy day, my friends were talking about skiing before and so we went Monday with 3 of my friends and my friend's brother and dad cuz he had coupons...we went to Dagmar...I haven't been skiing since elementary school but my friends took me to the biggest hills...including black and double black diamond LOOOL...it was sooo fun though. Came back at 5 for a meeting till 7...grabbed some food then came back to church at 8 for ball lol. Today is mad busy, spent the whole day cleaning the house cuz a bunch of people are coming over to celebrate new years...definitely can't wait. Which is why I said this'll probs be the last post of 2013 cuz I'll be busy running around the entire night lol. But it's been a long, hectic but amazing year for a blog...here's to another great year, thanks for everything!

Where There Is A Will...

I remember first getting this book a few years ago...when I was in high school. It's called The Rose That Grew From Concrete...and it's pretty much just a compilation of poems written by 2Pac...this was when I really got into writing and recording music and I was looking for inspiration and came across this...booked it to Chapters and bought it...I still have it to this day kept in great condition and I love it. I often look to it here and there...just for inspiration you know.

MC Jin - Fear Factor feat. Amante Lacey

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Merry Christmas everyone! Man I really do love this time of the year...everyone's together chilling and just having fun. Yesterday I went grocery shopping with 2 friends to prepare for a dinner that night we were having with a few other friends. We went to some Korean grocery store and ended up spending like 3 hours there cuz we had lunch and ended up taking about a bunch of things lol. Afterwards I went home to shower and get ready, headed to my friend's house at like 5-6 ish to go prepare dinner. I didn't really do anything actually LOL...just sat there and watched Fresh Prince and played on my friend's PS3...but the food my friends made was bomb...a bunch of diff korean foods...beef, pork belly, chicken...so bomb lol. Afterwards we all sat around the table and played monopoly haha, definitely a fun time...then sat around a bit longer and talked before all heading home. My friend who dropped me home ended up coming in cuz we saw a bunch of cars at my house, one being his parents...so I guess my parents brought a bunch of their friends home LOL...we ended up gaming for an hour or so and talking about a lot of things, it was really nice. This morning was just a loaft day with the family...I woke up at 2 ish and watched basketball and played video games till like 5...my parents came home from lunch with their friends and we all started prepping dinner together, my uncle came over and we just had hotpot together, now I'm just chilling lol. But yeah...Merry Christmas guys...be safe, have fun and cherish your loved ones around you...it's all you really need. And lastly...remember why we celebrate Christmas...because Jesus came down to earth and died on the cross for us...even though we didn't deserve it...man...thank you Jesus.

MC Jin - Broken Record feat. Caleb

My friend showed me this song a few days ago and it's been on repeat since...

Long Overdue...

I'm sorry lol...I know it's been a while...but honestly, I've been busy...haven't had much time to myself really..when I'm not sleeping, it's meetings, practices, family time and course finding time to chill with everyone who's back in town. Thursday morning my friend came over...he came back from Quebec and I haven't seen him in ages. It was a nice time, we just chilled and played video games...and people actually try to tell me you can't bond through video games...that guys are so intense that we don't even talk. We actually had a great time catching up and he actually invited me to go to a Raptors game on the 28th cuz his company gave him some tickets lol...so yeah, that should be fun. Then at night I had practice at church for the upcoming Christmas program which happened on Saturday. I told you guys I've been sleeping like at 2-3 and waking up at like 1-2 lately...Friday I got up early like 10:30 to meet my friend and we had lunch together. It was definitely nice cuz her and I haven't really been seeing eye to eye lately...so I called her out cuz I felt like we had a bunch of things to talk about and it was real nice cuz it's as if nothing had changed and we ended up talking things out and I honestly feel great about the whole situation, thank you for the reassurance, and for every thing else...I honestly know how much you care but also how hard it is for you to show it sometimes. We then went to the mall and just shopped and walked around cuz she had to get some stuff and I ended up getting a hat lol...talk about impulse decision, but I like it though lol. That whole afternoon was just a nice bonding time for me and her cuz I consider her one of if not my closest female friend...thank you for that. Later that night we had fellowship and it was small group night, so the guys all got together and me and my friend organized this thing where we had a timeline of the year...and pretty much we just collaborated as group to remember some eventful things that happened this year in church, in our lives and in general...it was a nice time of sharing and reminiscing...though not many of us remembered what happened in the beginning of the year lol. Saturday was a busy day cuz we had a practice at 3 till like 5 ish...my friend came over cuz he lives far away and didn't wanna go home and come back at 7 for the program. So we chilled till 7 and got ready for the program at 7:30...it was nice...despite all the stress, little annoying things and what not...ultimately it was all to glorify God and when we all...well me personally...got on stage and we started leading worship...I just let it all go...all that practice, all those times spent working at it...paid off...cuz I was on stage...not just leading worship, but participating in it...giving all of what I had to God. Afterwards, I had to dip right afterat 9 ish cuz my friends were having a potluck at 7...but I told my friend to save me some food cuz he and his brother was cooking so I wanted to try it out. Got there at like 9:30....boy did they make A LOT of food...he had made a turkey, some rice, his bro made this sickkkk pasta...what else...people brought snacks and desserts and other side dishes as well. It was nice to see all of my homies again...from high school, and others who are usually away at university...we played poker, watching ball, played 2k...man it was just such a nice night. Saturday night is also when it started to have freezing rain, sot he roads were mad slippery...got home at like 1 ish. Sunday morning was church like usual...we went out of the house to see the car was completely frozen...literally doors couldn't open, not even just thin ice, but thick ice...I had to like scrape and bang the ice real hard with the scraper thing to get it all off...after church I had to dip worship practice an hour early at 4 to help my friend with something, then we went to BTBC to play some volleyball and basketball with our other friends. We had a gathering that same night as my friends just to chill and such. But yesterday because of the ice storm a lot of places, malls and such didn't have power...but we were lucky enough to have power at his house and it was a real fun night so see all the church homies...especially the ones who are usually away come out...eat, play board games, laugh, joke and just chill and have a good time with fellow brothers and sisters. Today...Monday...was pure rest lol...woke up at 2...literally just loafted and played videogames and watched shows/movies all day...way too exhausted lately. But I love this time of year cuz everyone's back and there's always lots of Christmas parties and gatherings and chill times with homies since everyone's back...so it definitely gets me excited and happy. Tomorrow also got a dinner at a friend's house and probably some more board games and things of that nature lol....

Real Homies

Sorry for the lack of posts...what happens is I think of something I wanna talk about and write a brief thing on my notes in my phone...but usually loaft on actually transferring those topics onto the blog...tho I could blog on my phone lol...it's easier to sit and use a keyboard. But anyways...I think as I've gotten older...one of the biggest changes...is that when things don't go your way...when life throws tough obstacles at you...when you fail...back then, it felt like the end of the world...when I failed a course, when a girl rejected me, when I didn't make a sports team...it was literally the end of the world and I didn't know how to cope with it. But as I've gotten older...I'm learning that tho you can't avoid those kinds of things...that tho they'll always be there...that I have a God who loves me no matter what...that I have friends...and family...who are ALWAYS there for me...to support me and comfort me...and that's a really awesome feeling. Knowing that if things don't work out in whatever the situation, when I'm down, when life feels like it's over...that I have friends who still care and love me...family to go back to for comfort...and a God who doesn't care about all those things...man that's a really great reassurance.

30,000 STRONG

But wait Rodmond...isn't your blog at 180,000 hits...that is correct young grasshopper...30,000 strong,,,was accumulated from our neighbour the United States of America...WOOOOOOOW...like damn...can you believe...I don't even believe it lol. 30,000 of my blog's hits are from America...it hit 30k yesterday. Like wow...honestly, I don't think I know anybody from the States...do I? Nonetheless someone...correction some people apparently have heard of my blog and visit it on a consistent basis. Dang...so this post is specifically to you guys...my friends from the States...thank you for being apart of this with me...for helping me reach this milestone...and for continuing to support me every step of the way. My only wish is that I could interact with you somehow...to personally thank you...whether through twitter or facebook...but if anything, I'll just send my gratitude here...thank you...whoever you are...boy or girl, man or woman...thank you. I appreciate the love.

Big Sean - Memories

Definitely a song that hits home..."cuz in the end all you really have is memories"...

4 YEAR ANNIVERSARY

I know it's not the 15th yet...but it's pretty close, so I thought I'd get started on the post and put it out a bit early. But wow...4 years, honestly...I've shared this with you guys numerous times...4 years ago, when I first started this blog...it was just something to do because my friends did it. I did it for a bit, stopped cuz they stopped...but I forget when...I think it was in the 2nd year or something, I got back into it and got more serious about it. But even up until now...sometimes it still boggles my mind how "big" this blog has become. Not big as in like ohhhhhh a million views....or ohhhhh this celebrity has read my blog....but big in terms of just how many people, how many countries this blog has reached...and how many people continue to visit this blog on a consistent basis. I mean...there's nothing special here...just me, sharing my thoughts and view on things...and what goes on in my life. I feel like as of late...the posts have been more serious...well not serious, but just moreso me expressing myself...which is why it's been so lacklustre...and I haven't been posting everyday, because I don't wanna just post for the sake of posting...or post just any random thing. But sometimes there'll be days where I have a lot of talk about or share and some days there won't be lol. My friend made a good comment to me the other day about how my blog has "evolved" over time. And it truly has...for the longest time...my blog...was just me posting music and funny videos and pictures...and maybe talking a bit here and there. But as I've gotten older...as life progressed...things changed I guess...I still do post music and videos here and there...but this blog has become literally an online diary...a diary in a sense where I share what's on my heart, nothing held back (most of the time)...but it's online...where I'm sharing it with friend and stranger...with whoever comes on this blog. I think especially with the new year around the corner, a majority of the rest of the posts this year will be heavily reflection based...with some other things along the way. But it'll be nice just to reminisce through 4 years of existence. But wow...honestly, I've said it so many times that it's probably stale by now...but thank you to you guys...genuinely and honestly...a big part of this blog is me just simply expressing myself...but a big motivating factor is you...the viewer who constantly comes back and reads long posts like these lol. I know I said I had a big surprise for the 4th year anniversary...but time got the best of me and I was really busy with a lot of things...but it's stilml in the process...and maybe I'll finish it in time for 200,000 hits. But now...thank you...for supporting me through the good and the bad...for doubting me...for walking down this path with me...seeing me grow, seeing this blog grow into what it is today. But honestly...who knows what it'll become in a year...in 5 years...if I'll even still be doing it...but regardless...all I know is, I'm gonna continue to put my heart and soul into this blog...because it's me...and it represents everything I am, everything I stand for and everything I love...and of course everything that goes on in my head and everything that's in my heart. Thank you guys...cheers to another year of memories.

Preconceived Notions: Rap Music

I think one of my biggest pet peeves is this association that rap music is "bad" altogether. I feel like people have this preconceived notion that all rap is about guns, sex, drugs, money and violence...and for the most part, it is...well at least the garbage they play on the radio and show on TV. But it irks me cuz people seem to like to categorize me with rap music or hip-hop...cuz I guess I dress/act the part? And because rap music is viewed so negatively...so I get the short end of the stick as well. I feel like when people listen to rap music...they already have this thought in the back of their minds that it's going to be bad, it's garbage...so when they listen to it...they don't turn their ears into like police mode...where they specifically listen to pick out those topics I listed and swear words just to be like I told you it was a bad song. That annoys me a great deal...because real rap songs...that talk about substance and real issues...yeah they may have some swear words in it...but that doesn't make the entire song bad...that doesn't automatically mean he's talking about something bad. I think it's annoying when my church friends tell me rap music is bad and I shouldn't listen to it...but they'll go listen to people like Taylor Swift, One Direction...I know rappers have nothing and no association with that kind of music...but what makes Taylor Swift better than say J. Cole or Kendrick Lamar...because she doesn't swear? Because her songs are catchy? Not even trying to hate on Taylor Swift...I'm just trying to make a point...that because rap songs have swear words, all of a sudden they're labelled worse than other songs that talk about the same kinds of garbage. I dunno man...I guess rap music and hip hop is one of the biggest things that got me into writing in the first place as well...just the word play...the substance...the way they use words, rhymes and poetry to express themselves...I found that so cool.

RT - Best You Never Heard

Still remains my favourite and also my first track that I ever legit recorded with my homie...it means a lot to me...the lyrics especially. With the blog's 4th anniversary in 2 days...I've just been reminiscing a lot...like man it's been a while...4 years...wow. None the less, check it out if you haven't already...

Unexplainable Feeling...

I don't wanna call it an emptiness...but I've been talking to a bunch of friends lately...and things have been feeling different as of late...not a necessarily good or bad different, just a weird different. I'm talking specifically about church I guess...things have just felt empty in a sense...a few of my friends have said that maybe it's because everyone's away at university and that things'll be different when everyone's home. I hope so...that maybe when we have all these gatherings and times of bonding...things will feel better. But for some reason, things feel different...I was just talking to my friend and she put it in a way I've never heard it before...everyone's in it for themselves...no one's really looking out for each other and caring for each other. God, I'm just praying this Christmas break...we'll have opportunities to have community, fellowship and unity. Every year we always have a bunch of gatherings, play board games, Christmas, new years...pretty sure we'll probs do that, but things just feel different...I hope it's not though. Last week a few of my friends came back from university since they're done exams...and man it was just a nice feeling...like old times, deja vu. At the same time, I guess I shouldn't be too selfish cuz I was talking to the same friend and she goes really far away for university...so what she's feeling must be incredibly hard...that sense of "home"...being far away and when she is home...it's not even for that long...God I pray for this break to just be a fun, relaxing and God glorifying time together. I know it won't be by my power or anyone else's that we bond this break and what not...but all by Your grace and Your power and Your plan.

Getting Started...

I don't know why getting started seems to be one of if not the hardest part when it comes to completing a task. Whether that's cleaning your room, writing an essay, writing a card, writing a poem/verse, planning things...getting started always seems to be the hardest part. Like cleaning my room for example...my parents will nag me every single day to clean my room and it's actually the biggest hassle to get started, but say I get bored one day, jamming to music, start folding some clothes here and there and bam...next thing you know I'm cleaning my room lol. Or...in this example which has been relevant in my and probably a lot of your lives...staring at that blank screen or blank page thinking of what to write for your essay...but when you finally do put down something that makes sense, the words just begin to flow naturally and you can't stop. It literally is like a snowball effect lol. Some more recent examples in my life were worship night that happened a few weeks ago and the Christmas program in a few weeks...before any practice got started, I was stressed as heck cuz there was so much to discuss and finalize, but when we finally started practising and getting the ball rolling, things just began to flow naturally. My favourite example however is writing a verse or writing poetry...often when people ask me or tell me they want me to write or perform something, that ain't usually how it works for me...which is usually why it takes me so long or there'll be long hiatuses where I put nothing out. Cuz I'm the type of person who just writes when something comes to my head...but when something does come to my head, I won't stop, I'll actually keep going until I finish. So when people ask me how long it takes to write a verse or a rap...I honestly tell them a few days....literally I write most of them in a day because it's fresh in my head, I'm inspired and I'm motivated...the rest of the time is usually if I get any more inspiration to add or change it in case I feel something sounds better. But yeah...getting started seems to be the hardest process...like when a snowball falls down a hill...it starts small and doesn't seem like bunch and may take a while...but eventually, after a bit of time, it gets bigger and starts rolling faster...so yeah lol

JR Aquino - Take My Hand

Definitely one of my favourite youtubers...jamming to his covers tonight...

Prayer Journal: Day 13

I know it's definitely been a while since I've done this, but I've been keeping up with it...in my head at least, I've definitely been praying for a lot of people as of late.

Jyyu: I hope you're doing okay brother, it's been a while. I pray that you continue to surround yourself with people who will keep you accountable and always bring you back to God, I miss you bud,

Asyn: I'm truly so happy and so proud of you, honestly there's not much else that I can say. We'll catch up and talk soon. Continue to grow and embrace God's love and grace, He is above all your hardships and struggles, trust Him always.

Slma: I hope all is well with you brother, I definitely miss your down to earth personality and our conversations for sure. I pray that wherever God leads you, you continue to glorify Him in all your actions and tasks. Stay safe brother.

Sewu: Thanks, for always being there. There's so many things that I've never told you, but you are honestly someone I absolutely love talking to. Thank you for always being there, for always listening and for always being open and honest with me as well. I know your faith is somewhat shaky atm, but I'm praying for you, praying that you will let God lead you and guide you in all your ways.

Cllm: Whatever is on your mind and in your heart...is between you and God. Ultimately, no one anything says or does should affect your decision. But I'm praying for you, and I'm pulling for you. Nothing will ever change between us regardless of what happens. You've always been an inspiration to me and I know you'll do what glorifies God the most. You and I will always have a special connection that no one, even I will never understand, but that's what I love about our friendship.

Gyli: Those words you said to me will always stick with me, and I appreciate it greatly. I'm glad that I can be that inspiration for you, but honestly I still have my struggles and things I go through as well...so I pray that you find Jesus, who will never let you down, someone you can not only look up to but cling to, no matter how hard life gets.

Change...

So I've been thinking a lot lately...about myself. Like I've been having conversations with a few people lately just about the past and the old times. And all of them have said I've changed...a lot. And that got me thinking to just my elementary and my high school days...and I have changed. For the most part...I would sum myself up as the dude in the crew who you'd never notice, but he was always there. I think I've definitely become more confident and outspoken as a person, still shy, but who isn't around some people. But I've definitely shed that shell that I used to hide in in high school for sure. My friend was like yeah man...just think about how honest and open you are on twitter or you blog...or even just posting videos on youtube...that takes guts. And I thought about it more and more lol...I remember first posting youtube videos in high school and I was deathly afraid. Even posting notes on facebook...my first ever note that I wrote...I got my friend to post it for my cuz I was scared about what people would say and how they'd react. But now to me it's like whatever lol...saying what I feel and what is on my mind just comes natural now. Things like singing on stage or rapping on stage...well I'd never even consider it back then...but now I actually relish the opportunity and look forward to it, though the fear of forgetting my lyrics will always be there. But looking back to the kind of person I was back then, I've definitely grown...in a good way, and I'm definitely proud of who I am.

Brotherly Bonding

So my parents were out one night and me and my brother were eating dinner in the kitchen and we were reminiscing about our old house. I remember how my mom took my brother's room to use as a work room for her clients, so what we did was put a mantress in my room and my brother slept on the floor and I slept on my bed...lol I can't remember how long we shared a room for...but it was a real long time. We used to have the most jokes talks...I remember one thing we used to do was listen to the radio. This was before music was as advanced as it was now. But I remember every weekday, though I had school the next day, we would stay up till 12:30 for project bounce, this radio show that played underground rap and hip hop for half an hour lol...man those were good times. We would always play random games we made up...like one was pretty much guess the initials of the NBA player and you only had 3 tries and you could ask only yes or no questions for clues. So for example if I said the initials were VC and he said Vince Carter he'd be right. I remember the funniest one I ever gave him was RV...and he never guessed it...he spent a good portion of the night bothering me about it...I remember only seeing a flash of his name on some basketball videogame but his name stuck with me cuz it was so random. I told him his name was Ratko Varda LOOOL...we were dying for the longest time...man...those were the days. I guess I've just also been thinking about the future...and what'll happen...or rather how things'll be when say he moves out...or I move out...it'll be weird, not having him there, it'll feel empty that's for sure.

Words Of Wisdom

"You miss 100% of the shots you don't take."

My friend said this to me just now...and man did it ever hit home. If you never take the shot...you already miss because you're never even giving yourself that opportunity to succeed. This is a reminder for me...in everything in my life...that if I don't take that chance, I'll never know and always have that what if in the back of my mind. He then told me...what have you got to lose...and really what do I have to lose in my current situation. Honestly, that conversation with him was really helpful...it was definitely exactly what I needed...like literally exactly...I'm still kinda blown away at how every word he said literally hit home. I've only told him and my other friend about this...haven't even told you guys. But any ways...back to the quote...it's true you know...whether trying out for a team, trying to lose weight, asking a girl out...anything...if you don't even try...you're selling yourself short...you're labelling yourself a failure before anything has even happened. If you try...if you take the shot...so you miss...bounce back and take another shot. Same with life...if you fail, bounce back and go at it again. I guess in life...me especially...we're afraid of failure, of rejection, of not being good enough...but man...that quote honestly gave me strength. Thank you.

God's Will vs My Will

I know God provides...but as humans...naturally...for me at least...sometimes you just wanna do things for yourself, get things, earn things for yourself. It's hard...to let it all go...knowing that God will provide for me...a future, a job, an income, a wife, a family...all that...but sometimes, I get caught up in my own life and my own needs, desires and wants that I try to take things into my own hands. There's been something specific that's been going on lately that brought me to talk about this...but I pray that God will guide me through this...that only in His timing...it'll happen. God, you already know how I'm feeling...and you already know what I want and how long I feel like I've waited or been waiting at least...God grant me the patience...that your time and my time will come eventually...that it'll all work out. I know you are so faithful and I know that you will provide...and that I can't jump the gun on this and try to take in into my own hands...so help me God...I'm struggling.

Random Acts Of Kindness

This story was brought back to my attention a few days ago lol...but pretty much in my second year...I remember I was selling my textbook for like $100 or something like that and I met this dude at the mall. He gave me the money and I gave him the book and we went our separate ways...when I counted the money, I realized he had given me too much...$50 too much, he had given me an extra $50...the new bills were sticky and I guess he didn't notice. So I remember calling him back like 5 min after we exchanged books/money and I was like yeah...you kinda gave me too much money lol...so he came back and I gave him back the $50. It's funny cuz apparently we had a lot of mutual friends and I ended up meeting him again and officially through my other friend and we're still cool to this day. It's funny cuz I saw him the other day and he brought it up and he was like yeah man when that happened I told everybody cuz I couldn't believe it...lol...I can't believe he remembers something like that. Not to like toot my own horn...but when I saw it, I didn't hesitate, to me it wasn't even a decision, like he had already gave me $100+ for the textbook and I didn't think twice, my first instinct was oh, he gave me too much, I should call him. But yeah...I guess just little things like that where you don't see as a big deal, other people might. That's just a little reminder to me that...when you do things, don't expect anything in return, doing something good should be rewarding in itself. Thanks, gratification, appreciation and anything else is just a bonus.

Dear God

Thought I'd share this with you guys...there's also an interesting story behind it as well. Pretty much for worship night this past Saturday, while we were practising like weeks before...my friend had asked me to rap and I at first was like sure, but then assumed he was joking cuz he never ended up really giving me a legit answer. So when we ended up practising, they ended up confirming like yeah you are gonna do a rap lol. So I remember that same night, I couldn't sleep it was like 12 am or something and I was like hey...why not start writing...and I ended up finishing the whole thing and didn't change it at all cuz I actually liked how it turned out. I performed it this past Saturday, too bad I couldn't get someone to record it for me...but I think one of my friends has some footage, but anyways, here's the 16 for you guys...

Dear God, I don't understand
Help me strive to be what You see as a Godly man
You say we're called to be the salt and light of all the land
But God I'm weak and it feels hard, so I don't think I can
A question burning in my head is do I trust Your plan
That one day we'll be sitting humbly at Your right hand
Your grace and mercy are the reason why my feet stand
And Your gospel is the reason I'm a free man
So may Your light shine through us like a glass wall
And may Your love be the reason why we stand tall
So I can boldly praise Your name with no fear at all
And conquer the highest mountains with no fear to fall
I know with God by our side we shouldn't fear a thing
Because He's greater than the sins that the devil brings
Eyes closed I walk by faith, I know that I'll be fine
Because the light of the whole wide world shines

Announcement And Apology

So I know I promised a special project that would be revealed on Dec 15, the anniversary of the blog...but things got out of hand...still got a lot left on my schedule to finish up and there's like 13 days, doesn't look like I'll have enough time to finish it...seeing as I haven't even started yet, I'm sorry lol I just haven't been able to find the time. But I hopefully WILL have it out before the new year...lol I'm sorry...but I hope that when I do share it with you guys, you enjoy it, thanks!

Big K.R.I.T. - Bigger Picture

Peace Of Mind

I'm at a really good place right now. Today was worship night and man...I just really felt God's presence...in me, in the worship team, in the message and in the congregation, it brought so much joy to my heart, God is so good. Yesterday I also had a chance to have lunch with a friend who is usually away at school...it was real nice to just catch up and share with each other, I really view him as someone I can trust and depend on. As well tonight after worship night a few of us went to lunch and after I had a chance to catchup with a friend in her car after...it was real nice...I've always felt a different connection with her...no matter how long we go not talking or seeing each other, when we do see each other and talk...it's honestly as if nothing's changed....I still feel comfortable opening up and bein honest with her and vice versa. She's someone I know well enough that I can tell how she's feeling just my looking at her face. But yeah....God is good...with worship night behind me...that's one big thing off my plate....now there's only one exam on Thursday, Christmas program and one other personal thing I really hope to address before I can fully ring in the new year in peace. Thank you God for always being faithful and loving.