God's Will vs My Will

I know God provides...but as humans...naturally...for me at least...sometimes you just wanna do things for yourself, get things, earn things for yourself. It's hard...to let it all go...knowing that God will provide for me...a future, a job, an income, a wife, a family...all that...but sometimes, I get caught up in my own life and my own needs, desires and wants that I try to take things into my own hands. There's been something specific that's been going on lately that brought me to talk about this...but I pray that God will guide me through this...that only in His timing...it'll happen. God, you already know how I'm feeling...and you already know what I want and how long I feel like I've waited or been waiting at least...God grant me the patience...that your time and my time will come eventually...that it'll all work out. I know you are so faithful and I know that you will provide...and that I can't jump the gun on this and try to take in into my own hands...so help me God...I'm struggling.