What Kinda Friend Are You?

You know how I always say I put a tough guard when it comes to meeting people or letting people into my life, like an onion I claim to have many layers. While that is true, I think it's a lie for the most part...the guard part at least, don't get me wrong, I do put up guards, but I don't think it's as strong or tough as I make it out to be. I think I'm a fairly easy person to get to know once you get past the surface. I think to the point where it makes me vulnerable really easily, as in yeah I have a guard up, but it's not that hard to get past it or for me to let it down...and once it's down...I got nothing to protect myself...everything you see is for the most part everything you get. It opens myself up to be hurt a lot of times...or to lose or be confused with who's really a good friend versus who's just an acquaintance you know. Long time ago I did a post about 3 kinds of friends...class, grade, lifetime. Maybe over the summer, you bond with somebody over a camp, sports team or something...but after that summer, you guys don't keep in contact and you're just like...what happened, those are class friends...friends you only see and have a class with and once that class is over, so is the friendship. Then there's a grade friend...this one is a tough one cuz you get to know the person, spend a lot of time with them and think they might be a lifetime friend but they're only in your life for that one grade and once you move on to the next grade, have different classes, that friendship is over. Then of course there are the lifetime friends...it kinda speaks for itself...ride or die, do or die, you get it. There's so many people in my life I'm not close to anymore...people I had genuine connections with, people I poured my heart out to, people I thought would go the distance with me...but they turned out to be a class or a grade friend. And that's how life works you know...sometimes people are meant to be in your life for seasons...sometimes they're meant to be in your life to help get you through something, to help move you forward, to be there for you for that given time and that's it. And also vice versa...I've found myself in situations where I was in someone's life for just a season...just a period in their life when they needed a friend, when they were vulnerable, and after that, they didn't need me anymore you know, I had done my part to move them forward in life. I don't really know where this post is going you know...I was just sitting waiting for the bus and started thinking of certain people I got close to and I was like dang, that sucks. Coincidentally Omarion's Icebox was playing on my phone..."I got this icebox where my heart use to be" LOOOOOL. I guess it's a testament to be careful, to be cautious but also to recognize which friend is what you know. Picking and choosing who you fully invest your self in and allow to enter your life as well. Yeah, that's all I had to say...peace.