You Are Not Alone

It's 1 am atm...and if you're up reading this, know you're not alone. If you read this at a later time...what's on your mind right now...school, work, relationships, finance, whatever it may be, you're not alone. I remember in my 2nd year, I've told you the story of how I failed multiple courses and saw my life slowly spiral downward right in front of me. I was lost...did not know what I wanted to do in terms of school, staying in the same program or switching...and more so what ate at me really bad was what was I going to do after school. I've always told myself I didn't wanna be one of those kids who goes to university for one thing and finds a job afterwards that's totally unrelated. This post is inspired by a conversation I had a couple years ago....when I had taken the 2nd semester of that year off, to figure out things. I remember venting to a friend...after failing these few couples, I don't know if what I wanted to do going into university is what I still want or should do. The confusion and the feeling of being unsure of what I wanted to do after school ate at the depths of my heart to no ends. And as simple as it may sound...he comforted me by saying you're not alone. Other people feel this way...other people have doubts that what they're doing university is what they want to do for the rest of their life, other people have doubts whether they're in the right program, the right job, whatever. A lot of people will graduate and have completely no idea what they want to do for the rest of their lives. It made me think back to high school...grade 12, seeing everyone pick their majors...seeing kids who've known what they wanted to do since grade 9...and here I was, university applications due soon and I had no idea what major I wanted to take, what job I wanted to do in the future...and definitely no idea where I saw myself in 5-10 years. That conversation gave me so much comfort...and today,it gives me inspiration. I used to get super down when life tossed me some real hard obstacles...but everyone deals with hard obstacles...everyone fails, everyone falls, everyone gets pushed to the point where they're at rock bottom. I'm here to tell you you're not alone...whether you're in high school not knowing what you wanna do in university or you're in university not knowing what you wanna do post grad...it's okay. Heck, even if you've been working for quite some time and still sometimes doubt if your job is the right one for you, it's okay. If you're stressing about finding a boyfriend or girlfriend...or wondering if the person you're with is the person you're going to marry, you're not alone...everyone has doubts and worries. You're not alone, we all fear the unknown, that's apart of life..it's how we grow. I was listening to Wale's album The Album About Nothing and throughout the album he uses skits from the show Seinfeld as well as Jerry Seinfeld himself talking throughout the album...one thing he says is...growth is meant to be scary, you can't be ready for it...because it's growth, it's meant to be new. But that's how we learn, we learn from experience, by doing...so whatever you're struggling with today, know you're not alone...other people have been in your shoes and walked the same steps as you and you know what, they made it to the finish line...and so will you. Trust in the process, trust in the plan, trust in yourself.