Early Experiences of Heartbreak

I never knew you could experience heartbreak from something that wasn't a girl lol. I'll always consider elementary school grade 7 and 8 some of the best years and highlights of my life. I met one of the greatest teachers of my life...someone who today I can call my friend and a role model. Any ways...so grade 7 and 8...our sr volleyball team was a tight knit group of guys...we would always go for sushi dinners and ish...stay super late at practice, like 6-7pm LOL...like it was dark when we all were walking home. I remember one year I was a serve specialist so I always subbed on for the captain of the team cuz he had serving problems, so we would always sub for one another. Any ways I remember the end of the year tournament...the areas, if you won you would go to regionals. We were in the final 4 facing William Berczy PS....it was the final set, 1-1 apiece and it 23-22 for them. Our setter got called for a VERRRRRY suspect call that he touched the net when he said he didn't and everyone watching said he didn't...our coach was ready to flip...but we lost the point...24-22 them, match point for them. We got the point back and it was 24-23...our serve...captain's up, so coach subs me in, my serves were nice...low, like bullets, but I also had confident issues when it came to pressure situations...so I was nervous as heck. Bounce 3 times...spin the ball, serve...it goes over, I breathe a sigh of relief and get into position...WHISTLE BLOWS...ref says redo...that I served before he blew the whistle...one more and it would be a violation and point for them...here I am panicking and heart POUNDING. Bounce the ball 3 times...spin the ball, serve...it goes over to the back middle...guy doesn't touch it...WHISTLE BLOWS...OUT...we lose 25-23. I literally dropped to my knees...it discouragement and depression...I couldn't belief if...it was like everything that we worked for all year, all those practices, net jumps, running up and down the stairs...making it to the final 4...went down the drain cuz I overserved...my heart sunk. Immediately my captain and the floor captain on our team picked me up and comforted me and we shook hands with the other team. We all went into the stairwell of that school...some random high school...we were all silent...sad...discouraged...so close...our coach came in...and gave us a talk...how we started off and we were bad....but we worked out butts off to make it as far as we did...we were more than a team...we were family...we did things no ordinary team would do together and with their coach...it was fun...obviously none of us could really take in the words being said atm cuz we were all dwelling on the loss. Man, now that I think back to that...I get sad LOL....if we did make it to finals we would've lost no doubt...Parkview killled their opponent with ease and made it to the finals and killed William Berczy 3-0...they had a BUNCH of guys who all played club volleyball...who I'm cool with now and they all eventually went to Bill Crothers the sports school...but man...those feels lol