August...

Please bare with me lol...August has been a long month...lots of things to do and school is literally right around the corner. My internet has been so custy as of late...so I haven't been able to really do anything but play videogames or go out, I'm sorry. I still need to get a new laptop with my Staples giftcard...hopefully I'll be blogging more when school starts since I'll have a lot of free time...got lots of things to catch you guys up on...I feel like I always say that but never actually get to it lol but I will, don't worry.

Jay Z - Somewhereinamerica

What You Want To Hear vs What You Need To Hear

Sorry guys...this month has been really tiring and really hectic, this has probably been the lowest post and view count month in the longest time. But I'll update you guys a little later...I think I have a tendency to go to people who I know will agree with me or tell me what I want to hear when I'm angry, mad, frustrated,. whatever. And I'll ignore or avoid the people who I know will essentially tell me what I need to hear but don't want to hear. I feel most often, people who tell you what you need to hear don't always do it for the right reason...wanting to prove someone wrong is not why you should tell someone what they need to hear. It's very rare that you'll meet someone that will tell you what you need to hear because they really care...and they'll do it carefully as to try not to hurt you. I dunno...I'm just really appreciative of this one friend who shot me an email...we've been talking more and more lately and I really like his personality and the way he handles and approaches things...so thank you man.

Themelios 2013

Man...softball this summer has been such an experience...such a blessing...with our season winding down and playoffs this weekend...thought I'd share with you a few pics...

Panic! At The Disco - Nine In The Afternoon

PLAYOFF SOFTBALL

So today I got some amazing news that my softball team Themelios MADE PLAYOFFS...we're 5-5 and there were 2 divisions of 16 teams...top 8 teams make it from each division, we were 8th in our division. So we're going to be playing one of the higher seeded teams in the opposite division. It's actually such a big deal lol cuz Themelios has been in existence for 4 years and this is our first time making the playoffs...I'm so hyped. I don't even care if we lose...but obv I wanna win...but just this whole experience and how hard our team has worked. All the glory to God honestly...HE brought this team together and HE brought us this far...damn. I honestly feel like we're a young Oklahoma City Thunder...they made the playoffs their second year and were the last seed facing the Lajers...yeah they lost, but they put up on hell of a fight and brought it to 7 games....the next year they made conference finals, then they made the finals....they kept getting better...and that's how I feel about Themelios...in our 4 years....we've only kept getting better and improving in all aspects...fellowship, team spirit, and just overall attitude...it's such an amazing site to see and as coach....I'm super proud.

Count To 3...

I just came home from the theaters with my friends and we watched We're The Millers...aside from being a really funny movie and crude as well...I took something away from it actually. There was this scene where the father was talking to the son after he didn't kiss the girl who obviously wanted him to and he hugged her instead. The dad was like...next time you're scared to kiss a girl...just count to 3 and go for it. In fact, in anything in life...the next time you're scared to do something...say something...voice your opinion or whatever...just count to 3 and do it. He was saying how the longer you wait...the more you think and overt think and you never actually end up doing it. It was something that really hit me...cuz there are a lot of times where I'll be too afraid to say or do something and regret it later...and that's something I hope to remind myself to do...to just count to 3 and just do it.

Jay Z - Oceans feat. Frank Ocean

Working Hard or Hardly Working...

So as I told you I recently had a job interview...so let me explain the whole story...my bother's been working at Canadian Tire for like 5 years. And like maybe 2 weeks or so ago, he's like hey you still looking for a job, I realized that because we're siblings and they already know me, I can try to help you get a job. So I gave him my resume and he called me the next morning at 8 am and told me to come to the store asap for an interview. So I did and the lady pretty much hinted that I was a shoe in for the job. So turns out, she didn't call me...cuz apparently my bro said the 2 people who quit came back and got their jobs back. And that just got me thinking lol you know...this interview was my first ever legit job interview...I've had one for a paper boy once, but that was with my parents and it was soft...hit was like my first legit interview lol and I thought it went well, but me sitting here without a job would say otherwise lol. Anyways it just got me thinking, I'm taking a lighter course load this year, so I've been feeling like I have to get a job so I can fill in all that free time I'll most likely have. But after this interview where I was a supposed shoe in and I didn't get it and all the places that I applied and haven't called back...it's got me thinking as to whether working is where God really wants me to be at this year. Like maybe I'm not supposed to work this year...and instead focus on school of course...but direct my extra energy and attention onto something else...which I still haven't figured it out yet...it could be church, fellowship, people...I don't know...of course I'm still gonna apply for jobs and see where that leads me, but it's just something I've been pondering and praying about.

I'm The Worst...

No posts since Wednesday...let me explain...I haven't had wifi at home for the past 3 days...since Thursday I believe...no computer, no wifi on my phone, no xbox live...I have 500 mb of data on my phone and I'm already over by 500 mb...that's how bad it was these past 3 days. So Wednesday my dad had his shoulder surgery. Thursday I was supposed to stay home and take care of my dad all day...but like 8 am my brother calls and tells me to come to his work cuz they can give me an interview on the spot. Cuz I had given him my resume on Wednesday night cuz he said we're siblings and it's easier for him to help me get a job. So he calls me at 8 am and tells me to come to the store for an interview. So my mom drops me there on the way to work and I have my interview with a lady and a dude. They were cool, they were like oh you're Richmond's brother, you guys look nothing alike. They asked me about school and what I wanna do and asked me about my schedule and they were asking so many in depth questions about when I can work, what days, things like that so I was pretty convinced I had the job. The lady even said if you don't get a call by 5 pm on Friday, which you probably will, it means you didn't get the job. Read that line again...doesn't that like totally suggest I have the job. Anyways, so yeah went back home and just took care of my dad till like 5 ish then went to softball at 6. It was a cheeser cuz we as leadership planned to go laser quest and we had like a good 8 people down, then one of leadership said a few people would rather have practice and long story short we ended up having practice and I was somewhat unhappy, but my other friend was pissed and it was really obvious on his face lol. Friday...what did I do...hit the gym by myself on Friday, then my friends picked me up and we went for all you can eat sushi lunch...it was bomb, haven't seen my boys in a while, so it was really nice. Then just chilled at home till fellowship and yeah lol. Yesterday was a real fun day...woke up at like 9 to go have breakfast with my ex...but I feel like when I say my ex...it just sounds negative, more like a really good friend cuz we are still really good friends. We just had a chance to catch up as usual and talk since she's leaving soon for school in Halifax and I won't see her till Christmas. So after breakfast, we went to the park and just chilled for a good hour before she dropped me home. It was really nice, I really love chilling with her and being around her. And we just had a really nice conversation about everything from school, life, boys/girls, sports, church, everything...and it's so amazing to see how much she's grown as a person. We exchanged letters cuz she wanted me to write her a plane letter and she told me she'd write me one too...I think that there's always going to be feelings between us, but one thing I wrote in her letter is that I'm content with where we are at the moment...as much as there are butterflies and feelings here and there whenever I see her, I said that if our paths are meant to cross, then time will bring us back together...and that we shouldn't rush into anything and just let it happen, but I always have and I always will care about her deeply. After that, came home around 2, my friend hit me up to chill...went over to his house and just played videogames till like 9...LEGIT LOL...his parents weren't home so we went out for dinner at McDonalds and chilled there for like an hour and a half and just had a really good talk about everything...I'm so glad he's somewhat opening up to me...I'm glad we've been hitting the gym together, that he's playing softball with me and that we've been seeing so much of each other, it's been real nice. But yeah...I have a lot of things I want to elaborate on in this post...but I'll save that for other posts lol...going to my softball team barbecue now, playoff meeting is Tuesday to see if we made playoffs, sorry for being MIA...but hope this update makes up for it :)

Prayer Journal: Day 10

My mom just texted me saying my dad just went in for surgery...I pray that all goes well. I appreciate everyone who's sent my dad love and support lately, it really does mean a lot. I pray that the surgery is successful and nothing goes wrong, that my dad will continue to get better and healthier. It's scary sometimes knowing my parents are nearing the age of retirement and just chilling for the rest of their lives. It makes me wanna work harder so I can provide for them when I'm older and strive so they can just relax and not have to worry about me.

Prayer Journal: Day 9

First things first, my dad's shoulder surgery is tomorrow and after that he won't be working or driving or anything for like 2 month...pretty sure he's gonna be in a cast. I just pray that God gives him the strength. That the rest of the family...especially my bro and I will step up and help up around the house to lift the stress from my parents because I know they work super hard.

Slma: Whatever you feel called to do or wherever you feel called to go...I pray you trust in God's plan for you...He has something beautiful in store for you. I really hope you find whatever it is you're searching for, that God will really give you peace and some of the answers you've been looking for. I pray that you continue to stay faithful to God during the time you're away...know that everyone back home will be praying for you, stay strong brother.

Secg: Where do I even begin with you? I pray for a discerning mind for you and for God to give you self control when you're tempted. Next year is gonna be a big one for you and I pray you don't stray away from God. I pray you grip an hold tightly to Hin. I hope you really pick and choose your friends and the people you keep close to you wisely, be smart and be responsible like I know you are. I pray that you continue to grow in Him and trust in the things He has planned for you. You are a beautiful person inside and out and I can't wait for you to blossom into the amazing person I know you can be. Stay strong and always keep your head up.

But I'm Not A Rapper...

One thing that I've been keeping to myself lately, like haven't told anyone...is that I've been writing a lot. It's not that big a deal, not like a secret or anything...but it's something that I've been doing a lot. Just about things that have been on my mind...a lot of things I write about don't make it into the blog...too personal or maybe just lazy lol...but I've been writing a lot...got lots of things lined up, but don't have the time or resources to go record. But I was writing this afternoon cuz something just sparked in me...it's just about being yourself I guess...and how I'm naturally just a shy person...antisocial is what some may call it as well lol. I dunno...I like who I am...I'm not saying that I hate making new friends...I guess I'm just not good at it. Unless it's like a comfortable surrounding or environment...like I can make friends so easily playing basketball or something lol...but other times I'm just awkward and I prefer to keep to my comfort zone or keep to the people I know and am comfortable with. Is that wrong? And just in case you might read this, I'm not mad about today, lol it just made me think a lot...and I didn't say it at the time cuz I honestly just thought about it all right now...so I'm sorry lol, you always complain I don't tell you things or I don't say what's on my mind, but whatever is on my mind at the moment, I really do share it with you honestly. But yeah...today just made me think about the kind of person I am I guess. The boys I hang out with...they're like my little escape if you will...you think we're immature or we joke too much lol, which may be true...but they're my escape...when I'm with them, when we joke...it's pure laughs and fun times, no stress or anything you know...it's just nice and easy and simple...that's why I love chilling with them...it's probably one of the only times I do get to be immature and just be jokes and act like a kid...they honestly bring out the happy side in me. To those who think I'm quiet or hard to approach...I'm sorry lol, that's honestly just the kind of person I am, don't take it the wrong way...and I guess you should feel special if I do trust you enough to tell you what's in my heart and what's in my head...but yeah, I'm trying to change lol, but it's not easy...communication and making friends is a two way street. But I'm trying...just know it's not easy for me. How did I get wrong talking about writing to this...LOL

Drake - Something

The End Of Summer

So summer's slowly coming to it's last days...less than a month before school starts, that's crazy...just like that I'll be starting my 4th year soon. Wow...when I look back, I haven\t done anything SUPER DUPER memorable like vacation or road trip or anything...but I've done a lot of really fun things. Chilled with a lot of friends, went to the gym a lot, played ball, went shopping a lot, went downtown, played lots of softball...the beginning of summer, I really wanted to get a job and I told everyone I was going to get a job...but I'm somewhat glad I never got a callback. It gave me so much time to chill this summer and really enjoy myself and other people's companies. It gave me time to put into softball, which was way more hectic, stressful and time consuming than I expected, but it was worth it. I may or I may not find a job this September, I'm only taking 2 courses, so I'm only gonna be at school 2 days, but I may go more depending if I feel like it. I don't know whether I sshould get a job to fill in the free time, or solely focus on school, who knows. For now, I just wanna enjoy and make the most of the rest of my summer.

Softball Season

Today was Themelios' last 2 games of the season. Our team name Themelios is Greek for foundation, firm and strong foundation. Today was a double header from 2 to 4 and 4 to 6. Woke up early to hit up the batting cages with 2 friends before our games. We lost both, but they were super close against really good teams. The first one we lost by 1 and the second we lost by 2. I'm not sad or upset whatsoever...it's been an amazing season...we stand at 5-5 at the end of the season, now the only question is will we make playoffs? If we do, it'll be the first time in Themelios' 4 year history...if not,,,I'm still a super proud coach. This team has shown so much potential, talent, energy and support and encouragement for each other and the other teams. It's been an honour coaching you guys and a pleasure playing alongside you guys, thank you Themelios!

Statistical Update

With over 160,000 hits...I thought I'd give you a little overview of where a lot of these hits come from. Well with an overwhelming 111,000+ hits from Canada, that's not really a surprise seeing as that's where I live and advertise my blog most often and frequently lol. The United States comes in second with a whopping 27,000+ hits...that's crazy as I always say cuz I'm pretty sure I don't know anyone or at least that many people from the US...it's like uh well how'd you find me...and why do you keep coming back lol. Third is the United Kingdom which just recently reached over 6,000 hits...so shoutouts to you guys in the UK and thanks for supporting me and my dream. The last 2 countries in the thousand category is Russia and Germany with over 2,000 hits...damn lol...thanks...I have Russian and German friends...but damn, that's pretty mind blowing lol. Anyways, thank you guys for continuing to show support and visiting my blog and continuing to give me feedback and your honest opinion, it means a lot to me. The next goal is 200,000...LEGGO. I'm in the process of possibly getting shirts or tank tops with my blog link in the back and something in the front like a quote or bible verse or some random words...but not to sell lol just to rock myself to continue promoting my blog lol, we'll see haha.

PS: I finished this post but when back to check and I saw that I have 2,985 posts on this blog...damn...it's really been a journey...

Winning Vs Losing

This is something that kinda sparked something inside of me. Last weekend after my softball game we had a team dinner and a bunch of the senior players on the team and leaders had a mini meeting ish and one thing someone said really hit a nerve with me. We had 2 games left and both are supposedly really good teams. It's a lot of back story where you kinda have to understand the game and rules in order to understand the story. But anyways, Usually we have 4 or more girls on our team, the minimum is 4...but there\s an exception for 3...so we're only gonna have 3 girls for our last 2 games so there was gonna be a lot of changes to offensive and defensive lineups and we were debating perhaps using one game to give more playing time to our inexperienced players. One guy said, I think we should just put all inexperienced players in this one game because personally I don't think we can win anyways...that just really hit me hard and it really annoyed me. I know that winning shouldn't be the sole objective in this league and in anything because it honestly can corrupt a person and make them just really bitter and nasty. But it's like...well if you think we're gonna lost, why play at all...why don't we just forfeit you know. It brought me to the examples about everything in life...if you think you're gonna fail a test, you're gonna fail...you need to have faith in yourself. If you think you're gonna fail...you've pretty much already failed, why even waste your time taking the test. It reminded me of when me and this one friend like a year or two ago used play NBA 2k a lot and this example may not make sense to a lot of you, but I was really good in the game and we were both really competitive but he wasn't that good. So I would always win...we would spend like hours each day playing game after game and I would always win. To the point where he's like let\s not play anymore...or I'm not coming over anymore cuz I just lose anyways or he would goof around and not try cuz he's like well I'm not gonna win anytways. That really ticked me off cuz it's like what the heck...do you have that little faith in yourself. With that mentality, no wonder you never beat me and you probably never will if you keep thinking like that. I'm like yeah we play to have fun, but it's not fun when you don't try and goof off...like why come over if you're gonna be all sour and down just cuz you lose. Back to present day...in sports...why play if you think you're gonna lose, don't waste time, that comment really irked me cuz I'm just a really competitive person in general...so it's like why would you say that...if the rest of the team heard you say that, and heard you say you pretty much don't believe in them, think about their morale. Even if it's the worst team in the league going up against the best hypothetically...the coach isn't gonna be like OKAY GUYS....so we're gonna lose anyways...but just have fun and do your best. No...he's gonna be like..you guys are just as good as them, I believe in you, I believe you can win this game...that should be the mentality. That's not even obsessing over winning and putting it first priority, it's believing in yoruself and believing in your team...that you guys are good and can play and can win.

Weekly Posts...C'mon Cuh.

LOL I'm so sorry, no I'm not posting once a week, things just come up and I've been super busy lol. But uh I'm in bed right now and decided to whip out my phone and semi update you guys lol. Last Saturday I went to the mall with my friend, pretty much spent the whole day with him. Had breakfast with him and his mom, shopped a bit, got a raincoat for myself cuz I've been caught in the rain way too much lately. Had lunch with him and his mom and his grandmother again, then they dropped me home. What else...had a softball game on Sunday...it was really déjà vu cuz this team we faced last year as well and they came in last year 0-9 with us as their last game so we were talking a lot of ish and ended up losing. This came had a similar vibe where I felt we got a bit ahead of ourselves and we went down the first few innings, but we relaxed and stepped it up and came back to win the game. We still have 2 more games left but right now we're 5-3 and have a really good chance of making the playoffs, it'll be the first in our team's history LOL. Then today chilled with my friends the entire day, went to this new outlet mall that opened, didn't get anything but it was nice to walk around and chill with them, then had a dinner with 2 of my church friends to just catch up and see how we're doing an discuss some things regarding the fellowship. Tomorrow, it's finally back to the gym...haven't gone since like Friday...but it's also good cuz I'm nursing a bunch of minor injuries but it's really taking its toll on my body and the extra few days of rest have definitely helped a lot.

Chris Tomlin - Whom Shall I Fear