Embrace The Struggle

Day 10/31

Just got off work lol. But yeah I’ve been constantly reminded these past couple of months that life is a grind and to embrace the struggle. Whether it was commuting downtown for work for 2 months, waking up super early for work or just the natural grind of work. I’m reminded that everyone is grinding with me, that everyone has some sort of grind that they’re working on. When I used to get up st 5 and catch the train at 6, seeing so many other people up at that time was a reminder to me that everyone is out here grinding. When I had those thoughts of quitting, wanting to sleep in or call in sick. My friends would be like yo we’re all in the same boat as you, waking up early, grinding for 8-9 hours, that’s what life is about, that’s what hard work is all about. I was talking to a friend yesterday and we both reminded each other of that as he’s transitioning to a new job possibly and it’s gonna be a lot of change. Change of timing, of location and just having to get used to a lot of newness. So yeah, whether school, work, life...hang in there, someone else is on that exact same grind as you. Stay patient and stay persistent. Till tomorrow, peace!

Anti Social Social Club

Day 9/31

I swear work has made me super antisocial, like more than I already am. All I wanna do on my days off is sleep, catch up on my shows and play video games. And like when I do go out or am around big groups or people I hate it LOL. Like I want nothing to do with people and crowds and all the noises. I know a big part of it is like I’m surrounded by people and crowds and hella noise at work that I like hit and go over my limit LOL. But sometimes I force myself like alright I should go out and do something with my friends. Even tonight, my boy wanted to chill and I was like just come over and let’s game or watch a movie or something but j swerved last minute and was like alright let’s go out and chill. So now here I am writing this post waiting for my dessert lol. Sorry for the short blurb, better than nothing I guess, till tomorrow...peace!

Don’t Overthink It

Day 8/31

So this ended up being the post I wrote yesterday. Still super relevant and applicable which is why I decided to post it still. Side note, I’m at work right now till 12, but I’m working real hard to stay committed to this whole month of posts lol so hope y’all enjoy!

I was debating about going off on something that came up today and just really annoyed me for some reason. But I changed my mind after thinking about it more cuz something inside me said it wasn’t the right thing to do, so I won’t. Instead I wanna talk about something similar but different. I have a real problem with overthinking things. Overthinking in a sense that I’m very indecisive and I flip flop back and forth. From something like oh I like a girl should I shoot my shot...I’ll spend hours debating what to do and have multiple conversations with different friends. Or maybe it’s something like this person said this to me and I don’t know how to reply, should I say this or should I say that. It’s funny cuz my coworker and I had a conversation about calling in sick to work and he was like man I wanna do it but I probably shouldn’t and we had a good 2 hour conversation about that LOL. So I’m reminded of an album that’s called “Don’t Overthink It”. And that’s what I’ve been meditating on for this past like 20 minutes as I sit and overthink my current situation. We’ve all been there...overthinking something we clearly shouldn’t, stressing out on something that fully shouldn’t bother us. Welcome to my life story. I’m trying to fix it...to go with my gut, to just go...to just do. To stop overcomplicating things and stop overthinking things. Till tomorrow, peace.

Moment Of Silence

Day 7/31

Random side note, I wrote a post like 20 minutes ago with every intention to post it but I had a change of heart and something hit me like a wave, so enjoy.


I think everyone needs quiet time every now and then. Whether you’re stressed, angry, nervous, frustrated...whatever it might be. I think being able to be alone in reflection is important. To think about your own thoughts, feelings, emotions and just reflect and more importantly calm yourself down. It’s funny cuz my watch always tells me to stand up when I’ve been sitting for too long or too take deep breaths every now and then and having your own quiet and personal time is exactly the same. I was really bothered my something today, more like just now like 20 minutes ago and all these thoughts and emotions flooded my head. But I had a good moment of silence and quietness and was able to calm myself down approach the situation in a calm and level headed manner. So yeah, I went from 100-0 real quick, till tomorrow, peace.

Wasn’t Meant To Be

Day 6/31

So I’m feeling kinda lazy and I can’t think of anything to write atm lol. But you’re in luck, I was doing some digging for some old stuff and fold this thing I wrote about this girl in high school. I wrote this is 2008, geeeez...back when the blog didn’t even exist and this was probably when I first started to write. Funny thing was I made my boy post is cuz he was more popular than me and I knew more people would read it if he posted it than if I hadn’t posted it. That and I was scared LOL. It was so funny cuz the reaction was like wooooe fiery red hair eh??? So everyone kinda knew who it was and my boy was like brooo people think I actually wrote this about her LOL, he eventually changed it and said that I wrote it lol, so for your viewing pleasure...take a stroll down memory lane with me to RT when he was in high school.

February 6, 2008

Wasn’t Meant To Be

I met you in our first year of high school.
The first thing I noticed was your fiery red head.
Your beautiful eyes, sweet smile, and just how nice you were.
I decided I would try to get to know you.
Luckily after a few introductions and some random messages, we became friends.
As days went by, and nights went on, your face kept running through my mind.
After constant messaging, we poured out hearts out to each other, it felt GREAT.
As time went by, I felt our relationship grow.
And suddenly, in a blink of an eye, all had changed.
Every time I saw you, I felt a tingly feeling in my stomach.
I would approach you, but the words wouldn’t come out.
My heart would race, my mind swirling with words, and my stomach with emotions.
Because of this, I feel like I ignored you, pushed you away for fear of rejection.
The thing is that I’ve been keeping this in far too long.
See as crushes developed, and relationships broke, the last thing on my mind was you.
Even when I was with other girls, why is it that you kept running through my mind.
Well as a year goes by, I find myself stuck, not moving forward nor backward.
But stuck in a place and unable to make the move.
Why is it that I’m at a loss for words.
As a new year begins I find myself back in the same place.
Feeling like I’m in a race I can’t win, but yet I still try.
Eventually I realize that this is pointless.
I would rather have u as a friend than not have u at all.
So here I am back in the place again.
Not trying to win, but not giving up either.
Instead I’ve realized and accepted the fact that it wasn’t meant to be

Just Be Yourself

Day 5/31

So I was watching one of Timothy Dela Ghetto’s vlogs, if you don’t know who he is he’s my favourite youtuber and he’s somebody I’ve been watching since high school. I just love who he is and his perspectives and philosophies. He’s super down to earth and relatable. So anyways he was talking about going to certain jobs or interviews and it’s funny how sometimes you think you killed it but you don’t hear back from them whereas other times you think you messed up but they still call you back. It goes to show like you never know what people are looking for. I also took it as a reminder to just be yourself...because you never know what people are looking for, you’re never gonna do yourself any favours trying to do or be something/someone you’re not. All you can really do is be yourself and hope for the best. Like in a more relatable context...I’ve been on dates with girls or have been talking/seeing a girl for a while and thought to myself damn that went well or wow this is going really well and next thing you know she stops replying or tells you that it just isn’t working out. Other times...and this is a true story, I’ve been on dates where I didn’t think it went well or didn’t think they were feeling me so I went ghost and stopped messaging them and they ended up hitting me up and asking me out again. Again, like you’re not gonna do yourself any favours pretending to be someone you’re not...you never know what people are looking for and what works or what doesn’t work. Just be yourself. Reminds me the old tag line for the blog...a lyric from J. Cole...”be yourself thats why they call it be-you-tiful!” Till tomorrow...peace.

When You Feel The Pressure Part 2

Day 4/31

So I wrote this then I had a feeling of deja vu, turns out I’ve already written a post with the same title, matter a fact it was only last year. It’s cool to see how my thoughts/feelings have changed/progressed or stayed the same.

PART 1

When you feel the pressure, just remember pressure makes diamonds. As corny as that sounds, I’ve just been reminding myself that every tough situation in your life has a purpose and it’s meant to serve as growth for you in a specific aspect of your life. I mean if life were easy it wouldn’t be worth living right? I mean isn’t it the hard times in life that make our triumphs so much more enjoyable, to be able to look back and be like damn...look at all I’ve been through, look at all the times I wanted to give up but didn’t, I made it. I like to think of a rollercoaster, it wouldn’t be any fun if you just went downhill the whole time, it’s the slow point of going up and the suspense that builds and makes that drop so much more thrilling. Life is the same ain’t it? Experience and tough times are life’s best teacher. I’ve been reminding myself that everyone is grinding in some sort of way...school, work, whatever it may be...everyone’s grinding, working hard, struggling cuz that’s part of life. So yeah that’s just my quick thing of the day...see y’all tomorrow.