Day 7/31
Random side note, I wrote a post like 20 minutes ago with every intention to post it but I had a change of heart and something hit me like a wave, so enjoy.
I think everyone needs quiet time every now and then. Whether you’re stressed, angry, nervous, frustrated...whatever it might be. I think being able to be alone in reflection is important. To think about your own thoughts, feelings, emotions and just reflect and more importantly calm yourself down. It’s funny cuz my watch always tells me to stand up when I’ve been sitting for too long or too take deep breaths every now and then and having your own quiet and personal time is exactly the same. I was really bothered my something today, more like just now like 20 minutes ago and all these thoughts and emotions flooded my head. But I had a good moment of silence and quietness and was able to calm myself down approach the situation in a calm and level headed manner. So yeah, I went from 100-0 real quick, till tomorrow, peace.
Friday, December 07, 2018
Thursday, December 06, 2018
Wasn’t Meant To Be
Day 6/31
So I’m feeling kinda lazy and I can’t think of anything to write atm lol. But you’re in luck, I was doing some digging for some old stuff and fold this thing I wrote about this girl in high school. I wrote this is 2008, geeeez...back when the blog didn’t even exist and this was probably when I first started to write. Funny thing was I made my boy post is cuz he was more popular than me and I knew more people would read it if he posted it than if I hadn’t posted it. That and I was scared LOL. It was so funny cuz the reaction was like wooooe fiery red hair eh??? So everyone kinda knew who it was and my boy was like brooo people think I actually wrote this about her LOL, he eventually changed it and said that I wrote it lol, so for your viewing pleasure...take a stroll down memory lane with me to RT when he was in high school.
February 6, 2008
Wasn’t Meant To Be
I met you in our first year of high school.The first thing I noticed was your fiery red head.
Your beautiful eyes, sweet smile, and just how nice you were.
I decided I would try to get to know you.
Luckily after a few introductions and some random messages, we became friends.
As days went by, and nights went on, your face kept running through my mind.
After constant messaging, we poured out hearts out to each other, it felt GREAT.
As time went by, I felt our relationship grow.
And suddenly, in a blink of an eye, all had changed.
Every time I saw you, I felt a tingly feeling in my stomach.
I would approach you, but the words wouldn’t come out.
My heart would race, my mind swirling with words, and my stomach with emotions.
Because of this, I feel like I ignored you, pushed you away for fear of rejection.
The thing is that I’ve been keeping this in far too long.
See as crushes developed, and relationships broke, the last thing on my mind was you.
Even when I was with other girls, why is it that you kept running through my mind.
Well as a year goes by, I find myself stuck, not moving forward nor backward.
But stuck in a place and unable to make the move.
Why is it that I’m at a loss for words.
As a new year begins I find myself back in the same place.
Feeling like I’m in a race I can’t win, but yet I still try.
Eventually I realize that this is pointless.
I would rather have u as a friend than not have u at all.
So here I am back in the place again.
Not trying to win, but not giving up either.
Instead I’ve realized and accepted the fact that it wasn’t meant to be
Wednesday, December 05, 2018
Just Be Yourself
Day 5/31
So I was watching one of Timothy Dela Ghetto’s vlogs, if you don’t know who he is he’s my favourite youtuber and he’s somebody I’ve been watching since high school. I just love who he is and his perspectives and philosophies. He’s super down to earth and relatable. So anyways he was talking about going to certain jobs or interviews and it’s funny how sometimes you think you killed it but you don’t hear back from them whereas other times you think you messed up but they still call you back. It goes to show like you never know what people are looking for. I also took it as a reminder to just be yourself...because you never know what people are looking for, you’re never gonna do yourself any favours trying to do or be something/someone you’re not. All you can really do is be yourself and hope for the best. Like in a more relatable context...I’ve been on dates with girls or have been talking/seeing a girl for a while and thought to myself damn that went well or wow this is going really well and next thing you know she stops replying or tells you that it just isn’t working out. Other times...and this is a true story, I’ve been on dates where I didn’t think it went well or didn’t think they were feeling me so I went ghost and stopped messaging them and they ended up hitting me up and asking me out again. Again, like you’re not gonna do yourself any favours pretending to be someone you’re not...you never know what people are looking for and what works or what doesn’t work. Just be yourself. Reminds me the old tag line for the blog...a lyric from J. Cole...”be yourself thats why they call it be-you-tiful!” Till tomorrow...peace.
So I was watching one of Timothy Dela Ghetto’s vlogs, if you don’t know who he is he’s my favourite youtuber and he’s somebody I’ve been watching since high school. I just love who he is and his perspectives and philosophies. He’s super down to earth and relatable. So anyways he was talking about going to certain jobs or interviews and it’s funny how sometimes you think you killed it but you don’t hear back from them whereas other times you think you messed up but they still call you back. It goes to show like you never know what people are looking for. I also took it as a reminder to just be yourself...because you never know what people are looking for, you’re never gonna do yourself any favours trying to do or be something/someone you’re not. All you can really do is be yourself and hope for the best. Like in a more relatable context...I’ve been on dates with girls or have been talking/seeing a girl for a while and thought to myself damn that went well or wow this is going really well and next thing you know she stops replying or tells you that it just isn’t working out. Other times...and this is a true story, I’ve been on dates where I didn’t think it went well or didn’t think they were feeling me so I went ghost and stopped messaging them and they ended up hitting me up and asking me out again. Again, like you’re not gonna do yourself any favours pretending to be someone you’re not...you never know what people are looking for and what works or what doesn’t work. Just be yourself. Reminds me the old tag line for the blog...a lyric from J. Cole...”be yourself thats why they call it be-you-tiful!” Till tomorrow...peace.
Tuesday, December 04, 2018
When You Feel The Pressure Part 2
Day 4/31
So I wrote this then I had a feeling of deja vu, turns out I’ve already written a post with the same title, matter a fact it was only last year. It’s cool to see how my thoughts/feelings have changed/progressed or stayed the same.
PART 1
When you feel the pressure, just remember pressure makes diamonds. As corny as that sounds, I’ve just been reminding myself that every tough situation in your life has a purpose and it’s meant to serve as growth for you in a specific aspect of your life. I mean if life were easy it wouldn’t be worth living right? I mean isn’t it the hard times in life that make our triumphs so much more enjoyable, to be able to look back and be like damn...look at all I’ve been through, look at all the times I wanted to give up but didn’t, I made it. I like to think of a rollercoaster, it wouldn’t be any fun if you just went downhill the whole time, it’s the slow point of going up and the suspense that builds and makes that drop so much more thrilling. Life is the same ain’t it? Experience and tough times are life’s best teacher. I’ve been reminding myself that everyone is grinding in some sort of way...school, work, whatever it may be...everyone’s grinding, working hard, struggling cuz that’s part of life. So yeah that’s just my quick thing of the day...see y’all tomorrow.
So I wrote this then I had a feeling of deja vu, turns out I’ve already written a post with the same title, matter a fact it was only last year. It’s cool to see how my thoughts/feelings have changed/progressed or stayed the same.
PART 1
When you feel the pressure, just remember pressure makes diamonds. As corny as that sounds, I’ve just been reminding myself that every tough situation in your life has a purpose and it’s meant to serve as growth for you in a specific aspect of your life. I mean if life were easy it wouldn’t be worth living right? I mean isn’t it the hard times in life that make our triumphs so much more enjoyable, to be able to look back and be like damn...look at all I’ve been through, look at all the times I wanted to give up but didn’t, I made it. I like to think of a rollercoaster, it wouldn’t be any fun if you just went downhill the whole time, it’s the slow point of going up and the suspense that builds and makes that drop so much more thrilling. Life is the same ain’t it? Experience and tough times are life’s best teacher. I’ve been reminding myself that everyone is grinding in some sort of way...school, work, whatever it may be...everyone’s grinding, working hard, struggling cuz that’s part of life. So yeah that’s just my quick thing of the day...see y’all tomorrow.
Monday, December 03, 2018
4 My Brothers
Day 3/31
This is appreciation post for my boys. 4 dudes I essentially grew up with. Some from high school and some from even elementary school. We shared all that stuff together. I remember taking a lot of the same classes with my boy and we had the same breaks too so I literally saw him everyday, it was jokes. My friends and I have don’t a lot together...so many concerts, basketball games, movies, bowling, ping pong outings. Random traditions like CNE, birthdays, secret Santa’s. Road trips to New York, Cleveland and Montreal. That random time we went to Waterloo for a haunted house LOL. We all have so many random funny and embarrassing pictures and videos of each other lol. All those food, drink and dessert times, we’ve shared a lot with each other and it wasn’t till one friend replied to my story the other day and said “friendship goals” that I started thinking about this post. There’s no other people I’d rather chill with because when I chill with them it’s always super funny, super memorable and an overall good time. It’s dope cuz we all bring something different to the table and we’re all so similar yet so different at the same time. I remember going to sushi with 2 of them and we were just having a dope time, laughing and being super loud and obnoxious and this elderly white couple comes to us and goes wow you guys look like you’re really good friends, like you look like you genuinely enjoy being around each other and stuff. They went on to say like yeah you guys should definitely go on a trip together cuz you guys would have such a blast considering how much fun you’re having at lunch eating sushi LOL. So yeah, shoutout to my boys...y’all are decent LOL. Till tomorrow...PEACE.
This is appreciation post for my boys. 4 dudes I essentially grew up with. Some from high school and some from even elementary school. We shared all that stuff together. I remember taking a lot of the same classes with my boy and we had the same breaks too so I literally saw him everyday, it was jokes. My friends and I have don’t a lot together...so many concerts, basketball games, movies, bowling, ping pong outings. Random traditions like CNE, birthdays, secret Santa’s. Road trips to New York, Cleveland and Montreal. That random time we went to Waterloo for a haunted house LOL. We all have so many random funny and embarrassing pictures and videos of each other lol. All those food, drink and dessert times, we’ve shared a lot with each other and it wasn’t till one friend replied to my story the other day and said “friendship goals” that I started thinking about this post. There’s no other people I’d rather chill with because when I chill with them it’s always super funny, super memorable and an overall good time. It’s dope cuz we all bring something different to the table and we’re all so similar yet so different at the same time. I remember going to sushi with 2 of them and we were just having a dope time, laughing and being super loud and obnoxious and this elderly white couple comes to us and goes wow you guys look like you’re really good friends, like you look like you genuinely enjoy being around each other and stuff. They went on to say like yeah you guys should definitely go on a trip together cuz you guys would have such a blast considering how much fun you’re having at lunch eating sushi LOL. So yeah, shoutout to my boys...y’all are decent LOL. Till tomorrow...PEACE.
Sunday, December 02, 2018
Age Is Just A Number
Day 2/31
Aaaaaaaand we’re back! Almost didn’t think I’d put a post out myself lol. So I was talking to my friend today and we got on the topic of the whole age is just a number thing. And it’s funny cuz he’s pretty young, like early 20’s but he’s real mature for his age, it’s funny cuz he’s also dating a girl who’s like my age (26 if you’re wondering). And I remember when he first told me I was like saaaaaaay word. But today he kept bringing up the fact like hey age is just a number man. And it reminded me of a conversation I was having with my coworker. She was like yeah I don’t give people a pass just cuz they’re young, as in she doesn’t let them use that as an excuse, which I fully understand. It’s funny cuz it made me think about my own life and how I’ve met a lot of mature young kids and a lot of immature grown adults. And similarly at work there’re a lot of people who are super mature for their age and super immature for their age lol. But then again everything’s always perspective and maturity comes in all different forms cuz I’ve been told I act, talk and even dress hella immature. Then I’ve also been told that I’m hella wise beyond my years and stuff (not even boosting). I remember when I was in grade 12 and I dated a girl in grade 9 and all my friends roasted me for it cuz it was like the ultimate taboo LOL. But now it just doesn’t seem like that big a deal whatever the age difference in dating. I mean you’ll always have people who frown upon or look at it weird but it is what it is, you do you boo boo. I think the one thing I will say is to not let your age limit, restrict or make you think you can’t do something. And by that I mean like don’t feel trapped in a bubble like oh I’m young so I can’t do grown stuff and people are gonna look down on me. Or oh I’m old so people look at me as annoying and brush me off and whatever. Just so you, but yeah on that note, I won’t drag this out too long, see y’all tomorrow...DEUCES!
Aaaaaaaand we’re back! Almost didn’t think I’d put a post out myself lol. So I was talking to my friend today and we got on the topic of the whole age is just a number thing. And it’s funny cuz he’s pretty young, like early 20’s but he’s real mature for his age, it’s funny cuz he’s also dating a girl who’s like my age (26 if you’re wondering). And I remember when he first told me I was like saaaaaaay word. But today he kept bringing up the fact like hey age is just a number man. And it reminded me of a conversation I was having with my coworker. She was like yeah I don’t give people a pass just cuz they’re young, as in she doesn’t let them use that as an excuse, which I fully understand. It’s funny cuz it made me think about my own life and how I’ve met a lot of mature young kids and a lot of immature grown adults. And similarly at work there’re a lot of people who are super mature for their age and super immature for their age lol. But then again everything’s always perspective and maturity comes in all different forms cuz I’ve been told I act, talk and even dress hella immature. Then I’ve also been told that I’m hella wise beyond my years and stuff (not even boosting). I remember when I was in grade 12 and I dated a girl in grade 9 and all my friends roasted me for it cuz it was like the ultimate taboo LOL. But now it just doesn’t seem like that big a deal whatever the age difference in dating. I mean you’ll always have people who frown upon or look at it weird but it is what it is, you do you boo boo. I think the one thing I will say is to not let your age limit, restrict or make you think you can’t do something. And by that I mean like don’t feel trapped in a bubble like oh I’m young so I can’t do grown stuff and people are gonna look down on me. Or oh I’m old so people look at me as annoying and brush me off and whatever. Just so you, but yeah on that note, I won’t drag this out too long, see y’all tomorrow...DEUCES!
Saturday, December 01, 2018
The Pursuit Of H@ppine$$
Day 1/31
So every year when December hits, it’s always the busiest month for the blog for some reason, so much is always going on. And how with work, I find myself with very little free time and having to find time for family, friends, myself and of course the blog. But like every year, I’m going to do my best to end off the year strong and hit y’all with a month’s worth of posts...that’s right, I don’t know how but I’m gonna try to post every single day for the month of December. Other than that I don’t wanna make any other promises, I don’t know how entertaining or good the posts will be but I’ll do my best with the time and content I have and can think of.
In regards to the blog, sometimes I feel like I get so caught up in pleasing everybody that I forgot how important it is for myself to be happy with the content I put out there. For me to be happy just expressing myself and saying whatever I want. Sometimes I get so caught up with trying to think of fun and entertaining stories and that’s when blogging becomes stressful and hectic. Whether it’s views on this blog, followers on instagram, how many likes you have or even how much money you make. All that stuff is a never ending race, one that will never truly satisfy you, but still one that I as I’m sure a lot of you all still get caught up in. All these things are things that will never fully satisfy us because there’s always gonna be someone with more followers, more likes, more money. So here I am, on say 1 of 31, reminding myself of that, trying to find that passion I once had for the blog. In a year where the number of posts are at its lowest its ever been...like we won’t even hit 100 posts on the year, which is pretty crazy if you think about it. I mean the goal was never ever to blow up...it crossed my mind and the idea was cool, but realistically it was never a goal of mine. And I’m pretty proud of the small following and community that I’ve built over the years and all the words of encouragement and inspiration as well. So yeah, let’s end the year off strong, see y’all tomorrow!
So every year when December hits, it’s always the busiest month for the blog for some reason, so much is always going on. And how with work, I find myself with very little free time and having to find time for family, friends, myself and of course the blog. But like every year, I’m going to do my best to end off the year strong and hit y’all with a month’s worth of posts...that’s right, I don’t know how but I’m gonna try to post every single day for the month of December. Other than that I don’t wanna make any other promises, I don’t know how entertaining or good the posts will be but I’ll do my best with the time and content I have and can think of.
In regards to the blog, sometimes I feel like I get so caught up in pleasing everybody that I forgot how important it is for myself to be happy with the content I put out there. For me to be happy just expressing myself and saying whatever I want. Sometimes I get so caught up with trying to think of fun and entertaining stories and that’s when blogging becomes stressful and hectic. Whether it’s views on this blog, followers on instagram, how many likes you have or even how much money you make. All that stuff is a never ending race, one that will never truly satisfy you, but still one that I as I’m sure a lot of you all still get caught up in. All these things are things that will never fully satisfy us because there’s always gonna be someone with more followers, more likes, more money. So here I am, on say 1 of 31, reminding myself of that, trying to find that passion I once had for the blog. In a year where the number of posts are at its lowest its ever been...like we won’t even hit 100 posts on the year, which is pretty crazy if you think about it. I mean the goal was never ever to blow up...it crossed my mind and the idea was cool, but realistically it was never a goal of mine. And I’m pretty proud of the small following and community that I’ve built over the years and all the words of encouragement and inspiration as well. So yeah, let’s end the year off strong, see y’all tomorrow!
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