Things I Should’ve Said

So this is something I started probably 2 months ago or so and it was something that got harder to write as time passed cuz it was harder to rechannel the same emotions, feelings and thoughts so I just left it alone. But every now and then I'd try to get in the mood, channel those emotions and slowly chip away at it. It's funny cuz it took a long time to write cuz I'd write a little bit then be like okay this is too sad or I'm not feeling it, let's switch gears lol. But once I found a groove and saw a clear finish line, I channelled my inner Marvin's Room and finished it. 

Things I Should’ve Said
I hope you feel some type of way when you read this shit
I hope you’re thinking to yourself like “am I this chick?”
Like did I have a good thing but then I let it slip
Cuz I was scared to commit to a relationship
I know you didn’t want the title, but you wanted all the perks
Friends with benefits, but nah that ain’t how this shit works
I hope this eats at you for all the stress you put me through
And all the wasted time I spent chasing after you
Try to hit me up again but I’ve moved past your ways
Blowing up my phone like don't you miss the good old days
I was looking to the future, you were looking for some fun
I saw potential in you but I’m also prone to jump the gun
Honestly, there were moments where I thought you were the one
But I see a little clearer now that it’s all said and done
You were a blessing and a curse, but I learned about myself
The importance of communication and my own mental health
I learned to know what you want and never settle for less
I don’t wanna be with somebody who’s not willing to give their best
I should’ve known better when I was sitting waiting for your call
I learned to know when to cut ties when the writings on the wall
You didn’t wanna be a blog post, but I’m sorry here you go
All my heart, hurt and pain just in case you didn’t know
Leftover bitter thoughts, I had to let it all out
This is to and for you just to clear up any doubts
I hope you’re good I wish you well, I wish you happiness and health
I hope you take the time you need to really focus on yourself
I thought about you all the time, put it all into a rhyme
It was the only way I knew to help me get you off my mind
I don’t like these bitter thoughts and I don’t like this bitter place
These are all the thoughts you never let me tell you to your face
Words I never said, words kept deep inside my head
I’ve said all I can say so now I’m moving on ahead

RT