Be Comfortable Being Yourself

I feel like the older you get, the more of a concerted effort you have to make to hang out with your friends and to keep up with your friends. Which is both a good and bad thing...for one I’m just a naturally lazy person and most of the time my idea of fun is just loafting around doing nothing LOL. It’s good in that it puts the onus on you to ask your friends how they’re doing or if they wanna chill. When you’re young you see your friends in school every single day that any other times you guys spend together outside of school is just bonus. Whereas when you’re out of school and working, you really have to make an effort to flex your schedule and find a mutual time for all your friends to meet up and hang out. But when y’all do find that time to meet and hang out, it’s those moments that make the greatest memories. Which kinda brings me to the main chunk of my post and what I was inspired by. I was actually inspired by an argument with a friend but I’ve also been inspired by one of my coworkers. I chill with her quite a bit just cuz our personalities click and we vibe really well. I don’t tend to let a lot of people in and definitely not that quickly, maybe that’s a reason why I don’t go out in big groups with my coworkers, who knows. So anyways I had an argument with a friend and we haven’t been on speaking terms since and it just had be thinking about the friends and kinds of people I want to surround myself with. Take my coworker for example, I’ve known her for however long I’ve been working but I feel like I can be my natural, goofy, immature self around her. When it comes to the friend I had the argument with, they were always complaining I’m too immature or too goofy or not serious enough, which don’t get me wrong I get can be a bad thing. But if I’m constantly around someone who complains about simply who I am...then that’s not a fun person to be around tbh. I mean my point is that I don’t wanna feel like I can be my complete self when I’m around someone, whether goofy, serious, funny, happy, whatever. You know that meme where it’s like you don’t know how weird you can be around someone because you just met them. I don’t wanna have to feel like I have to hold back certain parts of myself to please people. I mean if they’re your friends you should be able to be your own embarrassing self. Take this for example, you’re going to meet your boyfriend or girlfriends parents for the first time...obviously you’re going to dress to impress (I hope) and present yourself in the best possible way, that includes how you speak and such. Essentially you’re trying to be on your best behavior and hope that they like and approve of you. When I’m around my friends or people I should feel comfortable with I don’t wanna have to feel like I need to be on my best behavior or that I’m putting on a show to please them. So real talks, surround yourself with people that make you feel comfortable. Comfortable in being yourself, whatever that means. My friends and the people that know me best know me as hella goofy, I’m always singing, my laugh is hella loud and borderline obnoxious, but I’m also quiet, reserved and I keep a lot of things in. I wanna be able to express all of that and be all of that when I’m around my friends and not feel like I have to hide or hold back certain parts for fear of judgement. So yeah that’s my little thing for the day...see y’all sooner than later I hope, peace!