I Think I Like Her Part 2 of 3

Hello friends, unsurprisingly...there was a large amount of feedback/support/views on the previous post lol. Except for the one friend who was disappointed that he read about past events rather than current LOL. One of my friend's pointed out, hey man...I swear I've read this on the blog before. Indeed you have...along with today's story too probably...but that was a long while ago when not very many people read this blog. If you know this story, you're an OG...but I'm pretty sure not many people know this one.

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This story...hurts, it hits pretty deep into my heart...wait did I say heart? I meant wallet...LOOOOL. So again, I'm pretty positive this was sometime in high school, later than yesterday's story for sure, but I don't think I was in grade 12 yet cuz I was already dating someone by then, but that's another story. So I knew this one girl...we were pretty polar opposites...she was a nerdy, videogame girl...and I'm this guy who's into basketball and a bunch of other things. But we were really friends cuz I had known her for a really long time. When I say good friends, I mean like she would confide in me things she never told her boyfriend/s...I ALWAYS seem to get put in that position where girls confide in me more than they do their boyfriends and it gets me in trouble...c'mon man. So again...young Rodmond, has this really good girl friend, once again, the lines between friendship and something more begin to get blurred. I start to ask myself, do I like her? So it was either her birthday or something around Christmas...it was a really snowing day...like blizzard, lots of snow on the ground. So she volunteered at the same school as me, so I would always see her after volunteering, one day I know she's volunteering and I have a bunch of things ready to go surprise her at the school. I think it was just a card and a stuffed animal...romantic, I know. So it's SNOWING like crazy...I decide to wear one of my brother's jackets cuz it's hella fresh, but not warm whatsoever...hey gotta look good right? I can't drive yet, I live pretty close to the school...so I decide to walk...but it's COLD...so I RUN to the school. I give her the stuff, she hugs me, we talk, she offers to give me a ride home with her parents, I'm like nah it's cool. I RUN back home....I can't find my keys....yeah remember that jacket I told you I wore that belonged to my brother...it just had 2 pockets in the front, no zip, no nothing, smart me put everything in those pockets. I run back to the school, across the soccer field retracing my steps trying to find my keys for a good half an hour...no luck. I come back home, stand outside in the freezing cold, shoes, socks, pants wet cuz the snow was deep...I go to listen to some music on my ipod...WHERE'S MY IPOD? Stupid me put my ipod in those same 2 loose pockets I put my keys in...I run back to the school, search the fields once more for my keys and my ipod...no luck, THERE'S SO MUCH SNOW FAM. I RUN back home...keep in mind I'm freezing my feet, hands, face, everything cuz I wanted to look fresh instead of be warm. Standing outside my house waiting for someone to come home...I get a call...my mom's like oh I'm like a block away from the house but the car's stuck in some snow, can you help me? So I run to her, find her, help her out, sit in the car for a good like 10 minutes to defrost EVERYTHING because I'm frozen...finally come home...WHERE'S MY PHONE? BRO ARE YOU SERIOUS...did I really just lose my keys, ipod and phone ALL IN ONE DAY? Because I wanted to surprise this one girl and chose to look cool over being warm...bro...I hate my life. You know what was the worst part....same deal as yesterday's story...it was one of those things that I did and regretted immediately after. It wasn't just the frustration of losing my stuff talking either, it was genuinely like...okay, I think she's just a really good friend, I don't think I like her in that way. You know what's funny tho...I found out a little while down the road that she liked her...but I never pursued it so she was like oh I thought you didn't like me in that way...which was true...I guess. Flash forward to present day, she's married now, LOOOL, so we still keep in contact, yes we do actually lol, does she know about this story, no she does not actually lol. Wanna know something funny tho...so flash BACK to losing my stuff...THAT SUMMER...my brother and I are chilling at home and the doorbell rings. My brother goes to answer it, I think nothing of it. He's like yo, come down...I'm like okay. He looks at me...and hands me MY OLD FLIP PHONE THAT I LOST THAT WINTER. You don't understand the odd excitement and giddiness I felt LOOOOL. He was like yeah, the neighbour was doing their flowers and saw the phone...I was like bro...I ran back and forth to the school like 5 times looking for my stuff when my phone was right in front of the house? But the snow was so deep I couldn't see it. Sadly tho, I never found my ipod or my keys. My parents must be hella cheesed cuz I've lost my keys like close to 5 times in my lifetime lol. That's a possible 5 people who could break into my house....unrealistic, but just a thought lol. Conclusion...um, young me was dumb...I'm telling you man, I've done some strange, outlandish, wild, stupid things for girls...so I FULLY understand that saying that people do CRAZY things when they're in love...FORREAL. I wasn't even in love, I was in like...could you imagine if I was in love...geeeeeeez, hope y'all enjoyed this love...like...sad...tragic story...of loss and heartbreak and misery...man I miss that ipod.

I Think I Like Her Part 1 of 3

So you know what's super dope to me. The fact that I know a good chunk of my viewers are much or a bit younger than me. That and the fact that a lot of the stories and experiences that I share are ones that I experienced when I was your age or around. Hopefully y'all can relate, take my advice, laugh, do things similarly or differently.

Part 2     Part 3

Anyways, no clickbait...y'all seem so interested in my love life lol, so here you go. So this happened early high school, I wanna say like grade 10? So I was good friends with this one girl...and the lines between friendship and more started to get blurred. I started to believe I liked her, but she was also a real good friend, clearly a recipe for disaster. So her birthday was coming up and I was like hey, let's make her a card, write her a poem and tell her I like her. Back then my poem writing skills were hella weak, but yeah lol. So I wrote her this card, saying happy birthday, I think you're dope, I like you, something along those lines. I went to her house, dropped it off and dipped. My memory of the story kinda fades at this part...all I remember is she stopped talking to me for a good like 3 months to half a year. But wait Rodmond, I thought y'all were real good friends...THAT'S WHAT I THOUGHT FAM. So here I am...just told this girl I liked her, waiting for a reply...didn't get none after a week or so, so I kinda left it. Stupid me never thought to follow up and approach her, I waited for her to approach me, and waited, and waited, and waited. She sent me a text like 6 months later...6 MONTHS LATER, I KID YOU NOT...she goes...oh, I never got to thank you for your card...LOOOOL like wait what, how does that make any sense? LOOOL...again my memory can't remember exactly what happened within those 3 or 6 months she didn't say anything...but I do recall being pissed and confiding essentially in her best friend and we became really good friends because of that...so in the words of Derrick Rose..."I don't know why she stopped talking to me...but uh, thank you." So yeah, years down the road we're on talking terms again, nowhere near close to where we were before, but at least on talking terms. She would always bring up and joke about that time, she'd be like hey remember that time you gave me that card on my birthday and told me you liked me? I remember I called my 2 best friends immediately and we laughed about it. By then I didn't like her so my feelings weren't really hurt, it was more like bruh...really fam? She'd be like oh no, don't get me wrong, it was cute tho...like shut up fam LOOOL. Anyways, rewind back to that fateful day...biking to her house, dropping off that card, biking back home....it was one of those things where AS SOON as I dropped off the card and came home, I instantly regretted it. I was like RODMOND...you're stupid. It's that one thing I'm sure all guys have struggled with...she's my best friend, do I like her, does she like me, maybe I do like her, maybe there's something there. The only thing I'll leave you with is...fellas, BE CAREFUL...I can't stress the amount of times where the line between friendship and more have been blurred for me, to the point where I would debate with myself constantly whether guys and girls could really be close friends, but with that being said...stay tuned for part 2 coming soon...PEACE.

Just Keep Swimming

Hello friends...so I intended to make this post an hour ago but I fell asleep, then I was like okay, it's too late now, then I thought about it and I was like whatever.  Anyways...another thing I'd like to address is the numerous questions and comments about me using suggestive titles so y'all will click the links...LOOOOL, like chlll, the real question should be why you're so curious about my love life or about stories that only involve girls lol. But with that being said...I do feel bad...so, if you really are THAT interested about my love life...after this post...the next THREE posts...maybe two, but most likely the next THREE posts will be about some girlie experiences lol. But I was inspired by something else yesterday, which /I wanna get to first.

I was looking through my phone a couple of days ago and stumbled upon a real old contact and clicked on it and started rereading the old conversations. It made me think about when I was younger...I was the kinda guy who would save all my old msn conversations with the thought of wanting to one day reread all of them. Same with text messages, I would keep all the conversations with like my exes and people I cared about with hopes of one day rereading those conversations...with what result in mind? I'm not sure...reminding myself? Refeeling those feelings? Reliving the memories? Which brings me to the present...and I think and would like to believe that I'm now a person who doesn't do that. And it's a funny story how it got started. My phone kept reminding me I was running out of storage and to delete some stuff...I checked my settings to see what was taking space that I could delete and one thing I saw was text messages. I started thinking to myself...when do I even ever go through these text messages? Did I once have a plan of maybe sitting down one day and opening up all those msn folders and rereading those conversations. Maybe the best thing that happened to me was losing my phone in grade 11 (a girl story to come int he next few days) and losing all the text messages in there, including entire conversations with my ex which I kept convincing myself to keep. With Finding Dory out right now, it makes me think about the line "just keep swimming"...to me that's a reminder to just keep moving forward. Saving these messages and conversations, looking back on it...that's not moving forward now is it. When you look back, it essentially slows you down...which is why when you're running, they always tell you to not look back because it slows you down. It sounds kinda heartless I know, it's okay to look back once in a while...but it's when you make a full stop, turn around and look back that you might start taking steps backwards because you get caught up in the past. The sentimental part of me would love to reread old conversations I had with my friends that I'm not friends with anymore...or my exes...but realistically, what good does that do? If you really missed them that much, why not hit them up and message them in the present rather than reread old conversations y'all had in the past. I know it's nice to REVISIT the past...but I would never wanna RELIVE it because it distracts from the now and from the future and you enjoying what's in front of you. So back to my phone running out of storage space...I deleted all, if not most of my conversations except the ones I sometimes look back on for like information or my groupchats because we post funny pictures which I save...but for the majority of my contacts, I delete the conversations after a while or I set the setting to automatically delete after like 30 days or a a couple of months. I wanna enjoy the present and make plans for the future instead of trying to relive things that already happened and that I can't change. Life is for me and hopefully for you should be about moving forward and taking steps towards the future. In the same way you get older, grow physically...life should be the same way. Just keep swimming...right?

So I Met This Girl...

So sometimes, it's super dope meeting new people. So I met this girl a while back at this basketball thing at my church. Chill tho, she's much older than me...anyways, I remember this is around the time I got my first tattoo. She saw it and she was like wow that's super cool and she asked me about it and such. She's like yeah I've seen you around church and stuff, it's cool to finally meet you, btw she was a pretty dope ball player as well. Anyways, it was super dope at the time because when I first got my tattoo, I wasn't sure how people would react, specifically the older folks at my church, but I was fully prepared for whatever reaction, specifically a negative one. It was super awesome meeting her because her reaction was so unexpected you know...I'm used to like weird look, whispers and murmurs, so when she like nonchalantly approached me and asked me about it as if she'd known me for years, I was kinda taken back. So fast forward to present time, I don't see her very often at church, but couple weeks back, she saw me and asked what was up and such, I was wearing a long sleeve cuz it was kinda chilly, she was wearing a t-shirt. She goes hey why're you're wearing a long sleeve, are you hiding your tattoos, did they tell you to cover it up? I started dying LOOOL, I was like nah, it's cold...she's like ohhh, as long as you're not trying to cover that up, she's like it's super cool, embrace it. So she asks me to help her move some tables and I do so....I'm like standing around the tables...these other ladies come and start talking in chinese in like a very stubborn tone telling me to move and such...she comes and goes oh don't worry, he's a very nice boy, he helped me move these tables...automatically their tone changed and they were like ohhhh wow what a good boy...like brah. Anyways, yeah...talking to certain people, you cn just tell when if they're super chill and down to earth. Sometimes, when you talk to people, it feels like they have a hidden agenda, if feels like they're dissecting and analyzing you as they're talking to you...I know this cuz I'm definitely guilty of it as well. But sometimes, when you meet someone and your walls just naturally come down because you don't feel like they're a threat, they feel very inviting and warm. That's a super amazing feeling because you know you're not being judged by how you look or what they've heard about you. Anyways, I just wanted to share that with you guys because it's pretty rare to meet people who make you feel like that, this lady didn't see me as someone who had tattoos, was dressed a certain way, did his hair a certain way or talked a certain way...she saw me as a this kid who played basketball, she approached me and went from there. It's definitely something I'm working on as well, looking at people with an open mind...trying not to create my own images of them before even getting to know them. I definitely know how it feels to be looked at as that kid with tattoos, that kid who dresses this or that way, that kid who has his hair like this or that...so it's one of those things I'm consciously working on not to do onto other people. If y'all read this hoping for a girl story, you kinda got one...probably not the one you were expecting LOOOOL, sorry folks, till next time, peace!

You The Real MVP Part 2

Part 1

Greetings, so the last 2 posts have gotten an overwhelming amount of views lol...it's pretty crazy, but I'm thankful and glad that you enjoy. Only thing I'll address is the job post, if someone decides not to hire me for a job because of something stupid I did when I was 15 years old, then that's on them, people change, people grow, if they can't accept and understand that, I probably wouldn't wanna work for them anyways. Besides, this whole blog kinda represents me you know...my opinions, my thoughts, which everyone has...some people just voice them outwardly and some don't. If a company decides to be like yeah, Rodmond, about this post you wrote in May of 2014 about this girl...or about this place...we can't hire you because we don't agree with your views or that's not how we want to be represented or viewed. I'd be perfectly fine with that lol...in all honestly, I've come too far with this blog to really regret anything anymore...if I've pissed off friends on numerous occasions and been like eh...what makes you think I'd stress over an employer not wanting to hire me cuz of a story I told or some words I said. Besides, if it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be...in any case, I'd trust that God has something planned for me regardless of this blog or anything in my life.

Moving on...some days, especially as of late, I've been very introspective. If you're someone who feels comfortable around or with me, enough to approach me no problem, be yourself around me, laugh and be carefree...you're a champ, you're the real MVP. Cuz I'm a hella awkward individual, I don't approach people much, my friends will attest to this, nor do I initiate very many conversations...hey I'm a work in progress, I'm trying. Forreal tho, if you're comfortable with me, that's super dope to hear. Some people, some friends...get mad at me because I'm like that...because they always have to approach me or they always have to ask me how I'm doing or I'll never message them. It's not that I purposely do it, it's not something I consciously think about you know...like if we're friends or whatever...we're friends, do you need confirmation or something? Yeah I get you gotta show the person you care...I dunno, it's just not something I consciously think about you know, but it's definitely a focal point in terms of something I'm trying to work on. But to the few people who understand and get me, you're the real MVP. To those who don't feel awkward around mee, you the real MVP cuz I know I can make things and people feel hella awkward, that's just me lol.

Anyways, just an update cuz I don't feel like making an actual update post because there\s not much to update y'all on...I think the biggest thing that really comes to mind to share with you guys is that I graduated university! Finally eh...it def didn't hit me until the week before seeing other people's convocation pictures and then the day of mine that I was like oh shoot this is happening. I'm super excited and happy, but realistically, I still have minimum 1 year and maximum 3 years of school left. Coming back to York for 1 year and based on how I do will determine if I do another 2 years in teacher's college. But yeah, that's about it, till next time, peace.

The Worst Date

So y'all REALLY enjoyed the last post, the amount of feedback I received was pretty surprising and overwhelming lol. Literally spent a good 20 minutes scrolling through my phone decided which post to write. Told y'all, I write a bunch of post ideas on my phone and get to them later, when I'm motivated or feeling similarly to when I first wrote it down. Literally woke up at like 5 am yesterday cuz I had a dream, pulled out my phone and thought of like 2 post ideas. So anyways...this is one of the posts that came from me waking up at 5 am lol. Keep in mind everything was very hazy, with lots of spelling  errors, so I'm gonna try to retell it as best as possible. To clarify before people read this and go off and start asking me questions like they did about this post, it's a dream, you probs clicked hoping for some juicy story...and you're gonna get one, but it was a dream, chill lol.

So when I wake up randomly in the night, I grab my phone and write down as much as possible because it'll help remind me of the dream as best as possible. So I went on a date, pretty sure I didn't know this girl because she didn't look familiar she was light skin tho. So I go about the date, we talk, have dinner and such and I drive her home. The next day, my boy asks me how the date was with a giggling smirk on his face. I'm like pretty good I think, he laughs and goes, that's not what she said. I'm like what are you talking about. He shows me her twitter profile and apparently she's like semi-famous and has a decent following on social media. She was saying how it was a terrible date, I texted her to come outside instead of ringing the doorbell, I didn't pull out her chair at dinner, I didn't have table manners, I was boring and uninteresting and she kept ragging on me LOOOL. It was at that point that I woke up from the dream...feeling EXTREMELY stressed...then I realized it was a dream and was like dang...that stupid girl lol. I promise I have table manners...and I'd like to think i'm interesting...to a certain extent, but then again, everything is all about perspective lol, with that said, thanks for reading...PEACE.

I Didn't Quit, I Got Fired

Hola friends...it has been eons since we've last spoke....2 things before we get into it. One...these past 3 days...I legit forgot I had a blog...and it was oddly freeing in a weird way, no commitments, no obligations, it wasn't until like yesterday I was like...why does it feel like I'm forgetting something, then it clicked lol. How does that happen, I;m not sure, but it did. Two...a question...why does anyone post anything? On social media, twitter, facebook, instagram, blogs...for it to be seen...would be the most common answer probably. Which is my explanation for why days go by without me posting lol...it usually never hits me until like 10-11 pm that I haven't written a post yet and by then, in my head I'm like oh shoot, hardly anyone's up, no point in posting cuz no one's gonna read it...that's my mindset most of the time which somewhat explains how and why days go by without posts. There are the rare days when I'm super motivation, emotional or inspired where I just put it out there regardless of the time, but yeah...moving on...

So I was fired from my first job ever...it's a very embarrassing, yet hilarious story. So let's backtrack...so my neighbours were paper boys and pretty much they hooked me up and got me a job as a paper boy. WOAH WAIT, Rodmond...how do you get fired as a paperboy? LOOOL let me explain...so when I first got the job, i was BEYOND excited...getting paid $40 every 2 weeks...that's DOPEEEE. So here's the breakdown, you deliver on Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday, 60 houses each day. Tuesdays and Saturdays are regular days with just the paper and 2-3 inserts you put into the paper. Thursdays, if you get the paper, you'll know are the big days where the paper comes with like 20-25 flyers, they come in bulk so all the Walmart flyers and Shoppers flyers come together and you have to individually put each flyer into each of the 60 papers, following me? So on Tuesdays and Thursdays you're supposed to deliver it anytime from 6-8pm and Saturdays before 12pm. On rainy or snowy days, you're supposed to put each individual paper into a bag. I can't remember how long I did this job for...definitely like several months...lemme tell you, with each passing month, the lazier and more ghetto I got lol. Tuesdays and Saturdays were easy cuz it only came with a couple of flyers, Thursdays were the worst cuz there were so many dang flyers. To the point where I began taking the whole chunk of say Walmart flyers, walked a couple of blocks down and threw them on someone's lawn still packaged together. I started delivering hella late LOOOOL...like 10-11pm, even the next day sometimes when I was really lazy. I never put the papers into sleeves...and you're also supposed to fold it once only to minimize creases...homie I rolled it up so I can throw it better like a football LOOOL. The most memorable moment was one Thursday, I'm on the route...if you've seen Thursday papers, they're super thick...so I underhand chuck it to a house like 10 meters away and it EXPLODES....it's also a windy day, so it's gone by then...all the flyers are flying through the street...I start DYING of laughter...I don't even finish the route...I run home and just laugh LOL. So wanna know how I got fired...one day after school...my friends are over, we're playing videogames...ding dong...IT'S THE FRICKIN LADY THAT HIRED ME with some dude LOOOOOL....she's like we've been getting complaints of late papers and missing flyers...I'm like what? My boys are behind me like dying...she goes...come with me. We walk like a block and she points to the ground....THE CHUNK OF FLYERS are sitting there LOOOL. Keep in mind I did this numerous times to numerous flyers...and stupid me only walked like a block away from my house. So she's like is that yours? I'm 'like no...she's like I know it's yours...I'm like okay, it's not. She's like here's what's gonna happen, you're gonna take this, deliver today and it's gonna be your last day...I'm like okay...she's like don't even think about using us as a reference LOOOOOOL. So, I go home...my friends are dying of laughter. I didn't end up doing the route LOOOL...you know what cheeses me...you get point for like every paper you deliver, so I got a decent amount of points, so I was gonna quit anyways, so I used my points to get basketball, but I never got it cuz I was fired LOL, what a waste of my points. But as I got older and looked back on this...I would not recommend this job to anybody...for the work that you do and the amount you get paid....it's a terrible starter job for any kid. Anyways, hope this made you laugh cuz I had a hilarious time writing this lol, peace.

Don't Set The Bar Too High

Hey friends, it's been an interesting time as of late...I feel like I'm in a hermit mode right now lol...I've had a lot of time to myself, lots of thinking, reflecting and just calmness and peace, it's been nice for the most party, sometimes overwhelming lol. Anyways...when you're in a relationship, or looking for a relationship, even just meeting new people and friends....you have certain expectations...a list even, of like qualities you look for and avoid. For example...if you're looking for a girlfriend or a boyfriend and you're in a room with like 100 people, you have a list of things you're looking for...maybe someone who plays sports, someone who's into fashion, things like that...and anyone who doesn't fit that mold automatically gets cut off or isn't in consideration anymore. Same thing with friends kinda right? We look for people with certain characteristics, certain likes and such because we know...or at least think we know that's what we'll like and get along with. I'm saying...maybe you need to broaden your horizon a bit more...scrap that list and kinda just go with the flow and see what comes your way. I look at the group and/or groups of friends that I have right now...yeah we have some things in common, but we also have A LOT that's not in common...if I had a list of qualities and characteristics that I was looking for...they probably wouldn't have made the final cut if we're talking about fulfilling every single little detail on the list. What I'm trying to say is...when it comes to friendship, relationships...as nice as it is to have a general idea of what you want and what you're looking for...sometimes, you gotta set the bar lower, because people will surprise you. If you're only looking for people who like sports, like animals, are shy, are outgoing...that's all you're ever going to find. It's when you have no real expectations and have nothing to go by where you really get to know people...you'll get to know some people that meet the qualities you're looking for, but you'll also meet people who don't but you still to your surprise get along pretty well if not better than someone wit the qualities you're searching for. So like when people ask me what my type is or something along those lines...I have very general answers...laughs at my jokes for one, is chill and down to earth...things that anyone can fulfill because I'm not setting the bar so high because I\m open to meeting people who aren't like me because a lot of my friends aren't like me and we get along great. The beauty of friendship is that you have all these similarities but are still great friends despite and because of it. You guys share similarities but are also able to introduce each other to your differences and everyone gets to experience new things. Whereas if there's a group of friends who only like hockey and video games...that's all you're every going to do with your time. So yeah...broaden your horizon, explore a bit...and don't set the bar too high next time, peace.