Church Retreat

HEY GUYS...so I'm leaving tomorrow for my church's summer retreat and won't be back till Monday afternoon, and probs won't even have time to blog that day cuz I'll still probs be out and about. I may blog on my phone if i find time, but feel free to follow me on twitter @RTtheRealest for whatever ypdates I tweet. I really can't wait...it's gonna be so nice just to get away from Markham...and just chill with my church homies, no sleep, board games, talks, things of the sort...I'm so pumped, just finished packing. I have a tendency to overpack...which I'm pretty sure I did...yet I still always have that lingering feeling as if I'm forgetting something, which probably leads to more overpacking lol. This is the first time in like a year or two that our retreat is 3 days 2 nights...the past few years it's only been 2 days 1 night...so that extra day and night will be fun...cuz we get a full out day to just chill and have fun and bond together as a church and as a fellowship. I pray that God really reveals Himself to my brothers and sisters this weekend...may He use this weekend for us as an opportunity to grow closer together while giving all the glory back to Him. Anyways, till Monday...or possibly Tuesday lol...later guys!

Player vs Coach

So this year is my 3rd year playing softball for the church my church is branched off from.Last year I was an assistant coach, but didn't really do much, this year I'm the coach. And a lot of the times...I find myself torn...torn between being a coach and being a player. Today we had a friendly scrimmage against another team and we lost, we lost pretty bad. As a coach...I can't let emotions take over...I have to be strong and support and encourage my team, let them know that it's okay, that's why we practice, keep your heads up. As a player, it's frustrating, I'm super competitive, so I know come actual season time, it's gonna be hard to keep my emotions in check. Seeing people miss easy balls or mess up easy plays sucks lol..,,as a player, I wanna be out there every inning contributing to the team, in success and in loss. But as a coach, I have to be fair, I have to put my needs aside for the team. And I think that's gonna be the biggest challenge for me this season, but at the same time it's gonna be the biggest thing in helping me grow this season...as a person and in my walk with God as well. It'll be great...especially with amazing brothers and sisters on the team to help keep me accountable.

J. Cole - Sparks Will Fly feat. Jhene Aiko

It Always Comes Back To You...

So tonight I went to crossfit at my friend's church and after crossfit atlike 10 ish or so, I saw my ex...I haven't seen her in quite a while...but we've talked here and there. The thing I love about her is when we see each other, we'll chill, we'll talk and we'll treat each other like nothing's changed...and nothing has changed. But something about her...we just have natural chemistry...when I'm with her...i'm comfortable, something about it just feels right.We sat there for like 45 min ish just talking while they were playing dodgeball and we were just catching each other up with what's been happening. I dunno...it just felt weird...but a good kinda weird...I had butterflies in my stomach a bunch of times. Everything just flowed so naturally, and it felt good. We were talking and she was telling me that her birthday is coming up, so I sent her a message after asking her out pretty much...for lunch or dinner to celebrate her birthday if she was free. Every time I think it's over or I've moved on and the feelings are finally locked up for good...I see her and she's back in my life and the feelings are like free and floating around again. It's like I've been trying to close that door for the longest time, but can never bring myself to completely close it shut...cuz part of me still has a soft spot for her. I don't know where this is going...I don't know how I feel about her...but I'm just going with the flow...my brain is telling me one thing, my heart is telling me another. Damn this sucks...but this song illustrates how I feel perfectly.

Too Cool For...

So I consider myself a generally likable guy, that's not to say I'm super popular...it just means I know a lot of people. can chill with different groups and am liked by everyone, or mostly everyone who meets me, at least I hope. Anyways, so there\s this guy who has a somewhat history with me. In like grade 9 or 10, I remember he took a deck of cards from me and I knew it was mine, but when I confronted him about it, he said it was his, but I knew it was mine, so I never really liked him since then. But in university, I saw him a few times cuz my friend is boys with him, so I tolerated him, and I was like,, that beef is dumb, whatever. Then I find out that he doesn't like me. And it wasn't until like a week or so ago that I found out why cuz my friend is pretty close with him. He said...he thinks you\re took cool...like you wear all these brand name clothes or something and you think you're so cool...LOOOOLWHAT...then I had a talk with my other friend and he said the same thing, he's like yeah he thinks you're too cool cuz you\re so into your clothes and what not...LOOOL, again I said what. How does that even make sense...you hate me cuz I like clothes...that's the stupidest thing I've ever heard. That's like me saying oh I hate you cuz you're into computers, cuz you make games...you're a geek, that's why I hate you. Man you're really immature, you need to grow up...you don't even know me dawg. But regardless...you not liking me...for possibly the dumbest reason of life...has no effect on my whatsoever lol. I just thought it'd be nice to address it...and show you guys this...an episode of Recess called Nobody Doesn't Like TJ...TJ, who's a troublemaker is also a super popular guy and very likable. When he finds out there's one kid who doesn't like him, he goes crazy and tries to do whatever it takes to get him to like him...and just watch, I don't wanna ruin it. But yeah/...I ain\t even sweatin' you dawg.

Downtown Chilling...

What's good...today was a great day...went downtown with my 2 friends. Driving down there, it was raining and we were like man, this sucks...then as soon as we got there, it stopped. We went to this all you can eat sushi place where you order with iPads...how sick is that. Then we shopped around and stuff...it was soooooo hot outside lol...we walked around outside for a few hours, then went to the Eaton center and shopped around a bit more. Drove back around 7 ish and played ball at church. Today was some great ball runs...I really felt nice and had my game going. Such a great day...on another note...I'm so excited for my church retreat this weekend...it'll be nice to get away for a few days and chill with my church homies.

Lebron James: Game 7

I saw this gif on Bleacher Report...of all of Lebron's baskets in one gif...I thought it was gonna be like a highlight reel of all his buckets,but...just take a look