Saturday, April 11, 2015
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Monday, April 06, 2015
Album In Stores Now
I was thinking to myself a couple days ago...while thinking about how I had barely posted in March. I thought to myself, posting on this blog is a lot like releasing an album. You know when you download an album...you listen to it thoroughly and say there's like 15 songs on the album but you only like 7 of the songs, you'll most likely delete the songs you don't like from your itunes. Once in a while you'll find an album where you legit like EVERY SINGLE SONG on the album...for me atm, it's Sam Smith's In The Lonely Hour album. Blogging is like that in a sense...where I'll write posts...and sometimes people won't like it or people won't find it interesting. Which is why sometimes I'll go a long time without posting...because as a writer...as an artist...your goal is to make every post or every song you like a hit...you want your audience to like every single thing you put out. Which is why sometimes I take a while to put stuff out...cuz I don't wanna just put out random words just for the sake of it...if I'm going to put something out...I want it to be my best and I want people to like it. Like Drake when he was reflecting on his Thank Me Later album...he said he knew it wasn't his best work because he had rushed it...and that his next album Take Care would be better cuz he got to put more time and effort into it. That's where my mentality has been as of late...yeah I may put out 10 posts in a month...but I'd hope those 10 posts were of quality, effort and heart you know. Don't get me wrong though...if I went like a couple months without posting, people would be like wtf...which is why I do understand once in a while...I have to put something out just for the sake of putting something out...even if I don't want to, have nothing on my mind, or know it's not my best. As a writer...a rapper...an artist...whatever you wanna call it...I'll look back to old posts sometimes and be like wtf was I talking about or dang, why did I put that out lol...well I guess it's also all about evolution right and improving.
Dear God
Late night talks...late night thoughts...God, whatever your plan is for me, I trust you. Whether it may take longer than expected...my life is in your hands. Guide me in whatever path you see fit...whether that means going down the wrong path and having to turn around and start over...or having many roadblocks in my path, I have faith you will guide me through all circumstances. God the fear of failure is scary...it holds me back...it makes me play things very safe and comfortable...because it's easy. God, if I fail...if I make mistakes...if I stumble...remind me that you are always there to catch me...to be there for me to lean on. The real world is a scary place and it's literally just over the hill...I can see it, I'm almost there...I don't feel ready, but you tell me I am...this what you've prepared me for my whole life.,.God I trust you with all of my plans and all of my goals and my hopes and my dreams. I know you'll come through...I have this confidence because you always have...and I know you always will.
Saturday, April 04, 2015
March Madness
This post has nothing to do with college basketball...unfortunately, like I know nothing about college basketball lol. What's a Jahlil Okafor? The only Okafor I know is Emeka...only basketball fans will get that. Any ways...the March Madness I'm talking about is my school going on strike and me having pretty much a month off...or me only posting 10 times in the month of March....YET you guys still showing my a SURPRISING amount of love by making March 2015 the most viewed month in this blog's HISTORY. The most viewed month previously was July 2012...with 8905 hits..March 2015, despite me posting a sub par 10 times...accumulated 15482...this blog was viewed 15482 times in the month of March...even tho I barely posted...lol...what happened...dang. But yeah, I'm sorry, March was hectic with my school being on strike...I still tried to stay on top of my readings and stuff, but for the most part it was a real slow month...constantly checking updates, my email and stuff...worried about graduation, summer school and all that. I did have a lot of posts lined up...but a my attention was much elsewhere. But life has been good...surprisingly...it's just been peaceful...like to paint a picture for you...imagine me just sitting in a boat by myself in the middle of the ocean...a fishing rod just danging, waiting for a bite, even tho I don't fish...and it's just mad quiet...it's just been a nice little while...quiet is the way I would describe it...sometimes lacklustre, lacking a purpose...but it's been so calming and clearing for my head. Thanks for sticking with me...
Monday, March 30, 2015
Reunited...And It Feels So Good
I know March has been a slow month...my sincerest apologies...this is a story of how I was reunited with some of my childhood friends...it comes in 3 separate parts...here we go.
This one came when I was in elementary school...specifically grade 8 I believe...so you know on facebook how there are people you know through friends of friends...or when you go to your friends profiles and you just look at other people's profiles and you assume you kinda know them or like you see a bunch of mutual friends...any ways back in the day I used to just add a bunch of people I saw I had mutual friends with assuming I knew them. So any ways...I remember finding this girl on facebook...saw oh, she goes to central park public school, but we had a bunch of mutual friends...but another thing was...she looked really familiar...her name will remain anonymous LOL. Not only did her face look familiar, her name looked super familiar too...that's when it CLICKED...THIS GIRL USED TO BABYSIT ME...well her mom used to babysit me...cuz my rents used to work a lot...her mom would pick me up and she would babysit me till like 8-9 and my mom would pick me up. Chilling with her was jokes cuz her mom was FILTHY RICH...she was divorced from the husband who eventually became gay...her new husband had a son who was HELLA annoying...he was older than me by a couple years...hated this dude, HIS name was Edwin...cuz who cares, he'll never find me...lol. I remember this girl tho...was super annoying back in the day...LEGIT PRINCESS/SPOILED BRAT...any ways...I ended up messaging her and she remembered me too...and COINCIDENTALLY...I was on the soccer team back in the day...word...I played soccer, dang...lol anyways, we had an away game at central park...so I told her about it, thought it would be cool to see each other...so we did...I remember she brought ALL of her girls to come meet me...guess she was nervous or something...but I remember she wasn't a spoiled brat any more...she was actually a really nice, but quiet and shy girl lol. I remember keeping in contact with her throughout high school, I was like yeah our families should have dinner one day...cuz I told my mom about her...never happened tho lol...we still talk, but not often lol.
This second one was in grade 9...specifically orientation day at my high school. I remember walking into the gym where they just had a bunch of random activities going on. This dude pats me on the back and Rodmond? I turn around and don't recognize this dude at all...he's like you don't remember me? He told me his name and it CLICKED...this dude used to babysit me as well LOOOOOL...again my parents used to work a lot. This dude was like my BEST FRIEND back in the day...we used to watch power rangers together LOL...He babysat me when I was a super young kid...before the previous girl...but we're the same age...we ended up being pretty good friends throughout high school...not close but he was pretty chill...now I have no clue where he is or what he's doing lol.
This last one was in high school as well but I think like grade 11....this one kid was my best friend in grade 3...I'll always remember him cuz his birthday is the day after mine and in grade 3...we both liked this one girl and he ended up getting her...we were those best friends who secretly hated each other...if that even makes sense LOL. Any ways...I remember going to this christian concert thing with a friend and we were about to leave and I hear someone honking and yelling from inside a car...I couldn't see cuz it was dark...he's like RODMOND...I go back and I kinda recognize him...he tell ms his name and I'm like OHHH YEAH....turns out we actually have a lot of mutual friends...and I see him quite a bit just through church events and softball and stuff.
This one came when I was in elementary school...specifically grade 8 I believe...so you know on facebook how there are people you know through friends of friends...or when you go to your friends profiles and you just look at other people's profiles and you assume you kinda know them or like you see a bunch of mutual friends...any ways back in the day I used to just add a bunch of people I saw I had mutual friends with assuming I knew them. So any ways...I remember finding this girl on facebook...saw oh, she goes to central park public school, but we had a bunch of mutual friends...but another thing was...she looked really familiar...her name will remain anonymous LOL. Not only did her face look familiar, her name looked super familiar too...that's when it CLICKED...THIS GIRL USED TO BABYSIT ME...well her mom used to babysit me...cuz my rents used to work a lot...her mom would pick me up and she would babysit me till like 8-9 and my mom would pick me up. Chilling with her was jokes cuz her mom was FILTHY RICH...she was divorced from the husband who eventually became gay...her new husband had a son who was HELLA annoying...he was older than me by a couple years...hated this dude, HIS name was Edwin...cuz who cares, he'll never find me...lol. I remember this girl tho...was super annoying back in the day...LEGIT PRINCESS/SPOILED BRAT...any ways...I ended up messaging her and she remembered me too...and COINCIDENTALLY...I was on the soccer team back in the day...word...I played soccer, dang...lol anyways, we had an away game at central park...so I told her about it, thought it would be cool to see each other...so we did...I remember she brought ALL of her girls to come meet me...guess she was nervous or something...but I remember she wasn't a spoiled brat any more...she was actually a really nice, but quiet and shy girl lol. I remember keeping in contact with her throughout high school, I was like yeah our families should have dinner one day...cuz I told my mom about her...never happened tho lol...we still talk, but not often lol.
This second one was in grade 9...specifically orientation day at my high school. I remember walking into the gym where they just had a bunch of random activities going on. This dude pats me on the back and Rodmond? I turn around and don't recognize this dude at all...he's like you don't remember me? He told me his name and it CLICKED...this dude used to babysit me as well LOOOOOL...again my parents used to work a lot. This dude was like my BEST FRIEND back in the day...we used to watch power rangers together LOL...He babysat me when I was a super young kid...before the previous girl...but we're the same age...we ended up being pretty good friends throughout high school...not close but he was pretty chill...now I have no clue where he is or what he's doing lol.
This last one was in high school as well but I think like grade 11....this one kid was my best friend in grade 3...I'll always remember him cuz his birthday is the day after mine and in grade 3...we both liked this one girl and he ended up getting her...we were those best friends who secretly hated each other...if that even makes sense LOL. Any ways...I remember going to this christian concert thing with a friend and we were about to leave and I hear someone honking and yelling from inside a car...I couldn't see cuz it was dark...he's like RODMOND...I go back and I kinda recognize him...he tell ms his name and I'm like OHHH YEAH....turns out we actually have a lot of mutual friends...and I see him quite a bit just through church events and softball and stuff.
Thursday, March 26, 2015
Awkward Female Encounters
Girls are interesting creatures...needless to say, in my younger days...I was a very shy, introverted, straight up awkward child...so when you introduce girls and puberty into my life...it makes for some memorable encounters and stories LOL....here we go, for your viewing pleasure...based on true stories.
1) This girl invited me to her bday party one day and we were going to a movie. She was a cute girl, but I didn't like her...literally because I'm a nice guy and I thought it'd be the right thing to do...I bought her a gift...I think it was like a picture frame or something...guess what, no one else bought her a gift...so when I gave it to her she was really surprised, I was really awkward, she hugged me, the other people made fun of me...LOL.
2) This girl I liked in elementary school use to be very playful with one another...but at the same time I was a very rough kid back in the day...so we would always like arm wrestle, thumb war and like play mercy and stuff with each other...long story short, I don't remember what we were doing but I almost like broke her thumb....like it was super swollen the next day...keep in mind this was the girl I liked...LOOOL.
3) One time at a friend's house we were all chilling in his living room playing truth or dare with a bunch of guys and girls...it was my turn...picked truth...they asked me who do I like...I literally said this girl's name in the room and pointed at her...everyone kinda giggled and she gave this like...'damn...why me' kinda look...LOOOL
4) Told this story before...grade 9 I liked this korean girl...don't know how word got out to the entire grade 9 population lol...she didn't know who I was...I see her and her friend approaching me she points and goes 'that's him'...I point at her and YELL....I DON'T LIKE HER...LOOOL...that put an end to any possible future interaction with her lol.
5) This one hurts my heart...this girl was a really good friend, wasn't sure how I felt about her...it was a snowstorm...she volunteered at a school I lived close to...I remember trucking through the storm to give her a card and a teddy bear...guess what happened...lost my keys, ipod and cell phone running to the school....cuz I put it in my jacket pockets whcih were loose I guess...wanna know something even funnier...she ended up dating one of my boys...smh LOL
6)This one is hilarious....there's this one girl I genuinely didn't like in school...she ended up being in my mandarin school...in class, I'm usually a quiet and nice kid, teachers like me. I remember getting into a huge argument with this girl in class...like YELLING back and forth in front of my mandarin teacher and all my classmates...teacher just had her arms crossed looking at me and shaking her head lol...
7) This one was when I was in grade 7....grade 8's ran the school cuz you're like about the graduate...so I remember I used to take the bus to school and grade 8's would always reserve the back seat and everyone knew it. One day I got sick of it and after school I ran to the bus and sat at the back...on my bus were like 3-4 grade 8 girls who always sat at the back...they came on the bus and saw me and started like yelling at me and ish and making fun of me. Almost got into a fight with this one white girl LOOOOL...but hey...dude's gotta do what he's gotta do...took a stand cuz I wanted to sit at the back...FIGHT THE POWER....
8) Back at one of the elementary school dances...I told myself I'd ask the girl I liked for a dance...the girl who;s thumb I almost broke LOL...usually how elementary dances work is they play like 3 slow songs...one near the beginning, middle and one to close off the dance...I remember missing the first 2 opportunities and told myself that's it...got up off the wall...saw her chilling with her girls at another wall and was about to ask her...some dude beat me to it...I literally just found this random girl my friend was chilling with and asked her to dance lol....I didn't know where to put my hands...I like put it on her hips like I was holding her belt....my friend comes up to us and wraps my hands around her waist and my hands are like pretty much near her butt...LOL...I looked at her and was like sorry about that...
9) I remember our grade 7 end of the year trip...we went to some outdoor trip...did this scavenger hunt and it was in pairs so the teacher was like pairing us off...one guy with one girl...out like 50 kids...the final 4 are me...my crush...and another guy and girl...I'm here sitting like...no way...it's actually gonna happen, I'm gonna get paired up with her and chill with her for like 2 hours...cuz it was a long scavenger hunt. I ended up getting paired with the other girl and my heart broke...she was like a chubby brown girl...I was super sour for the first bit...but...we talked cuz like dude...I had to do a scavenger hunt with her for like 2 hours...turns out....I'm a dick...she was a super nice girl...AND we won the scavenger hunt...OKAYYYY
10) I'm telling you homies...I've done some crazy things for girls...before I could drive...I remember bussing to Mississauga to surprise this one girl who was a super good friend and I wasn't sure how I felt about her...anyways...missiong to Sauga for her birthday...took like 2+ hours to bus there...secretly messaged her roommates and stuff...woke her up and stuff and she was super surprised...ended up spending most of the day there with her, my other friend and her roommates...my other friend was gonna sleepover leaving me to bus back at like 11 pm at night....luckily she didn't and we bussed back together lol
11) I remember one time...I had this reeeeally good girl friend...long story short, I thought I liked her...wrote her this card for her birthday and left it at her door...you know how she thanked me...she ignored me for like nearly half a year...didn't even say thank you for the card...you're welcome...lol
12) This really isn't about me...but about this other girl...who was psycho...like Gone Girl psycho...she liked this one guy...and you know how your parents make you write lines as a kid to practice hand writing and stuff...this girl wrote I LOVE _________ on lined paper...she wrote double sided like 5 PAGES and put it in the dude's locker...dude FREAKED OUT...they were dating but like yo...she was Gone Girl psycho...it ended soon after...and she FLIPPED...she would write his name on her books like a mad girl...I had her in my french class and trust...I saw the whole writing on her binders and notebooks live lol...
HOPE Y'ALL ENJOYED THOSE STORIES....hope you found it funny, awkward, stupid, lame...hope your opinions of me don't change too much lol...majority of these stories are like elementary school or early high school...I'm so open and honest because it's funny...and I think it's important too be confident about your past...it's the past...laugh about it....it made me into who I am today...I used to be scared to tell some of these stories...well not some...maybe like one or two of those...but it's my life...it all happened and has gotten me to where I am presently...so I embrace that ish.
1) This girl invited me to her bday party one day and we were going to a movie. She was a cute girl, but I didn't like her...literally because I'm a nice guy and I thought it'd be the right thing to do...I bought her a gift...I think it was like a picture frame or something...guess what, no one else bought her a gift...so when I gave it to her she was really surprised, I was really awkward, she hugged me, the other people made fun of me...LOL.
2) This girl I liked in elementary school use to be very playful with one another...but at the same time I was a very rough kid back in the day...so we would always like arm wrestle, thumb war and like play mercy and stuff with each other...long story short, I don't remember what we were doing but I almost like broke her thumb....like it was super swollen the next day...keep in mind this was the girl I liked...LOOOL.
3) One time at a friend's house we were all chilling in his living room playing truth or dare with a bunch of guys and girls...it was my turn...picked truth...they asked me who do I like...I literally said this girl's name in the room and pointed at her...everyone kinda giggled and she gave this like...'damn...why me' kinda look...LOOOL
4) Told this story before...grade 9 I liked this korean girl...don't know how word got out to the entire grade 9 population lol...she didn't know who I was...I see her and her friend approaching me she points and goes 'that's him'...I point at her and YELL....I DON'T LIKE HER...LOOOL...that put an end to any possible future interaction with her lol.
5) This one hurts my heart...this girl was a really good friend, wasn't sure how I felt about her...it was a snowstorm...she volunteered at a school I lived close to...I remember trucking through the storm to give her a card and a teddy bear...guess what happened...lost my keys, ipod and cell phone running to the school....cuz I put it in my jacket pockets whcih were loose I guess...wanna know something even funnier...she ended up dating one of my boys...smh LOL
6)This one is hilarious....there's this one girl I genuinely didn't like in school...she ended up being in my mandarin school...in class, I'm usually a quiet and nice kid, teachers like me. I remember getting into a huge argument with this girl in class...like YELLING back and forth in front of my mandarin teacher and all my classmates...teacher just had her arms crossed looking at me and shaking her head lol...
7) This one was when I was in grade 7....grade 8's ran the school cuz you're like about the graduate...so I remember I used to take the bus to school and grade 8's would always reserve the back seat and everyone knew it. One day I got sick of it and after school I ran to the bus and sat at the back...on my bus were like 3-4 grade 8 girls who always sat at the back...they came on the bus and saw me and started like yelling at me and ish and making fun of me. Almost got into a fight with this one white girl LOOOOL...but hey...dude's gotta do what he's gotta do...took a stand cuz I wanted to sit at the back...FIGHT THE POWER....
8) Back at one of the elementary school dances...I told myself I'd ask the girl I liked for a dance...the girl who;s thumb I almost broke LOL...usually how elementary dances work is they play like 3 slow songs...one near the beginning, middle and one to close off the dance...I remember missing the first 2 opportunities and told myself that's it...got up off the wall...saw her chilling with her girls at another wall and was about to ask her...some dude beat me to it...I literally just found this random girl my friend was chilling with and asked her to dance lol....I didn't know where to put my hands...I like put it on her hips like I was holding her belt....my friend comes up to us and wraps my hands around her waist and my hands are like pretty much near her butt...LOL...I looked at her and was like sorry about that...
9) I remember our grade 7 end of the year trip...we went to some outdoor trip...did this scavenger hunt and it was in pairs so the teacher was like pairing us off...one guy with one girl...out like 50 kids...the final 4 are me...my crush...and another guy and girl...I'm here sitting like...no way...it's actually gonna happen, I'm gonna get paired up with her and chill with her for like 2 hours...cuz it was a long scavenger hunt. I ended up getting paired with the other girl and my heart broke...she was like a chubby brown girl...I was super sour for the first bit...but...we talked cuz like dude...I had to do a scavenger hunt with her for like 2 hours...turns out....I'm a dick...she was a super nice girl...AND we won the scavenger hunt...OKAYYYY
10) I'm telling you homies...I've done some crazy things for girls...before I could drive...I remember bussing to Mississauga to surprise this one girl who was a super good friend and I wasn't sure how I felt about her...anyways...missiong to Sauga for her birthday...took like 2+ hours to bus there...secretly messaged her roommates and stuff...woke her up and stuff and she was super surprised...ended up spending most of the day there with her, my other friend and her roommates...my other friend was gonna sleepover leaving me to bus back at like 11 pm at night....luckily she didn't and we bussed back together lol
11) I remember one time...I had this reeeeally good girl friend...long story short, I thought I liked her...wrote her this card for her birthday and left it at her door...you know how she thanked me...she ignored me for like nearly half a year...didn't even say thank you for the card...you're welcome...lol
12) This really isn't about me...but about this other girl...who was psycho...like Gone Girl psycho...she liked this one guy...and you know how your parents make you write lines as a kid to practice hand writing and stuff...this girl wrote I LOVE _________ on lined paper...she wrote double sided like 5 PAGES and put it in the dude's locker...dude FREAKED OUT...they were dating but like yo...she was Gone Girl psycho...it ended soon after...and she FLIPPED...she would write his name on her books like a mad girl...I had her in my french class and trust...I saw the whole writing on her binders and notebooks live lol...
HOPE Y'ALL ENJOYED THOSE STORIES....hope you found it funny, awkward, stupid, lame...hope your opinions of me don't change too much lol...majority of these stories are like elementary school or early high school...I'm so open and honest because it's funny...and I think it's important too be confident about your past...it's the past...laugh about it....it made me into who I am today...I used to be scared to tell some of these stories...well not some...maybe like one or two of those...but it's my life...it all happened and has gotten me to where I am presently...so I embrace that ish.
Monday, March 23, 2015
The Ugly Truth
Your friends will fail you...simple as that. Hope that doesn't sound too negative lol...and I don't wanna come across the wrong way. This isn't the case for every single one of your friends...but it is true in many aspects. Your best friend right now...may not be your best friend a year or even a month from now. I'm kinda piggy backing on my previous post...especially the grade portion. It's so true though...you spend an entire grade with someone...maybe you sit beside them for an entire year...have a locker beside them...you spend a crazy amount of time beside them...talk pretty much every single day...you become really good friends...so when it doesn't last...it comes as a big shock cuz it's like dang...I THOUGHT this would last. And I guess some people in my life...I genuinely believed they'd be lifetime friends...and they turned out to be friends for only a grade...or multiple grades...not literally...but as in like...really good friends for only a moment...longer than expected. It really sucks...cuz I think back to certain individuals I know...who in my heart of hearts cared for with everything I had...people I invested my entire world in thinking they'd be lifetime friends...and they turned into friends for only a grade...wow it sucks. It made me think...friendship doesn't last forever. EVERY NOW AND THEN THO....you're lucky and blessed enough to have those friendships that DO last a lifetime...and it's beyond amazing. I guess even as old as I am now...and all the experiences I've had throughout my life thus far...you never really truly know if a friend is a lifetime friend or a grade friend...cuz someone you've been best friends for 4 years with can suddenly end....was that a lifetime friend...is that simply a dent in the friendship...or were they just a grade friend.Sorry to kinda bring down the negativity...the people I'm thinking of....I invested my entire world into...I shared my deepest, darkest secrets, best friends for what I thought would be a lifetime...years man...ending so abruptly...just has me thinking...damn...your friends will fail you...not all of them...but I'm saying be wise...be smart...pick and choose your friends wisely. Not sure where I'm going with this anymore lol...peace.
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