Where Does The Time Go

I always feel a bit weird talking to y'all after not posting for a while lol...it's like when you meet up with a friend you haven't seen for a while and there's that initial awkwardness lol. I've just been thinking and reflecting a lot...like can you believe 2020 is almost over...like we've still got some months to go, but it's definitely nearing it's end. I dunno about you, but the only thing that comes to mind when I think about 2020 is covid and quarantine lol everything else is just a blur. It crossed my mind that I've also been at my job for 2 years...the longest I've been at any job, but then again my longest job before this was probs like 6 months I think. It's mid August, school is literally a month away and it feels like summer is just getting started cuz things are (somewhat) getting back to nromal. I'm at the age where like a lot of my close friends or just people I went to high school with are getting engaged or married...and as dope as that is, it makes me think like damn I'm getting old and damn where does the time go? I swear my brother got married like last year or something and he's having a baby girl in December, geeez...I'm gonna be an uncle...got damn. You know what's really crazy...seeing kids I used to teach or just kids I've seen grow up either start or are about to graduate university...to me it's like damn, they'll always be kiddies but they're like in their early 20's, starting to work, date or are like about to graduate (bars), that's just wild to think about. IT's funny cuz like my boys that I grew up with, we're all the same age so we're all in like similar life stages or have similar perspectives on life and are thinking long term in everything that we do. I have other groups of friends like my coworkers or my church friends where they're for the most part much younger than me and I def feel it sometimes because things like their perspectives on the things they're going through, the way they handle things or just the way they approach life is so much more different than me...and it's not a good or bad thing either, just an observation. It kinda helps keep me balanced because I def feel a step behind my boys sometimes when they're talking about houses and marriage and mortages and all that jazz, but when I talk with my other friends it's more chill, laid back and seemingly care-free because theur problems are much different. I think about the fact that I'm 2 years away from 30...and when I was a kid, 30 just seemed like alright you're GROWN GROWN, so like to think I'm 2 years away from that is very, very scary lol. But I remember this girl talking on her podcasst about like comparing yourself to your friends or just other people in general and how it literally is not beneficial to you in any (okay, maybe most) situation. And of course there's that cliche saying that like everybody moves at their own pace and such, which is very true don't get me wrong...but it's hard to digest sometimes when like your closest friends are seemingly miles ahead of you in life. But anyways lol moving on...time is flying by...thinking about the friends I grew up with who I don't really talk to anymore or perhaps lost touch with completely...and also the friends who I've maybe just met or known for a short period of time who I've grown really close to or see on a regular basis....it's crazy the journey life takes you on sometimes...the ups and downs, the friends and come and go, the girls that come and go, the transitions of life stages, the overal maturity of self...it's crazy. With that ALL being said, cuz I really don't know where I'm going with this or how I wanted to end it, thanks for coming thru and thanks for reading...I\ll see y'all soon, peace.