The Next Chapter

So you know when you read books you often tell yourself like oh I’ll stop at the next chapter and continue later on, cuz you don’t wanna stop at a random page and then pick back up, you wanna finish the chapter because that’s where you’re intended to pause or take a break, it’s the end of one part and the beginning of another. I remember when I would read books and have that mindset, but some chapters would feel waaaay longer than others...where I’d be like damn is it almost done yet, I gotta go to sleep or do something else. Whereas other chapters are hella short and you’re just like alright maybe I’ll just read another chapter or a little bit more. I’ve been thinking a lot about the people on my life (because that’s what I do, I think a lot) and in the same way that you go through seasons in life, in relationships and in friendships...some seasons seem way longer than others and some seasons seem way shorter than others. Also similarly how our Canadian winters feel waaay longer than they should be lol. So anyways I’ve been thinking about the people, the situations and the experiences in your life...how if your life is your own personal story, then each situation or person in your life represents a chapter in your story. How some situations are short, some are long, some are recurring and some stay with your forever. Same with the people in your life...some people are in your life for a chapter or two, some people feel like they’ve been in your life way too long and it’s kinda time to close the chapter on that part. Does that make sense? I say this because I feel like I have been closing certain chapters in my story and am making a conscious effort to do it more. Only reason I say this cuz I was gonna make a post about this topic but changed my mind, it’s about how you can spend a lot of time thinking about people and how they’re doing and that feeling isn’t reciprocated. Granted it’s like if I think about someone random from school I’m not gonna expect them to wonder how I’m doing. But when it comes to your friends or the people you care about and hope to care about you, you kinda hope or expect them to have you in her heart, wondering how you’re doing and all that. So I say that I’ve been making a conscious effort to close certain chapters in my life because I just wanna surround myself with people who care about me, enough to tell me, enough to reach out to me and all that Jazz. Thinking about this post now, not even rereading it, it probably sounds hella confusing, just one of those posts that makes a lot more sense in my head than it does when I put it on paper lol. Peace.