Get It, Got It, Good

I think there's a small handful of people that you'll meet in your life who just get you...and vice versa. Maybe it's your best friend who knows everything about you, all your inner secrets, weird habits and unusual quirks. Maybe it's your partner who knows what and how to push your buttons. Or maybe it's that person you just feel comfortable sharing anything and everything with. I was really good friends with this girl way back when and every time I looked in her eyes, I could tell something was wrong, I just got her on an emotional level, she didn't really get me which is why we're not friends anymore, but that's not the point LOL. One example is like that meme where it's like oh when plans get canceled but you didn't wanna go anyways LOL, I'll send that to a friend and be like yo that's literally us. Moving on tho, I'm talking about people you share this weird intuition kinda thing with. Where you'll be laughing at something, you look at them and you both know what you're laughing at/ Or there\s so many instances I can recall where I'll be about to say something or a friend will be about to say something and we'll be like wait, you're about to talk about this aren't you LOL...it's like a weird mind connection. I love hanging out with these people cuz it's never complicated and it's always a good time. For me, it's a lot of things, I've been on dates or just hung out with people who are extremely uncomfortable with silence LOL. They'll feel the need to say something, anything to fill it, or they'll be awkward or assume I'm mad or something. Like chill, I just enjoy the quiet. Having friends that just get you makes it so much more easier and just comfortable because there's no fear of doing something stupid or being weird or awkward lol.

Rereading this post now, didn't really wanna post it lol...just didn't seem like a “good” or quality post LOL. But whatever, trying to do things more for myself and less for the approval or recognition from others...and that's a post I'll save for later. Till next time, peace.

Where Does The Time Go

I always feel a bit weird talking to y'all after not posting for a while lol...it's like when you meet up with a friend you haven't seen for a while and there's that initial awkwardness lol. I've just been thinking and reflecting a lot...like can you believe 2020 is almost over...like we've still got some months to go, but it's definitely nearing it's end. I dunno about you, but the only thing that comes to mind when I think about 2020 is covid and quarantine lol everything else is just a blur. It crossed my mind that I've also been at my job for 2 years...the longest I've been at any job, but then again my longest job before this was probs like 6 months I think. It's mid August, school is literally a month away and it feels like summer is just getting started cuz things are (somewhat) getting back to nromal. I'm at the age where like a lot of my close friends or just people I went to high school with are getting engaged or married...and as dope as that is, it makes me think like damn I'm getting old and damn where does the time go? I swear my brother got married like last year or something and he's having a baby girl in December, geeez...I'm gonna be an uncle...got damn. You know what's really crazy...seeing kids I used to teach or just kids I've seen grow up either start or are about to graduate university...to me it's like damn, they'll always be kiddies but they're like in their early 20's, starting to work, date or are like about to graduate (bars), that's just wild to think about. IT's funny cuz like my boys that I grew up with, we're all the same age so we're all in like similar life stages or have similar perspectives on life and are thinking long term in everything that we do. I have other groups of friends like my coworkers or my church friends where they're for the most part much younger than me and I def feel it sometimes because things like their perspectives on the things they're going through, the way they handle things or just the way they approach life is so much more different than me...and it's not a good or bad thing either, just an observation. It kinda helps keep me balanced because I def feel a step behind my boys sometimes when they're talking about houses and marriage and mortages and all that jazz, but when I talk with my other friends it's more chill, laid back and seemingly care-free because theur problems are much different. I think about the fact that I'm 2 years away from 30...and when I was a kid, 30 just seemed like alright you're GROWN GROWN, so like to think I'm 2 years away from that is very, very scary lol. But I remember this girl talking on her podcasst about like comparing yourself to your friends or just other people in general and how it literally is not beneficial to you in any (okay, maybe most) situation. And of course there's that cliche saying that like everybody moves at their own pace and such, which is very true don't get me wrong...but it's hard to digest sometimes when like your closest friends are seemingly miles ahead of you in life. But anyways lol moving on...time is flying by...thinking about the friends I grew up with who I don't really talk to anymore or perhaps lost touch with completely...and also the friends who I've maybe just met or known for a short period of time who I've grown really close to or see on a regular basis....it's crazy the journey life takes you on sometimes...the ups and downs, the friends and come and go, the girls that come and go, the transitions of life stages, the overal maturity of self...it's crazy. With that ALL being said, cuz I really don't know where I'm going with this or how I wanted to end it, thanks for coming thru and thanks for reading...I\ll see y'all soon, peace.

Random Thoughts

So what I started to do (or tried to do) is write the blog posts onto a word document and save them on my computer instead of straight onto blogger, I dunno just for keepsake or safety in case blogger ever goes down...who knows, just kinda gives me peace of mind. Anyways, point I was going for was I usually write like the date first followed by the title of the post, I started to type July then I realized it's August LOL. Got damn...first of all, it's been a week since we last spoke, but it certainly doesn't feel like that. Second, can you believe it's already August? Like this feels like the longest but shortest summer ver...scratch that, this feels like the longest but shortest year ever. When I think about this past 'summer' or even this past year...nothing of significance really comes to mind..it's just school, work, quarantine LOL which is hella sad...2020 is such a wash LOL. Summer feels like it's just getting started yet it's almost over and I'm back to school in September, which by the way they haven't been super clear about what's going on either. I just know classes (this semester at least) are online and placement is either gonna be online or like replaced with a course or something...but again, they haven't been clear about it which is kinda wild considering it's August lol. I've been having a lot of dope and thought provoking conversations as of late...which will probably manifest into blog possts sooner rather than later. One thought that came across my mind was that it's crazy to think some people are like still heavily in quarantine and haven't or have barely left their houses since like March/April. Cuz of worm, I see people all the time, which kinda made it normal for me to go out and do stuff and see people on the regular lol but some people are like locked down and have been locked down, which is crazy to think. Legit I can't even cough, sneeze or like feel a bit off without someone thinking or even myself thinking I have COVID LOL. I was with a customer, I sneezed but I turned the other way and she like took 5 steps back LOL. This post is probably gonna be hella random and all over the palce cuz it's a bunch of little thoughts on my phone that I don't think or want to make into full on posts. A couple posts ago, I talked about getting over a girl I was talking to...and lemme tell you, it's crazy how (in this case) fast I got over her, I don't mean that in like a boastful way either. I just don't realy think about it as much and it doesn't really bother me that much either. Like when I think about girls that really stuck with me and ate at me and took time to get over...probably like 3 or maybe even less come to mind. But what I'm trying to say is...when you're in themoment, so invested into someone and it doesn't work out...it sucks. You put so much time and effort into them, they became a bigger and bigger part of your world...and in that moment when it doesn't work out, you feel like your world is crashing down (dramatic I know), it feels like the worst pain, you think you'll never get over it or find somebody else. When that stuff hits you...or me at least, it HITS lol. But like I said...literally a day or two after, I was like...I feel like I should feel worse, like more sad or upset or something...but I'm chilling, that's when I knew it'd be all good and I'd be fine. Moving on tho LOL...on some brighter news...I'm so happy for my friends who're getting engaged or married...like BRO that's a BIG DEAL. Especially when it's someone really close to you or someone you've known for a while or someone you've known for a while whom you're close to lol. Seeing my boys get engaged or married...damn it makes me really happy seeing them super happy, getting ready to move on to a new phase of life, filled with new challenges and triumphs. It's even more exciting knowing I get to walk and celebrate with my homies as they plan, prep and celebrate. One last thing I wanna touch on is just how appreciative I am to those of y'all who read the blog (for whatever reason). When I started the blog, I always wanted it to blow up...and g etting older I kinda saw it as less and less of a truly realistic goal, but a small part of me deep down hopes that miraculously this blog will blow up one day lol. Which brings me to this conversation I had with a friend (you\ll get your post, maybe), he was saying like your blog's not gonna blow up cuz people don't give a damn about you. And that's straight facts LOL. Like when I thought about it...why the heck would people wanna read about my life...random experiences at work, random girls...people don't know me and people don't care about me. It's like when I'm or even when you're scrolling through social media or looking at people's stuff...people post and say things all the time but there's so much that you do and don't care about y'feel? So when I thought about it, I was like man there's a lot of people I don't talk to or don't care about and vice versa probably...so when it comes to me posting my blog on social media, of course some people aren't gonna click cuz they just don't care about me and that makes so much sense and is also perfectly fine lol. But it goes back to my original point of just being grateful for those of y'all who do come here, whether occasionally or consistently...for whatever reason, I appreciate it. Till next time, DEUCES.