Love Me Or Leave Me

You know I’ve always known that not everyone f’s with the blog...they might think it’s corny, lame, over the top or just hella unnecessary. But one thing I’ve always appreciated is that my friends support the heck out of me, I mean yeah at first sure they joked around about how dumb an idea it was, but the more serious I got about it and the bigger a part of my life it became, the more supportive they were...and I’ve truly always appreciated that with all my heart. Not everyone f’s with the blog and that’s perfectly fine. It might not be your cup of tea, you might find it boring or just not interesting and that’s super understandable. I was talking to a friend today and he told me that one of our mutual friends, someone I hold pretty near and dear to my friend...this person not only makes fun of the blog, but talks ish about how corny and stuff it is. And I won’t lie...I was pretty angry at first, but the more I thought about it, that’s when the hurt really sank in. I get if random people I don’t know, people I went to high school with or people I’ve met along the way don’t vibe with the blog, but for someone who knows me personally, a good friend...to say that kinda stuff...it’s like wow they really don’t rock with you that way...I know it’s overplayed and corny but Drake says “I got fake people showing fake love to me, straight up to my face.” In the same sense like damn, that’s truly hurtful because like I always say this blog has truly become a representation of who I am, my thoughts, my emotions, my everything...and for someone I call a friend to bad mouth it is pretty much bad mouthing me, saying they don’t mess with the blog is like saying they don’t mess with me. These kinda things really make you evaluate and reevaluate the people you surround yourself with, and for me it makes me even more protective of myself and skeptical of others, which is horrible I know. It’s just crazy to think like I’ve had people tell me the blog is dumb before, that certain posts are straight up corny, that I should just stop...I honestly pay no mind to it cuz it truly has no value to me...but when I heard a friend was saying some stuff it cut deep forreal. And honestly I still don’t really know how to process it you know...then it kinda made me think about what being a supportive friend means and to what lengths do you go to support your friend. If you don’t necessary like or agree with what they’re doing, do you still support them? What if it’s something super important to them, what if it’s something they’re super passionate about but again you feel the same way you don’t really like it or you don’t agree or you don’t believe in it, do you still support it? I dunno man, it honestly be the closest people to you that cut the deepest sometimes...I’ll see y’all soon, peace.