Let's Talk

Hello friends, it's been way too long since we last spoke, I apologize. But uh, yeah I just wanted to talk to you guys catch y'all up with what's been going on in life and such. One thing that's been on my mind with regards to this blog at least is that it's very easy to get caught up in like how many views I'm getting or how many people are reading my blog and such. Sometimes I think to myself like oh damn, that wasn't a good post because it didn't get as many views as I'd have liked or expected it to. And that really messes with you and how you approach say the next post for example. It kinda brings me to my next thing which is like the whole 'comments' on my blog. It's pretty rare I get comments on the blog, most people just tell me things in person or privately. I think when it comes to this kinda stuff or even any of those online anonymous question things that you post and allow people to ask you questions or comment. That stuff is hella toxic for a person's self esteem and overall mental health, I swear. Like I did that stuff as a kid and you like crave that attention and satisfaction of people telling you oh wow you're so dope or wow you're so cool, but in reality it's just an anonymous outlet for people to talk ish about you...cuz I've seen a lot of the comments and stuff that people write on other people's forms and it's hella waste and unproductive imo. It makes me think of like youtube comment sections, how as a youtuber for example...reading that kinda stuff everyday can be hella depressing as much as it'd be uplifting. Half the people would be telling you how dope you are while the other half would be telling you to go die or something of the sort. That's why I never try to get wrapped up around that kinda stuff, cuz it can really damage you y'feel? It's also why I've grown really thick skin, because at the end of the day...it's all perspective and opinion and has and should have no genuine influence on my life. But yeah, that was just me little tangent. What's been going on lately? Well last week I attended and helped out at a 4 day Christian conference for high school kids, I'll have a post for that hopefully sometime this coming week. I'm really excited to share with y'all what God's been teaching me as of late, which will also be in a separate post. I've been praying for like signs from God, some sort of message y'feel and I feel like he's been shoving this one particular one in my face and making sure I get it...and I'm really excited to share it with y'all. Other than that, it's back to the grind of job hunting lol. It's crazy to think that we're literally almost 1/4 into 2018, also crazy to think I'll be turning 26 in a few months...considering I used to think like 18 was when you're like a man and 25 is like considered hella old...geez, how time has just flown by. But life is all about stages right...and every stage has smaller stages...I've been saying that like I feel I'm in a transitional stage of life. The transition to becoming a man, trying to be more independent, more responsible and more serious in general about life and the things that come with it. So yeah, I'm excited to bring y'all on that journey with me as we do life together, see you soon, peace.