THE BEST YOU NEVER HEARD

Saturday, September 03, 2011

Real Talks Of The Moment

Be yourself, that's why they call it be-you-tiful. - J. Cole

- think I found myself a new sub-title possibly...lol

Blind Fury - Friends Before Lovers

- scratch previous post...this is my life story lol

50 Cent - Best Friend feat. Olivia

- my jam, my story, my life...relatable...

Friday, September 02, 2011

It's that time of the year again...school's about to start, some kids are starting high school and some are starting university. I feel like this time specifically...a lot of people are leaving me/ I'm drifting apart from them. People are leaving/have left for university and I never/will never get to say goodbye. Some people will come back often and some won't. From the people who are just starting university and going out of town...to the people who are going BACK to university and out of town...I'm losing people left and right. I'm also getting to know some people and growing closer to people as well...but I'm drifting and growing apart from certain people. Some of my friends are headed down the wrong path....choosing to chill with the wrong kinds of people, doing bad things....and one of them is in jail. I try to connect with them and steer them in the right direction...but I feel they're in too deep...so before I get drawn in I kinda push them away and surround myself with positive influences and people who will keep in on the right path....keeping my focused on God, school, etc, etc.

Special shoutouts go out to this girl....who's leaving soon....but I poured out everything to this girl...let her know how down I was as of late...she told me...I could tell...and proceeded to comfort me as well...talking to her about random ish and church and God really not only made me feel better, but when she was talking to me about God and school and trying to incorporate both together and just keeping your faith alive and hungry...it really inspired me. Sometimes I get jolts or sparks of excitement when it comes to God...but as of late...I think about her words to keep motivated to God and just put ALL my trust in him...she told me that sometimes when things don't go your way and your plans don't go the way you want...it's cuz God has a bigger plan for you that you may not see...we see things in the now and 5 minutes from now while he sees things in the long run...he sees the whole blueprint...after all, he designed it.

Random Thoughts

Me and my ex have been talking a lot lately...like deep talks, real talks, and ish....she's always been really flirty...and is extra flirty towards me cuz I know she'd get back with me in a heart beat if I asked LOL. I don't wanna lead her on....but at the same time....she's filling the void of that person I need to talk to...don't get me wrong, I'm not using her...I really do like her as a person and as a friend...but I don't want her to get the wrong impression...I just needed someone to be there for me...to pick me up physically because I was literally at a low point...and she was there for me...she picked me up, comforted me....and yeah.

Cutie Of The Moment

Maribelle Anes - I Wish You Loved Me
- just another loaft day...chilling, gaming, watching ish on youtube...not much going through my head....feeling really out of it as of late...not dealing with anything really lol just loafting and ish...