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Monday, August 08, 2011

Kirko Bangz - What Yo Name Iz

feat. Big Sean, Wale, Bun B
- only cuz of Big Sean....

I understand why Lebron James left Cleveland to Miami LOL. My softball team feels like Cleveland...except we aren't winning at all. Cleveland was winning it all but could never win the big one. My team just can't win at all. Obv the thought has come to ditch and leave to a better team...but nah....I probs won't that's a dick move.....but really.....if you could join a team with 2 of the best players in the entire league....you'd deff have to consider it for a minute.

Random Thoughts

A lot of people have been getting on my back cuz I've been upset about being 1-7 in softball an voicing it publicly. We had a sermon about winning not being everything and it isn't believe me. I love the team, they're overall nice people who try their best sometimes and I have no beef with that. My problem isn't losing, or even losing 7...or even if we lost all our games (though that would be embarrassing). My problem isn't that we're losing, my problem is that we're losing my large amounts, I'm fine with playing my best and losing because the other team was better, but when we lost 30 to like 3....yeah I have a problem. Constantly losing by like 20+, 30+ is just embarrassing and unacceptable. Funny thing is when I first was asked to join the team, I was excited, I was like oh yeah.....let's make playoffs (gotta win at least 5/10). We're 1-7..with 2 games to go. Last year's record was 3-7. I'm starting to doubt we can even catch up to that. I've been playing my heart out every practise and every game and earned the respect of my teammates and even the senior team. I'm a competitor and I'm not saying you have to be an athlete to get my respect, but when we're playing a game, show me you want it....show you you're trying your best and I won't care if we lose. When I see people slacking during the games or not caring....and we lose by 30....yeah of course I'm pissed....I cheer on my team, the other team, regardless of the score...but it gets to the point where it's like wait a minute....we are hardly scoring and they just seem to be running and running and running around the bases....that's just embarrassing. I'll most likely be playing again next year....we'll see what happens.

Sunday, August 07, 2011

Quickie

Got a softball game at 6...dipping soon, just a quick post so I don't feel like I didn't post at all LOL, I apologize...usual, had church in the morn then loafted till now. It looks like it's gonna rain, kinda hope it does lol...I feel like taking a nap. But uh...some random thoughts....if you read this....I like how you approach me and talk to me like everything's all good...that's kinda good cuz you look towards the future, but at the same time...you're kinda ignoring the fact we haven't spoken in a minute and suddenly talking to me like we're all good. Oh well....we'll see what happens, and you're gone in less than a month....I feel like my role in church is going to really grow now that Pastor Lesley is gone. But at the same time, I always compare myself to the older ones and their bible knowledge and all that and I feel like I'm not ready myself sometimes. I feel like being a role model towards the younger ones has stunted my growth cuz I feel like a babysitter sometimes for them. I stayed in Jo group cuz I thought they would help me grow...hopefully that stays true cuz I know a lot more responsibility is coming my way. Anyways, off to softball...ezzzzz