When It Finally Hits You...

My bad, I know it's been a while...this is something I started a long time ago and picked back up recently. I meant to post earlier, but I decided to hold off and instead finish this piece and post it instead.

You know that feeling when you’re in a zone and you just run with it. Like when you’re writing an essay and the words are just coming to you so you just go with it. That’s how it is for me at least...I used to save a lot of essays till the last week, but that’s how I operate weirdly enough...then I’d just go off and write pages at a time. Same with like sports or working out, when you’re in that zone you’re so focused and locked in. Anyways, this is something I never planned on finishing...cuz I never thought and never wanted to go back to these emotions, but I did and so here it is lol. The more I thought about it, the more the words just came and I just dug deeper into those emotions and finished it. With writing I feel like I’m a little bit of a perfectionist cuz I read it and sound it out in my head as if I’m saying it...and I want it to all flow smoothly...so sometimes I’ll leave stuff for a short while or usually a long while and revisit it a while later and if I can channel those emotions I’ll keep it going, if not I’ll come back to it another time lol. That’s why on my phone I have hella unfinished pieces or like a few bars I wrote at the time lol. Anyways I digress...here you go...


When It Finally Hits You...
When it finally hits you, just know it hit me harder
You went the distance for me just know I always went farther
Sometimes it felt like you were there when the timing was right for you
Then you were absent when it mattered and the moments I needed you to

It always felt right when we spent time together
Even after a couple months of not seeing each other
Time passed and feelings lingered as they always tend to do
I start getting on with my life, and then I meet up with you

I think it’s time I finally let you go
Even if I’ve never really truly let you know
Never had the strength to look you in your eyes and tell you how I feel inside
So now I set you free into the arms of another guy

I see your face every single time I close my eyes
It’s crazy now you’re someone that I hardly recognize
I’ve said it a hundred times in my mind but never to your face
And now the only thing between us is distance and space

So when it finally hits you, I’ll be long gone
No more staring out the window listening to sad songs
Our paths will cross again in time because they always do
So this is closure for me and a farewell to you

RT