Westlife - All Or Nothing

From me to you...

In Due Time

Today I spent my whole day with 2 friends pretty much...and we had a chance to just catch up, laugh, joke but also have some serious talks. We talked about you for a bit...it's been a while since I've thought, scratch that I have thought about you. It's been a while since I've talked about you...about it...about this now. Honestly, I'm going with the mindset of whatever happens happens...I just want you to be happy...with or without me. I'm using YOUR words...the words you said to me...that I'll be your friend for as long as you need me, and it seems like we've reached that point where you don't need me any more. The biggest thing that kinda irks me is that you don't know and probably never will know how much I really do care about you. Other than a few other things...there's honestly not much to talk about...you've found someone and he should be and I hope he is the number one guy in your life. Everything else is irrelevant...what I think, what other people think...anything and everything is irrelevant. Where you and I stand...I dunno...that's...something different I guess...all in due time. If it's meant to be it's meant to be, if it's not, it's not. I do have a few things I'd like to ask/say to it, but if it doesn't come up, it doesn't come up. I'm super appreciative of my 2 brothers in Christ just being there for me. It's been a long road to get to where I am today, content and happy with who I am and where I'm at in life. If you really are meant to be just an obstacle...a chapter in my life...then so be it...but if it's meant to be something more...so be it as well. All in due time...

Swear I had more to say, but that's what happens when I don't blog about things right away when I think of it...I forget lol...

Exercising & Active Lifestyle

These past 2 days have been niceeeee...long and tiring, but niceeeeeee. Yestterday, woke up at 7...SEVEN...just to drive my brother to work so I could have the car and go to the gym. Got to the gym around 8 ish and saw my friend who I haven't seen a while, he always goes to the gym super early cuz he has work at 9, definitely nice to catch up with him, told him to come to church cuz he used to and it would be nice to see everyone again.  After that, went to the mall to drop off my resume at Sears...here's what happened, on Sunday we ate lunch at Markville like we always do after church. My friend came to me and goes hey, wanna talk to the manager at Sears, they're hiring (she works there). I'm dressed in like blue jeans and my jordans, but I was like uh okay lol...so she takes me there and I speak to the manager and she's like yeah bring your resume in. So brought it in on Monday and she's like nice, we'll call you for an actual interview, so praying right now I get the job...as busy as my schedule will be, I really wanna get a job for the experience...and the money of course. After, went to dim sum with my dad then ran some errands, got home around like 2 ish. Went to dodgeball at like 7...drove on the highway for the first time by myself...felt so exciting yet nervous, but it was good after that. We lost both games...but it pushes me and I'm glad we're in intermediate not recreational cuz I want the competition to get better. Today was an even longer day...My dad mad loafted and ended up picking my friend and going to the gym around 2. Got a nice workout done and played ball till like 4 ish or so. Grabbed some food and went to our friend's house who we haven't seen in a while...he moved to a huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge house. We ate dinner there and just chilled for most of the night, talked and stuff. Afterwards, came back to Markham and played ball at church with my homie...then drove him home and had a real good talk with him in the car...which I'll elaborate on in another post...meanwhile,here's my friend's house...

Damn...

21 & 3/4

Man...I'm turning 22 in less than 3 weeks, but I feel...I know time is gonna fly by lol. Just been reminiscing a lot as of late. Take today for example, we were in church looking at church pictures and stuff and one of them said 2004...wow, 10 years...I was still in elementary school...and now...1 year left and I'm graduating university, how time flies. Seeing people come and go from church, seeing myself and others who've grown up in church, wow it's been a journey. On Friday we had small group for fellowship and we had really good discussion and the question came up again for me...what will this church be like in 5 years...in 10 years? Who'll still be there you know...with a lot of people transitioning to different phases of their life, it won't be surprising if people move or leave this church. Got a lot of people who are already away as it is, contemplating leaving or on the verge of leaving. It definitely makes me sad cuz I'm an old school feels kinda guy...I love home and the people and the environment...it's gonna suck if like barely anyone stays around you know. It also stings a bit to see how easily some people can just be like yeah I wanna leave Canada or something...I dunno, it'd be real hard for me to move away from home, even after I get married and have a family. I still wanna be able to have like guys night and chill with my homies once in a while...but if you move to a different country, you can't do that...maybe meet like once a year...that sucks. Yeah you'll meet new people, but it's different you know. Man...yeah these are the things I've been thinking about, especially since I'm turning 22 soon...life after school is becoming a bigger and bigger portion on my plate that I have to think about...and it's scary. Pray for me man...life is only gonna get harder I feel.

Way Back Playback...

I remember listening to this dude in like early high school...since this came out in like 2007, before youtube had HD and stuff...still soothes the soul even to this day...

Daily Updates...

Sorry guys, what I'm going to try to do even if I literally have nothing to talk about is maybe just talk about my day...or like sum up my past 2 days, so it's not like I'm posting every like week lol. Today was real nice tho...I've been waking up early as of late which has been good. Haven't slept past 12 in a while...been really good with waking up early these past few weeks to hit the gym. But yeah, today woke up and dropped my brother to work. My friends and I had planned a batting practice a couple weeks ago for today...but the weather was really crummy...so me and a couple friends went to the park and just tossed around a frisbee and a softball for a few hours, it was pretty cold, couldn't really feel my fingers afterwards lol. Came home and literally fell asleep on my floor. Woke up and the door rang, it was my friend randomly lol and we just talked for a bit before he left. Had dinner then had to go pick up my brother from work. Been feeling super tired all day today, but it's nice to know that there's no exams or studying to be done atm at least. Summer school starts Mary 5 I believe, it's an online course, but still gotta study and find the will power to do my readings...gotta also get the textbook too. Other than that, might call it a night early today cuz I'm actually really tired...