Day 10/31
So I was talking to my dad today and I said something and he was like oh you never tell me anything, you always tell your mom lol. I didn't tell him this, but for one...I drive my mom to work a lot of the times or I'll drive myself to the bus stop for school while she's in the car then she'll drive home so there's a lot of time for just random conversation lol. Second, whenever I do tell stuff to my dad he somehow always, ALWAYS turns it into some sort of lecture lol and sometimes I'm just not bout that lol. Anyways, so we were talking and my dad always asks me random questions out of the blue sometimes...his favourite is to ask me how certain friends are doing...like I'm talking about friends he's maybe met once or twice and like hardly knows...the randomest of people lol. He'll be like oh hey, this person stopped by my store today, didn't you go to high school with him, how's he doing? I'm like dad, I went to high school with him, that' it lol. Anyways, so he was doing that today...just asking me oh, how's this person doing, how's that person doing...but these people were people a little closer to me you could say, friends...people I've chilled with and hung out with. So he would ask me oh how's this person, how's that person, are they still living here, are they still working here. And what was funny and kinda jokes when he kept asking me was my responses...because a lot of it was...I dunno, haven't seen them in a while, we don't talk anymore, a lot along those lines...and it really made me sit and think for a second about the chunk of people who I'd say I'm pretty friendly with...that I just don't talk to, don't see or haven't heard from in a while. So the conversation continued and I kinda flipped it onto my dad lol cuz I've definitely seen a lot of people come and go into my household and in my head I was like hmm what happened to this dude, he doesn't come over anymore or what happened to this dude I don't see him anymore. So I started name dropping like oh what happened to this person and this person and this person. And he would tell me like oh this person left the church so we don't talk anymore, this person moved to another country, this person moved to a different city and stuff. There are still friends that he keeps in contact with very frequently even tho they live really far away. It got me thinking about my own life, my own friends...what happens when we inevitably get married, move out, move away, have less time, priorities shift, all that jazz. You see each other less because of maybe family, distance, work, whatever it may be. It's crazy to think...will you still keep in contact? I remember my old teacher telling me how after a long day of work and having to make dinner and put the kids to bed, he just wants to spend some time with the wife and knockout lol...how there isn't anymore time for friends or just hanging out with the boys...maybe once a month or once in a while...and I won't lie that scared me a bit, but it made sense. Your wife, your kids, your family are gonna be your priority and who you want to spend your time with, your wife becomes like your best friend...someone you confide in. When you think about family, work, bills, self and all that jazz...it's like man, is there even any room or time for friends? Just an interesting thought I had after a good conversation with my dad, till tomorrow...peace.
Tuesday, December 10, 2019
Monday, December 09, 2019
Detours
Day 9/31
So after yesterday's post...or lack of a post, would you even call that a post? I felt hella inspired and starting writing...like writing rhymes, I feel like I haven't been able to really express myself lately through the posts...so I started writing yesterday night and the words just kinda came to me, this was the result of that. Even this morning when I was laying in bed, I was writing...I had this spark of inspiration in my head and the words were literally just flowing out of me...so yeah, I hope you enjoy. This is about where I feel like I currently am in life...on a detour from the path that I've been on all my life...and it felt weird and unfamiliar at first...but the further you go the more it becomes normal...but deep down I feel like I know and understand that this is just a detour...that in time and eventually, I'll get back on track, enjoy.
Vision is blurry, heart is real heavy
You read the words I write
But that don't mean you understand me
Runnin' the race of life
But got distracted by the world
Fallin' off course, busy chasing after girls
Further down the rabbit hole
Exploring on my own
Feeling free but contradicting everything I've known
An unfamiliar path
Feeling uneasy and uncertain
Tryna find the Wizard so I can see behind the curtain
I know I've lost my way
I hope I never lose myself
See my reflection in the mirror turn into somebody else
So after yesterday's post...or lack of a post, would you even call that a post? I felt hella inspired and starting writing...like writing rhymes, I feel like I haven't been able to really express myself lately through the posts...so I started writing yesterday night and the words just kinda came to me, this was the result of that. Even this morning when I was laying in bed, I was writing...I had this spark of inspiration in my head and the words were literally just flowing out of me...so yeah, I hope you enjoy. This is about where I feel like I currently am in life...on a detour from the path that I've been on all my life...and it felt weird and unfamiliar at first...but the further you go the more it becomes normal...but deep down I feel like I know and understand that this is just a detour...that in time and eventually, I'll get back on track, enjoy.
Vision is blurry, heart is real heavy
You read the words I write
But that don't mean you understand me
Runnin' the race of life
But got distracted by the world
Fallin' off course, busy chasing after girls
Further down the rabbit hole
Exploring on my own
Feeling free but contradicting everything I've known
An unfamiliar path
Feeling uneasy and uncertain
Tryna find the Wizard so I can see behind the curtain
I know I've lost my way
I hope I never lose myself
See my reflection in the mirror turn into somebody else
Sunday, December 08, 2019
Cruise Control
Day 8/31
Do you ever feel like you're on cruise control or like autopilot? Just kinda going through the motions of life just for the sake of it. I'm not saying I'm like hella bored or that life isn't exciting...but sometimes it just feels like a routine and you're just kinda checking things off the list like oh school, work, gym, meals in between, rest and repeat. I saw this meme that was like oh, can't wait to go home and eat and sleep only to get up and have to work a full 8 hours again and the girl is like crying or something lol. That's definitely how I felt when I was working full time, just the same old thing for 8 straight hours and then you go home, rest and recover only to have to come back to work and do it over again lol. When I first went part time, bro it was like the happiest moment of life because I instantly felt this huge weight lifted off my shoulders and I felt instantly happier because there was this sudden shift in my schedule and routine. Maybe that's it...maybe things as of late have been 'too consistent', can that be a thing? Some people like order, organization and schedule in their lives...other people like spontaneity and going with the flow...I think I definitely enjoy a balance of both...some structure but also some sense of flexibility and freedom. Honestly...I don't even know if anything I said above made sense, I've been staring at the computer screen for like 20-30 minutes trying to figure out what to write about, you want honest...that's the honest truth lol...so I'm just gonna leave it at that, come back tomorrow and maybe I'll have something more exciting to say to you guys...peace lol.
Do you ever feel like you're on cruise control or like autopilot? Just kinda going through the motions of life just for the sake of it. I'm not saying I'm like hella bored or that life isn't exciting...but sometimes it just feels like a routine and you're just kinda checking things off the list like oh school, work, gym, meals in between, rest and repeat. I saw this meme that was like oh, can't wait to go home and eat and sleep only to get up and have to work a full 8 hours again and the girl is like crying or something lol. That's definitely how I felt when I was working full time, just the same old thing for 8 straight hours and then you go home, rest and recover only to have to come back to work and do it over again lol. When I first went part time, bro it was like the happiest moment of life because I instantly felt this huge weight lifted off my shoulders and I felt instantly happier because there was this sudden shift in my schedule and routine. Maybe that's it...maybe things as of late have been 'too consistent', can that be a thing? Some people like order, organization and schedule in their lives...other people like spontaneity and going with the flow...I think I definitely enjoy a balance of both...some structure but also some sense of flexibility and freedom. Honestly...I don't even know if anything I said above made sense, I've been staring at the computer screen for like 20-30 minutes trying to figure out what to write about, you want honest...that's the honest truth lol...so I'm just gonna leave it at that, come back tomorrow and maybe I'll have something more exciting to say to you guys...peace lol.
Saturday, December 07, 2019
Right One, Wrong Time
Day 7/31
Do you believe in the idea that someone can be right for you, but the timing just isn't right? I think I definitely do, I think you can be compatible with someone and they both of y'all are down to be together, but the timing just isn't right and it doesn't allow it to workout...whether you're in different places, different stages of life or have different priorities atm, if the timing isn't right, it isn't gonna work out. I've been really into podcasts lately...comedy, sports, relationships/sex...for one it's really interesting/informative and two it's a good kinda background thing when you're doing other stuff like homework, chores, driving, etc...it's definitely a nice change up from music that's for sure. So I was listening to this relationship podcast and this one girl was saying how she believes that there are multiple ideal partners for a person...so instead of having like 'the one', there are multiple people in your lifetime who could be 'the one'. She went on to say like someone could be 'the one', but it might just be constantly poor and wrong timing throughout both of your lifetimes and that was really interesting to me. Have you ever been a situation where it's like the guy or girl you like just never seems to be available or the timing never seems to be right..whether it's they're always dating somebody, there's some sort of distance or you're just always in different life stages with different priorities that your paths are never able to cross and combine. Another thing I've been thinking about and learning as well and also something they discussed on the podcast is the fact that there doesn't have to be anything specifically wrong for a relationship to not work out. I think this is something I struggled with for a long time because when something doesn't work out, you obviously want to know why and if there's something you can to do change or fix it. But I'm learning like it could just be as simple as there was no chemistry or they didn't see you in a romantic way. I feel like my previous relationships or the girls I was seeing, for the ones that didn't work out with no real explanation...it really bothered me because I was like what went wrong, was it something I did or didn't do...it really ate at me and it took me a long while to accept the fact that maybe nothing went wrong and it just didn't work out. I think it's really interesting to talk about dating with different people of different ages because you get such different answers depending on what the person is looking for in a partner and stuff, especially with the podcast I listen to it's like 3 girls talking about relationships and they're all different ages so they talk about their past and current relationships as well as their approach to dating/marriage and they each bring like different life experiences, perspectives and approaches because they\re all different. It just reminded me of like the people in my life and the differing ages playing a part in what you're looking for and how serious you are about it as well. But yeah, with that...I'll see y'all tomorrow, DEUCES!
Do you believe in the idea that someone can be right for you, but the timing just isn't right? I think I definitely do, I think you can be compatible with someone and they both of y'all are down to be together, but the timing just isn't right and it doesn't allow it to workout...whether you're in different places, different stages of life or have different priorities atm, if the timing isn't right, it isn't gonna work out. I've been really into podcasts lately...comedy, sports, relationships/sex...for one it's really interesting/informative and two it's a good kinda background thing when you're doing other stuff like homework, chores, driving, etc...it's definitely a nice change up from music that's for sure. So I was listening to this relationship podcast and this one girl was saying how she believes that there are multiple ideal partners for a person...so instead of having like 'the one', there are multiple people in your lifetime who could be 'the one'. She went on to say like someone could be 'the one', but it might just be constantly poor and wrong timing throughout both of your lifetimes and that was really interesting to me. Have you ever been a situation where it's like the guy or girl you like just never seems to be available or the timing never seems to be right..whether it's they're always dating somebody, there's some sort of distance or you're just always in different life stages with different priorities that your paths are never able to cross and combine. Another thing I've been thinking about and learning as well and also something they discussed on the podcast is the fact that there doesn't have to be anything specifically wrong for a relationship to not work out. I think this is something I struggled with for a long time because when something doesn't work out, you obviously want to know why and if there's something you can to do change or fix it. But I'm learning like it could just be as simple as there was no chemistry or they didn't see you in a romantic way. I feel like my previous relationships or the girls I was seeing, for the ones that didn't work out with no real explanation...it really bothered me because I was like what went wrong, was it something I did or didn't do...it really ate at me and it took me a long while to accept the fact that maybe nothing went wrong and it just didn't work out. I think it's really interesting to talk about dating with different people of different ages because you get such different answers depending on what the person is looking for in a partner and stuff, especially with the podcast I listen to it's like 3 girls talking about relationships and they're all different ages so they talk about their past and current relationships as well as their approach to dating/marriage and they each bring like different life experiences, perspectives and approaches because they\re all different. It just reminded me of like the people in my life and the differing ages playing a part in what you're looking for and how serious you are about it as well. But yeah, with that...I'll see y'all tomorrow, DEUCES!
Friday, December 06, 2019
Mindset & Mental Space
Day 6/31
There's always a small part of me that second guesses myself when I make a blog post...anything from oh is it interesting enough, are people gonna care, is it too much, too emotional, too over the top...all that jazz. Regret sometimes crosses my mind and the usual question is like oh was it too much lol, should I have toned it down or not have been so honest lol. I forgot who asked me this, but someone asked me how do I respond to people who judge me or the blog. I mean obviously I say it doesn't faze and but it's hard to not let these things creep into your mind especially say if it's somebody you care about or if it's the same comment over and over. I mean, I definitely do try to live by the belief that people are gonna feel how they wanna feel regardless or anything you do or say. It's kinda like how I always talk about how people might like you for no reason...and nothing you say or do will change that. Same with the blog...people are gonna say, think and feel what they want about it regardless of what I say ot do...especially if they don't personally know me...the thoughts they carry and the things they say will be more concrete than if it were somebody I know personally and can have a conversation with. So after that quick feeling of regret or second guessing myself...I'm just like, what's done is done, it is what is, it's out there. One think I really want people to understand is the importance of the mental space that you're in. Whether it's sad songs, angry posts, posts about girls...most if not all the time, whem I write that stuff I'm in a very specific mental space that allows me to like channel those emotions and those thoughts. So for example, if I'm writing a hella corny and gushy post about a girl and I stop halfway and try to come back tomorrow, I might not feel the same way or be able to channel those same feelings. I always tell you guys how I have a lot of topics or half finished posts on my phone or computer that I've never gotten to...it's not as simple as just continuing to write the post or picking any topic on my phone and writing about it. It's a mindset and a mental space and if I'm not feeling it it's really hard to write about it lol. Especially when I used to write raps...I'll go through my phone and find some really dark and angry stuff and I'm just like damn...how did I even think of this stuff and like man...I wonder if I'll ever get to that mindset and mental space again to be able to finish that...or do I even want to get back to that mental space lol. With this blog...I will say that I'm usually hesitant or at least cautious to bring up the blog when I meet new people...one cuz it's not the easiest thing to bring up and two because I don't want them seeing me differently or like having some sort of expectation of me lol. Like when my coworkers first found out I had a mixed bag of reactions lol...one guy was like yooo you're a celebrity lol, it's just awkward for me cuz I never know how to react to that kinda stuff lol. It's def not something I hide because I post it everywhere and the minute you friend me or follow me you'll see it right away lol but it's not something I'll inherently bring up or shove in your face just because lol. With that being said, I'll see y'all tomorrow...peace.
There's always a small part of me that second guesses myself when I make a blog post...anything from oh is it interesting enough, are people gonna care, is it too much, too emotional, too over the top...all that jazz. Regret sometimes crosses my mind and the usual question is like oh was it too much lol, should I have toned it down or not have been so honest lol. I forgot who asked me this, but someone asked me how do I respond to people who judge me or the blog. I mean obviously I say it doesn't faze and but it's hard to not let these things creep into your mind especially say if it's somebody you care about or if it's the same comment over and over. I mean, I definitely do try to live by the belief that people are gonna feel how they wanna feel regardless or anything you do or say. It's kinda like how I always talk about how people might like you for no reason...and nothing you say or do will change that. Same with the blog...people are gonna say, think and feel what they want about it regardless of what I say ot do...especially if they don't personally know me...the thoughts they carry and the things they say will be more concrete than if it were somebody I know personally and can have a conversation with. So after that quick feeling of regret or second guessing myself...I'm just like, what's done is done, it is what is, it's out there. One think I really want people to understand is the importance of the mental space that you're in. Whether it's sad songs, angry posts, posts about girls...most if not all the time, whem I write that stuff I'm in a very specific mental space that allows me to like channel those emotions and those thoughts. So for example, if I'm writing a hella corny and gushy post about a girl and I stop halfway and try to come back tomorrow, I might not feel the same way or be able to channel those same feelings. I always tell you guys how I have a lot of topics or half finished posts on my phone or computer that I've never gotten to...it's not as simple as just continuing to write the post or picking any topic on my phone and writing about it. It's a mindset and a mental space and if I'm not feeling it it's really hard to write about it lol. Especially when I used to write raps...I'll go through my phone and find some really dark and angry stuff and I'm just like damn...how did I even think of this stuff and like man...I wonder if I'll ever get to that mindset and mental space again to be able to finish that...or do I even want to get back to that mental space lol. With this blog...I will say that I'm usually hesitant or at least cautious to bring up the blog when I meet new people...one cuz it's not the easiest thing to bring up and two because I don't want them seeing me differently or like having some sort of expectation of me lol. Like when my coworkers first found out I had a mixed bag of reactions lol...one guy was like yooo you're a celebrity lol, it's just awkward for me cuz I never know how to react to that kinda stuff lol. It's def not something I hide because I post it everywhere and the minute you friend me or follow me you'll see it right away lol but it's not something I'll inherently bring up or shove in your face just because lol. With that being said, I'll see y'all tomorrow...peace.
Thursday, December 05, 2019
From The Heart
Day 5/31
So if you're not familiar with this segment, From The Heart is what it sounds like...nothing fancy, just a little something from the heart. So I haven't been going to church lately...and by lately I mean a couple months, it's been a weird time in my life lately...a time of discovery of self, of life and of everything around me. Don't get me around...to the core, I truly still believe, but how I like to describe it is that I'm taking a detour from the path I “know” that I'm supposed to be on...and that eventually, I'll get back on track, in time...maybe I'll expand on that in another post. But let's move on...so I'm currently in school for social service work in a 2 year program and in my second, third and fourth semester I need to find placement that's realted to my field. So my search for a placement in January was super loaft...they told us about it in early September but obvs your boy procrastinated because what else is new. I had an interview with one that I really wanted but didn't end up getting it. I was applying very sparingly even tho I knew time wasn't on my side. So I applied and had an interview for this one a week ago...this christian youth organization and I left feeling really good and they gave me a really good vibe that I'd get it. I was still really stressed though because I hadn't applied to many other placements, it was already December and time was literally running out. Like I wasn't even stressed about my presentations or even exams cuz that's light...I was more stressed about finding a placement for January. So these past few days I was like shoot...it's almost been a week and they haven't emailed me or anything...maybe I should send a follow up email or something...I was getting super antsy like shoot, if I don't get this I really have to go hard and apply and take whatever I can get, I have to let my coordinator know and the pressure would really be on. Low and behold...today in class, I get an email from the organization saying congratulations we'd like to offer you a placement position. Bro...I was so excited you don't understand. But moreso...I was like damn...this was definitely God, like this was definitely a sign...I really wanted that first placement I interviewed for and I was stressed to the core because I had a month left to find a placement where most people had already found placements ages ago...and low and behold...I get a placement at a christian organization...a partof my life I've been neglecting and ignoring...it's honestly crazy how things work out. First thing I did was text my boy cuz he was always encouraging me and supporting me and he was like yo man let me know how it goes cuz I feel like I'm invested in this too. It's funny because I've been seeing signs...like of God trying to reach out to me. I bumped into my old Teens Conference (a christian conference for high school kids) co coach at the gym and we had a really good conversation. Every now and then my friends are always asking me like oh how're you doing, have you been going to church, I'm praying for you, take your time and all that...and I appreciate that dearly. Honestly, getting this specific placement out of all the places I could have gotten...is no coincidence for sure...all the stress and anxiety building up to this point...was no coincidence. And for those worrying about me falling off too hard...know that your boy is doing okay...I may not be on the right track right now, but I'm figuring things out...and I won't (or hope I won't) let things get too out of control where I stumble completely off the path...it's just a detour, and with all detours...they eventually lead you back onto the right path...so yeah, I hope y'all have been enjoying these daily posts, and if not...sorry lol, if y'all find it annoying...then TOO BAD SUCKA...lol but thank you as always for supporting me...till tomorrow, peace.From The Heart
So if you're not familiar with this segment, From The Heart is what it sounds like...nothing fancy, just a little something from the heart. So I haven't been going to church lately...and by lately I mean a couple months, it's been a weird time in my life lately...a time of discovery of self, of life and of everything around me. Don't get me around...to the core, I truly still believe, but how I like to describe it is that I'm taking a detour from the path I “know” that I'm supposed to be on...and that eventually, I'll get back on track, in time...maybe I'll expand on that in another post. But let's move on...so I'm currently in school for social service work in a 2 year program and in my second, third and fourth semester I need to find placement that's realted to my field. So my search for a placement in January was super loaft...they told us about it in early September but obvs your boy procrastinated because what else is new. I had an interview with one that I really wanted but didn't end up getting it. I was applying very sparingly even tho I knew time wasn't on my side. So I applied and had an interview for this one a week ago...this christian youth organization and I left feeling really good and they gave me a really good vibe that I'd get it. I was still really stressed though because I hadn't applied to many other placements, it was already December and time was literally running out. Like I wasn't even stressed about my presentations or even exams cuz that's light...I was more stressed about finding a placement for January. So these past few days I was like shoot...it's almost been a week and they haven't emailed me or anything...maybe I should send a follow up email or something...I was getting super antsy like shoot, if I don't get this I really have to go hard and apply and take whatever I can get, I have to let my coordinator know and the pressure would really be on. Low and behold...today in class, I get an email from the organization saying congratulations we'd like to offer you a placement position. Bro...I was so excited you don't understand. But moreso...I was like damn...this was definitely God, like this was definitely a sign...I really wanted that first placement I interviewed for and I was stressed to the core because I had a month left to find a placement where most people had already found placements ages ago...and low and behold...I get a placement at a christian organization...a partof my life I've been neglecting and ignoring...it's honestly crazy how things work out. First thing I did was text my boy cuz he was always encouraging me and supporting me and he was like yo man let me know how it goes cuz I feel like I'm invested in this too. It's funny because I've been seeing signs...like of God trying to reach out to me. I bumped into my old Teens Conference (a christian conference for high school kids) co coach at the gym and we had a really good conversation. Every now and then my friends are always asking me like oh how're you doing, have you been going to church, I'm praying for you, take your time and all that...and I appreciate that dearly. Honestly, getting this specific placement out of all the places I could have gotten...is no coincidence for sure...all the stress and anxiety building up to this point...was no coincidence. And for those worrying about me falling off too hard...know that your boy is doing okay...I may not be on the right track right now, but I'm figuring things out...and I won't (or hope I won't) let things get too out of control where I stumble completely off the path...it's just a detour, and with all detours...they eventually lead you back onto the right path...so yeah, I hope y'all have been enjoying these daily posts, and if not...sorry lol, if y'all find it annoying...then TOO BAD SUCKA...lol but thank you as always for supporting me...till tomorrow, peace.From The Heart
Wednesday, December 04, 2019
Rejection, We Meet Again
Day 4/31
So I thought I'd keep it light hearted and hopefully give y'all a good laugh lol...so I'm gonna tell y'all 3 different stories at 3 different points in my life, all focusing around me being rejected...because hey, rejectio is a normal and healthy part of life. I think I used to be so scared and hesitant to share these kinds of things or really personal struggles and failures...but this is what this blog as grown to kinda become...and it's played a big part in me being so confident and comfortable in sharing what normal people would consider personal or embarrassing, lol so here we go...and just remember this, better to shoot your shot and miss and live to shoot another day than to not shoot at all...does that make sense, is that hella corny? LOL oh well...
So this was sometime earlier in my university career...I was in this one class and there was this girl that I always saw and thought was super cute. I was like she looks really familiar for some reason...turns out she was on the York volleyball team lol. Anyways, so one day after class, I'm like Rodmond, suck it up and approach her.So I'm waiting for her to pack up all her stuff and it's literally just us 2 left in the room...she gets up to leave and I'm like shoot, there goes my chance. She leaves the room and I'm like you know what...NAH, just do it. So I run out of the room and I chase after her and I tap her on the shoulder and I awkward go like...oh hey, I uh....I think you're really cute, just wondering if I could get your number...bro I didn't even introduce myself or tell her I was in her class LOL...so she's like uh...I gotta go, but um...find me on facebook, and she walks away. As I'm walking to the bus, I'm like wait a minute...I didn't even get her name, how am I supposed to find her on facebook...LOOOOL.
So I thought I'd keep it light hearted and hopefully give y'all a good laugh lol...so I'm gonna tell y'all 3 different stories at 3 different points in my life, all focusing around me being rejected...because hey, rejectio is a normal and healthy part of life. I think I used to be so scared and hesitant to share these kinds of things or really personal struggles and failures...but this is what this blog as grown to kinda become...and it's played a big part in me being so confident and comfortable in sharing what normal people would consider personal or embarrassing, lol so here we go...and just remember this, better to shoot your shot and miss and live to shoot another day than to not shoot at all...does that make sense, is that hella corny? LOL oh well...
So this was sometime earlier in my university career...I was in this one class and there was this girl that I always saw and thought was super cute. I was like she looks really familiar for some reason...turns out she was on the York volleyball team lol. Anyways, so one day after class, I'm like Rodmond, suck it up and approach her.So I'm waiting for her to pack up all her stuff and it's literally just us 2 left in the room...she gets up to leave and I'm like shoot, there goes my chance. She leaves the room and I'm like you know what...NAH, just do it. So I run out of the room and I chase after her and I tap her on the shoulder and I awkward go like...oh hey, I uh....I think you're really cute, just wondering if I could get your number...bro I didn't even introduce myself or tell her I was in her class LOL...so she's like uh...I gotta go, but um...find me on facebook, and she walks away. As I'm walking to the bus, I'm like wait a minute...I didn't even get her name, how am I supposed to find her on facebook...LOOOOL.
This second one was also sometime in university, just for context in how old I was lol, but it was in a church setting. So I did this project thing with this group and there was this one girl who I thought was really cool and we had a bunch of good conversations. So after the project ended, I kept in contact with her and we were talking for a good while. So I would always jokingly be like oh hey let me buy you dinner one day and she'd always be like oh haha nah it's cool (read the signs Rodmond). So I kept pushing and I was like nah forreal what day are you free, let's grab dinner. She was like nah I don't think that's a good idea...and the next words that came out of her mouth I'll never forget because it was so jokes and hella serious at the same time. So she was like yeah nah I don't think that's a good idea, what are your intentions???? LOOOL I dunno if you've ever had a girl or guy ask you that before, but I was with a group of friends and I showed them and they were like daaaaaamnnnn. Obviously in a christian context like we continued the conversation and she was like oh yeah it's not what I'm looking for atm and I don't wanna like cause you to stumble or be tempted lol, it was a hella lengthy conversation I was like yeah, honestly I know the answer should be marriage (I was probs like hella early 20's) but I just wanna get to know you better tbh and she was like yeah well yu can do that through messenger lol...so that was the end of that lol.
So this third one is somewhat recent...I think, definitely within like these past 3-4 years, is that recent? Anyways, so I matched with this girl on tinder and we hit it off instantly, the conversation was dope and we would talk on the phone till like 3-4 am every night and I hate talking on the phone lol. So anyways, she found out I had a blog and she instantly fell in love...I kid you not, like she was in love with the blog and like so inspired by it, it was kinda creepy but jokes and flattering at the same time. Keep in mind we still hadn't met up yet, we were probably talking for like 2-3 weeks already, so we finally met up and I just feel like I wasn't what she expected lol. I think she wanted me to be some inspiring, insightful, hella poetic ass kinda dude LOL. I mean...I am, to a certain extent, but I'm a goofy dude (something I used to see as a negative about myself, save that for another time) and I like to joke around and I'm serious about half the time or when I need to be lol. So my theory is that I feel like she fell in love with RT...or the dude who writes to you on this blog, who's words you're reading right now. I know it's weird, but hear me out...I feel like some people see the blog as a different person, like a different side or different persona of mine...I've definitely gotten it before...in my younger years, the girls that I would chill with would be like you're so different on the blog...only because I would write about them rather than talking about our problems. Anyways, yeah, I feel like this girl was in love with the blog and I guess I didn't live up to her expectations in real life lol...that one definitely stung a bit only because we really hit it off and I'm a sucker for that shit...but oh well, live and learn, pick up the ball and shoot another shot...till tomorrow, DEUCES.
So this third one is somewhat recent...I think, definitely within like these past 3-4 years, is that recent? Anyways, so I matched with this girl on tinder and we hit it off instantly, the conversation was dope and we would talk on the phone till like 3-4 am every night and I hate talking on the phone lol. So anyways, she found out I had a blog and she instantly fell in love...I kid you not, like she was in love with the blog and like so inspired by it, it was kinda creepy but jokes and flattering at the same time. Keep in mind we still hadn't met up yet, we were probably talking for like 2-3 weeks already, so we finally met up and I just feel like I wasn't what she expected lol. I think she wanted me to be some inspiring, insightful, hella poetic ass kinda dude LOL. I mean...I am, to a certain extent, but I'm a goofy dude (something I used to see as a negative about myself, save that for another time) and I like to joke around and I'm serious about half the time or when I need to be lol. So my theory is that I feel like she fell in love with RT...or the dude who writes to you on this blog, who's words you're reading right now. I know it's weird, but hear me out...I feel like some people see the blog as a different person, like a different side or different persona of mine...I've definitely gotten it before...in my younger years, the girls that I would chill with would be like you're so different on the blog...only because I would write about them rather than talking about our problems. Anyways, yeah, I feel like this girl was in love with the blog and I guess I didn't live up to her expectations in real life lol...that one definitely stung a bit only because we really hit it off and I'm a sucker for that shit...but oh well, live and learn, pick up the ball and shoot another shot...till tomorrow, DEUCES.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)