Monday, June 09, 2014
Don't Prove It, Just Be It...
I was sharing on Sunday with my worship team about softball stuff cuz we went through a few verses about Israel disobeying God and losing the war because of it. One particular verse was saying why would you disobey God when you know it's going to be unsuccessful. It talked about trusting God and in His plan. I shared about softball...how it started off and still sometimes is a struggle...to get everything together, to run practices, to make people happy, to make sure I'm respected or that people see me as a coach. I told them how I talked to my friend about it and she said why are you worrying about all these things...remember WHO are you doing this for...not for the team...so who cares what they think. It's not about your relationship with them but about your relationship with God. She said as long as I'm right with God and doing everything because of Him, who cares about everything else. Anyways, back to present time...one of the guys on the team said something that hit me straight up...he said why do you feel you need to prove to them you're a coach or whatever...you already ARE a coach...so just BE it. And that really struck me...he was right on the dot...I was doing all these things,t rying to make then happy, planning good practices, productive drills, making sure everyone's listening to me...as if I needed reassurance that I am a coach or that I was a good coach...when that's totally irrelevant and that's why his point struck me so hard...I already am a coach, but still I had this inner desire to prove to the whole team that I was what I already am. But yeah...we had a double header this past Saturday, caught up in the last inning to tie the first game and we won the second game. I'm definitely happy and encouraged by the progress that the team has made in terms of skill improvement and just openness and comfort around everyone. But of course, I know it's all by the grace of God that this is all possible and I'm super humbled and thankful for that.
Listen To Your Heart
I know I've been gone, and I apologize...lol, anyways...
Lately...my heart's been telling me a lot of things...and it's been eating at me. Not in a bad like I'm stressing kinda way, but more of a damn, what do I do kinda way lol. I've come to terms that as of late...my heart has been pretty deceiving and that I should listen to my head. I hate getting too close to girls...but I love confiding in them as well cuz that intimate connection or conversation you have is just different between a guy and a girl and a guy and a guy you know. But I hate it at the very same time...cuz when feelings develop...it's game over man. Anyways...my heart's been really leaning heavily to this one particular person as of late...and I dunno,,,my head's telling me it's not a good idea or to at least take your time and chilllll...but my heart's like go for it...this is it, she's the one. My heart is deceiving I tell you...there's like another girl who my heart is saying dude, just go for it man...I dunno, I hate this sometimes. I've been talking to my friend about what it would be like if we had arranged marriages LOL how you would grow to love one another and things like that...I dunno man. One thing that we both told each other is to be patient...that our time will come...and that's what I have hope in...that I will find or perhaps already have found the one...but just don't realize it yet. Gotta think with my head though...be smart and not emotional.
Lately...my heart's been telling me a lot of things...and it's been eating at me. Not in a bad like I'm stressing kinda way, but more of a damn, what do I do kinda way lol. I've come to terms that as of late...my heart has been pretty deceiving and that I should listen to my head. I hate getting too close to girls...but I love confiding in them as well cuz that intimate connection or conversation you have is just different between a guy and a girl and a guy and a guy you know. But I hate it at the very same time...cuz when feelings develop...it's game over man. Anyways...my heart's been really leaning heavily to this one particular person as of late...and I dunno,,,my head's telling me it's not a good idea or to at least take your time and chilllll...but my heart's like go for it...this is it, she's the one. My heart is deceiving I tell you...there's like another girl who my heart is saying dude, just go for it man...I dunno, I hate this sometimes. I've been talking to my friend about what it would be like if we had arranged marriages LOL how you would grow to love one another and things like that...I dunno man. One thing that we both told each other is to be patient...that our time will come...and that's what I have hope in...that I will find or perhaps already have found the one...but just don't realize it yet. Gotta think with my head though...be smart and not emotional.
Where Has The Time Gone...
Dang, it's been a week since I've posted already lol again...sorry...I assure you everything is fine, I'm safe, jut been busy lol...updates tomorrow, thanks for sticking with me!
Sunday, June 01, 2014
S.O. - I Can Bear
This is my jammmmmmm right now...and the ULTIMATE reminder with everything I've been struggling with as of late and even with today's sermon which I shared in the previous post. Only the Lord knows the troubles and struggles I've been through all my life...but the light in the tunnel makes me know all will be right...cuz God will never give me more than I can bear.
Which also reminds me of another one of my fave verses 1 Corinthians 10:13...
Which also reminds me of another one of my fave verses 1 Corinthians 10:13...
Encouragement From All Directions
I was gonna just lump this into the previous post but nah decided to make this it's own post. I've been sharing with you guys how I've been feeling overwhelmed with everything going on in my life atm...and I've had a feel really good conversations this past week that really gave me peace and encouragement and I really appreciate it. Today's message really hit me and just drove the whole point home that God is always in control, I just have to trust Him. We learned that temptations will always be around, we'll face them from now till the day we die...but just because we are tempted, does not mean that we have to fall into it. The pastor made a analogy that when birds fly over your head, you can't tell them hey, don't fly over my head, but when they try to build a nest on your head, that is something you can prevent and stop. Similarly...temptation is all around you...it's not something that you can stop...but what you can prevent is falling into it...and sinning because of it...and that really hit me hard. That I\m always going to face trials and temptations...but how I react to it is key. And that just reminded me about the tattoo I wanted to get...no I haven't forgotten, it's just something I've being prayerful and patient about...but I told y'all I wanted to get the verse in James that talks about embracing your temptation and finding joy in it cuz you know it'll help you grow. So that's just a great reminder to me. Special thanks to my one friend who sent me this bible verse when I was struggling and confiding in her....it was definitely a great and needed reminder.
"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:6-7
"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:6-7
Looooooooong Week...
Wow, this is what I mean by time flies, but at the same time, the week feels so long and tiring. Like it's been a week since I've posted already...but like this week has been so long and tiring. Let's see...
Last Sunday...softball game at 4, it was a close game, definitely proud of my team, we lost but still had fun and did great for our first game. Afterwards it was like 6 ish...stayed till like 7:30 just doing some batting practice and just chilling around...went to all you can eat sushi dinner with the team then went home. The bonding times outside of practice and games are definitely the most fun times of the season cuz you really get to know people one on one.
Monday...can't really remember what I did during the day, all I remember is that I had a blister from Sunday's activities, played through it cuz I had dodgeball at night, definitely good stuff.
Tuesday...went to the gym early morning with my friend and grabbed lunch with him after...had work from 5-9 so I couldn't make softball practice. Used my employee discount for the first time to buy a cross and chain, been looking for one for quite some time. It was 60% clearance and I used my 25% discount on top of that lol...saved like $60 ish and spent like $30 ish.
Wednesday...oh man, I totally remember this day...woke up for a doctor's appointment at 10:30...was there in time. Lady's like...come back in half an hour...came back in half an hour...ended up waiting till 12:30 just for like a 10 minute check up. Actually so waste...went to all you can eat sushi lunch with my 2 friends cuz they couldn't chill on my birthday, so they treated me to lunch,,definitely a great time. After that, later on in the night we had our first ultimate game of the season...we were down for a good portion of the game, but came back to win 17-15, there\s one guy on the team tho who's a real dickhead...like yelling at his own teammates and raging and stuff. But regardless...just glad we won.
Thursday...went to the gym early morning...then softball practice at night, that's it lol. Oh right...found out on Monday at dodgeball that a good friend of mine broke his neck in two places doing a backflip...so he was in the hospital and wanted to visit him after prac, but ended up visiting him on Friday.
Friday...woke up early to go to the hospital with a friend to visit my friend. He def looked pretty sad when we first came, which is understandable. Had work at 2...but my manager changed it to 5-9....so my friend and I stayed at the hospital till like 4 ish and other people came and we chilled with them and he started laughing and joking around, definitely glad we went and good to see his spirits up.
Saturday...Had work from 2-6...got to work with my jokes co-worker...we just sat around...talked about life, rated female customers that walked by and stuff lol...he's actually so funny...hope I get to work with him more often. Came home, parents had people over who wanted to celebrate their belated anniversary, ate dinner with them then me and my brother went bowling cuz I knew he didn't wanna stay home, so I asked him...def a really fun thing. Hope to find more random things to do with him here and there.
Sunday...just z chill day...church, no worship practice cuz of baptisms, my back was aching the whole day and it still is...took a nap then spent the whole day studying for my exam Tuesday. Looking pretty busy this week...work Monday, exam Tuesday, ultimate game Wednesday, sball practice thursday, work and fellowship Friday, double heaader softball Saturday...man...
Last Sunday...softball game at 4, it was a close game, definitely proud of my team, we lost but still had fun and did great for our first game. Afterwards it was like 6 ish...stayed till like 7:30 just doing some batting practice and just chilling around...went to all you can eat sushi dinner with the team then went home. The bonding times outside of practice and games are definitely the most fun times of the season cuz you really get to know people one on one.
Monday...can't really remember what I did during the day, all I remember is that I had a blister from Sunday's activities, played through it cuz I had dodgeball at night, definitely good stuff.
Tuesday...went to the gym early morning with my friend and grabbed lunch with him after...had work from 5-9 so I couldn't make softball practice. Used my employee discount for the first time to buy a cross and chain, been looking for one for quite some time. It was 60% clearance and I used my 25% discount on top of that lol...saved like $60 ish and spent like $30 ish.
Wednesday...oh man, I totally remember this day...woke up for a doctor's appointment at 10:30...was there in time. Lady's like...come back in half an hour...came back in half an hour...ended up waiting till 12:30 just for like a 10 minute check up. Actually so waste...went to all you can eat sushi lunch with my 2 friends cuz they couldn't chill on my birthday, so they treated me to lunch,,definitely a great time. After that, later on in the night we had our first ultimate game of the season...we were down for a good portion of the game, but came back to win 17-15, there\s one guy on the team tho who's a real dickhead...like yelling at his own teammates and raging and stuff. But regardless...just glad we won.
Thursday...went to the gym early morning...then softball practice at night, that's it lol. Oh right...found out on Monday at dodgeball that a good friend of mine broke his neck in two places doing a backflip...so he was in the hospital and wanted to visit him after prac, but ended up visiting him on Friday.
Friday...woke up early to go to the hospital with a friend to visit my friend. He def looked pretty sad when we first came, which is understandable. Had work at 2...but my manager changed it to 5-9....so my friend and I stayed at the hospital till like 4 ish and other people came and we chilled with them and he started laughing and joking around, definitely glad we went and good to see his spirits up.
Saturday...Had work from 2-6...got to work with my jokes co-worker...we just sat around...talked about life, rated female customers that walked by and stuff lol...he's actually so funny...hope I get to work with him more often. Came home, parents had people over who wanted to celebrate their belated anniversary, ate dinner with them then me and my brother went bowling cuz I knew he didn't wanna stay home, so I asked him...def a really fun thing. Hope to find more random things to do with him here and there.
Sunday...just z chill day...church, no worship practice cuz of baptisms, my back was aching the whole day and it still is...took a nap then spent the whole day studying for my exam Tuesday. Looking pretty busy this week...work Monday, exam Tuesday, ultimate game Wednesday, sball practice thursday, work and fellowship Friday, double heaader softball Saturday...man...
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