Justin Timberlake - Until The End Of Time feat. Beyonce

Prayer Request

I know ir's been a while lol...like almost 2 weeks....but I've been sick lol, my body's literally been breaking down I sweat. I've just been so exhausted lately and my eyes are getting so bad, I thought it was an eye infection, but I might just need glasses...definitely just been sleeping a lot lately. Any ways...woke up early this morning to send my mom to the airport...she's going to Singapore for 3 weeks to see her dad cuz he fell on his hip I think and needs surgery to get it replaced I think. But yeah it's gonna be weird without her here, she found outlike a week ago and booked everything within a few days and we shipped her off today. Definitely just praying for her and her safety and as well her family. I'm definitely getting better, so that'sa good sign, but my eyes are actually so bad it's no joke...damn.

Prayer Journal: Day 14

Eccu: It's gonna be a long year for the both of us bro. But know that I;ll be there for you...I know this will only serve to help us grow in Christ and grow together as brothers and also disciples of Christ. Keep your head up man, honestly your growth as of late and just your initiative has definitely encouraged me and given me a bit of that fire I've been lacking lately.

Cllm: I'm not going to make this sound like a goodbye speech lol...more like a see you later...there's not much for me to say to you other than that I pray that you find whatever it is you're looking for, or that you feel that you're missing.

Cncn: Sometimes I feel like I'm a bad friend to you considering how much of a great friend you are to me, and I'm sorry for that. I feel like you're in the middle of a transition and that God is wrestling with your heart...and there's something you're not willing to let go of in order to pursue Him, know that i'm praying for you.

Jyyu: It's been a journey my dude...I was honestly really saddened to hear you're moving and most likely switching churches...O put it right when she said that God is really wrestling with your heart, let Him guide you man. Leave the old life behind...living for Him is so much more rewarding, I promise.

Cssm: My brother from the beginning, I've been thinking about you a lot...and worrying about you a lot...I pray that God watches over you and your family always. That you keep trusting in Him to bring you out of every and any situation.

Args: It seems like you're slowly regaining a level head....but you're still hesitant and really isolating yourself from people who are trying ty help you...but instead surrounding yourself with people who do nothing but hold you back...I pray God will change you.

Honestly, don't feel bad or insulted if your name never comes up here...these are just people that come to my head on the and in the moment, sorry lol.

Lastly...is praying for my church...just everything...the love, fellowship, unity. Just because we're growing up doesn't mean we have to grow apart.

Drake - Something

This could be somethin...maybe it's just nothin at all...

Tunnel Vision

It's died down a bit...and the feeling is slowly going away...just cuz. But I will admit as of late, I've kinda abandoned by rules for dating and relationships...I've turned my back on every word of advice I've ever given to people...and I look at myself as somewhat good at giving people advice. Honestly I've felt like I was in high school again...the way I kinda fell for this girl, real bad if you will...and I didn't really understand why either. But things have kinda died down...my heart hasn't really been into it...not just for no reason...I guess feelings just really haven't been reciprocated. And it's hard when my friends tell me I should still talk to her so she doesn't think I was in it purely to get something...but honestly there's not much to talk about, Before I genuinely was interested in her and in her life...but she didn't really give me much...she'd be all like well I'm not that interesting. And honestly...how I illustrate it now is as if I'm talking to someone who's preoccupied with something else and there heart just isn't into the conversation. Like I'm playing videogames and someone is trying to talk to me...I hear sound, but I don't hear the words they're saying, so my replies are whatever. And this goes back to my previous post about nothing held back...because honestly that's how this blog has become what it is today...because it's my place to vent and genuinely share what's on my heart. This is in no way a shot at you either so I sincerely hope you don't take it that way...all in due time. If I can go back to what I've always told myself about relationships...if it's mean to be, it'll be...what's the rush...take it slow. Patience is the biggest things I've always stressed when it came to girls and I totally abandoned that and everything else...for you. But whatever...whatever happens, happens...if our paths are meant to cross, they will.

Nothing Held Back

When I went skiing with my 2 friends the other day and we were in the car together we had a chance to talk about a bunch of things. One of which was my blog lol...and the prayer journals where I pray for people. They were taking jabs at me and guessing who the people were and honestly it\s not that hard to  tell that or the format I use. But honestly the first thought that came into my what came into my head was well...guess I better change it up and start a new format so no one can guess it lol. But my friend said an interesting thing among all the joking. He told me that's what makes the blog real...that's one of the reasons at least why people keep coming back...cuz it's so honest in your face. He told me that he remembers the real old days of the blog...how because no one was visiting the blog, I didn't have a reason not to be super honest...and it made me think how over the years...I'm still honest, but I've also been more cautious and watchful over what I say because some people do get offended at what I say LOL especially if it's about them. But the blog now is different from what it was back then...my friend was right, because no one was reading my blog, there was no reason not to say whatever I wanted and whatever was on my mind...but now...with family, friends, etc...all possibly reading my blog here and there, it does make me more careful with what I say....but regardless I promise you I'll always be honest in what I say...it may not be every single little detail or exactly nothing held back...but it'll be a lot and straight from my heart...as always...thank you.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Man...2014, just like that..can you believe it? I would've posted earlier...but today was a legit rest day. People left my house around 2:30...but I was cleaning and stuff so didn't really sleep till like 4 ish. Was supposed to get up for lunch at 12 with rents and friends but I got up at like 3 lol...they didn't even bother waking me. Honestly just spent today loafting around on the computer literally. Not ready for school to start next week...even tho I only have 2 days of class...just knowing that school is back in session, people are leaving this weekend back to school...I think that's the biggest thing that's gonna bum me out. All these gatherings and times of fellowship are what I'll miss most...seeing everyone come out and chill together. Gonna suck seeing everyone leave...but what can you do right. I dunno...I'm been having real heart to hearts with myself as of late...this school year has been a pretty rough one so far...not even talking about the workload...but maybe I'll save that post for another time. Honestly can't believe the first day of 2014 is coming to an end...dang.